EPOV:
I rubbed my eyes when I stood in the elevator and leaned back against the mirrored wall. A tired sigh left my mouth and I closed my eyes. This whole situation was getting to me. I needed her to talk to me. To talk about everything that had happened that night. I needed my old Bella back. The doors opened and I stepped into the all to familiar hallway and stopped in front of the penthouse door. I let out another sigh and put on my best smile. I knew she needed me to be cheerful right now. She didn't need my heavy mood and she had improved a lot the last couple of days. She was becoming more and more like her old self and DEAR LORD it had been hard yesterday to keep myself from kissing her. I needed her so badly.
I looked for my keys and just pulled them out of my pocket when the door opened. My eyes were still pinned to the ground so the first thing I saw where black pumps. I frowned and turned around to the elevator. Was this the wrong floor? Then I heard something I hadn't heard for months. A giggle. I got goosebumps immediately. My head turned around faster than I was able to realize and my jaw dropped when I saw the girl that was smiling at me.
I know it was weak but I dropped my keys. It was just too much. She noticed and got down to pick them up. She held them up in front of my face and giggled again.
"I think you lost something." She whispered and gave me a teasing smile. Hell yeah my voice! I cleared my throat and tried to act normal.
"B-B-Bella?" I mumbled in shock. Smooth Masen! She giggled again and then opened the door all the way. I gasped and let my eyes wander. She was wearing a black dress that stopped just above her knee. Her hair was down in wavy curls and she actually wore some jewelery I gave her.
"Do you want to stand there all night?" She asked and I stepped in without another word. She helped me out of my coat. "How was your day?" She asked in a low voice which led to another round of goosebumps.
"F-F-F-Fine." I got out and just caught her smirk out of the corner of my eye.
"Let's go." She whispered and took my hand. I bit my lip when her skin touched mine and the tingling went up my arm until it reached my heart. She led me into the dining room and again my jaw dropped. The whole room was decorated with candles and the huge dining table was full of food.
"Uhm... Bella?" I asked in shock.
"Yes Edward." She responded innocently.
"What's all this?" I asked.
"This is dinner." She explained and motioned me to sit down. I did as she told me. She sat down, too, and placed her elbows on the table to put her head in her hands. I gave her a look of amazement and disbelieve. She was fucking gorgeous!
"You did all this?" I asked and she laughed.
"Well thank you." She said and I shook my head quickly.
"It's not like I think you aren't able to do all this but... I mean... why?" I asked and for the first time she looked away and her smile vanished a bit. I could kick myself for that.
"I just thought... well... you were so amazing the last couple of days and I just wanted to say thank you." She mumbled. I grabbed her hand and held it in my own. She gave me a shocked look.
"Thank you." I said and kissed the back of her hand. "I love all of it." I added and a wide smile appeared across her face.
"Well then... let's eat. Shall we?" She asked and I nodded.
Dinner tasted amazing and I suddenly felt like I actually tasted the flavors of food for the first time in months again. We talked a lot and even laughed. There were these little moments in between that allowed me to forget the whole mess and just live for the moment. I was almost sad when Bella decided that it was time to clean up. I followed her into the kitchen with some bowls of leftovers.
"When are we going to leave?" She asked and I frowned at her back until she put the bowls down and turned around to face me.
"What are you talking about l...- Bella?" I asked. That was a close one!
"Your parents! We are going to your parents tomorrow. The big Christmas ball. You forgot?" She asked with a little laughter in it. I was confused.
"You want to go?" I asked her.
"Yeah? Why not? We said we would." She said and shrugged like it was nothing.
"But..." I hesitated. Our parents didn't know that we weren't together anymore... or not together right now. What ever we were- they didn't know. Bella rolled her eyes and patted my chest while walking past me.
"It's gonna be ok Masen. We are going to have some fun right?" She asked and gave me a wink.
"If it's really ok..."
"YES!" She groaned and I cleared my throat. Inappropriate thoughts right there!
"Fine. Than we'll go. I guess we could leave around noon?" I asked her and she smiled. We finished the dishes and I was kind of sad about it because I didn't want this evening to end. That's when Bella got a bottle out of the fridge. I frowned and then laughed.
"You're up to something tonight?" I asked and she gave me a shrug.
"Nope. Just trying to celebrate that finals are over." She said and gave me the bottle while passing me and looking for glasses.
"Yeah right. And since when are we celebrating stuff like this with... Tequila?" I asked still smirking. She shrugged.
"We never celebrated the fact that we finished finals so I'd say it's a new ritual!" She responded and I laughed. I sliced up some lemons and followed her into the living-room.
"This is crazy. We never drink!" I said and she smiled.
"Well it's about time than." She responded and leaned back on the couch. I sighed and took a seat on the other side of the table. I shook my head at her while smirking.
"You're unbelievable." I mumbled and I couldn't hide the adoration completely.
"I know." She said proudly and I laughed. "What are you waiting for? Open it." She ordered. I shook my head once more and than did as she told me. I filled the strong liquor into the two glasses and sighed while giving her one. She put some salt on the back of her hand and so did I. We looked into each others eyes and I felt the exciting tingling everywhere. Hiding my smile seemed impossible.
"To us... and this night." Bella said and I sighed.
"Here goes nothing." I mumbled and than licked the salt from the back of my hand and swallowed the alcohol before biting into a piece of lemon.
I don't know how late it was because I had lost track of time. I just know that we were emptying the second bottle and that I was sitting next to Bella on the couch. She laughed about something I just had said but I couldn't remember what it was. She giggled while filling our glasses.
"Oh you spilled it." I said and she giggled.
"I am sorry. The glass just moved I swear." She explained and I laughed.
"Yeah. Sure." I mumbled and watched her. I took my glass and waited for her to take hers. She gave me a shocked look.
"You forgot something!" She said and than took my hand. Without hesitating she licked the back of my hand and gave me a shocked look.
"What are you doing there?" I asked while laughing.
"I thoug you han any sal on se back of your han." She got out. (I thought you hadn't any salt on the back of your hand.)
"Well I did." I laughed.
"I know." She got out- slightly shivering because she still didn't swallow the salt.
"Well swallow it." I laughed.
"No... we need to do it together." She got out and I laughed even more.
"But you have my salt." I said and she rolled her eyes handing me the salt. I took it and then got an idea. I smirked and bit my lip. I put my glass back down and crawled over to her.
"Wha are you doi'?" She asked. (What are you doing?) I let out a dark chuckle and stopped right in front of her.
BPOV:
"I'm just returning the favor." He whispered into my ear and even though I drank all of that tequila I felt the tingling sensation all over me. He pulled my sweater down so that one of my shoulders was exposed and licked it. I closed my eyes and then felt the salt sticking to my skin. I opened my eyes again to see him take his glass back in his hand and smirking at me.
"Ready?" He whispered against my shoulder and I felt the wetness creeping up in other places. I bit my lip and closed my eyes. Than felt his rough tongue on my smooth skin and bit back a groan. We swallowed the tequila together and smiled at each other when the warmth of the alcohol filled us. He gave me a smirk and I shook my head while giggling. Than I snatched the salt from him and pushed him back. He gave me a shocked look when I crawled on top of him and giggled. I unbuttoned his shirt and watched how his eyes closed slowly. I bit my lip and than looked at his perfect chest. I kissed it once, twice... thrice... before I felt his hands on my waist and decided that I needed to end this now before this was going into a different direction. I licked a part of his chest and than put some salt on it.
I giggled when I felt his hands on my back and closed my eyes.
"So we're doing body shots now?" He groaned. Still his eyes closed.
"No... not really. If we would you'd have a lemon in your mouth." I responded and giggled while licking of the salt and then emptying my glass. I had just swallowed it when Edward rolled us over so that I was on the bottom. I giggled when he sat on top of me and gave me this amazing smirk. I was hot and bothered for this guy and if he would take advantage of me right now I wouldn't have a problem with it. His arms rested next to my head and I could smell his breath because he was so close.
"Why did you put the tequila into the fridge actually?" He whispered and I closed my eyes slowly.
"Because... because... because I like it when I feel the coldness going down my throat and how it turns hot all of a sudden." I explained. He ran his lips down my neck and I bit my lip.
"You know there are other things I could make you swallow that are much hotter than tequila." He murmured and I threw my head back to let out a groan that I had bitten back for far too long. He chuckled while lifting my sweater up to my breasts. I felt his lips stroking my stomach slowly and arched my back. I needed him... I needed this. I put my arms above my head and closed my eyes.
"Do you like that Isabella?" He mumbled in a low voice and then licked the part of my stomach that was just short above my jeans. I groaned again and heard his low chuckle.
"I take that as a yes." He mumbled and then I felt the salt on my skin. I sighed and closed my eyes again until I felt the weight on the couch shifting and something brushing against my lips.
"Open up." He whispered. I opened my eyes and saw him smirking again. I obeyed and he put a piece of lemon in my mouth. "Well now it's a real body shot." He said and gave me a wink. He crawled back down and I closed my eyes in a desperate try to control myself. But that didn't work. I had lost that struggle before he had even started. I only felt his hot breath on my lower stomach and automatically groaned.
Edward licked of the salt and than emptied his glass just to come to me afterwards and bite on the lemon. Some of the juice spilled on my lips and as soon as he had removed the lemon he licked the juice off. Big mistake. I groaned. That was the last barrier. Now there was nothing that could hold me back. I caught his bottom lip between my teeth and sucked on it. He froze just a tenth of a second- the time it took him to respond just as eager as I was. He groaned into my mouth while pressing his lips on mine more urgently.
"Oh god yes." I murmured and felt his hot breath in my mouth. His hands stroked my stomach until they found my sweater and pulled it off the rest of the way. I sighed and unbuttoned his shirt now completely. He shrugged out of it quickly so that he could feel my lips on his again.
"Oh Bella." He mumbled. He wanted me- which made me only more eager to want him. I sat up in his lap and wrapped my legs around his waist. He was hard for me. I groaned when I realized it. His hands ran down my back and his mouth let go of mine so that I could catch my breath. He kissed my neck and than my shoulders.
"I want you Isabella... no I need you." He whispered. I bit my lip and threw my head back.
"Than take me." I groaned and he growled.
"Don't say that." He mumbled and hid his head in my hair.
"Take me." I repeated.
"No." He whispered and let his hands slide up and down my torso.
"Take me." I said again.
"But..."
"Take me."
"Bella." He groaned in frustration.
"Edward just do it." I mumbled.
"I can't." He got out and kissed my shoulder.
"Take me." I whispered.
"It's the tequila. The alcohol." He mumbled. "You'll hate me tomorrow when I do this." He explained but I shook my head.
"No Edward I mean it." I whispered. I took his head in my hand and brought it up to mine so that he was facing me.
"I need you Edward. Inside me. Now." I begged and saw how his eyes rolled back into his head.
"Please don't make it so hard." He begged.
"I know other things that are much harder right now." I giggled and tucked at his jeans.
"Bella." He got out in shock. "You will regret this tomorrow." He said slowly.
"Hmm." I got out and started to unbuckle his belt when his hand stopped me. I gave him a shocked look and was met by his merciless eyes.
"I. said. no." He said each word clearly and slowly. My eyes grew wide and I let go of his belt immediately. For a moment I felt really used and naked. Than the hardness in his eyes vanished and was replaced with affection. I fell back on the couch and stared at the ceiling.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. All of a sudden thinking clearly was easy.
"It's ok. It was just the alcohol talking." He mumbled still sitting in between my legs. I shook my head.
"No. No it wasn't. That was me for once." I whispered. Edward frowned at me. "My feelings... that was me Edward. All me. All the things I held bottled up for so long now." I explained.
"But..."
"Why I did the whole timeout thing when I knew that I still had feelings for you?" I asked his question. He nodded silently. I sighed and shook my head while staring back at the ceiling. "Because... because... because it wasn't about finding love. I didn't do it to find love but get rid of it." I got out and hid my eyes behind my hand.
"WHAT?!?" He yelled and I didn't even wince. I expected him to be mad.
"I... After all that happened a couple of nights ago... after I thought for a couple of minutes you were dead I became scared of myself. I was scared because of what your loss did to me. I turned into a crazy person immediately. I wasn't able to do anything else than to wish I was dead. And that because I thought you were..." I stopped. "I just realized that I probably love you far too much and that I can't live one second without you. But this can't be healthy right? I mean... I mean it can't be healthy to love someone so much... more people would kill their selves if it would be normal right?" I got out in one flow.
"And because of that you told me you didn't love me anymore so that you actually somehow come to this point where you don't love me so much anymore?" He asked in disbelief. I nodded. He sighed and shook his head. "You're unbelievable Miss Swan." He mumbled and I gave him a shocked look.
"You aren't mad?" I asked curiously. He laughed and shook his head.
"Actually I am relieved. This gives me hope that we'll have a future together!" He sighed. I smiled and pulled him down. He gave me a questioning look which I answered with a kiss. "Bella." He mumbled. "I told you..."
"I know... I actually just want to fall asleep with you right now." I whispered and stroked his cheek. He let out a relieved sigh and turned us around so that he was the one underneath. I leaned my head on his chest and closed my eyes. His hand stroked along my back. There were no words to say. Just the moment of semi-happiness.
"Good night love." He whispered and I smiled. He hadn't called me that in so long. It felt good to hear that. I relaxed completely and soon fell asleep.
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