Renesmees POV
One thousand and one...one thousand and two...one thousand and three...
As if counting helped. Alec stood outside the door way throwing the key back and forth in his hands. He wasnt there by choice either. I had told him i wanted some alone time. I just wanted to be here, in the darkness for once. Where i could dream of them all...
Mom sat with Dad on the front porche of the house, his smile so huge that it was dazzing as his soft golden eyes wandered over moms pearly white face. Her eyes the same as his now, only the gold a little darker than Dads was. He wrapped his long arms round her and kissed her deeply before she cuddled into his side and looked on as Matt was sat with Alice and Jasper discussing new polotics in the human world or something. Damien chuckling, as he wrestled with Uncle Emmett and Carlisle who was making sure the boys didnt get too rough. Esme and aunt Gemma were all working in the kitchen together. Sharing there love of cooking. Aunt Rosalie and aunt christine were in the garage working on a new car together laughing and joking as they flicked there blonde hair over there shoulders. And me...I was knelt up against a tree watching my family interact with everyone. Smiling hugely as suddenly i felt a warm pair of lips on my forehead. I could feel my dream self smiling as my heart sped up a fraction. I felt his hand in my own now, his warm long soft fingers which were intertwined with mine. I looked up to see him there for a second, his big bright smile. His tanned skin, his sweet chocolate eyes...
"Nessie" he wisperd in adoration as i smiled and giggled a little like a child.
"Ren?" this wasnt his voice anymore. It was too smooth. Too velvet-like, but not enough to be like my dads. I groaned then as my dream disapeered and hovering over me was alec, looking confused. I must of fallen asleep during my ridiculus pondering.
"Hey" i told him as he crouched down beside me now, just as i pulled my self up to lean against the cold marble wall. I shiverd slightly just as my back made contact with it, espeically since i didnt come prepared for this.
"Here, I know i should of mentioned it before but, Aro said that you were aloud to be brought back up into your moms chambers since your brothers are aswell. He thought it was only fair the three of you should be kept together at all times" Alec said, pulling his cloak off and wrapping it round my shoulders so that i wouldnt have to lean completely on the damp cool wall of my cell. Why didnt he say this before when my mom and brothers were here?
"Thanks" i said as he copied my actions leaning up against the wall beside me so that we were shoulder to shoulder. Oh...thats why.
There was a comfortable yet annoying silence between us for a few minutes, neither of us knowing what to say. But then again, we werent exactly firmilar on the new situation between us. Ever since i found out about the crush, dad always seemed to put distance between me and Alec so that nothing wrong could happen. And if it wasnt dad keeping him away it was my brothers or my uncles, even carlisle had attempted to steer alecs thoughts away from me. I guess being over protective ran in the family. My heart was buzzing though, would they get like this if i loved him back in the same way? of corse i didnt, he was like my brother. i even thought of him as my father all those years ago! there was no way that would ever change. But something Aro said still botherd me...
"And after all, it might be the only time you can attend a wedding considering your one of a kind. As beautiful as you are Renesmee it would be hard to find you a match"...
Out of everything he had said to me, those words sat in my head for the longest time. I had never heald the belief to know what love was like for myself. But wouldnt it be nice to dream? There was an ache deep down inside of me, burning my head and heart now as my mind wanderd over what it would be like, if some how magically my feelings towards Alec changed...What if he was my only chance at finding out what love was...what if i was genuinlly a lost cause? a freak? I couldnt help but remember the last time i thought that about my self and the person who had convinced me different...
"Your not scared of me?" i asked again, just to be sure and he chuckled
"No" he said reaching down to pick the rose up in his hands he twirled it round in his fingers before leaning over and tucking it behind my ear. He heald my cheek again
"Your the most amazing creature ive ever met...the most amazing girl ive ever met.. the most beautiful" he wisperd onto my face. I didnt dare close my eyes, how could i tear my eyes away from him now?
But Jacob wasnt hear now. Hed probably never even realise id gone. No matter how many times i tried to fantise about him coming here to get me...coming to my rescue...lets face it. When was that going to happen to poor little renesmee? The girl with so much power that she cant even control. He was soo...amazing yet he was my enemy all at once. Not my own personal enemy in general but my speicies enemy.
This was like the worst romeo and juliet ever! who was Alec? Paris?
was i to try and fall for paris because romeo was never coming to get me? and since when did jacob become my romeo? he was my friend i think, this was all i was feeling right? the strong bond of friendship? that certain pull i couldnt explain...
but what if i never seen jake again? My heart froze, causing internal pain to burn me deeply hurting every single brain cell and nerve in my body, it jolted me a little. If i was to never see jacob again...how was i even supposed to end that sentence?
"How are you doing?" Alec wisperd gently as my eyes were starting to close again getting lost in my own thoughts, i had missed alot of sleep with all the crying and sobbing going on so itdidnt helpo i was exsausted either.
"What do you think?" i wisperd back a little snappy. He sighed but cracked a small grin at the end of it
"What?" i asked turning my head to look at him fully. His big eyes locked with mine. Right now, i wished that romeo and juliet didnt exsist. That all the fictional characters and supernatural beings could just disapeer so that we were all human. Just my family and Jacobs family. Human. I felt another inch of pain riddle its way round my lower stomach as i swallowed deeply. But if i was human? would that change who my romeo was?
"Your confused" he answered simply never taking his gaze off me. Maybe it was best to try with paris. After all in the end doesnt Romeo die? My heart clenched at the feeling. Cold blood ran backwards in my blood stream as i imagined Jacob...well you get the picture.
And Suddenly my fantisies changed. I didnt want him to come here. If he came here looking for me he would be in alot of danger. A hell of alot of danger. So with all my strength i pushed jacob to the back of my mind. To save him, i had to forget about him. I had to hurt intensly and hope he wouldnt act on my disaperance. I hoped he would never found out i had gone missing, i hoped he would find a girl he loved with all his heart and who loved him back the same. I hoped he would live a happy life, one with that girl who could give him what he wanted...a family home...a good steady lifestyle...children...grandchildren...But most of all, i wanted what was best for him. And it was obvious that i wasnt what was best for him. What did it matter what i wanted? lets face it i would never become that girl...
My friendship with Jacob seemed to blur alot when i was with him over the last couple of weeks, my heart would scream just at the slight mention of his name and it would be hard to keep certain desires hidden from him and my family members. But how could he ever learn to love some one he was destined to hate?
For a breif second i got to see what love was like...and it hurt.
It hurt like i had been bitten by a vampire and smoothed that bite mark in venom before bleaching my skin all over while slowly watching my self burn.
"Renesmee" Alec wisperd now, i had not taken my eyes off of his, yet they were blurred slightly now due to my recent thoughts, i swallowed blinking back the tears to clear my vision. He was alot closer than before his eyes larger now as they came up close. His nose tip just brushing mine. I swallowed taking a deep breath.
Maybe choosing Paris was a better option. Alec was the healthier choice for me to make right now... even though it wasnt exactly the right timing to choose, i didnt want Aro to see i was uncabable of being loved. Yet here sat a man who was willing to show me that love. Suddenly i froze again, not pulling away or leaning forward as Alecs eyes closed slightly, the tip of his nose skimming over the top of mine on the left just as it touched the side of my cheek. I could feel the edge of his lips on mine now, not putting any pressure on them or even kissing me, they were just there hovering over mine as he breathed out onto my lips...
This was wrong I told my self. I was trying to proove to a man, who wasnt even here to witness it and who had also brainwashed my mother into forgetting the past, that i was cabable of falling in love and being loved in return. Was this one of his plans? make me fall in love with Alec so that i would stay in italy with him? Was alec in on all this? I cringed at that. I didnt love Alec at all, not a chance in hell. He was like a brother to me. And the way his hand was crawling up my thigh right now, was definatly starting to scare me a little. Again i swallowed before pulling away from his face. Yet his hand still remained on my leg, it tightend slightly now cupping my leg as he stared at me. Two black coal eyes blinked in shock as his head tilted slightly to the side like a lost puppy.
"Alec?" i breathed out his name to which he growled playfully a slight smirk creeping over his face.
"Say it again" he wisperd to me moving closer now. Just like before i shuffled away, but he came closer even more close than before. The hand on my leg feeling a tiny hint of pain as he put pressure on it, so that each of his finger tips were creating red marks on my thigh.
"Alec stop" i breathed to him. This wasnt like him at all! his black eyes were unfirmilair and terrifying, like he had been possessed or something.
Gathering all my strength i dug deep into his mind. Lust was clouded over everything sane in him. It was too strong to ignore, his vampire emotions were eating him alive and telling him to act this way. Alec had been so consumed by love he could hardly breath, and here i was being selfish ignoring him and hurting him. how could i stop him?
i had hurt alec soo much these last few weeks, my dad had been so close to killing him and now damien hated him for what he felt, even though it wasnt his fault. I had to admit; I felt bad for alec, he had tried his hardest from what i knew to keep these strong emotions at bay. I just didnt realise how strong they were.
"Oh renesmee" his name fell out of me like it was butter melting, i felt my insides weaken a little. I could stop him hurting, i could stop everyone hurting him, i could do that for alec. I did after all, owe him my life.
But this was my life now.
I wasnt a little baby who needed picking up. He knew that. He knew how i felt and he knew that it was wrong to use me like this. I twisted my self further into his mind and pulled out all lust and passion he felt, clearing his mind while also pushing him away from me with my gift. My left leg a little sore from his touch and i was a little shaken up right now. But he couldnt help it...right?
Suddenly the door to the cell opened and in flew Matt and Damein. Literally flying threw the air and landing flat down on there faces as each one of them turned in sync to growl at who ever tossed them in. I smelt smoke a mile away. Shit.
Alec was quick to move as well as the shock consumed him, he gasped realizing what he had just done before moving as fast as he could out of the room and locking the door shut.
Damiens eyes met mine for a second. They darkend several different new shades of black. Matt looked to me confused before using his gift to see what had happend and now. The pitch blackness of their eyes were suffocating me. Alec luckily had fleed out of the room so that he wouldnt face the wrath these two created.
"Boys please" i said shakily and desprately, but neither of them moved and i knew why. If they did they would loose control and they vowed never to loose control when they were so close to me. They just stared at me intently and angrilly, the anger not aimed towards me. Just Alec. And now i feared for his life. Just a large metal door stood between Alec and my brothers, a metal door that i thought was too thin now. But watching them behave this way towards Alec felt strange, like i suddenly had to protect him from it all. Like it was my responisibility. Again this only pushed my thoughts into thinking that giving Alec a chance was a good thing. Again Aros words burned me slightly, the feeling i was to be unloved forever. Immortal and alone.
"What?" Damein wisperd his eyes so vibrant and angry that he looked like a completely different person now. He didnt look like my brother. And for once in their company, i felt alone. My vision blurred again as a small breeze flew past me. I ran my hand over the red patch on my leg. I was too fragile to be loved by him, no one would ever see me that way after all, i was infact, just a hybrid. One of a kind. It seemed like some kind of ridiculus curse now instead of the gift of being unique. I closed my eyes and blinked the tears away. Even if i didnt get the chance at true love.
Mom did.
And her soul mate was out there some where, and she had no clue how much he loved her. Heck, she didnt even know who he was. He was just a blur in her mind.
Thats when realised what had to be done.
We had to tell mom. And yes it would hurt her. It would probably break her in two. She would put up a good fight against Aro. We would all try our best to escape and with the help of alec i was sure we could. But it would be worth it to know, i had helped her love story come true. I was never going to get my happily ever after. But Mom could. I knew deep down she would. And by the look of things so did damien and Matt as they both closed their eyes and nodded to me. We would have to endure the pain and put up one hell of a fight against the Volturi members. This was war, and even if i was the weakest one in strength, i had the greatest gift on my side.
a force which couldnt be rekoned with.
You mess with one of us. You mess with all of us.
Hey guys sorry its been a little while again, :) buuttt! im having another writers block at the moment, however progress is being made slowly sooooo if theres anything at all you want to read in this story, anything you want me to add in before the climax of it all. Please please let me know, that way it gives me fresh ideas and also new reviews ;) hehe i know, i know im terrible right? :D love K1m xxx
