WARNING: Like the last chapter, this might get too graphic! Don't say I didn't warn you! I would rate only this chapter M.
Alice's POV
I was kneeling on the grass with my eyes closed during a cloudy day in Prince Jacob's Kingdom.
Three weeks ago, Prince Jacob received news that Princess Renesmee was engaged to King Emmett, which didn't make him very pleased. He was so angry that he raped Lady Roslyn when she was making his bed in his chambers. I heard her screaming from the walls in my chambers that scared the daylights out of me when I was talking to Lady Emily. I wanted to see if she was alright but Lady Emily told me that Prince Jacob was in there. She also told me that never be around when Prince Jacob is angry because he doesn't have any self control. I asked her if he were raping her and she nodded. The screams were continuous until I heard her cry and the door loudly opened.
A two weeks later, Lady Roslyn received news that she was with child and it was Prince Jacob's. Even though all the mistresses were in a state of shock, I was more relieved that he didn't treat me the way he did with Lady Roslyn.
The night he invited me to his chambers, which was before he raped Lady Roslyn, he treated me tenderly. He didn't try to scare me or hurt me by taking everything slowly with a good pace. During that moment, it was hard to breathe with the state of shock I was in during the process.
Today, I kept reflecting what happened during the night with theoretical questions. What if I didn't go into his chambers? Would the situation be any different now? What if I was with child? What if that child were Jacob's? If we were to get married, would the child hold us closer?
It all started three weeks ago...
Flashback
I was in my chambers, wearing my robe over my silky nightgown. All of my mistresses were gossiping, laughing obnoxiously while Lady Emily was brushing my short black hair in front of a tall mirror. My heart was beating thunderously that I thought my ribcage was going to break open. I kept trying to steady my pulse but the thought that I was about to have sex with him couldn't make it any slower. Why was I doing this? I kept looking in the mirror, hardly noticing what I looked like.
Lady Emily kept brushing my clean hair, trying to occupy herself. "Don't be nervous."
"What if I do something he doesn't like? I might get executed for this!" I panicked, breathing in a quick pace.
She smiled. "I had an affair with him, remember? He knows what he's doing so all you have to do is follow him. When he kisses you, you kiss him back. When he picks you up, wrap your legs around his waist. When he places you onto the bed, stay down and don't move a muscle. It's painful, but it'll change your life."
That didn't help me. I wasn't ready to experience the agony. "Lady Emily, was that how you satisfy him? By letting him do whatever he wants with you?"
She nodded. "It'll come to you. He won't get upset with you if you messed up. Don't forget that this is his favorite sport. He always wins."
"Always wins, got it." I muttered, inhaling and exhaling.
"You better go. Good luck, Alice. It'll be fine, I promise you." She gave me a hug. I hugged her back, knowing that I always had a friend to rely on. We broke away from the hug to start walking towards his chambers.
I walked pass the other mistresses when I noticed Lady Roslyn was glaring at me with her body motionless. I knew that she wasn't happy that Prince Jacob invited to his chambers, which made me feel uncomfortable with the thought. I walked out of my chambers with only Lady Emily behind me through the dark hallways. Lady Emily held a lightened candle to guide us to Jacob's chambers without any complication from the darkness. When we approached towards the door, Lady Emily gave me a nod and walked away in the other direction.
I inhaled again and sighed with a exhale as I knocked on his door. "Come in," I heard Prince Jacob say from the other side of the door. I opened the door, walking into his chambers with my heart beat out of control. His chambers had five candle illumining up the chambers. I stopped walking when I reached a foot away from his bed. I stared at the bed with a horrifying image in my mind that seemed endless. So that was where everything was going to happen, on that bed. My life was going to change forever on that bed.
Prince Jacob walked in with his silky white robe on and wool slippers on his feet. He slid off the slippers from his feet, kicking them underneath his bed. A grin popped onto his face when he saw me, walking a little closer. When reached a inch away from me, he stopped to look at me. He looked into my eyes, trying to read me without any type of communication. He sighed without any emotion. "You look nervous."
"I am," I admitted. "I apologize if I'm making you uncomfortable."
"You're not," he said. He kissed my forehead, which gave me a cue to close my eyes. The kiss didn't feel like I thought it would feel, which relieved me. It felt soft and moist with his breathe giving me chills. I felt him kissed my cheek that felt a lot different. I opened my eyes to see that he was looking at me with an affectionate glow. "I'll take it slow to make you feel more comfortable."
He lightly pressed his lips against mine and following Lady Emily's advice, I kissed him back. We released until seconds later we repeated the kiss but it was more passionate than the first one. His tongue unexpectedly slipped into my mouth, feeling like a snake slithering up my leg. I touched his tongue with mine, which felt very peculiar since it was my first experience ever doing it. His lips kept forming into different positions against my mouth as his tongue kept slithering against mine. His hands gently went into my hair, massaging my head on each side lightly. We released again to breathe, looking into each others eyes. What I saw was a different man that I couldn't even recognize. I didn't feel irritated at him like I would have earlier if he attempted to kiss me. Somehow I unusually felt relaxed that a smile automatically popped onto my face.
He kissed me again with his tongue back into my mouth but this time was different. He lifted me up so I wrapped my legs around his waist like Lady Emily said I should do. I felt his hands go towards his pants as he was untying his robe. I felt him walking slowly, unable to see where he was heading towards. I opened my eyes to see that I was in a reverse position but my tongue never stopped moving along with his.
It was strange that I learned how to breathe when he was kissing me even though I had no experience once so ever. Obviously our mouths were blocked off, so I knew to breathe through my my nose. I hardly thought about it.
We collapsed onto the bed with my back on the bed, continuing the kiss. I closed my eyes again, trying to vision where I would be right now but Jacob interrupted me when he stopped kissing me. I opened my eyes to see what he was doing. I looked to see that he was taking off his robe with his bare chest showing and his slid off his breeches. My mind went clear as he leaned down to give me a peck on the lips. I was lying on the bed motionless with his knees surrounding each side of my thighs. He placed his hand onto my rob, sliding it down to the strings that held it together. He untied them, revealing my silky nightgown. He leaned down again to kiss me again with his tongue returning into my mouth and my eyes were closed. I felt him slid his fingers underneath my back, lifting me off the bed to be sat up. I felt warmth underneath me so I assumed I was in his lap with my legs wrapped around his boney waist.
Fears left me during that moment. I felt more mature than I felt when I turned sixteen two years ago. I felt a rush of emotions from joyous to impatience that overwhelmed me. I didn't feel any regret coming into his chambers. All I felt was happy.
I opened my eyes when he stopped the kiss. I was hesitating, anticipating on what he was going to do next. He was hesitating too, smiling at me like he was happy as I was. I felt his hands gently climb up my thighs. He was lifting my nightgown higher, revealing him something I never revealed to any men before. He bowed down his head, kissing my belly with his lips slithering downwards. A moan escaped my lips, leaning back as I felt a unfamiliar pressure coming from him. Minutes later, his lips trailed up back to my stomach, slithering up to my ribcage. I raised my arms in the air when his hands gracefully lifted my nightgown up to take it off my body.
When he threw the nightgown off my bed, he paused to look at me. I looked at him too, looking at the man I was about to marry. His chest was very bare with not a trace of hair on his colored chest. I also couldn't find one ounce of fat on his completely muscular body. I looked downwards to see his membrum virile that made my hormones overrule me. I look up to see him observing me with a smile.
"You look beautiful," he told me in a whisper. He leaned in to kiss again with his tongue back into my mouth, feeling his hands cupping my breast. He lightly pushed me onto the bed with his body onto mine. We never broke apart from the kiss until I felt something extraordinary. His membrum virile was plunged into me that felt excruciating but wonderful. We both moaned as he continued to thrust against me. I kept moaning as he kissed my neck, thrusting me continuously. It felt like the membrum virile was going in me further as the pain increased.
"I love you," he whispered. I moaned my reaction, hearing my heart beating, trying to escape out of my chest. He kissed me again but this time, my tongue went into his mouth. I felt the roofs of his mouth with his tongue gliding against mine. I felt pain that wanted me to attempt to escape, but somehow I couldn't. His lowered his head to kiss each of me breast. He sucked my nipple which was excruciating. He switched sides and sucked on the other but with more pressure. The thrusting became more violent like a sport that made me brake a sweat. I didn't want him to want so, not even thinking clearly, I started to kiss his neck. Not just kissing, but sucking it. I slid my tongue down his neck to his sweaty chest, licking it rapidly. We both moaned when he tried to plunge his membrum virile deeper into my body. The moans were continuous and becoming louder every second.
Then the thrusting stopped. We both let out a sigh, feeling sweat coming down from my temples. He was still on me, hesitating while he was looking into my eyes. I smiled, still trying to breathe normally. "That was nothing like I expected."
He mirrored my smile as he kept breathing deeply. "It was everything I expected." He planted his lips onto my chest, massaging the sides of my chest with his thumbs. I kissed his forehead, hugging me closer to my body. He looked up at me with a grin, raising his head off of my chest. He pressed his lips against mine and before I knew it, he was thrusting against me as I moaned, feeling the same excruciating pain.
As Lady Emily told me before and now I agreed with her: it defiantly changed my life.
I woke up with my head on his chest and our arms holding each other. We were underneath the covers with only our naked bodies to rely on for warmth. I heard his heartbeat throughout the night like a lullaby that put me to sleep instantly. As I lie there with Jacob still asleep, I kept thinking about today. How was he going to act around me? Was he going to treat me like a mistress or someone with actual value to him?
Then I kept thinking about other things. Did I love him? Could I marry him without any regret?
I felt unusually happy as I closed my eyes to try to go back to sleep again.
End of Flashback
I knew that Jacob was in love with two woman, but what made it impossible to choose?
I stood up from the grass, looking at the sky as I saw a deep gray cloud about to come closer to the sun. There was a slight breeze that made my skin develop goosebumps on my arms and legs. I looked at the palace, thinking about Jacob.
Should I go inside to comfort him? I knew I should but would he shun me out? Would he rape me?
I sighed, slightly shivering. I saw someone familiar walking towards me that wasn't Jacob. I squinted my eyes to get a better view from the distance. I finally saw who it was: it was Prince Seth. How did he get all the way here?
A few minutes later, he was finally close enough to see his facial features without difficulty. I had to admit that he was rather charming with his short black hair and a light green feather hat on his head. He had a matching cape that matched his hat along with his pantaloons. He was wearing a white chemise with brown worn out boots and boot leggings.
I curtsied gracefully. "Prince Seth, it's always a pleasure seeing you again."
He kissed my hand. "Princess Alice, you look lovely as ever."
I smiled. "So, are you here to see Prince Jacob? I'm not entirely sure if he would want to speak to anyone."
"No, I heard from Queen Rosalie that you were here so I came here to see you," he admitted.
"Oh, well I'm flattered. What can I do for you?"
"I came to ask for your hand in marriage," he said. "Princess Alice, you have been on my mind since the last time we saw each other at that ball months ago. I'll be honored to have you as my queen in my kingdom."
He was proposing to me? I couldn't hardly believed it. My thoughts were building chaos with thoughts that kept echoing throughout my mind. Half of me wanted to say yes, but the other half told me I was already engaged to Prince Jacob.
I sighed. "Prince Seth, I'll give you my answer later. There are a matter of things I have to think about before I choose. I hope you understand and I deeply apologize."
"I understand completely. I do have to talk to Prince Jacob about some things so I'll be here. Just let me know whenever possible."
I nodded. "I shall, I promise."
He kissed my hand again. "You have always been very gracious and generous to me, Princess Alice." He walked away, heading towards the palace.
A headache was developing as I kept thinking about my options. If I married Prince Jacob, he would leave Princess Renesmee out of his life but if I married Prince Seth, I would be unconditionally happy. Would I be unconditionally happy with Prince Jacob though? The unforgettable night would probably happen more often, but would I want that to happen?
I learned that I had to make selfless sacafices eventually in my life. I knew that I had to think it over, but I also knew that it wasn't going to be easy.
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~Ivy~
