First of all...I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN TWO WEEKS! I had no computer and with work and university...I could not write for a very long time :( I'm so sorry...but I promise I will post chapter 46 some day between this week and hopefully chapter 47 on Sunday.
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"Magnus, where are you going?" Karen asked exasperated as she watched Magnus grab his keys and coat.
"I need to see Alec" Magnus answered, checking himself on the mirror in the hallway.
"You are not driving" Karen said sternly.
"I can go with him!" Connor offered.
"You have a dislocated shoulder" Mr. Bane scowled "You are not driving either"
"I'm fine! I can drive a short distance" Magnus waved off.
"You are not driving" Karen repeated sternly
"Karen…" Magnus sighed.
"You have two broken ribs and a strained wrist" Karen snapped "You are not supposed to leave the house!"
"We were going for dinner tonight!" Magnus protested.
"You are not driving to Alexander's house" Karen said firmly.
"But mom!" Magnus cried "Alec needs me right now"
"Why? What's wrong?" Karen asked with a sigh.
"I don't know!" Magnus said distressed "I need to get to him! There's something wrong with him and he needs me!"
"Fine" Karen sighed "But I'm driving"
"No, you don't have to" Magnus shook his head "You go to the restaurant and I'll meet you there"
"You are not driving" Karen repeated once more "And I am not saying it again. I'm driving and that's it"
"What about the kids? And dinner?" Magnus asked.
"The kids are coming with us" Karen shrugged.
"Connor and I will head towards the restaurant" Mr. Bane said "We will save the places…and you can invite your boyfriend if he wants to go"
"Alright" Magnus nodded "I'll bring Alec…and his siblings"
"Alright" Mr. Bane nodded "We'll meet you at the restaurant then"
"I am so sorry for the change of plans" Karen apologized
"Nothing to worry about" Mr. Bane waved her concerns away.
"Now come on!" Magnus cried "Call the kids and let's go!"
Magnus barely waited for Karen to park the car outside the building of the apartment building where the Lightwoods were currently living when he opened the door and rushed outside.
"MAGNUS!" Karen cried horrified "You're not supposed to run!"
"I'm fine!" Magnus called back and rushed inside the building. He moved to the elevator and pleaded for it to hurry up. Karen and the kids reached him soon after and Karen scowled at him for putting himself in danger.
Finally the elevator arrived and they all walked inside. Magnus clicked on the fourth level button and the elevator closed, starting to move upwards. Magnus tried to suppress a groan. Maybe running wasn't a good idea. His chest was aching slightly, but he refused to acknowledge the pain because it would only make Karen worry.
Once the elevator stopped and they reached the correct floor, Magnus walked outside. He moved slower than before, this time letting Karen and the kids walk with him.
"What's going on?" Nick asked softly.
"Where are we?" Danni asked afterwards.
"We just came here to pick up the Lightwoods" Karen explained softly "They'll come to dinner with us"
"Yay!" the kids cheered.
Magnus's siblings loved the Lightwoods. Both families got along so well, it warmed Magnus's heart. But right now he did not think about that. Right now his mind was set to reach his boyfriend and make whatever was happening better. His mind was racing with possibilities of what could be wrong with him. None was a good thing and Magnus needed to know what was wrong and make it better.
He reached the Lightwood's door and started knocking, loudly and nonstop.
"Magnus! Stop being so loud and be patient!" Karen snapped softly.
Magnus ignored her and kept knocking until Isabelle opened the door. She barely had time to greet them when Magnus pushed inside and rushed to Alec's room. He did not run, as he had done before because he knew it would only make the pain in his chest worse, but he tried to walk as fast as he could to reach him. Once he reached Alec's room, he stopped. He took a deep breath and listened carefully. He could not hear a thing coming from the inside of the room, but he knew Alec was in there.
Magnus knocked softly, waiting for a reaction. When nothing came, he knocked again. Three soft, but firm, knocks against the door. When no answer came for the second time, Magnus knocked once more, louder than before and called his name.
"Alec?" Magnus asked, pressing his ear against the door. He heard shuffling inside the room and knew Alec had recognized him. "Alec, darling, can I come in?"
There was no answer, but no protest either, so Magnus took is as an affirmative sign and walked inside the room. He walked slowly, carefully, calculating every single move he made. He did not want to come up too strong because he was afraid Alec would refuse to talk to him.
He found Alec lying on his bed, covered by the comforted. The blankets were covering his face, leaving just a mop of messy black hair at plain sight.
"Alexander?" Magnus whispered. Alec moved beneath his blankets, but did not move to come out of his small fort "Alexander, sweetie, what's wrong?"
"I'm fine" Alec said softly, so softly Magnus almost missed it.
"Clearly you're not" Magnus said with a sigh.
He looked around the room, it was completely dark. The curtains were drawn together and no light could come from the windows. Magnus closed the door behind him, taking his shoes off, and moved to lie down next to Alec, on top of the blankets.
"Tell me what's wrong" Magnus whispered.
Alec finally decided to peek from over the top of the covers. He came face to face with his boyfriend. Stormy blue eyes met with emerald-golden eyes for a soft minute before Magnus moved to kiss his forehead.
"Why are you here?" Alec asked, pulling the covers off slightly so Magnus could slide next to him. Magnus did as offered and wrapped his arms around Alec's body, bringing him closer to his own body.
"I worried" Magnus answered "I tried calling you"
"My phone died" Alec shrugged
"So I called Izzy…she told me there was something wrong" Magnus explained.
"There is nothing wrong" Alec sighed.
"Obviously" Magnus rolled his eyes "How about you stop being stubborn and tell me what's happening"
"You shouldn't be here" Alec said, avoiding the subject completely "I thought you were signing the adoption papers today"
"We're done with that" Magnus said.
"How did it go?" Alec asked, honestly curious about how everything turned out.
"I am Karen's son" Magnus grinned "Legally!"
"That's awesome" Alec smiled "I'm really glad for you"
"Thanks" Magnus smiled back, pecking his lips softly "Now tell me what's wrong"
"You're not letting it go, are you?" Alec sighed.
"Not until you tell me" Magnus shook his head.
"Four years ago…my father kicked me out" Alec explained softly "For many years this day was the hardest. Knowing all I had lost, knowing I was no longer a Lightwood…it took its toll on me"
"But you are not alone anymore" Magnus whispered.
"I know, and I'm damn grateful for that" Alec said "But…I still remember how it felt. The pain of not being accepted, and knowing I lost so many years of my sibling's life…I'll never get over it…I know it's silly, but…"
"It's not" Magnus shook his head "It is completely reasonable...I would worry if this didn't affect you somehow"
"It makes me feel so weak, though" Alec said "And now…now everything's over my shoulders! We have to move into a new house, Jace is going to start looking for colleges and Izzy will start driving and…it's not fair I have to be the father figure for them. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love being there for them and taking care of them…but they should have a real father. Someone to look up, someone who they can trust and know they will be protected by…I can't be that person, and I'll never be. I never knew what that felt like, and I can't even begin to…
"I'll stop you there" Magnus said, stopping Magnus from rambling on "I need you to listen to me, and listen very carefully…You are not their father. You are their big brother. And I know it sucks not having a father figure to look up to…but what they need right now is a big brother, not a father. You need to stop putting your standards so high and stop being so hard on yourself because you will only destroy yourself"
"I just…" Alec sighed "Sometimes I feel like it is too much, like I can't do it"
"You've been doing a brilliant job so far" Magnus said, kissing his cheek "Your siblings love you, and I can assure you they rather have you than go back to how you were last year"
"You really think so?" Alec whispered.
"Of course" Magnus nodded "And you know what else do I think? That you need to get out of bed and have some quality family time"
"I would much rather stay here" Alec shook his head.
"No you don't" Magnus said hugging hi closer "Because I know you. You will bury yourself in self-pity until you feel worse with yourself. What you need right now is see your siblings, be with your family, and assure yourself everything will be fine"
"How do you know me so well?" Alec smiled up at him.
"I'm that awesome" Magnus grinned, making Alec laugh, and Magnus swore that was the most beautiful sound he had ever heard.
"Can you stay?" Alec whispered afterwards "Or do you have to go back with Karen?"
"Actually…" Magnus trailed off "They're here…"
"What?" Alec frowned.
"Karen refused to let me come here alone" Magnus explained with a sigh "So she came with me…and all the kids"
"Oh God" Alec groaned "Great now she'll think I'm some idiot…"
"Hush now" Magnus scowled "She was worried about you…she cares for you"
"So…I guess I have to go out there" Alec sighed.
"Only if you want to" Magnus said "I know I said you need your family and stuff…but if you really don't want to, you can stay here"
"No…I'll go" Alec shook his head "Do you think Karen will mind if both of our families spend some time together?"
"I think she'll be delighted" Magnus grinned.
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