LET ME BE THE ONE TO LOVE YOU MORE
Hello everyone! Thank you for staying with this story. I know it has taken a lot of time to get to this point and I hope to find the necesary words to write the next 7 and last chapters. Is not so far away...
This chapters song is called the sky and the sun from Celtic Woman. I just fell in love with this group and this special song has gained a place in my heart, I love the strenght I feel in myself when I say that I am the sky and the new morning. I too can shine everyday and make people lifes around me better... And this is the exact feeling Serena need at this point in the history.
Hope you enjoy! And become too the dawn!!
53.. I am the sky and the dawn and the sun…
Serena knew Darien was going to be really mad at her once he woke and saw where she was, but there was something soothing and refreshing about the first light of the morning and also about the light, and icy rain that was falling.
It had been raining the whole night and it was really cold the day before when they returned from their visit to the cemetery. She slept lightly and not very well since it was raining as if the world would come to an end; still, she had felt good tightly cuddled in Darien´s embrace, his warm body protecting hers even in his sleep yet when it had begun to dawn, she felt as if she could not stay in the bed anymore. She felt her feet and her whole body screaming for movement.
She opened the window that allowed entrance to the balcony and just stood there, just with a fluffy white robe warm enough if one was to keep inside but which became soaked in the rain real fast. She looked into the distance and gave free will to her thoughts and feelings. It was time to leave everything behind and begin to build a brand new life. Sure, she would always carry deep inside her the pain and the sorrow, until the very last day of her life. And for sure she would have to endure other pains by being distant to her own mother and family, she would forever wonder how it could have been if her parents had loved her…Yet, she had to move on and let that pass. She could not let her life be defined and limited to the little world of suffering her parents had created. The might have traumatized her and made her feel that she was unwanted and worthless, but there had been so many people who had showed her through the years that she was precious as a person, as a friend and as a woman. There had been those who showed her that her life was important and she could not let their love and care go unnoticed. She knew she had a family of her own now and with the passing of time, it was only going to get bigger. More than that, she was sure that knowing how it felt to be so hurt, she would never hurt her own children that way, she would never have anyone in her family suffer as she had.
She had to pull herself together and become a happy and shiny person once again, she had to get back to her own feet and take the reins of her life along with Darien. If she remained so sad and troubled all the time, she would just make him feel worse and the same would go to her friends. Serena knew she had to go on.
As the light grew stronger, she noticed that, the clouds to the west were still dark and ominous, but to the east, there was an invincible sun rising, its rays covering the earth with life and light. Not even the strongest of the storms could last forever because there would always be an end to it and the sun would shine again. And at that moment, she felt she was one with the light, she too could shine after the rain, the pain and the sorrow. She was too like the earth that had to go through times of storm and quietness, through day and night. She could bring herself to see a new dawn by piecing her own together and doing something as recovering her smile. She wanted to be like the sun, able to create life and a million other wonderful things for all those around her. And then she felt strong for the first time in what felt like ages.
That was how Darien found her, smiling gently to herself, all soaked and bathed in the light of the early morning. And even though he knew she would most likely catch a cold and that he was about to scold her for doing something so stupid like getting herself drenched in the cold of that horrible winter, he allowed himself to see her surrounded by her own light once again. She had managed to come back, even if this was the very beginning of her budding new self and just for that small smile she was making, he felt happy.
