Apart By More Than Words
Chapter 53
Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would your world react?
Not bothering to excuse myself as I went after him. The chilled fall air hitting my face. Reminding me of change and life going on around me. As I look around. Scanning the parking lot. Finding him. Leaning up against his car.
I walk over and put my hand on his. He wasn't wearing gloves so his hands felt like he had been holding ice in them.
While I attempted to start the conversation.
He looked at me apologizing for causing me to leave the meeting.
"I don't care about that." I said looking to him.
"Why didn't you tell me you felt like this.?" I asked him.
Emotion making it harder for me to talk.
"You don't need to hear about any of that."
"Between this and the pregnancy." "You have enough."
"Without me adding my unnecessary baggage to the mix." Nate said as he started to walk farther down.
"Your feelings and thoughts and pain."
"Surrounding all of this is important to me."
"You always let me feel what I'm feeling."
"And afterward do anything you can to improve it."
"I have and will never regret marrying you."
"I never would have imagined that."
" I would have ended up being loved and cared for."
"By someone as good as you." "You are my best friend."
"My husband." "Father of our beautiful, incredible, son to be."
"Our life together would not exist if it wasn't for you."
"I want to be there for you." "When things get to be unbearable."
"You are beyond enough and deserving of me and all the love I give you."
"I am so thankful for you." "Your patience, understanding, unconditional love, and the hope you find in the darkest moments."
"The only regret I have is running away from you at all." I said taking his hand.
"Let's call it a night here."
"We can go to the diner and have a late-night meal then go home." "And get lost in each other."
"Celebrate the remaining days of our nights alone." I said looking into his eyes. Taking his hand leaning over kissing him.
"Are you sure you want to leave.?" Nate said looking at me.
"Yes." "I just want to be with you." "And show you just how much I love you." I said bringing him closer to me.
"Okay we can go." He said taking my hand securely as I once again felt safe in the world. While we got into the car and took off.
Hours later
Closing the door behind them.
While the couple walked inside their home.
Going to the fireplace and lighting it as he dimmed the lights.
Turning on the music. The room filling with lyrics and sound.
As Nate took her hand and took her into his arms.
Holding her close. While he looked into her eyes.
"When you look at me like that."
"I just want you to hold me and never let go."
Serena said as she laid her head on his shoulder.
Closing her eyes as she shut out any remaining distractions.
The couple swayed together their hearts combining as one.
Nate lifted her head as he kissed her.
"I didn't know what it meant to live until you walked into my life."
"And will never know again what it means to love." Nate said as his broke voice. Tears welled up in his eyes. As he kissed her again.
Taking a breath.
Looking in his eyes. Catching her breath. As she spoke slowly.
"I'm yours." "And I never will be anyone else's." Serena said.
As Nate reconnected their lips.
Only taking their eyes off each other for a second.
They're hands held together tightly. Walking carefully up the stairs.
As she felt the need to keep in contact with him. In some way, every minute. Until they eventually reached their room.
Nate opening the door walking inside as he rejoined hands with her.
Locking the door. Taking her face in his hands kissing her.
Wanting his touch to linger as she never broke eye contact.
Her heart practically leaping from her chest. Feeling the coolness of his hands on her again.
Gently he removed her sweater. Carefully helping her out of it.
Looking at her with such warmth and tenderness. She almost feels the need to look away.
As it fell to the floor beside them.
He then started taking off his own shirt.
She then stopped him. Looking into his eyes.
"Let me do it." She said smiling.
As she took the remainder of his shirt.
Lifting it over his over his head.
Placing kisses on his body. Bringing him closer to her.
As he lifted her face. Kissing her. Laying her on the bed.
Looking down at her.
As he began to kiss her lips. Her neck. Gently placing kisses on her stomach.
Then stopped as he started to unbutton her jeans and taking her out of them. Focusing then on himself.
The layers between them.
Leaving nothing but discarded clothing. On either side of the room.
His hand carefully taking off her last piece.
Her eyes fluttering closed.
"Open your eyes." he said quietly.
As she reopened them looking up at him.
Taking off the remaining ounce of separation between them.
He carefully touched her face with his hand.
They're eyes locked.
"I'm so in love with you I don't know what to with myself sometimes." He tells her.
"I love you too." "I can't stand being apart from you.
"I hate that you're going to have to let me go." Serena said to him.
As tears fell from her eyes.
"Never." "Even if we're apart." "We will always be connected."
"Nothing and no one will ever separate that.
He said. Wiping away her tears. leaning down as he reconnected their lips.
Sometime the next day
Watching as she slept. Wanting to keep the love they felt for each other. Safely tucked away. He held her in his arms.
Not wanting to move or speak. Just needing to drink her in.
The beauty of heart and selflessness of her soul.
Physical ache he felt knowing someday he would wake up in his bed alone.
Was not where his mind would go in this moment.
For now, he had her here. And would relinquish in their moments together. Good and difficult.
Because he knew that they had a son on the way who would not have his mom for moments in his life that he would look to her for and experiences they would never share.
But for his birth and first year and second and third she would power through her illness to make as many memories that she could and he would be there documenting through pictures and videos.
So, years down the line. Him and their son could share and relive her life and once again feel her love for us.
That day was not this morning.
Kissing her gently. Her hand going to his face.
As she opened her eyes.
Biting her lip.
Burying her face in the pillow in front of her.
"Don't act shy now." He said.
Taking her hand as he kissed it.
She removed the pillow. And carefully to face him.
"It feels still new and exciting."
"But comfortable and safe."
"You still make me blush like and just feel so special."
Serena said to him. As she leaned over and kissed him.
"That's never going to change."
"I still nervous around you."
Nate said smiling at her.
"I want to think about names."
Nate said sitting up.
As she laid her head on his chest.
Listening to his heartbeat.
"And I want to start decorating the nursery."
"But before that I want to make a new video."
"I was wondering if you would join me.?" Serena asked.
Looking into his eyes.
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Author's Note: Gender revealed. Let me know your name ideas? Thoughts on the chapter? What do you want to see next? Thoughts on Nate and Serena? Your support is everything. Leave it all in the reviews.
See you next chapter.
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