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Ok before I begin I have to share a story that I came across last night. It's called "Darkness and White" by the author who goes under the name of "PerhapsPerhapsPerhaps" It's not your typical FSOG type of story as you will read in her summation but the story really is amazing. I hope you read it and enjoy it as much as I do!
Lori66,
I forgot to mention I love that you called me "The Panty Changer" because the lemon scenes I write are so hot! You are too kind! :P
As per your requests, I've given you another chapter within the same day. Sorry this is a short update but please remember that although I have this story all planned out, it's only an outline. I still have to fill in the blanks. If it were up to me, I'd be filling in the blanks all day long, but alas, life does get in the way! :D As usual, please forgive any spelling errors, I wanted to get this out to you ASAP.
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Enjoy,
Rosie
APOV
I hear the door open and I see Christian. I feel safe and protected. I can breathe easy now.
I smile at him in the hopes of putting his mind at ease. He smiles at me, and as much as Christian has a beautiful smile, this is different. His smile is trying to conceal the pain that is written all over his beautiful face, I cannot bear to see the worry in his eyes. It breaks my heart!
Grace hugs me and says, "Ana, you're going to be just fine dear."
She hugs me hard and walks to Christian, she hugs him and whispers in his ear. Probably just to reassure him that I am fine. Well physically I'm fine, however I do need to get my head sorted out.
"Are you sure you don't want to stay for breakfast mom? It's really no trouble, you know that." I hear Christian plead.
My poor Christian, he's so worried he probably doesn't know what to do with me.
"No darling, I've got my rounds to make at the hospital this morning. I'll take a rain check dear."
"Thanks mom," Christian says as he gives her a hug.
Grace is startled but then returns his embrace, I see her eyes filled with love, she's trying not to cry.
"Ana, take care and we shall see you on Sunday. It's our Grey Sunday Dinner."
"Of course Grace," I say. "I cannot wait."
As soon as Grace leaves I see Christian steel himself, as if he needs to gain strength.
I need to make this easy on him as he's had more than enough crap to deal with in his life.
"Ana," He says softly as he approaches me. "Are you hungry baby? Gail made a huge breakfast spread. Omelets, pancakes, bacon, whatever you like."
I stand slowly and hug Christian hard as I nuzzle my face in his chest.
"Oh Ana, your hugs...they do something to me every time. I'm the one that is supposed to be strong and take care of you. Yet when you hug me like this, I'm the one that feels safe and cherished. Dammit Ana, I love you so very much." He sighs and squeezes me hard.
"Christian, you're crushing me, I can't breathe." I say.
"I'm sorry Angel, you do that to me. I get lost in you."
"I am hungry Christian, matter of fact I'm starving and I think I'm going to need my strength for today." I say as prepare myself for what's to come.
"Why do you need your strength today Ana? What is it that you want to do?" he asks and I swear I hear a slight tremble in his voice.
I think we both know that we will face something today. That worries us both as we don't know what lies ahead. What I do know is whatever it is that ails me I can face it because I have Christian at my side and I can do anything as long as he loves me.
Christian and I head downstairs. I see Gail and Taylor in a hushed conversation. Gail looks worried and Taylor looks upset. They see us and they immediately stop talking.
Gail smiles and says, "Mr. Grey, Ana, good morning."
Christian nods and I say, "Good morning Gail. Mmmmm...everything smells so good and I am starving!"
Gail smiles and nods, "I will leave you two to enjoy."
"Gail? Taylor?" I call to them before they leave.
"Thank you for...well, thank you for everything. I'm fine you know. I'm going to be fine."
Taylor smiles and says, "Of course you are Miss Steele...I mean Ana. You are going to be fine."
Gail can only nod and smile. I fear if she attempts to speak that she may cry.
Geez, it's not like I'm dying or anything! Good Lord!
"Angel, let's eat baby." Christian demands.
"Mmmm...yes, let's eat!" I say enthusiastically!
Once we finish our meal Christian asks again, "Ana, you didn't answer my question. Why do you need your strength today?"
"Christian, I have to tell you something. Please don't be upset with me. I didn't want you to worry about me unnecessarily. Please understand."
"Of course baby, go on." He says softly. "Come." He takes my hand and leads me to the sofa and we sit next to each other. I'm scared and need comfort so I sit on his lap.
He wraps himself around me and says, "Ok baby, you're fine now. You're safe. Go ahead."
I proceed to tell Christian everything about my day on Monday, starting from Noah telling me he's going public with his ownership of LBP, from when I fainted when Noah asked me about Jessica, visiting Dr. Flynn and seeing Dr. Paz.
It feels good to finally share this with him, I wasn't planning on keeping this information from Christian. I was merely waiting for the right time and I obviously didn't want to have him worrying about me on his birthday!
CPOV
I'm stunned! I knew she took the day off to make arrangements for my birthday surprise but I had no clue whatsoever that all this other shit was occurring as well!
Fuck!
She fainted at LBP and she didn't fucking tell me! What kind of shit is that? I grit my teeth and my body is tense with anger and rage. I'm going to explode. What the fuck was she thinking dammit!
"Christian?" Ana calls me back and soothes me with her voice.
She nuzzles and kisses my chest as I take long deep cleansing breaths.
Keep cool Grey, don't snap! She needs your love and compassion now! She's fucking fragile, one word from you and she might tip over the edge! Keep cool!
"Christian? Talk to me. Please don't be mad. Please, I couldn't take it. I need you Christian." She sniffles.
Shit! That fucker is right, or rather I'm right. Oh fuck, who gives a shit!
"Ana, it's ok baby. It's fine."
"So, you're not mad at me?"
Ok fucker, what are you going to say now? The ball is in your court! Don't fuck this up!
"Ana, I am upset with you."
What the fuck are you doing you idiot? Did you not hear what I said! Christ!
I shut out the voice and continue.
"Ana, I'm upset that you kept this from me but I am happy that you've told me about it now. Let's just move forward from here, ok baby?"
Ana hugs me hard and says, "Yes Christian, I want to move forward. Do you think you can call Dr. Flynn. I would like to see him today if possible."
"Baby, I'll call him right now and we will leave within the next hour."
"Don't you have to make sure he's available?" She asks.
"He will be available, I will take of everything. Come, let's shower together and get the day started right." I purr.
APOV
My moves are robotic. Christian and I shower together but that's all that we do, shower. He scrubs me clean and gives me an occasional kiss but my man is on a mission. We dress quietly not speaking, knowing that we have some challenge to overcome.
Some how we end up at Dr. Flynn's office, I wasn't really paying attention during the drive. The car stops and no one moves, the silence is eerie. Poor Taylor can't take it and says, "Sir?"
Christian squeezes my hand and says, "We're here baby. Are you ready to do this?"
I square my shoulders back, smile at Christian and say, "Ready as I'll ever be."
He steps out of the SUV and takes my hand. Taylor stands by the door.
Christian looks at Taylor and says, "Thanks." Taylor nods.
Taylor looks at me and tries to give me a "Everything will be fine smile."
I don't know why but for what ever reason I need to hug Taylor. I need for him to know how important he is to me and to Christian. He looks after Christian and it's more than a job to him, though I doubt he would ever admit it!
TPOV
Fucking hell, the tension in this car is ridiculous! What the hell is going on around here? Does Ana know that she is about the face the firing squad? The Boss is so fucked up he can't think straight! I'm fucking lucky I found Flynn's office! I've only been here over a thousand times!
Ana has us all mind fucked and it's her mind that is truly fucked at the moment! God! I would do anything to help The Boss and the kid out!
They love each other so much! You can fucking feel the electrical current when they are together! It's killing me just sitting here! Will someone fucking say something before I go bat shit crazy up here?!
Oh fuck this!
"Sir?" I say quietly hoping they realize we are here at ground zero!
The Boss says to Ana, "We're here baby. Are you ready to do this?"
Ana says, without missing a fucking beat, "Ready as I'll ever be."
She is such a strong kid, I can't help but feel for her.
Shit! I have a fucking lump in my throat.
If they ask me anything I know my voice will crack!
Fuck!
They get out of the car and The Boss says, "Thanks." I find the strength to nod.
I cannot speak.
Then I see Ana, beautiful sweet Ana. She's grown on me. I love her like a little sister.
She's a such a sweet kid. I smile at her in the hopes that my smile let's her know that I am here for her, that I've got her back!
She looks at me with those big blues eyes and she launches herself at me.
Fuck!
The Boss is going to kill me or at least he'll try. It won't happen because I will take him down first to let him know, "You may be The Boss but I am The Man!"
I look at The Boss while Ana hugs me and he only nods as if to say, "It's fine. Ana needs this."
Fuck it! I hug her back just as hard.
She whispers in my ear, "Taylor, I don't know what's going to happen but whatever does happen. I need for you to be strong. You need to take care of Christian. He's a strong man but he has a fragile soul."
Why the fuck is she saying this shit to me? Gail, where are you when I need you? What do I say to this?
"Ana, it's my job to take care of The Boss."
"Taylor, you know that's not what I mean. Just do it!" She says as she kisses my cheek.
Holy fucking hell!
She releases me, smiles and looks to Christian, she takes his hand and says, "Ok Christian, let's do this!"
They walk together arm in arm as though they are taking a casual stroll in the fucking park! The Boss putting up a strong front and little Ana completely unaware of the hell that she will soon have to face.
God help them.
