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Chapter 43

I desperately want Eric now so I pull out my phone and call him but he doesn't answer, so I try Pam's number instead. Why isn't he answering?

"Hey Sookie," she answers.

"Have you heard from Eric? He's not answering his phone."

"Yes, he's here. He's feeding. I didn't hear his phone go off though. But he's here."

"Then I'll be there momentarily," I answer and hang up. "Okay. I'm going to teleport there." I think I'm strong enough now to do so. I hug them both since they can't come to the vampire house with me. "Will you be around?" I ask Maurella.

"For a while," she nods. "I'll be back at the club."

"Okay," I smile. I'd like to be able to talk with my sister at some time. I hug them again before popping back the house. I go inside quickly and am directed upstairs to our room.

"Eric?" I ask as I open the door and see him sitting up in bed with a glass of blood. "Are you okay?" I wonder as I rush to his side. Pam is sitting with him with two more glasses ready for him. I touch his forehead gently and he looks much better than he did. He has healed from the burns on his face and I wonder if he's still weak.

"I'm fine," he nods and takes my hand as he takes another glass from Pam. "Just need to rest a little. How are you? I don't sense any pain from you."

"Completely healed. I teleported back after eating four dinners. How much donor blood do we have?" I ask because it smells too good. Pam hands me the last glass. "Thanks."

If I'm still craving it, doesn't it mean that the babies are okay? If they still need it?

"How are they?" he asks and touches my belly. I hear the thumpthumpthumpthump when he shares it but I still hear no chirping and there's just a void were their little minds should be.

"They haven't been talking to me. They haven't blinked or glowed at all, either. I'm scared, Eric. What if- what if some of them are gone?"

"It'll be okay," he tells me but I know he's just as sad and worried as I am. "We'll figure it out." He looks at Pam and nods his head she leaves.

"I wanna be home," I whisper to him as he pulls me into his arms. "I want it to be a few days ago when they were chirping and- what if we lost them? What if there's only one left?"

~*~*~*~*~*~

I know how worried she is and I am as well. I pull her against me as we finish the glasses of blood.

Isabel has sent her progeny with Enrique to Europe so he can be questioned and then sentenced so that is at least over, but nothing matters without our babies. But we know there's at least one.

I want all of my babies, Eric.

I know, Lover. Give it a little time. Your body went through something traumatic. Give it at least a day to heal. Give them a day to start chirping again.

What if they don't? What- if one of them died, could it hurt the others if its body is still in there?

That's a valid question and I really don't know. I've never had the need to follow modern medicine.

"Get up," I tell her. "We'll go to a hospital and I'll glamour someone into doing an exam." We're not sure if her tests would be normal which is why we've been staying away from modern medicine, but if a person is glamoured, they won't remember or care if she's glowing.

"Are you sure? We can't be seen on camera either."

"We'll sneak in. Come on," I say and pull her up. I go to the closet and grab clean clothes since I haven't changed and they're still dirty and bloody. "What are the tests where they can see the baby?"

"An ultrasound? It might give us a really good picture of the babies," Sookie explains.

"Yes. That- it allows you to see inside the-"

"NO," I hear before her mother appears in the room. "No. You cannot use modern technology."

"What? Why?" Sookie asks.

"You could harm them," she states as she looks at Sookie. "My beautiful Sukey… the modern day sonogram works on high frequencies which will not only hurt their developing ears but it will interrupt their light and could harm them."

"Well we need to know if they're okay," I explain. "How can we-"

"Lay down," she says. "I will try and read them. It's possible I could get a premonition."

Sookie glances at me and I know she's a bit skeptical since she doesn't know this woman at all and neither do I, but she did save us and she is her mother. She also obviously values humans and fairies since she could have killed Claudette and didn't want me harming anyone in my hunger. I nod to her and take her hand as she lies back on the bed.

Liliana raises Sookie's shirt and places her hands over her belly. It's fascinating to see a vampire with fairy light and also makes me glad to know when the time comes for me to turn her, she'll still have those gifts. I know they're important for her and for the babies as well. It has occurred to me that it was fae-healing that allowed the possibility of babies and that if Sookie has that power, we might be able to have many babies throughout the centuries before she's turned.

~*~*~*~*~*~

I hold Eric's hand as she places her hands on me and starts flashing some light into my stomach. It varies between blue, purple and a very pretty aqua color. I try and listen to see if I can hear what she's thinking but it's as if she's pushing my mind away on purpose. She's silent for what feels like forever until finally she announces, "Two. There are two very distinct energies here."

Two? That's it? Two of my sweet little babies died? That devastates me. Eric slides onto the bed next to me and wraps his arms around me as she keeps blinking.

"Two died?" I barely manage to ask.

"I'm trying to suss that out, Sukey. There are definitely two very separate energies. Which of your colors have you accessed already?" she asks as she sits up to look at me.

"White, yellow, red, blue and purple. And orange is newer to me, oh and green."

"Then you have the power to get the aqua like myself. It combines the green masking and protection with healing, which unmasks that which you cannot see."

"Meaning… what? Hidden objects?"

"Objects, people, things in time and space as well. It's where my premonition lies and I'd wager yours too, my beautiful Sukey. Now put your hands down here with mine."

This is almost like a dream: sitting with my mother, trying to teach me something. It's what I never had with my mom since I was so young when she died.

She glows aqua and places her hands over mine. "Now you have to let your mind go, free it, make it empty and receptive to that which you do not see."

Free my mind. I have no idea how to do that but I try. I try and think of nothing but all I can picture are the images the babies sent me and their presences in my mind I was hooked into each of them somehow, psychically linked in some way. Then a flash of silver stabs through the murkiness of red and again and terror fills me as I try and glow or escape or get Mamma out of here!

"Oh god!" I say as I open my eyes in a panic. "Oh sweethearts," I whisper to them. "They… were aware of what was happening, of the attack. I just saw it from their perspective," I tell him and he hugs me tightly. "Oh my sweet little babies, it's okay. It'll be okay. I know you tried to help Mamma escape." How can they be so aware of things and still not speak? But they know I'm their Mamma, or at least my little boy does, or did.

"How do you know?"

"I saw it. I felt it. I- I saw that which I did not see."

"I did as well. But I still only see two energies," my mother states. "There is definitely a very very strong division of two. Two separate entities."

Which means two of them must have died.

"But the two I see are very strong, made from the best of their parents, but it's all I'm allowed to see. The visions must be available to you. I cannot see all, only what wants to reveal itself from the world. Perhaps you'll be allowed to see more."

She sits back and as much as she is my mother, she isn't able to comfort this hurt from me.

"Thank you," Eric says. "We hope you'll visit our home."

She nods and takes her leave.

Sookie, teleport us home. We need to be in our own bed tonight.

I couldn't be more grateful to do exactly as he requests and a second later, we're curled up in our own bed, our hands on my belly, and I cry. I think he does too.

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AN: Ducks