Okay, chapter 50 is here, so after this I won't be updating for a while. But don't worry, I'll be back for chapter 51 in LES THAN TWO WEEKS, so it really is a very short break before continuing this story. And it's kind of sad, but this story is slowly coming to an end… kind of sad… I'm not sure what my next fanfic will be, but I definitely won't stop writing, but hey, we still have a long way to go before this story is finished (probably around 10 chapters to go), so let's get going!

I don't own Kuroshitsuji nor will I ever own it (because Yana Toboso owns it so much better XD). Enjoy the chapter and see you in a week or two!


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Chapter 50

The first thing I realised when I woke up was that I had no idea where I was. The second thing was that I was wearing a ridiculous outfit.

'Hey!' I said, shooting up from the bed I had been laying in. 'What the hell am I wearing?!' I looked like a freaking nun.

'Please do not shout. It's quite annoying,' someone who sat beside the bed said.

I turned to look at William T Spears and realised that I had missed something, because I had no idea where I was and why he was with me. 'William,' I said, somehow just his presence calmed me down. 'What are you doing here? Where am I?'

'In my cellar,' Undertaker said as he entered the room with that familiar grin on his face. The was carrying a cup of tea for me and handed it to me, but I wasn't really in the mood to drink it right now.

'…Okay,' I said slowly, still not getting it. 'And why am I in your cellar?'

William readjusted his glasses. 'Letting you go to the Phantomhive mansion didn't seem like a smart and save move, so we wanted to keep you out of that demon's claws until you were conscious enough to protect yourself.'

I rolled myself. As if I would ever be able to protect myself from Sebastian. Then I realised something. 'What has happened that I suddenly cannot return to Ciel's mansion?' I asked, frowning. I looked down at my tea, but the strange smell that was coming off of the liquid made me decide to not drink it at all.

William sighed. 'Grell Sutcliffe was smart enough to tell the demon about you and your powers,' he said, sounding more cynical than a normal human ever could. 'I'm just trying to avoid unnecessary consequences.'

Great. So Sebastian knew what I was before I knew. Just fantastic. 'Aha. But don't you think I'm allowed to know now, if even that vile demon does?' I didn't think that using Sebastian's name now would make William like me. At all.

'I do believe you're correct,' William greed, closing his eyes for a second. 'But first you need to tell me what you can remember about the passed few days.'

I frowned. Why was that important? 'Well,' I began, not sure what he wanted to hear from me. 'We went to the Undertaker for some bullshit Queen Guard Dog-stuff that I rarely understand and then went to this church-thingy – ah, I remember why I'm dressed like this,' I said, not understanding why I'd forgotten that. But the further I tried to think, the harder it became to remember. But not impossible. 'So then three nuns brought me to this garden. And Ash was there, with Angela. And Angela, she… possessed me or something. It was… rather odd.' That didn't even begin to cover it, but for now this was explanation enough. 'And I don't understand anything that happened after that.'

Undertaker, who was leaning against the wall of this small room in his cellar, giggled. 'Not strange. I do believe the council was wrong for keeping you in the dark for so long.'

'Yeah, I know, right?' I said, smiling a small smile Then I frowned. 'What happened to Angela?'

'We destroyed her body, which we found in the garden, and that seemed to destroy her as well. I do not sense her presence on you anymore,' William answered. I remembered now that Grell called him 'Will'. It was shorter. And it sounded better. But I wasn't sure if William would like it if I started to call him 'Will' now. Especially since Grell calls him by that name as well.

Without thinking I brought the cup of tea to my lips, but lowered it when the strange smell flew into my nose. 'And Ash?'

Will looked away and readjusted his glasses again. 'I have to be honest and say that we have no idea where he is at the moment.'

At the Queen's house, probably. Since he was the Queen's butler. It was quite a smart tactic, I had to admit. Just stick close to one of the most powerful women in the country, safety guaranteed. Unless your Guard Dog has a demon butler. That complicates things. 'That sucks,' I said, 'but I still want to hear the explanation.'

'Explanation?' Will repeated with one eyebrow pulled up. Damn that was sexy. He should do that more often.

'Yes. Explanation. About who I am. And why everyone makes such a big deal out of my safety and stuff.' Ugh, I really should stop with adding 'and stuff' behind so many sentences, but that was just what I always did!

Will looked down for a moment, not readjusting his glasses for once. Then he folded his hands together, while still sitting perfectly straight. 'I knew your father. Your real father,' he began, clearly planning on starting from the very beginning. Which was smart, seeing how I wasn't that smart, so any explanation needed to be a bit longer for me. 'He wasn't an excellent reaper, but he did is job.' He sighed.

Will was silent for short while, letting this sink in. Huh. My father was a reaper. I really hope it wasn't Barrymore he was talking about, but I didn't think it was.

Then Will spoke on. 'Angels and reapers rarely meet. They live and work in completely different realms. That's why no reaper or angel ever had any sort of relationship before. But your father managed to befriend an angel, which ultimately caused your birth.'

Angel. Reaper. I really wasn't human at all. But how? I felt so normal all these years. I wasn't strong or fast like Sebastian and I wasn't smart and cool like Will. So what was I? A mistake? 'What happened to my parents?'

Will frowned, then he readjusted his glasses and said: 'You need to understand that when an angel doesn't follow the rules they fall and lose their angel souls. What remains is an empty lunatic, obsessed with cleansing the human race. When your mother became pregnant, everyone knew it. Heaven, hell, everywhere. They knew. Even though your mother and father hid themselves away from birth, it wasn't long before they were found. The fallen angels didn't want you to live, thought you were an impure and unnatural creature, so they attacked.'

For some reason this started to sound like a young-adult romance novel. But I didn't say anything, because, to be honest, I was intrigued.

'What they didn't know was that you were already born. And the reapers had already taken you away for examination. You were horrible ill. The small body you had couldn't carry the great amount of power it possessed,' Will explained.

'So my parents were killed by the fallen angels?' I asked after a long amount of silence. That sounded horrible.

'Well, yes and no,' Will said, 'your parents were with you that day and no fallen angel could ever enter the reaper realm, so they were as save as possible. But to save your life the heavenly choir put a seal on you, sealing away your powers. Which also meant that you couldn't stay in the reaper realm.'

'Wait… the heavenly choir? Wasn't that in the occult here? What did they have to do with anything?' I asked confused.

'No,' Will answered, shaking his head. 'The heavenly choir is the name for the highest class angels with the greatest power. Even though we'd never worked together before, reapers and angels both found that keeping you alive was the best idea. Maybe your birth was the start of a new and improved race.'

'And that's why you were protecting me,' I said, finally understanding what the fuss was about. 'But that doesn't explain why I was raised by mister Barrymore.'

'It does,' Will simply said. 'Like I said, you were just a baby and your power were sealed, making you about as strong as any mundane human. And no human could survive in the reaper realm for a long period of time, especially when you're so young and vulnerable. But we couldn't bring you to earth, not when the fallen angels were waiting for you.' He stopped talking, as if he didn't want to say anything else about it.

'So… what did you do?' I asked when he didn't say anything anymore.

He closed his eyes and sighed before answering. 'The reapers and the angels joined forces to kill the fallen angels.' He opened his eyes. 'And we thought we succeeded. It becomes clear now that this wasn't the case.' He readjusted his glasses. 'Your parents were killed during the battle. I didn't fight, I was still in training back then, but I knew the loss. We had to put you away in an area where no fallen angel would ever look. And Barrymore was one of those towns that seemed to be invisible for every supernatural creature.' He sighed again. 'Of course, we came to check from time to time, there have been many discussions about your situation, if your father wasn't too abusive, if we shouldn't bring you somewhere else. But, frankly, it wasn't really our concern. Then you were kidnapped and we realised that you might need more help than we thought. But then you met Ciel Phantomhive.' Will looked at me as if that was the worst thing that could've happened.

I frowned, not sure what Ciel had to do with this. 'I'm sorry, what's wrong with me meeting Ciel?'

'It wasn't the boy as much as his butler,' Undertaker said and quite frankly, I had forgotten he was there until he said that.

'Indeed,' Will agreed. 'Even a demon would notice the strange soul you have. Pure enough to be an angel's soul, but even one conversation with you should make it clear that you are no angel. And strong enough to be a reaper's soul, but obtainable. Also, the seal was fading, you were becoming stronger and stronger and started to beat the seal even without knowing it. The moment your skin and eyes changed was the moment the seal was completely broken.' He readjusted his glasses again.

Wait… I was strong enough to unconsciously break an angel's seal? Holy smokes. That was… strange. And awesome. 'You're saying that I'm stronger than the angels who put up the seal?'

Will nodded.

'Stronger than Grell?'

He nodded again.

'Stronger than you?'

He waited a few seconds now, almost not willing to answer. Than he nodded again.

'Stronger than Sebastian?'

Will frowned. 'You know, I find it pretty insulting that you think that vile creature is even remotely stronger than I am.'

Oops. 'Sorry, sorry. But am I stronger than him?'

Will gave me a sour glance and I looked at him with my most innocent face. Than he sighed again. 'Yes, yes you are. With you maxed out purifying skills you could probably kill him with one touch if you wanted to.' He got a glow in his eyes as he said that, clearly enjoying that idea.

I looked down at my hands, still holding the tea cup. These hands could kill Sebastian with just one touch? How?

Now I understood why I shouldn't return to the Phantomhive mansion. Sebastian had already said that he would kill me the moment I became a threat to him. And, well, I apparently was. This only complicated things. And I still really had to talk to Ciel. About a lot. I never clarified my history with Ash and I hadn't told him that I'd seen Ash before Angela took me over. I wasn't even sure if I had told him about the fact that I had been there in the same room as him when he made the contract with Sebastian.

'William, you said I was stronger than Sebastian, right?' I asked, forgetting about the tea and putting the cup on the nightstand.

He nodded. 'Yes, I did, but don't get any crazy ideas. Going to the Phantomhive manor now would be too dangerous. Hundreds of reapers paid overtime for you and I would hate to see that go to waste.'

I sighed, I could've know. Maybe this was incredible selfish of me. But I never asked all those reapers to look out for me. I never asked anything from anyone. 'So… when do you suggest I go back to the Phantomhive mansion?' I asked.

'Well, I suggest 'never',' he almost immediately answered, while – again – readjusting his glasses. 'But I can see in your two-coloured eyes that that isn't going to happen. So I suggest I let you go if you win a fight against me. But don't worry, I won't hurt you.'

Ah, crap. I was doomed.


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'You know what? Let's forget about the Phantomhive mansion. I mean, who wants to go there any—'

Will grabbed my wrist and put it on the table. We were sitting upstairs now and I was fully dressed. I had thought that with 'win a fight' he meant that I had to fight him, but no. I seemed like I just had to arm wrestle a bit. Didn't mean that I could ever win such a thing – certainly not against William – but at least it wouldn't hurt as much as being poked with his gardening tool.

He grabbed my hand and I grabbed his and I knew that my face gave away that I wasn't confident at all, because he said: 'No need to worry. If you lose the first time, we'll try it a second time. Okay?'

I nodded, even though I wasn't sure if I liked that arrangement. Did that mean that if I won, he would get another chance as well? This rule seemed kind of strange for such an organised man like Will.

Undertaker decided that he wanted to play judge, so he sat between us and started to count while also giggle like a little girl. 'Three… two… one… Go!'

Bang, hand on the table.

But it wasn't my hand that was put down on the table. 'I'm sorry,' I said, blushing. I let go of his hand. 'I started too soon. Let's do it again.'

William sighed as the Undertaker chuckled. 'You know, dearie, you didn't start too soon.'

'Hmm?' I asked, not taking Undertaker completely serious.

Will readjusted his glasses, but I noticed that he looked embarrassed. 'He's right. I you weren't too soon. I was using all my strength as well.'

Err… 'ERR?!' I looked at my hand. What the hell? 'Since when am I superman?!'

'Superwoman, I hope,' Undertaker said laughing.

William still looked like he was quite embarrassed. Who wouldn't be, he was beaten by a teenage girl. 'I… I think this means you can return to the Phantomhive mansion. I will bring you to the gates, but I won't drop you off. Keep in mind that there's always a reaper nearby to help you, Clarissa.' But he said it like it wasn't really necessary to know, as if no reaper could help me with the strength I already had.

I couldn't stop staring at my hands. 'Won't I break everything I touch with such strength? I wasn't using any force at all.'

Will shook his head slowly. 'Strength is different for us. Our body knows how strong it needs to be in which situation. Sometimes, our body allows us to use all our strength, like during a game like this. But while holding a tea cup, or a human for that matter, your body instinctively knows when the strength it has will hurt it and keeps it in check.'

That still sounded kind of dangerous. I had to keep in my mind not to hug Ciel anytime soon. But I would love to crush Sebastian's bones. But maybe Ciel wouldn't appreciate that. Nor would I when Sebastian lay in bed with broken bones and Ciel was attacked. Well, now I would maybe save him, but I wouldn't count on that all too much. I mean, I didn't even know I could do this until two minutes ago.

'Well, are we leaving or are you going to stare at your hands all day?' Will asked.

I looked at my hands for a few more seconds before looking up. 'We're leaving.'


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So that was chapter 50, hope you liked it even though it was only exposition and no fun. I will see you again in one or two weeks for chapter 51 (after I finished my homework and all that frustrating stuff that I don't want to think about)! Oh, and important to know is that the whole 'Lau' arc of the anime (you know, with the drugs and Sebastian in prison and stuff) won't be in this story for a couple of reasons. One of them is because it isn't in the manga and I like Lau too much, second is that that story doesn't really work in modern day setting. And the third reason is that Clarissa knows that they need to go after Ash, so it's pretty weird that they go play the Queen's Guard Dog when they are in fact looking for the butler of the Queen, so that they can kill him. So there you have it.

Aqua Lilly: Aww, so sweet! I will miss your sweet reviews! :) And lol, I'll have to fix those strange typos of mine.

Silent Ninja 93: wow, that's a really big compliment. Thank you so much! Now I'll have to live up to that amazing compliment ;)

promocat: probably true XD

trepidon: no, it won't be the ending, at least four more chapters, but probably more! And it will be kind of a happy ending, I don't know. The ending I have in mind is the best outcome I could come up with without Sebastian or any of the other characters getting out of character. So yeah, hope you will like that.

Jacelover103: Aw, sorry I didn't do that, but I really wasn't sure how to describe the outfit XD and I won't be gone too long and it's not only about the typos. I have a lot of homework and other stuff I need to take care of, but I won't be gone for more than two weeks! I probably won't even be gone two weeks. (btw is the 'Jace' in your username the 'Jace' from 'Mortal Instruments'? Because if it is, that's awesome. If it's not, forget I said that :s)