A hotel room bed was starting to become lisa's best friend. She felt like her life was in a virtual tail spin. Just last month she had a man in her life that loved her now she wasn't so sure.
The words he said were swimming around in her head. He needed a break to think things threw he needed a break, a break, a break.
Lisa's eyes welled up with tears she honestly didn't think she had anymore tears left to cry.
She looked over at the clock on the table and saw it was 5:30 in the morning of what morning she didn't know. She knew it was January but she didn't know what day. She sat up in bed and ran her hand over her face.
Lisa grabbed her cell phone and turned it on. She knew when it powered up there would be some many text and voice messages from her friends wondering where she is. As she waited for her phone to come on she went into the bathroom and splashed come water on her face.
When she looked in the mirror she couldn't believe what she saw.
"Oh my god I look like death." Lisa said shaking her head.
When she went back in the bedroom she saw he phone was finally on she looked and saw she had some voicemails and a ton of text. She scrolled threw the text and saw most of them were from Chaleen and Aj but the one person she hoped she would see she didn't.
Her heart sank even further then it already had. She checked her voicemails.
"Hey lisa it's Aj just calling to see how your holiday was call me I miss you."
"Hi Lisa it's Stephanie just wanted to call and wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year can't wait to see you call me if you need any help with the wedding I'd be glad to throw you some wedding planner names talk to you soon."
She closed her eyes when steph talked about the wedding she looked down at her naked left hand she felt some tears stream down her tired face.
"Hey lisa it's Kaitlyn when you get this give me a call ok I miss you. Talk to you soon."
Lisa could tell kaitlyn knew something just by the tone of her voice. But she just couldn't tell anyone what was going on all though she thought that maybe some of them might have already known.
"Lisa it's Cha, honey please call me I'm so worried about you. Look I want you come stay with me Greg is going away on a business trip over seas for two month it will just be you and me. We can sit up al night and eat whatever you want. Honey please call me."
Lisa wanted to call cha but she didn't know if she could face her.
The next message shocked her.
"Hey its me. I just wanted to make sure your ok. Look sweetie I know I'm the last person you wanna hear from right now but I just want you know that I love you and I'm sorry I'm doing this to you, I hate myself right now, I'm just so confused by everything. Lisa I love you I always will I'm so sorry for everything."
When she heard the message end she broke down and sobbed she could hear the sadness in his voice, yes she still loved she could never stop loving him she just didn't know what to do she wanted to call him and hear his voice but she just couldn't do it. She scrolled threw her contacts and called cha
"Hello."
"Chaleen."
"Lisa oh my god honey are you alright I've been so worried about you."
"I know I'm sorry I just couldn't talk to anyone."
"Oh honey I know where are you."
"At the west view hotel."
"Lisa why didn't you come here."
"I don't wanna bother you I'm sorry."
"Honey you are not a bother you're my sister I love you."
"I don't know what to do cha, I'm so lost without him."
"I know sweetie, listen pack your stuff I'm coming to get you, I'm bring you home."
"Home I don't even know where that is anymore, Home use to be with phil now I'm not even sure I have him anymore." Lisa said sniffling.
"Listen to me, my brother is a moron, he's not handling this whole fake baby thing well and telling you the women he loves the women he's gonna marry that he needs a break to think about things is stupid now I love my brother but honey he's an idiot."
Lisa laughed a little.
"Cha he's not a idiot he's an asshole, but I love him so much I just wish he would let me help him get threw this but he would rather run away then face this together like we should have from the start."
"I know, I know phil was never good at facing a problem head on he would much rather throw himself into work then face a fear head on. So can I come get you."
"Yeah come pick me up I wanna come home."
"I'll be there in 10 minutes."
"Ok I'll see ya soon."
After lisa hung up with cha she packed her bag and headed downstairs to check out. When she was done she headed outside to wait for cha. She took her phone out of her pocket and scrolled over the names in her contact list her finger hovered of his name tapped it and called him.
It rang 6 times before the voicemail picked up.
"Hey phil here leave message and I'll get back to ya."
"Phil it's me. I love you to. Please don't make me wait. I need you we need each other, Please don't go threw this alone let me help you, let me be there with you we need go threw this together. I'm gonna be staying at your sister's call me back if you want to. But please remember this one word Forever."
Lisa hung up the phone and sighed. She saw cha's car pull up.
Cha got out and hurried over and hugged a weary looking lisa.
"Come on honey let's go home."
Lisa gave cha a small smile. She prayed that phil would take what she said and listen to it.
