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I OWN NOTHING
"Ok, so here's the deal Bella," Lauren began once she had me in Alice's room alone. Her controlling tone set my hands shaking as I contemplated the disastrous ideas capable of running through her mind.
"You love Edward, right?" She asked nonchalantly. Images of Edward and me ran through my mind as I nodded.
"Good, so it's safe to say you'd do anything for him?'' She asked rhetorically, as she crossed the room.
"Lauren, what do you want?" I asked slowly to keep my voice from shaking as I watched her flop onto the foot of Alice's bed, leaning back on her arms and looking up at me.
"What do I want? Bella you of all people should know, I want Edward. He should have been mine, he was mine! I spent the entire year trying to get him back, then you just traipse in and within two weeks you've got him wrapped around your finger. It's not fair!" During her rant her emotions broke through her comfortable demeanor and by the end she was shouting. As soon as she finished she stopped and took a deep breath before looking up at me and continuing.
"I didn't come up here to give you my THS, the point is, all of that doesn't matter, because within a few days, Edward will be mine." She said simply.
"He will, will he?" I asked doubtfully, but playing to her inner monster.
"Yep, because, and this is the best part," She paused for dramatic effect, "You're going to leave him." She said with a cruel grin that made my stomach churn so hard, I felt like I was going to be sick all of Alice's rug.
"Am I?" I asked her, trying to pull together the same sense of coolness I had earlier.
"Uh-hun, and willingly too." She said with a laugh before continuing, "As you well know, my dad is rather important at the hospital, seeing as he is one of the top donators, and is on the board. He is also one of the key members in deciding wether or not Edward keeps his internship once he completes his training." Her eyes narrowed at me as she got to the last part, the part that meant the most to me. The room had started spinning and I reached out a hand to grasp the back of Alice's desk chair in order to steady myself.
"Basically, if you don't dump Edward before you step foot on that plane back to, where ever it is you come from, Edward can kiss his internship goodbye." She said with a triumphant grin. I shook my head in disbelief, trying to find some loop hole.
"You're lying, Edward was already accepted, you're father can't do anything." I accused shakily, she just laughed and shook her head at me, as if I were an ignorant child.
"You wish, Bella. You obviously don't know how this works, let me explain, the recipient of this internship has to go through two weeks of training and shadowing before he is fully accepted, it's a complicated process to see if the person originally picked can handle it. In most cases, the person originally chosen get the internship in the ends, unless my father deems them unfit, for any reason he so chooses. Any reason, as in," She clasped her hands together and held them under her chin, and twisted her face into an expression of pain and sorrow,
"'Daddy, this boy really hurt me, I thought he loved me, but he was really just a careless teenage boy.'" She finished, dropping her facade and pushing herself off Alice's bed to make her way over to me. I stood my ground, despite my shaking knees, and blurring eyes.
"So, what's your answer Bella?" She asked, she was standing so close, but I wouldn't give her the satisfaction of showing her how scared I was.
"My answer? How about I go down stairs and inform Carlisle of your plan?" I asked, glaring down at her. Her face turned into one of mock fear,
"Oh no, I never thought of that, what am I going to do?" She asked pretending to bite her nails,
"I'm blond, but I'm not that stupid," She said dropping her charade.
"No, but you are you." I said spitefully, she snarled.
"Watch it Bella." She warned, "Now, feel free to tell anyone you want, but be aware that anyone you tell can't do anything about it, and if Carlisle goes and complains that my dad was just being bias, people are just going to think the same of him. That he will think of any excuse to keep his son in the program. Go ahead and tell, because if you do, I'll just tell my dad that Edward broke my heart and doesn't deserve this chance." After this I was surprised that my food stayed in my stomach, my mouth still refused to open so I could give her a final answer.
"Come on Bella, what's it going to be?" She asked when I didn't respond. My mouth still wouldn't move, my mind couldn't even think. Edward, she was asking me to give up Edward, to her! My body was screaming at me to hit her, tell her to do her worst, but my mind was begging me to say yes, for Edward. Selfish as it was, I couldn't decided,
"Bella?" She asked drawing out my name. My mind snapped from the pressure.
"I need time!" I shouted at her. She jumped a little at my reaction, but swiftly composed herself.
"Wow, Bella," She began condescendingly, "I'm ashamed, I always thought you'd put Edward first. This internship practically guarantees him a spot at any school he could ever dream of going to, Ivy included, and you'd take that from him? Hmph, oh well, whatever you want, I'll give you until the end of the party to make the decision, or else." She said, then she walked out of the room.
The second the door clicked shut my knees collapsed and I fell to the ground sobbing. I clutched my chest as sobs wretched through my body, slowly tearing me apart, the internal battle going through my mind was enough to drive me mad. The only decision was obvious, but I didn't want to believe it, I didn't want to accept the fact that I would have to leave Edward. I shook my head, trying to find another way out, anyway out. But there wasn't one, there were no other options, no other choices left for me. The answer was simple.
I weakly pushed myself off the floor and slowly stumbled my way into the bathroom, I had to use the doorjamb to keep from falling again. I made it over to the sink, using it to hold myself up as I saw my reflection in the mirror. My eye's were a mess, red and blotchy, but they were empty too. Dead. That was the only way to describe what I saw in the mirror. I scolded myself, Edward needed me to be strong for him. I fumbled through Alice's drawers and somewhat fixed myself up, all except my eyes. The make up had been fixed, but the expression in them would be caught undoubtably by anyone who knew me. I straightened up and tried to smile, it looked awkward, but it was the best that could be done. By systematically placing one foot in front of the other, I made it to the stairs.
Jasper was waiting at the bottom, when he saw me coming down he smiled,
"Hey Bella." He said rather loudly, I looked at him puzzled, but he just grinned and winked, I continued to make my way all the way down the steps.
"You're in on it too, aren't you?" I asked, he laughed and nodded. Then he looped my arm under his and began to lead me into the dining room, which was now empty although the party was still going. I looked up at Jasper, even more confused than before, but once again he just smiled, then led me to the center table before taking a step back. There was a large sheet cake in the middle with vanilla frosting and red lettering that read,
We'll Miss you Bella
In an elegant cursive script, and under that, in not so elegant lettering, it said;
AKA Lil' Sis
I felt the tears well up all over again, and I was powerless to stop it, I didn't want to lose any of this, and there was nothing I could do. The tears rolled down my cheeks, as I realized what I would truly be giving up. Not just Edward, but my entire family, Rosalie, Jasper, Alice, and Emmett, all of them.
"Emmett managed to getting a hold of some left over frosting, I'm sorry." I heard Alice say behind me. When I turned around, she was standing there with Jasper, next to Emmett who was holding Rosalie, and next to them Edward. Their faces fell when they saw my tears, I quickly tried to wipe them away.
"I'm sorry to fall apart like this," I apologized, realizing there were just to many to deal with, "Alice it's perfect, Emmett's touch was just right." Alice beamed up at me.
"Alright, I told you so." Emmett said proudly with a grin and nudging Alice in the shoulder. She ignored him and stepped forward to hug me.
"Group hug!" Emmett called out, then squashed all of us in for a big group hug. I let out a laugh as I was surrounded by everyone I loved, even Rosalie joined in.
"Thank you guys, thank you so much." I said to all of them when we pulled apart.
"It would have been so much better, but Edward insisted that I give you a break just his once, and do something not so big." She groaned, I looked up to thank Edward, but was distracted by what I saw over his shoulder. Lauren was staring at me from across the room, she raised an eyebrow, I knew what she was asking, I nodded decisively, she grinned and disappeared into the crowd. That was it, it was all over. I fought to keep my balance,
"Bella, hey, you okay?" Emmett asked as my eyes filled with fresh tears. I nodded.
"Just going to miss you guys." I lied. Edward came up and took my face in his hands.
"Oh, Bella, I love you so much." Edward said with a smile and a laugh, "Don't worry, nothing is going to happen to us." He assured me, assuming my tears were from the idea of going home. If only he knew. His words made the tears fall harder, and I buried my face in his shirt.
"I know, I guess, I'm, uh, I'm just tired." I said, trying to find some reason behind my behavior.
"I'm going to get her up to bed," I heard him tell everyone over my head. I pulled away,
"No, no, I'll be fine." I said, "Now, let's eat some cake." I said trying to be excited, when inside, I was dying.
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