I had to get away from everyone right now. I had the darkness under control once. When I use to take small amounts from Lisa when she didn't know. I leaned to keep it under control. But right now, I need to do that again. Before I lose it. I know I can do it. I just need to breath and gather my thoughts.

When I know I was alone and no one was around I just let it all out. Everything that I was holding in. I just wanted to punch something or someone so bad right now. I was filled with rage right now. I know this wasn't good for me. But at less Lisa doesn't have it.

"Roza." I heard behind me. I turned to see Dimitri not that far from me. He must have come after me. He knows better than anyone what this does to me.

"Hey Comrade." I said.

I was trying to calm myself and not let these spirit magic takes over me. I will not be like the others. I will not go crazy. I will defect this. I will not let it rule mine or Lisa's life. It will not happen. I have controlled it before. I can do it again.

"You okay?" He asked me.

"Define okay? If it means wanting to bet the shit out of anything that pissed me off. Then yeah, I am perfect." I told him with a late of sarcasm in my voice.

He came closer to me. He pulled me into his arms. He just held me there. I know he was trying to help me. Like the old times. But stuff changes. This doesn't how I do it anymore. I let go of him and gave him a small smile. I then said,

"Thanks for trying. But Comrade that isn't how I stop it now. I had to figure this all out on my own this time. Don't worry. I am fine. I just need so time alone and breath."

"Mind if I stay to help in any way?" He asked me.

"Sure. But you are probably just going to stand there and watch me." I told him.

"That's fine." He told me.

I went over to the wall and leaned against it, so it was supporting me. I just closed my eyes taking big deep breath. I was doing what Mark taught me to do. I then opened my eyes when I know I was alright. Or at less okay to be around people without wanting to hurt someone who looked at me the wrong away.

After the day was over I need to go for a long-needed run. Luckily today I didn't have to work. So, I could just run until I couldn't anymore. That was another way I got stay calm with all the effects from spiral magic Lisa does.

"So, you joining us? Or running home?" Vickie asked me.

I looked at her and said,

"I think I am running home."

"Deal." She told me.

I walked to the car with her. I put my bag inside the car. Vickie always puts my bag back into my room if I run home. Just so I don't have a lot on me. I then put my cellphone in my pocket and made sure I had my stake on me. I then headed the route I take from the school to home.