I have decided to write one of these between my series stories :) So, hey, at last they will come at least relatively regularly. One every few days, maybe. Once a week for sure :)
In this letter, Sarek finds out what Spock's reaction to his vid was.
Amanda,
It seems breaking down when watching that footage is the normal reaction.
I just got off the comm. from Doctor McCoy, who told me that Spock had spent quite a while unable to stop crying. And he has no one to help him to regain control like I did. The only good thing about the emotional release was he cried himself to sleep.
Our son has broken, Amanda, and he has no one but himself and his human friends to try and help him regain control, if he can. I am thinking that perhaps I should go to the ship myself and do whatever I can to be of assistance to him, but McCoy tends to think that may not be such a good idea.
He thinks Spock needs to do this on his own right now. His words not mine.
I need to know that he is well. I need to know he will be better after waking. I need to know that he will be able to cope with his emotions not only being on display but feeling their full weight. I stated in the letter I wrote about my own break that I felt like I was dying. Spock has only begun to believe that he was going to live through his grief and now this happens.
I should not have sent the vid. This is my fault.
I am staying home tomorrow. I cannot work while this is consuming my thoughts. I need to meditate and sort out this mess in my head.
Hopefully Spock will be well again soon.
This would be so much easier if I knew that there was some way you could read and reply to these letters.
I sometimes think I may be mad for writing them to begin with.
Regardless, I love you and will continue writing.
Sarek.
