To Minato-kun,
I'm...I hope you can find it in yourself to, I wish that you would...If I were you I'd—
MINATO YOU JERK!
You can't just ignore me and treat me like a three week old smelly diaper! That's my job! You can't do that! You're Minato, wussy and mega-tolerant and kind and forgiving and all those other mushy things, NOT A JERK THAT MAKES ALL MY FRIENDS HATE ME TOO!
Yoshino-san saw me in the market place and didn't talk to me, Miko-chan refuses to even look at me, Fugu-face looks at me like I'm day old bread that he's put in a pickle jar and only just discovered after ten years of suppressing the mental trauma that made him do it in the first place!, Itachi-chan is just as adorable and cute as ever which makes me feel even worse, Inoichi-kun and CHOUZA-KUN are glaring at me, Tsume-san actually bared her teeth at me when I crossed the road yesterday, Shikaku looked at me with barely concealed contempt and didn't talk to me, didn't even sigh in my direction and Jiraiya-sama didn't even acknowledgemy existence (and I was half-naked at the time too).
Your goggle-wearing brat flipped a bird at me, Rin-chan snarled at me when I saw her at the grocery shop, Kakashi SMILED at me and threatened to kill me, Hiashi-jerk and Hizashi-han looked at me with utter, sheer disappointment (I didn't even think you still kept in touch with them. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HIASHI-JERK REMEMBERED WHAT I LOOKED LIKE!), six ANBU (ANBU) egged my apartment, my neighbours smashed my front door in and spray-painted 'whore' on my welcome mat and the fishmonger's wife actually hit me in the face, saying that I deserved far worse for what I did to 'that poor man, Kami-sama's gift to the Elemental Countries!'
An eighty-year old geriatric fossil threatened to sue me for hurting you, some random kids from the park that I don't even know threw stones at me after I came home from training, Hokage-sama avoided my gaze the entire time I was being debriefed, Aburame Shibi's bugs bit me and he didn't even apologise for it, every single chuunin in the mission assignment hall blanked me, Tsunade-sama broke my elbow and didn't even heal it my last check-up and a ragtag bunch of civilians invaded my house as I was taking a bath and ransacked it, stole nothing and left a note telling me that I was the worst thing that happened to the world's greatest hero and that I should just die!
Also, the crows pooped on me, the cats in the neighbourhood scratch-attacked me in unison when they've never done that before EVER (and I know one of your fangirls had a cat summons contract) and a six year old spat at me and called me a 'mean lady!'
And I've only listed the major transgressions. This isn't even counting what your fangirls do to me on a regular basis, what your underlings do on an every-two-days basis, and what the minor clans in Konoha throw at me whenever I walk past their clan compounds.
HOW MANY FANS DO YOU HAVE!?
AND THIS ISN'T EVEN COUNTING THE LAWNMOWER AND SPAGHETTI INCIDENT!
And this all doesn't even take into account what I do to myself.
I…I miss you Minato. So much.
I'd be able to take all of this, all of it, if it meant you wouldn't be angry with me anymore.
Is this what you felt like?
Kami-sama, you must seriously hate me.
I'm sorry. I'm so so so so so sorry.
You know I don't think before I act, you know how evil I can be, you know how I'd never have done it if I was thinking straight, you know how much you mean to me…
Minato, you're my best friend. I don't think I could ever live without you.
You don't know how much I…I—
I love you.
I love you Minato.
I love you so much.
Please don't let me go…
Kami-sama I sound pathetic, even on paper. But I'm not going to take it back.
I'm just so scared of what you'll do when I tell you what I am. You'll hate me. You'd never want to talk to me again.
They all hate me now (the entirety of Konoha) but I know you don't.
And I think I'd die if you hated me too.
No, 'too' implies that so long as everyone else didn't hate me I'd be fine. That's a lie.
I'd die if you hated me.
I love you Minato.
And I don't know what to do.
She scrunched up the piece of paper she was writing on and threw it carelessly behind her. It fell behind her brightly coloured sofa and lay there forgotten.
Years later, when they're cleaning the house to make room for their soon-to-be-born baby boy, Minato finds it, reads it and gently smooths it out and carefully, lovingly, places it in between diary entries 52 and 53.
But for now, a tear slides down her face as she stares into the starry heavens and Kushina's feelings don't reach the man that lies snuggled under the covers, wondering how he's going to face another day without the love of his world.
Chained on its back, the Kyuubi snarls.
In his house, Kakashi startles awake from a dream filled with screaming and Rin and chidoris. He stays awake till dawn.
On the other side of Konoha, Rin snuggles deeper into her covers, eager to show her sensei her improvements on the Kizutsuhara surgical practice for extracting poisons from the neurotransmitters in the brain synapses, forgetting entirely that neither one of her teammates would appreciate the medical jargon.
In the Uchiha clan compound, as his grandmother lay asleep, Obito tried counting sheep and instead had visions of his success as the Best Jounin Ever while a stone-faced Zetsu evaluated its pawn from the shadows.
Jiraiya-sensei? Oh, he was drunk. Caused a riot, got slapped by Tsunade-hime, Orochimaru cleaned up the mess and grumbled but paid the horrendous six digit bill, and they each went home. Jiraiya was tossed into bed, Tsunade went home to her lover, and Orochimaru got home to Anko lying on his couch.
He spread a blanket over her snoring figure, took off her shoes and hair-tie, adjusted her position so that she wouldn't wake up with a crick in her neck and went to bed himself.
Sandaime-sama cursed the paperwork with the hatred of a thousand burning suns. Danzou dealt with the same amount in his underground lair, frostily glaring at it with the tempered ice of a frigid blizzard.
Good night minna-san!
A guest reviewer asked me how Kushina could have restocked Minato's cupboard with 63 different varieties and flavours of tea when they'd stopped fighting for like, 3 days. The answer is: she's Kushina.
Minato is seriously popular. No, he didn't put anyone up to this, he's not that kind of guy, but they all did it for him. Yes, even the birds.
Also, RenegadeSon, another guest reviewer, asked me why Tsume is so interested in their relationship. The answer is: Everyone is. They are the world's most obvious and stubborn couple, and everyone is interested in them. But Tsume, she feels obliged to help Minato because he calls her senpai even though he graduated before she did (he does it because he's Minato) but can't help him with feelings and advice at allso she sticks with helping him with the sexual aspect of it all.
Many other reviewers have been worried about Mikoto's marital status, her happiness and the possibility of Sasuke and Itachi not being Fugaku's children. The answer, or extended explanation, is: Mikoto used to like Minato. Her best friend loves him. So she ignores her feelings, which isn't healthy, gets married when she didn't want to, gave up her shinobi career to take care of Itachi (though it doesn't say so in the entries because Minato felt it was obvious and not a point of contention) and it's Fugaku.
She learns to love him, but in the beginning she did sleep around because she was sulking. She learns to love him people, both her kids are also Fugaku's kids, there was no rape involved (for some reason, that's been brought up quite a lot) and Mikoto becomes happy.
Not everyone has a fairytale romance and Minato and Kushina are special in that they did. Mikoto's fine.
And she'd be severely affronted that you guys are worried about her so much. And secretly pleased.
Not that a proper Uchiha would admit it or anything.
