Naruto
I couldn't help but think about the friends that I could invite to the party when we he said we were actually going to have one. I mean I know I only had a few friends but I would hope that they could come. Seeing as it IS a holiday for families. Oh, and then Gaara sprung the skiing trip at me for next weekend! It made me happy. Just thinking about being in a cabin together alone...unless we really did go with Hinata and her family.
But the cookies had me wanting to do it right away. So after Gaara and I finished eating I helped him with the dishes, by drying and putting away, and then I helped picking up around the apartment a little before I finally convinced him to start making the cookies.
"I promise I won't make that much of a mess!" I crossed my heart while my tail wagged and my ears perked up
"I don't care if you make a mess." he laughed it off but I only frowned at him. I didn't really believe him. He said he doesn't care but I know deep down that he must get sick of my messes sooner or later... Right? "Oh come on Gaara it must annoy you at least a little bit."
"Nope. If it was someone else then it would probably annoy me. But your just clumsy and it's not your fault." he said and I only pouted
"Fine...I believe you." I sighed
"Would you want it if I DID get mad at you?" he looked at me questionably
"That's not it at all! I just think its weird how my little screw ups don't make you upset... I mean it would upset anyone else." I looked at him and he just took in a breath before he pecked my lips. I just looked away back to the counter.
Gaara
"Wanna know what I have a problem with?" I asked honestly, Naruto turned giving the widest most saddened eyes ever, as if I just confirmed his deepest fear. He gave a slight nod. "I hate it when I can't love you as much as I should..." Naruto gave me a shove. As if trying to prove he's not a weak as uke as I think he is.
"Oh my gosh Gaara, I thought you actually had a problem with something you had me so worried you're such a... meanie!"
"Ohhhh, Naruto's pulling out the harsh words... I just know he's serious."
"Shut up." Naruto gave me a playful glare.
I laughed and pulled out a cookie sheet. We made the dough then we began rolling it and cutting out the shapes, I let Naruto do most and I caught him sneaking the dough into his mouth multiple times before I gave in and had some myself.
Naruto flinched then sneezed causing a mushroom cloud of flower to fill the work area. He had flour on his face, in his hair, and tail. Sadly, I was just as covered.
I laughed, he had the priceless look on his face as he made sure I wouldn't get mad before he realized he did nothing wrong and smiled lightly.
"Thanks." he mumbled looking down.
"Huh? For what?"
"For not getting mad at me." he said, rolling more dough to keep his hands busy and his eyes away from mine.
"I adore seeing your face covered in white stuff." Naruto froze I started chuckling.
"You're so mean!"
"you know I wouldn't be mean to you... not really you know." at least I hoped he did.
"Yeah... I do."
"Good, than trust me."
Naruto
"I do trust you; no matter how many times Jiraiya says I trust you too much." I rolled my eyes. Gaara doesn't use me and I know that he wouldn't do anything that I wasn't ready for. So I don't have to worry...
My ears twitched as I sniffed the air. Freshly baked cookies were surrounding me causing me to smile. Again I say I just love Christmas. I cut out a few more cookies I could and put them on the sheet. I frowned when I saw that there wasn't enough doe left to use the cookie cutters.
"Why the long face?" the red head kissed my forehead after he took out another pan of cookies
"There's not enough doe left..." I whispered
"Well you don't have to use the cutters. See?" he took some of the left over's and sculpted an N out of it. I just copied his movement and made a sad looking G. But can you blame me? A G is harder than an N. But even though he smiled. When the last batch went in the oven we had lots of cleaning to do...mostly because of me. So I tried to rush with cleaning to show I can do something only to cause sadly, more of a mess. My ears lowered in defeat when my shirt had gotten wet from a malfunction of the sprayer
"You don't have to try so hard." he said as he read my mind and wiped me off a little. I didn't help much making me know I was going to need another shower.
"I'm not trying hard. I'm just trying my best" I said honestly as he smiled
"It's the same thing." he spoke as he finished wiping of the counter. I went and helped with the floor.
When we were all done stretched my arms high above my head after looking at the oven, seeing as they wouldn't be done for about 20 more min."Hey you wanna take a shower? Were both dirty."
Gaara
"Of course I'll take a shower with you." I smiled, leaning in to kiss him. I stripped in the hall putting my dirty clothes straight into the wash, Naruto blushed but did the same, so I could see every scar on his body, his tail was white with flour too.
I leaned in to kiss him again, I know we are naked and he'd feel awkward but he was so cute. For a second he resisted but then I guess he decided he trusts me and let me pull his body to mine...
"G-Gaara..." Naruto pulled away unsure.
"I'm sorry..." I pulled away completely, aware that I was getting hard. Naruto blushed looking down then looked away his cheeks crimson after seeing that fact. "Let's get in the shower ok?" I said warming up the water. Naruto hugged me from behind.
"I love you..." He whispered.
"I love you too"
Naruto:
It took me a few minutes to try and forget that Gaara was getting just slightly hard from a kiss. Did I do that to him? Well I mean of course that is obvious but what if it was just some freak accident. The way he changed the subject made me feel ad so I hugged him…I hope he didn't feel awkward like I always did. "I love you..." I said softly
"I love you too" he said while turning around just a bit to kiss my forehead. I smiled at that right before he pulled me into the warm water with him. Causing me to squeak a bit from the quickness and I blushed when I had to hold onto his shoulders for a second to keep my balance. "S-Sorry." I smiled nervously and he just kissed my cheek before he grabbed a washcloth and I stopped him. He gave me a confused look "I caused the mess so I'll clean you off first okay?" I told him
He shrugged with a "sure why not." expression. He smirked as I grabbed the washcloth from his hand and looked for the soap...to my despair. I dropped it. "Hasn't anyone ever told you to not drop the soap Naruto?" he chuckled.
"Shut up." I blushed bent over quickly to pick it up and place it in the washcloth so that it was out of harm's way from falling to the floor again.
I started washing his back before got to the front of his body and gently rubbing his torso.
Gaara
"You wanna go lower?" I teased, pushing my hips forward and teasing Naruto.
"S-S-Shut up..." he said.
"Aww I thought you were gonna say 'S-S-S-S-Sure'!" I said mimicking his stutter. He hit me with the washcloth. "Let me get all the flour out of your tail." I said, pulling on his tail and ringing it out causing Naruto to gasp in surprise.
"G-Gaara..." it came out as a half plead half a moan. Did he want me to stop? I think not.
"Yes?" I said adding some shampoo to my rubbing. He put both hands on the wall of the shower to hold himself up, his legs were shaking just a bit but it could be from the cold since he wasn't on the shower head. "Cold?"
"A-A little." he stuttered, his tail loving the attention. My free hand snaked around his hips and I pressed his hips back into mine. "N~no... Gaara..." he said sounding scared as I pressed my groin to him. That hand on his hip continued to wrap around his member.
"You're just as hard as I am..."
"Gaara... should we... should we be doing this?" he asked nervous. I wasn't going to go all the way, he was just freaking out because we were both naked and he was in a very vulnerable position.
"Don't worry, trust me ok?" I said kissing the back of his neck.
"O-ok"
Naruto:
I mean I just had to trust him. Plus it felt so fucking good. This wasn't the first time we did anything while we were in the shower, but it was still sort of a surprise and yes I was somewhat scared that he might take it a bit far only because of the position.
I moaned out when I felt him start sucking on a spot on my neck. I was more okay with him leaving a love bites so he didn't even have to ask anymore, which like I said I really was okay with it.
"Oh g~god Gaara." I said and bucked my hips a bit forward in instinct
He teasingly blew onto my ear causing me to shiver. I didn't know what to answer. It felt so good, god I didn't want him to stop. And then that's when I got an idea.
My knees were wobbling and my hands were keeping me steady on the wall but I just put my head on the cool tile and took my other hand off. Sneaking it around my body I timidly touched Gaara's length and he gasped moving his hips a bit into my hand.
I blushed as I did this blindly and Gaara kept helping me with my problem. And yet I couldn't stop moaning.
Gaara
God he was so adorable, I made sure I had complete control over myself so I wouldn't go too far. I couldn't help but moan as I thrusted a bit greedily into his hand, and kept pumping him with my fist.
"Naruto." I moaned, god I wish I could fuck him...
"Gaara, I... I think I'm gonna... c.."
"I love you!" I said, hushing him as he released on the wall, I let the running water clean off my hand, Naruto panted against the wall, I was really hard now and he wasn't pumping anymore. I decided to give him a minute to catch his breath.
Naruto
I felt like I could collapse on the floor. And I swear that I almost did to if I wasn't holding myself up on the wall. Second time today.
It took me a bit to get over my bliss to hear Gaara have some irregular breathing and I remembered that my red head hadn't finished yet. And I knew that what he just did for me I would want to do the same for him.
A bit shakily I turned around to see Gaara staring at me with half lidded lust filled eyes as he panted. I couldn't help but think how such a...could I call him a god since he's a demon? Anyway how such a person can love me is beyond me. I put my arms around his shoulders and kissed him. A passionate kiss that went into a tongue battle as soon as it started. My one hand trailed down his side then front and I began to pump him again while he would moan in my mouth.
When we let go we were both panting and he was moaning "Naruto..." he half hissed before he claimed my mouth in another kiss. And he seemed possessive with it. I just worked my hand faster until he finally released in my hand.
When he took some time catching his breath he finally looked at me "I love you."
"I love you too" I smiled even though I was blushing like crazy at the whole situation.
Gaara
After a few seconds of an awkward silence as we both caught out breaths, we finally began to wash up. By the time we got out the cookies were beeping away in the oven, so I took them out and we began to decorate. This time we only got our hands a bit messy with the frosting and the sprinkles, but we just washed in the sink.
After we decided to relax on the couch, and watch some TV.
"Gaara...?' Naruto asked.
"Yeah?"
"Do you get bored with me?" Naruto asked.
"What do you mean?" I said. He took a deep breath as if calming himself to talk to me.
"Like... sexually?" he said, I guess he was getting a bit more comfortable with me day by day.
"No of course not, why would you think that?" I asked. It was some of my favorite moments when we got a bit intimate.
"Well... it's just that... we haven't done anything more than... well I mean, I haven't given you more than a... hand job..." he blushed "but I know you would love to go further... I was just wondering if you'd get... bored." he gulped and looked down avoiding my eyes.
"Never. I'd rather spend the rest of my life with your hand jobs than to ever have sex with anyone in this whole world. I'll wait for you, a first time is the hardest one, but we can take it slow, I don't mind that. As long as I can pleasure you, I'm perfectly ok with that, ok?"
"I still feel bad... you never expect me to... you know?... return the favor?" he said.
"Not until you're ready. That's a big step, some people don't ever do that, it's just hand jobs and sex. I'm just used to giving bj's to... I mean, not that I liked it, I was forced to with Sasuke... but I don't mind giving them to you, I liked to with you... I mean... I like giving bj's but... I like pleasuring you." I kept trying to find a way out of my big mouth.
Naruto
I took in a breath. I was just happy it was out in the open as I snuggled into Gaara's side and his arm was lazily hooked around my shoulder. I mean...I know that my first will be hard. And I figured that I might be scared but I guess I'm also just afraid that our relationship might change you know? As if we have sex our whole life might be different.
"You don't have to protect yourself." I told him "I'm pretty much already...know that you had a relationship with teme. So you can be open all you want."
"Teme?" he said
"As in bastard. For what he put you through." I said and he laughed
"So he gets a nickname but I don't." he pouted a bit but I knew it was a fake one as he put out his lower lip
"Oh shut up. You know I love you. Unless you want me to start calling you some sort of swear." I rolled my eyes and he chuckled kissing the top of my ears as they parted and stayed in a calm matter.
"I love you and love every part of you... including your moans. That's why I love pleasuring you to make you make those noises. Since I'm the only one to be able to hear them." he said to me and I could tell he was serious as.
"I'll get better...I promise." I said more to myself than him. But I guess I also wanted him to know that I was getting more open about it.
Naruto
"I'm glad our relationship is going strong, I mean, with all the up's and downs we've had, I'm surprised you trust me enough to even talk to me about when I molest you." I said. I did come on strong at times, but Naruto seemed to think he thought he was stronger than I give him credit for. You CAN be sexually abused by a love one, even if he doesn't realize that, I do, I've been in that situation.
"Of course I trust you! And you don't molest me! I put myself in half of the situations, and I'll never get more comfortable with sex if you don't push me over my limit a little bit at a time. I'd never have guts to do stuff like that myself if I didn't have a push in the right direction!"
"True, I guess. But sometimes I feel like I'm pushing you a bit... too much. Sometimes when I hear you stay stop, or you moan my name I have an inner battle with myself thinking you really mean to stop or you're complaining and not moaning in pleasure. But my body wins over my mind and I continue going on the hopes you won't hate me when were done..."
"If I didn't want you to continue, you'd know, I'd put up a fight and a half. like when Kankuro tried to eat me..." he shivered at the memory "I put up as good a fight I could with a demon, and you'd be much more gentle too."
NAruto
"Of course I would be gentle." he said softly, "or, well, I'll try to. And I mean I will so don't freak out! I'm just saying..." he cut off as he stopped trying to fix what he said
"It's okay. No need to freak out. I trust you to be gentle and to tell the truth I'm sort of...I was sort of surprised that you haven't been more forceful. You have been sweet and gentle from day one so I'm sure you won't lose control on me." I told him honestly
"So you won't hate me even if I molest you?"
"I wouldn't call it molesting but...yes even if you molest me. But if you're going to do it when people are here we seriously need to lock our door." I giggled slightly and he only smiled in return. It got silent. Not an awkward silence but a comfortable one seeing as how we just admitted things that we have probably been on our minds for awhile.
Gaara
The rest of the evening passed in a comfortableness that we were both used to. After we ate, Naruto helped with the dishes that had stacked up, and we did a load of wash, folded everything and put them away in our drawers.
I told Naruto that sometime this weekend, we had to finish any unfinished Christmas shopping and wrap all the gifts. I promised Naruto I'd let him pick out the wrapping paper.
we went to bed an hour early, but we fell asleep not until it got closer to ten anyway because we just made out and chatted for a bit, but Naru was asleep by ten which is good for him since he had school in the morning. I sat listening to his calm breathing, staring at the ceiling and thinking about a comment my aunt had made to me, and I overheard my sister saying something of the same to Naruto.
My aunt had told me that the bags under my eyes have disappeared, and asked me if I'd been sleeping. She figured I was on some sort of drug to make my tiredness go away, but I told her it was easy for me to sleep with Naruto because with him I had no bad dreams. She had said that a lot of couples say they sleep better with a loved one, but she admitted she thought that only worked because they were so tired after intercourse every night. I denied this because Naruto and I only occasionally gave each other hand jobs, and it's not like that was every night. She also told me Naruto being around put a big change on my mood. She said I was rarely moody anymore, and in truth I feel a whole lot better.
My sister had said to Naruto "you do a lot more than you think" when Naruto told her I take care of him. Was this all true? Was Naruto that influential on me that he changed my whole life around? In truth, my life has been perfect since I met him.
