We eventually made our way back to the bus, I sat back on the couch. It felt weird to be on here even though I'd pretty much been on here most nights since Dean and I got together apart from the time we spent in Chicago. I guess it was kind of my place now.

"You want something to drink?" I heard Dean say as he walked back in to this area of the bus after tending to something he had told me about I'd just forgotten.

"Sure," I smiled at him pulling my legs up on to the couch curling a little. I watched Dean as he made his way around the kitchenette placing cups and getting soda out moving in a way that held such confidence, such grace.

"What?" He laughed catching my eye I felt my cheeks tug up in to a smile that I didn't realize want out but hey, I wasn't complaining.

"I'm not allowed to look at you?" I asked my eyes flicking to his ass the back up to his eyes.

"My girl, you can look all you want," he grinned placing the soda bottle back in the refrigerator picking up the two oversized black and orange star cups that I was sure to get from home. Dean laughed when I packed one for him but didn't seem to find it funny using it now. "It's all yours,"

"Not really," I smiled, his head snapped to my looking directly in to my eyes like I'd just said the worst form of blasphemy. "It's a little bit yours," I pointed out.

"Mostly yours?" he offered.

"Yeah, we're the only ones allowed to touch it." I said. He handed me my drink and sat down next to me wrapping his arm around me as I took a sip. I felt his eyes on me as his hand soothed my arm as I slowly looked up at him he took my drink off me and put it in the cup holder.

"what are you"

"Shhh," Dean said holding his finger to my mouth, "Don't talk," he said pushing his arm further around my back pulling me closer to him with his other arm hugging me as tight as he possibly could. "You know I'm all yours, right?" he said softly, my breath caught for a moment. I looked up in to his perfect blue eyes that held all sorts of thoughts and secrets that I wish I had a hold of. He was mine, he was my boyfriend, my best friend, but there was still so much I didn't know about him.

"Yeah," I smiled. "I know," I pressed my lips in to his for a moment before pulling back. "You know," I said hugging in to him a little tighter. "For never having had a proper live in girl friend before, you're doing pretty great at it,"

"You think?" he laughed slightly amusement apparent in his eyes. "I think I've just gotten lucky,"

"Nah, luck isn't real though, you're just good at it," I smiled.

"You make me good at it,"

"Damn it Ambrose, just take the stupid compliment," I demanded grabbing hold of his chin kissing him then hugged into him. "Tell me about your not so girlfriend, girlfriends"

"They were all just one night stand, really." He said looking thoughtfully at the front of the bus, "I did a lot of those," he laughed.

"Were they worth it?"

"Hmm," he looked at me for a second then looked away again. "I guess," he told. "I mean it was worth feeling good at the time but they're nothing compared to you,"

"So no one even came close to stealing my Deanie's heart?"

"No, you're the only one Lilly Brooks," he smiled twirling some of my hair around his fingers. "There was this one chick who thought I was in love with her," he smiled "she'd do my laundry and clean up after me," he shrugged.

"rat?"

"Groupie, ring rat, enabler," he laughed he didn't seem ashamed of it, I guess that's how a lot of single guys lived in this business.

"Enabler?" I asked soothing his ear.

"Yeah, she would buy me alcohol and drugs and stuff,"

"Drugs?"

"Yeah," he said looking in my eyes, "around the time I worked in Puerto Rico, I'd take pills and some cocaine, anything I could get my hands on," he admitted, I looked away from his eyes toying with the arm of his shirt. "judging me now?" he laughed my eyes snapped back up to his.

I soothed his hair back off his face, I was happy I'd learnt more about him, god knows we all he our own shady pasts. "No baby," I smiled. "Never," I said soothing his face some more.

"What are you thinking then?"

"We have more in common then we realized?" I smiled, he did a little. "we're more perfect for each other then I realized?" I offered.

"Yeah?" I felt like he was looking right in to my soul. "You did drugs?" he asked.

"Yeah," I admitted. "For a minute there," I said. "I worked in Japan for almost two years," I admitted. "Apparently being left to my own devises without my brother isn't a good idea for me," I joked.

"So with no rules and no one to answer too, Lilly Brooks came out to play?" he asked tucking some hair behind my ear.

"Maybe," I grinned. "But these days," I said moving closer to him. "With no rules and no one to answer too," my face was a centimetre from his. "Ambrooks come out to play." I said feeling his smile as I kissed him without hesitation he kissed me back forcing me over in to a position where we were both comfortable. Our tongues collided like a passion filled title wave.

The closer Dean and I were getting the more I wanted him over anything in this world, I feared losing him more then I have ever feared losing anything in this world, there was nothing that I wouldn't do to keep him by my side.