Forty Ninth One Shot:
Secret Admirer
Jace POV:
It was the end of the day on a Friday and I couldn't wait to get home. Senior year of high school was a joke yet so serious at the same time. I was taking a bunch of AP classes, and playing football. It was a lot to juggle but I loved the sport and I really wanted to get an academic scholarship to school so I did everything I could to make sure that happened.
I got to my locker to grab the homework I had to complete this weekend, and when I opened my locker a piece of paper fell out. I quickly picked it up and put it in m pocket. I grabbed my stuff and made my way out to my car. We had a huge game tonight and I wanted to finish some homework before I had to be back here for the game. I was on my way to my car when my friend came up and wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"You ready for the big game tonight Herondale?" Sebastian asked and I smiled.
"Hell yea. You know I'm always ready." I said and he laughed.
"Party after, be there. My place." He said and I nodded. He saw a hot girl walk past and I was completely dead to him and he left. I laughed and got to my car. I booked it out of that parking lot and made my way home. When I got there I put my backpack on the table and made my way to the fridge to grab a snack. When I took a seat at the table I forgot that I put that weird piece of paper in my pocket that fell out of my locker. I figured that it was some homework that I needed to remember to do so I grabbed it out of my pocket, but when I opened it I realized how incredibly wrong I was about what it was.
Dear Jace,
I know this is probably incredibly weird for you, getting a letter in your locker isn't really common but I didn't really know how else to talk to you without actually having to approach you. I'm not the type of girl who is confident enough to put myself out there, especially with someone like you. You probably don't know me, we have class together, but I doubt you notice me. I guess the purpose of this letter was to start a friendship with you without you knowing who I am. An anonymous person, who might never build up the courage to do this in person. This is mostly for my own benefit but I like to think that you benefit as well. I know you have a game tonight, and although I won't be there, I wish you the best of luck and I know you'll kick some serious ass, because that's what Jace Herondale does.
xoxo
your secret admirer
When I was finished reading it was honestly really shocked. This kind of thing doesn't happen to me. I mean, girls approach me all the time, but this was different, and mysterious, and I couldn't help but wonder who this girl was that one, knew my locker number, and two who wrote me this letter. This didn't strike me as weird though, I was actually really flattered that she took the time to write out this letter. It definitely raised some questions but I was intrigued and was curious if I was going to get another one next week, but for now I have to focus on my homework and then the game.
Time Jump – One Week Later
Jace POV:
I haven't gotten another letter since last Friday and to be honest I was a little sad. Everything these days was so focused around technology and people don't take the time to communicate like they used too. Having someone handwrite me a letter was nice, and something about it made me actually feel special, like I was worth a hand written note to someone and they wanted me to know that.
Today we had an away game so we got out early. I was pumped because traveling to other schools was always fun. Their fans tried so hard to hate us but once they take a look at me all the girls start to swoon. It's rather funny, and I get a kick out of it whenever we go. I was walking to my locker to get my things so I could go to the locker room and get ready. When I opened my locker a piece of paper fell out and I'm not going to lie, I got really excited. I put it in my pocket and grabbed my things and went to the locker room. The guys were all standing around talking until the bug got here. We all loaded in and I took my usual seat in the back. Nobody sat with me, which is how I liked it and everyone knew that. I put my headphones in and took out the letter. I was really excited to read it, and I didn't know why.
Dear Jace,
I hope this isn't starting to creep you out, but if it is, you can leave a note in the plant pot outside of the gym doors and I'll pick it up. If you don't want anymore notes, I'll completely understand. I don't really know what I want to say in this letter, but I felt like if I was going to continue writing you, I had to have a schedule. I know you have a game tonight, and I wish you luck again. I heard you really kicked ass last Friday, just like I said you would. I mean, I'm not saying I can predict the future, but I did do a little happy dance when I heard you made the winning touchdown. Very impressive Mr. Herondale. I bet you can't wait for your future. You probably have it all figured out, and you have everything going for you. I wish I had that. I have no idea what my future looks like no matter how many times I shake my magic 8 ball. It's murky, and grey, and who even knows if I have a future, but I'm not very optimistic about it. I guess you could call me a pessimist, but whatever you call me, I know one thing for sure, Jace Herondale will be a house hold name one day. (If I'm right about this, you totally need to give me a shoutout when you're famous) Until next time.
xoxo,
your secret admirer
I couldn't stop the laugh that escaped my lips. She had a sense of humor, and I couldn't not laugh. Although the part about her future kind of made me wonder about her. Was she not going to college? Was she taking time off to pursue other things? Was she sick, and her future was undetermined? I didn't know, and I couldn't ask because I had no idea who she was. I folded the letter up and put it in my pocket. I turned my music up and looked out the window while questions about my admirer flooded my mind, questions that I may never get.
Time Jump – Monday
Clary POV:
It was almost 4 and I had stayed after to finish my latest art project. I knew the football team had practice and there was no way that I would be seen picking a note out of the plant pot outside. When I walked out I saw it sticking out and I quickly grabbed it and stuck it in my pocket. I made it to my car and made my way home. My parents were still at work, which meant that I got some time alone. I took an apple out of the fridge and took a seat on the couch and opened the letter.
Dear Admirer,
I don't find your letters creepy or weird at all. I actually find them quite flattering. I found myself looking forward to receiving your next one. I appreciate the 'good lucks' you've been giving me, and I think they are coming in quite handy. We won on Friday, and I was pretty pumped. I wish you would tell me something about yourself, I've been looking around trying to figure out who you are but I've come up with nothing thus far. Most of the obvious choices of girls who want to talk to me normally just come right up to me and start a conversation, but you just had to be mysterious. But I like it. There is something intriguing about you, and it keeps me wanting more.
Jace
When I finished reading it I couldn't get the smile off my face. I was glad that he liked my creepy letters. I decided on a whim that I wanted to stick the letter in his locker, and there was a 50/50 chance that he would be thoroughly creeped out and I was glad that he wasn't.
I took a deep breath and relaxed into the couch. Going through every day was really hard with my condition. But I wanted to live as normal of a life that I possibly could, and when the pain hit, I just had to suck it up and deal with it. I didn't realize how physically drained I was until I felt my eyes closing. I decided not to fight it and just let it happen.
Before I knew it I was being shaken awake. I opened my eyes and saw my mom standing in front of me. I slowly opened my eyes and let them adjust to the light. I sat up and rubbed my eyes trying to come back to reality. When I was finally awake enough to hold a normal conversation I looked up at my mom.
"When did you get home?" I asked.
"About 10 minutes ago. I'm going to make dinner and than you have therapy." She said and I nodded. Being sick sucked, but I continued to do everything in my power to give myself the chance of a normal life, and if going to therapy three times a week was what I had to do, than so be it.
Time Jump – Friday
Jace POV:
The end of the day couldn't come fast enough. And it wasn't because I was excited for the game, I wanted to see if there was a note in my locker. I don't know why I looked forward to them so much lately, but they really did lighten my mood and make me smile. I was sitting in my last class just watching the time tick down until it reached 3 and I booked it out of my class. I got to my locker and opened it to find no letter in there. I was actually really disappointed that I didn't get to read one today, and it made me wonder what happened to her. I sighed, grabbed my books and made my way to the locker room. I was zoned out until I felt a hand on my shoulder, when I looked up Alec was standing there.
"You okay? You look lost." He said and I nodded. "Seriously Jace, I've known you my whole life. Something is off."
"For the past two weeks I've been getting notes in my locker." I said.
"That's weird." He said and I laughed.
"You would think but it's really not. She leaves them for me every Friday, but I didn't get one today." I said and he nodded.
"Who is this girl?" He asked.
"I have no idea. She never signs her name." I said. "But she's funny, and her notes always make me laugh."
"You sound a little taken by her." He said.
"It's nice to have someone who wants to talk to me because they genuinely want too, and not because they want to be popular, or they want something from me. She just likes to talk, and I like listening to what she has to say." I said.
"Maybe she wasn't in school today. She could be sick, or he might have had to leave early." He said and I nodded.
"I guess. I don't know why I got so excited for this letter." I said and Alec laughed.
"You like her. Maybe as a potential girlfriend, or maybe just as a potential friend. She makes you happy, there is nothing wring with that." He said and I smiled.
"I guess you're right." I said and he laughed again.
"Of course I'm right. Now focus on the game, we have to keep our streak up. We have to go undefeated this year." He said and I laughed. I put my headphones in and tried my best to focus on the game, but the fact that I never got a letter really did bother me, and wouldn't leave me alone.
Time Jump – One Week Later
Jace POV:
It was our by week this week, and I was glad to have a day off. It was rare when our coach gave us a Friday off but we were doing really well this year and he thought be deserved the day, and I wasn't complaining about it. School went by slowly and by the end of the day I was ready to go home and take a nap. I made it to my locker and when I opened it a note fell out. I picked it up and shoved it in my pocket. I would read it when I got home.
I made my way to my car avoiding everyone. I was really drained and just needed rest. It felt like it took me forever to get home, but when I finally did I collapsed on the couch. It didn't take long before my eyes were shutting and I was drifting off into a dreamless sleep.
I don't know how long I was asleep for but when I woke up it was completely dark outside. I didn't even bother getting off the couch. I pulled a blanket over me and shut my eyes again. This is exactly what I needed, and what my body needed. Having a day off like today was perfect, and I was going to take advantage of it in anyway that I could.
When I woke up the next morning I was slightly confused but than I remembered that I fell asleep on the couch. I sat up and stretched and decided that I needed to change into comfier clothes. When I changed into sweats and a hoodie I made my way back to the couch and remembered that I had a letter waiting for me to be read. I grabbed it out of my coat pocket and began reading.
Dear Jace,
I don't think I can properly express how sorry I am that I didn't stick to my schedule last week. I wasn't in school for a couple days, and I didn't have a chance to leave you a note earlier. My absence wasn't planned. I heard you played well in the game last Friday, but you didn't totally kick ass so I'm going to assume that I'm your good luck charm, and there isn't anything you can do to change my mind. I know you said you wished you knew something about me, and I was hesitant to share a personal detail with you, but seeing as I skipped last Friday, I feel like I owe you one. I'm not a very intriguing person, I live quite a boring life so I don't really have many fun facts to tell you, so I think I'll just stick to a basic one for now, and maybe I'll work up to an actual fun fact about myself. Uh, well, man this is harder than I thought, okay, here's one, I can't ride a bike. I know it seems weird, but growing up in the city didn't leave a lot of room to practice, and to this day I still don't know how to ride one. Anyway, I know you don't have a game tonight, so I hope whatever you do to fill the time goes well, and you have a fun time. Until next Friday (unless I'm a total bitch and flake again)
xoxo
your secret admirer
She still managed to make me laugh and I folded the letter back up and put it on the coffee table. I turned the TV on and decided that this weekend I was going to watch a massive amount of mindless TV and enjoy it. The day passed and I didn't move from the couch. My mom laughed at me when she saw me, claiming that she had never seen me be such a lazy couch potato, but I didn't care, I was relaxing, and having a damn good time doing it.
Time Jump – Four Months Later
Clary POV:
It was Christmas time and I was in the hospital again. I had another attack and my parents didn't want to risk it and I was admitted a week ago and I'm still here. I hated being in hospitals more than anything, and the fact that I could be stuck in here for Christmas really killed me. I was flipping through channels on the TV when my doctor walked in.
"Good morning Clary, how are you feeling today?" He asked and I smiled.
"A lot better Stephan. Thank you for asking." I said and he smiled.
"I'm afraid you won't be discharged until the New Year Clary. I wish I could tell you better news, but your last attack raised a lot of questions and I don't want to let you leave until I have an answer for every single one of them." He said and I nodded.
"I guess it's just another Christmas in the hospital." I said and he gave me a sad smiled. "I had avoided this for 5 years. I thought I was finally in the clear when it came to this holiday."
"MS doesn't really do holidays." He said and I laughed.
"Don't I know it." I said had he sat on the foot of my bed.
"I'm working this Christmas, and my wife and son are coming to spend the day with me here, how about we have our own mini Christmas together. Our families can make this less depressing." He said and I laughed.
"That sounds great Stephan." I said and he nodded and got up.
"I'll check back in before I leave tonight." I nodded and he left my room. I sat back in my chair and thought about his offer. I knew his son. His son was the same guy that I had been writing to for months, and I was going to be spending Christmas with him. I don't know if this is karma, or luck, or the universe playing a trick on me, but it would definitely be an interesting Christmas.
Time Jump – Christmas Day
Jace POV:
"Come on, my shift starts in an hour and I want to introduce you to the girl you'll be spending the day with." My dad said and I groaned.
"Are you really trying to set me up with one of your patients dad?" I asked and he laughed.
"No, but I know she goes to your school, and you're in the same grade." He said and I rolled my eyes. "She's spending another Christmas in the hospital Jace. Imagine how depressing that is." He said and I nodded. I couldn't imagine having to unwillingly spend a holiday sick in a hospital.
When we got to the hospital my dad started walking and my mom and I just followed. I felt like the room was on the complete opposite side of where he parked and I thought we would never get there. He finally stopped in front of a door and turned to us.
"Wait here for a minute. I want to see if she's awake." He said and we nodded. He walked in and my mom and I just waited in the hallways. A couple minutes later he walked back out. "She's awake." He said and we walked in after him. "Clary, I don't know if you know my son, but this is Jace and my wife Celine."
"It's nice to meet you both." She said and I nodded.
"It's good to meet you too sweetie. Are your parents here?" My mom said and Clary shook her head.
"They'll be here later. They both had to work." She said.
"That's awful. They couldn't get Christmas off?" My mom asked.
"This hospital visit isn't going to be cheap, and they get paid double time on Christmas." She said and my mom nodded. "I was just about to watch a lot of cheesy Christmas movies on the Hallmark Channel, would you care to join?" She asked and my mom and I laughed.
"We'd love too." My mom said and she made her way over to the only chair in the room. I didn't know what to do and I was about to go get one when Clary spoke.
"I promise, cooties isn't the reason I'm in here." She said and I couldn't help but laugh, and she smiled. "Your father always makes sure I have an extra big bed when I'm in here. There is plenty to share." She said as she scooted over and patted the space beside her. I smiled and made my way over to her. I took my shoes off and got in the bed. "Would you like some blanket?" She asked and I nodded. She pulled the blanket back to reveal her pajama pants that had cupcakes on them. I smiled as she pulled the blanket over my legs. She smiled at me and than flipped the TV on.
We watched 4 movies before the door opened and revealed a woman that looked exactly like Clary and a man. Clary smiled as they made their way over to her and they both gave her a kiss. My dad brought two more chairs in and they took a seat.
"Mom, dad, this is Jace and Celine, Stephan's wife and son. Celine, Jace, these are my parents, Jocelyn and Valentine." Clary said.
"It's nice to meet you both." My mom said.
"You as well. Thank you for keeping Clary company while we were at work." Jocelyn said and my mom smiled.
"She's a delight to be around. I didn't think there was a person out there that was able to make Jace laugh, but she's very good at it." My mom said and I shook my head and I heard Clary laugh.
"Just trying to make this place a little less depressing." Clary said.
"You have therapy at 6 Clary, don't forget." Jocelyn said and Clary nodded.
"How could I possibly forget mother? This is so routine by now." She said and I saw a hint of sadness cross her mothers face. "Why don't you go and get dinner, both of you. I know you didn't take time to eat after work."
"We just got here Clary." Valentine said.
"Yes, and I'll be here after you eat dinner." She said and they got up reluctantly.
"I'll go with you. I'm starving anyway." My mom said and they nodded and all three of them walked out of the room. We sat in silence for a minute before she began to speak.
"You can go with them. I don't mind being alone." She said.
"I'm not that hungry, and I can have my dad bring me something when he gets you dinner." I said and she smiled. "I can't believe we go to school together and I've never met you."
"Seriously? We don't run in the same circle Jace." She said and I laughed.
"I don't really think I have a circle per say." I said and she laughed. "Well, we're friends now, so I guess we do run in the same circle."
"I guess so." She said and I was quiet. "How about another cheesy movie?" She said and I laughed.
"Sounds good." She turned the TV back on and we continued to watch cheesy Christmas movies and before I knew it I felt her head resting on my shoulder and when I looked over she was asleep. I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face at how peaceful she looked.
It was weird being with Clary. I had just met her today but I felt like I've known her for so much longer. But I felt like as I was sitting in this bed with this girl leaning on my shoulder I was somehow cheating on my admirer. She had kept to her schedule and I have been getting notes every Friday, and she had shared some other facts like the one about her not knowing how to ride a bike with me. She was really stubborn, and didn't really like giving away too much detail of who she was, and it was driving me crazy. After a few months I realized that Alec was right. I did like her, and the more letters I got the more I realized that I liked her more than a friend.
I don't know how long we were sitting there, but before I knew it Jocelyn, Valentine and my mom were back. Jocelyn walked over and started to wake Clary up. After a good ten minutes Clary finally stirred awake.
"Oh my god, I totally fell asleep on you." She said and I laughed.
"It was no problem, although you did leave me to watch this movie alone, and the remote was on the table over there." I said and she laughed.
"I apologize, but now you're fully caught up on cheesy Christmas movies." She said and I laughed.
"Jace, I think it's time we head home. Clary has therapy anyway, and your dad gets off in 5 minutes" My mom said and I nod and get out of the bed.
"It was nice meeting you Clary." I said and she smiled.
"You too Jace, and you as well Celine." Clary said and my mom beamed.
"I hope we made your Christmas a little more enjoyable." My mom said and she smiled.
"You most definitely did." Clary said. My mom and I made our way out to meet my dad and I noticed my mom was staring at me while smiling.
"What?" I asked and she laughed.
"You like her." She said. "I mean, at first I thought I was just imagining it, because you literally just met her, but I can see it. You like her."
"I'm not sure. I'm conflicted." I said and we got in the car to wait for my dad.
"Conflicted about what?" My mom asked.
"Since the beginning of school I've been getting notes in my locker every Friday."
"From who?" She asked and I laughed.
"No idea. She always signs it 'secret admirer', it's been driving me crazy." I said and my mom laughed.
"Who knew a girl could conflict you." She said and I smiled.
"She's really funny, and I always look forward to reading what she wrote. I don't know, I just have really been enjoying it, and her."
"I don't know what to tell you hunny. That does seem complicated, because I can tell you like Clary." She said.
"I feel like I've known her forever." I said and my mom smiled.
"It looked like you've known each other forever. You both seemed really comfortable and content in each others presence today." I nodded and a moment later my dad got in the car. We drove home in silence and I couldn't' stop thinking about Clary and my secret admirer. I didn't want to have to chose, but if continues, I feel like I'm going to have too.
Time Jump – Two Months Later
Clary POV:
I was surprised that Jace continued to talk to me after his visit to the hospital. He spoke to me in class, and said hi to me in the hallway. It was weird, but I enjoyed it. I still haven't told him that I'm the one leaving him notes. For some reason I feel like our friendship won't be the same if he knows its me. I like being anonymous, and keeping my identity a mystery.
I was sitting in class doodling in my notebook like it did before every class. I didn't really like talking to the people in this class. They weren't very nice, and frankly I wasn't friends with any of them. I was lost in thought when I heard someone call my name. when I looked up Jace was standing there smiling at me.
"What's up?" I asked and he took the empty seat next to me.
"I was wondering if we could talk after school today." He said and I was kinda confused.
"Is everything okay?" I asked and he smiled.
"Yea, I just need some advice, and I figured you'd tell me the truth instead of just agreeing with me." He said and I laughed.
"Okay." I said.
"Sweet, I have a meeting right after school that should only be about 30 minutes. Meet me at Java Jones?" He asked.
"Sounds good. I'll go right after school and wait for you." I said.
"Thanks Clare." He said and than the teacher walked in and started teaching.
The rest of the day went by rather ordinarily. I went to class, didn't speak, and just hoped for the day to come to an end. When it was finally over I got into my car and headed towards Java Jones. I was very curious about what Jace needed my advice for, I mean, I don't really think I have a lot of experience to be giving advice but I could try my best. Jace showed up eventually and took a seat.
"Thank you for meeting me Clare." He said and I smiled.
"No problem. So what does Jace Herondale need advice on?" I asked and he laughed.
"This might sound strange to you at first but let me explain before you talk." He said and I nodded. "Since the beginning of the year I've been receiving notes in my locker." He said and my heart started racing. He was going to talk to me about his secret admirer, to his secret admirer. "She leaves one in my locker every Friday, and I have no idea who she is." I tried to act as calm as I could, but my blush had a minds of it's own and Jace definitely noticed. "Why are you blushing?"
"Because you are asking for advice about your love life to a girl who has no experience with the topic." I said trying to make it sound reasonable.
"I just don't know what to do." He said and I smiled. He looked so lost it was cute.
"Well, do you like these letters?" I asked. I was actually really curious as to what he thought.
"I love getting them. They always make me laugh, and I feel like when I read them she just has so much to say about anything, and it makes me feel like she wants to be genuinely be her friend because she likes me." He said.
"Is that so hard to believe? That she wants to be your friend?" I asked.
"No, but its just not normal for me. People don't genuinely care about what I like, or what I'm interested in. And even though I just get a letter from her, she seems to know me."
"So, what advice do you need from me?" I ask and he smiles.
"Do you think I'm making a big deal out of this? I mean, what if she just wants to be my friend, and I'm getting these feelings that she won't even reciprocate." He said and I could see that he genuinely really cared about me, and loved getting my letters, which made me feel even better about starting it in the beginning.
"But what if she does like you?" I asked.
"I don't even know who she is, and I'm conflicted." He said.
"Conflicted about what?" I asked.
"My feelings." He said.
"I thought you said you liked her?" I asked and he nodded.
"I do, but I like someone else as well." He said and I'm not going to lie, it kinda hurt.
"Oh." I said, because I didn't know how to respond. "Well, I guess you just have to decided which feelings are more genuine."
"But that hard. One is so mysterious and funny, and the other one is so easy to be around and fills a missing piece of me that I didn't know I was missing." He said.
"It sounds like you already picked in your head." I said and he sighed.
"I just wanted to know your opinion. What should I do?" He asked.
"I don't think you can really do much until you know who this secret admirer is." I said and he nodded.
"I figured." He said and I smiled. "I just thought it would be interesting to get a girls point of view."
"Well, I hope it works out." I said. I was a little discouraged that he also had feelings for someone else wasn't what I wanted to hear today, but I guess I shouldn't be surprised. He has no idea that I'm the admirer. "I have to get home. My mom needs me."
"Thanks for talking it out with me Clary." He said and I stood up.
"No problem Jace. See you tomorrow." I said and than I left. The whole way home I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed. He liked me, he actually liked me. But I didn't know how long that would last when he found out it was me. I guess I won't ever know unless I tell him, but I didn't know how to tell him, so I guess for no I'll just keep it to myself.
Time Jump – Three Months Later
Jace POV:
I still don't know who keeps leaving the notes in my locker. Talking to Clary didn't really help, because she's the other one who I like. I just don't know what to do. I mean, I have no idea who my secret admirer is and it was driving me nuts. I couldn't sit in class anymore so I asked to go to the bathroom and just started walking around the school. I don't know how long I was walking up when I turned the corner I stopped dead in my tracks. Lying in the middle of the hallway was the redhead that had been flooding my mind. I rush over to her and she's out cold. I had no idea what happened but I think back to the first time I met Clary and it was in the hospital, so I called 911.
"911, what's your emergency?" The operator asked.
"My friend is passed out cold in the hallway." I said a little panicked.
"Does this happen a lot?" The operator asked.
"I don't know, all I know is that right before Christmas she was in the hospital and I didn't know if this was related in anyway." I said.
"What is your location?" The operator asked.
"Alicante High School." I said.
"I'll send help immediately." I hung up and focused all my attention back on Clary. If I wasn't so freaked out I would just think she was sleeping. 10 minutes later I heard the sirens and I haven't been so glad to hear them before. Two paramedics rolled a gurney in and bent down to asses Clary. They took her blood pressure, and checked her pulse and her heart. The put her on the gurney and I walked right next to her and into the ambulance. When we got to the hospital I immediately spotted my dad standing at the nurses station desk. He turned around and was so confused as to what I was doing there. He walked over to me with wide eyes.
"What happened?" He asked.
"I was walking the halls and I found her out cold on the ground. I had no idea what happened, but I didn't know if this had anything to do with why she was in the hospital before so I just called 911."
"Okay." He said and he turned towards the paramedics. "Patient has MS, put her in a room, and I'll be in right away." They nodded and he turned back towards me. "Did you not know?"
"How would I know dad? We don't talk about our medical history." I said and he nodded. "Can I go in and sit with her?"
"Of course. I'll be in in about 10 minutes. I have to call her parents and figure out what to do." He said and I nodded. I made my way to the room that I saw the paramedics wheel her in and I took a seat next to her and took a deep breath. I noticed that her fist was balled and I saw a white object in it. I opened up her hand and saw a piece of paper. I took it from her hand and opened it up.
Dear Jace,
I know this letter is early, but I don't think I'll be in school on Friday and I didn't want to leave this week without giving you a note. It's been a weird week for me, and I'm not really sure how I could explain exactly what's going on, but I guess I'm just not feeling like myself. This letter is really going to suck. I don't have much to say. I'm really tired, and a little sad. Even though this letter sucks I still wanted you to have it, so you know that I didn't forget. Maybe next week I'll be a little more exciting.
xoxo,
Your secret admirer.
I couldn't believe it. She was the one who was leaving me the notes. The two girls that I was confused about were one in the same. Despite being in the hospital right now I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face. I didn't have to choose because she was the whole package. But my smile instantly faded when I realized I had talked about my feelings about her, to her. I shook my head and placed it in my hands. None of this mattered right now. Clary was unconscious and I just needed her to be okay.
"Jace." I heard and I turned around to see my father standing in the doorway.
"Is she going to be okay?" I asked.
"I have a neurologist coming in to check on her shortly." He said and I nodded. I looked back at Clary than back to my father.
"Is this normal?" I asked.
"It's hard to say. This isn't the first time she's passed out. It's not a common symptom for MS patients, but it isn't unheard of either." He explained.
"When will she wake up?" I asked.
"Hard to say. Could be in the next couple minutes, could take an hour." He said and I nodded. "Look, I talked to her parents, they can't leave work. Would you mind staying with her until she wakes up?"
"Of course not." I said and he smiled.
"When she wakes up, let me know." He said and I nodded. He left the room and it was just Clary and I. I wanted her to wake up so that I could talk to her. I wanted her to know how I felt, and I wanted to know her full reasoning behind the notes.
I set my head down on the bed waiting for her to wake up. At some point I think I drifted off because the next thing I remember was the feeling of a small hand on my head. I sat up and was met with those emerald green eyes and I couldn't help but smile.
"You're awake." I said and she smiled.
"Yea. I'm assuming you found me?" She asked and I nodded. "I'm sorry you had to see me like that."
"You scared the shit out of me Clary." I said and she gave me a sad smile. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't want you to treat me any differently. I didn't want you to look at me as the girl with MS." She said and I took her hand.
"Clary, telling me wouldn't have made me look at you differently, but it definitely would have prepared me for this afternoon." I said and she smiled.
"I am sorry though. That must have been terrifying." She said.
"Yes. It was." I said. "I want to talk to you about something."
"More advice?" She joked and I smiled.
"Well, after you were brought in here I noticed that you had something in your hand." I said and her eyes widened, her jaw dropped, and she paled.
"Oh my god." She said. "I can explain."
"Good, because I really want to know why you started leaving letters in my locker." I said and she blushed.
"You seemed like a person I'd get along with. We've had class together all four years of school. At first I thought you were just a dumb jock who was a huge flirt, but as I observed I realized that there was more to you than just that. You seemed like you built a wall, and it intrigued me. I wanted to break through it, but I'm not confident enough to just go up to someone and start talking."
"But how did you know which locker was mine?" I asked.
"I work in the library. I have access to stuff like that." She said. "I figured it wouldn't hurt. You'd either read it or not. I took a gamble."
"I enjoyed your gamble." I said.
"I'm glad. I enjoyed writing to you." She said.
"Which brings me to another point." I said. "You were rather calm when I brought this up all those months ago in the coffee shop.
"I was internally freaking out. Once you started talking about it my heart started racing." She said and I laughed.
"You did good though." I said.
"I tried my best. I didn't want to give it away. I wasn't sure if I was ever going to tell you who I was." She said.
"Why not? We're friends." I said.
"Yea, but you added more to that after that meeting." She explained. "You told me that you had feelings for me, and that just complicated it more. Especially when you said you liked someone else too. Can you imagine how confused I was?" She asked and I laughed.
"I'm about to blow your mind." I said and she looked at me with a confused expression. "You were the other girl." I said and her jaw dropped again.
"What?" She asked and I laughed.
"Ever since we met I just felt like you were meant to be in my life. You made me laugh, and you filled a void that I didn't even know I had." I explained.
"And me as your admirer?" She asked.
"You were mysterious, and you always made me smile. Not knowing who you were was intriguing to me." I said and she laughed.
"This is so strange." She said and I laughed. "What happens now?"
"What do you mean?" I asked wondering where her head was at.
"Are you disappointed it was me?" She asked.
"Not at all. I was truly conflicted with my feelings. I thought that I was never going to find the girl leaving me notes, and you were real. Honestly, I thought she was going to be a fictional person. When I read that note in your hand, I was so relieved that you and her were the same. You're the complete package Clary."
"I'm not special." She said and I laughed.
"You are to me. I've never felt so normal, and happy as I do when I'm with you." I said. She opened her mouth to speak when there was a knock on the door. We both looked and there stood my dad and another doctor.
"Clarissa, we need to take you down to get a cat scan." He said and Clary nodded.
"We'll talk later?" She asked and I nodded.
"I'll be here when you get back." I said and I kissed her forehead. She was put in a wheelchair and wheeled out of the room. My dad stayed behind and once Clary was out of sight my dad smiled at me.
"You really like her don't you?" He asked.
"I do." I said and he laughed.
"Told you coming here for Christmas was a good move." He said and than left. I smiled to myself and hated to admit that he was right, but without him we wouldn't have met, and I was grateful we met.
Time Jump – Graduation
Clary POV:
The last couple months have been interesting to say the least. I was in the hospital for a week and when I was released I didn't know what to expect. I walked into school the Monday after I was released and to my surprise Jace was waiting for me. He pulled me into him and kissed my temple. We got a lot of strange looks but I couldn't help but smile. He walked to me to my locker, and than he walked to me to my first class and that was that.
Now we were graduating and I couldn't be happier to be getting out of high school. Jace and I were both attending NYU together, and even though we had only been together for a couple months it felt incredibly right. We weren't sitting together for the ceremony because H and M aren't that close which really sucked. I just wanted to be next to him. It was weird, after we talked about how we felt and he asked me out all I wanted to do was be close to him. I always felt like I was going to be a burden to anyone who wanted to be with me. I was sick, and there wasn't a cure. I was going to be like this for the rest of my life, but with Jace I just felt like a teenage girl. He made me laugh, and smile, and when I ended up in the hospital for tests, or something he was right in that bed with me watching terrible movies and holding my hand.
When the ceremony was over Jace found me immediately and scooped me up into his arms. When he put me down he gave me a sweet kiss and grabbed my hand and we started making our way out to the parking lot to meet our families. I didn't have a chance to say a word before my mom pulled me into a hug. It didn't seem like she was ever going to let me go until my dad laughed and pulled her off of me.
"I am so proud of you baby." My mom said and I smiled.
"Thanks mom." I said.
"How are you feeling?" My dad asked.
"I'm a little tired, but other than that I feel fine." I said.
"Are you sure?" My mom asked. I rolled my eyes because they never seemed to believe me. I was about to say something when Jace cut me off.
"She's good." He said.
"How do you know?" My dad asked.
"When she starts getting other symptoms her hands normally start shaking." He said and my parents looked immediately at my hands. They were completely still. I knew they were worried about me, but sometimes they worry too much.
"Okay, so you'd be okay to go out for some lunch?" Celine asks.
"Lunch sounds amazing." I said. Every nodded and we all got into our respected cars and made our way to the restaurant.
Lunch was great. I loved how our families got along do well. It helped that my mom and dad have known Stephan since I was diagnosed. It made everything feel so normal. Like I was just an 18 year old girl out to lunch with her parents, her boyfriend, and his parents and that was all there was to it.
The day went by quickly and Jace told me he wanted to take me somewhere tonight. When he got to my house Jace and I got into his car and he started driving, but not anywhere that I recognized. I looked over and him and he simply smiled and kept on driving. I didn't know where we were but when he stopped I couldn't help but smile. It was an open field, and there was a blanket set up in the middle. He took my hand and we walked over to it. We took a seat and he laid back and pulled me into him. The stars were absolutely amazing. You could see everything, which was hard to do in the city. We laid there in silence for a while until I felt his lips on my head. I turned and propped myself up on my elbows and he smiled at me.
"I love you." He said and my eyes widened. I didn't know what else to do so I pressed my lips to his. I felt him smile in the middle of the kiss. When we broke apart we both had the biggest smiles on our faces.
"I love you too." I said and he laughed. We might have been together for a short while, but when you know you know, and I know that I'm in love with Jace. There wasn't a question about it.
Authors Note:
This was requested by a guest, and I hope you all enjoy it especially the guest who requested it! I'm sorry it's taken me so long to update, but it's finals week, and I've been stressed and running on no sleep. Let me know what you think! The next one shot is going to be one that I thought of. I promise that I will continue with the requests but I haven't been able to come up with a badass story, so I thought I'd kill two birds with one stone, and give you another update while coming up with another story in the mean time! The idea has been in my head for about a week, so I'm excited to write about it! Let me know what you think and leave a review! :)
