Hello, SORRY for being away for longer than usual with my updates recently, I basically start my new job next week and I'm a self employed Child minder and so I have all this paper work to do for OFSTED who are the childcare/education like government people here in the UK so there's all this crap I have to do for them and then the tax office are on my ass about my taxes and it's just like never ending and EURGH makes me wanna cry all day in a corner. And then I've been organising my sisters baby shower which is tomorrow so hopefully when that's done, that's one less thing to worry about! Anyway enjoy this chapter!
I do not own Twilight.
"PPSSST"
Eurgh, what the hell was that? I flapped my hand around, shutting up the noise that kept erupting in my ear.
"Wake up Jade" It was louder now, slicing through my sleep that I so loved, I was in the middle of a good dream. No no no . Great. My dream was gone. Now I would never know what happened when the wolf pack met Harry, Ron and Hermione. Great, I would never be accepted to Hogwarts and I would never fly a broom. Well that just sucks. Talk about pissing on my cornflakes.
"Jade wake up pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" The annoying tone erupted again and I turned over, flickering my eyes open but I couldn't see anything through the dark room, it felt like I had only been asleep a few hours, I wasn't ready to wake up.
Something moved around in front of me and my little bedside lamp flickered on, illuminating Seth's grinning face, he was leant over smiling wildly at me like I was some sort of amazing animal in a zoo, I was sure if there was a barrier between us he would be that kid with his nose squished up against the glass to get a look at me. Why was he always so damned happy? It was too early, or late, to be this happy, wait what time is it? I glanced behind him at my clock, 4.45am. Bastarding little wolf. It was too early for this.
"Seth what are you doing here?" I whisper yelled at him and he straightened up before moving to sit on the edge of my bed. This was the weirdest situation I had ever been in, why was he here? And why was he sat half naked on my bed? This kid had serious issues.
"I needed to talk to you" He was whispering back, trying desperately not to wake my dad or Rachel, or Paul for that matter. He had stayed tonight and he was extremely grumpy when woken up, and I was already on my dad's bad side, well Embry was on his bad side but he still wouldn't talk to me either. Rachel said he had a stick up his ass because I was his youngest daughter and he thought I was too young to be running off with Embry, which was stupid because he knew Embry had imprinted so there was no risk factor in me getting hurt, and plus it wasn't like we were running away to get married and raise loads of kids, we were just dating. And it had been like two weeks since we had sorted things out. Which was why I was surprised to see Seth, I had left the Cullens around three weeks ago now and I had had no contact from that pack. I pulled myself back from my thoughts of Embry as I realised Seth was still sat staring at me.
"And it couldn't have waited until the morning?"
"It is the morning" He stated back, I guess he had a point but that wasn't what I was aiming for.
"Whatever. How did you get in?" I sat up, realising from the comfy position he took and the smile on his face that he wouldn't be leaving anytime soon so I may as well get comfortable.
"Your window, you should really lock that. Anyone could just climb on in" He wasn't even being sarcastic, he was being serious and I made a serious mental note to lock my window from now on.
"So?" I barked at him slightly as he sat silent on my bed for a few minutes, this was getting annoying, I wanted to sleep.
"Oh yeah, well basically I came because of what happened at the Cullens" He started but I held my hand up to stop him.
"Seth you didn't do anything, you don't need to apologise or explain anything, I know you had nothing to do with it" I had heard him shouting at Leah for it, and he was too nice to have played a part.
"No I know, that's not why I'm here. I'm here because it's getting stupid, you should go talk to them or something, I mean I know what they did was bad but Jake is your brother and Leah really misses you" He started doing that childish whine that he perfected so well and I groaned and flopped backwards on to my bed. Here we go again, dad had been going on and on about this all day and now I had Seth doing it too. Why everyone was telling ME to go to them was beyond me, I hadn't been the one to do anything wrong therefore I shouldn't be going to them, they should be coming here.
"Why do I need to go see them Seth? They have legs; they can easily walk on in here and say sorry"
"It's a little awkward with the pack. We can't hear Sam's pack so if we run into one another things get hairy like on my way here I ran into Quil and because we had no idea what the other was doing or saying things got heated but then Sam turned up and they both left, but with Leah or Jake I don't think it would be like that because the pack probably hate them for doing what they did to you and so it's just a big ball of shit" He finished rambling, my head snapped up at his swear word, he was like what 14? He couldn't swear.
"Language" I snapped, well now I just sounded like Emily.
"Hypocrite" He snapped back but smirked, he had a point.
"Seth, I can't go to Forks, it really hurt Embry the last time I went and I won't do that to him again even just to see Jake. He was here the other day, he can come here again. I'm sorry but Jake put Bella and the Cullens before me, I'm putting Embry before him. I won't mess things up again. Sorry" I led back down, letting him know it was my final say on the matter and he let up a huge childish sigh before stomping up off the bed. Eurgh, he was such a kid sometimes.
"I knew you would say that. Jake just get in here" He called out and I flew up from my position on the bed, Jake? Why was he speaking to Jake?
There was a groan from outside and a pair of hands came in and grabbed at my window pane, tanned hands, big tanned hands. Jacob. Bastarding big wolf. Why hadn't Seth just said he was here? Jacob crawled in through the open window, landing on my bed making me bounce about a mile in the air. I just glared at him then at Seth, this made no sense.
"Jake was too scared to come alone and we needed to leave one wolf back in Forks so I opted to come with him, then he was too scared to come in so I tried getting you to go out. Your stubborn you know that?" Seth groaned at me again before taking Jake's place on my bed and climbing out of the window. This was...weird. I glanced from the now empty window to where Jacob had taken stand beside my bed, he was a little tense like he felt awkward. And to be fair, it was awkward, I had no idea what to do or say so I just stared at him.
"Umm I umm I guess you and Embry sorted it out" He finally spoke, his eyes were placed on the table beside my bed where a little bracelet lay, it was a promise bracelet Embry had given it to me after I agreed to be his girlfriend but it was too big for my wrist so I was waiting for him to fix it.
"YeP" I popped the P as I spoke; leaning up on my elbows from the bed I cocked my head to the side and stared blankly at my brother. I guess I should give him points for actually telling the guys it was him and Leah not me, but right now it was his turn to grovel to me.
"How many times do I need to say sorry before you forgive me?" He sighed and flopped himself down on my bed and I moved so I was sat upright and cross legged. He looked pretty pale and tired; I guess he still wasn't sleeping much. My sibling instincts took over and I felt like I needed to fuss over him and make sure he was ok but as I reached for him I stopped again, the pissed off side flared up and fought back and I lowered my hand to my knee as if I had meant to scratch my leg all along.
"You don't, you just need to be more genuine. You saying sorry but Bella needed blood is not an apology, it's an excuse and one that I am not going to accept" I was still whispering but my voice was firm enough for him to know I was serious. He nodded slowly as he twiddled his fingers in his lap, but he said nothing. "Jake I understand that you were drawn to Bella like you were because of Renesmee, ok, I get it. Embry kind of explained it" As I spoke Embry's name Jacobs head snapped up and he looked at me his eyes wide.
"Embry explained it? So they don't all hate me for imprinting on her?" He seemed hopeful, he did a slight bounce and I realised he thought he had a chance at getting his best friend back, I mean I was sure he did have a chance, Embry was missing Jake just as much as Jake seemed to be missing Embry. And Quil, it was like the three musketeers had been split up and each of them seemed sadder because of it.
"They don't hate you Jacob, it's difficult, you pulled a shitty move with me and you went against them, it's not just me you need to talk to. But yes Embry explained, he said even before he imprinted on me he had a sort of pull toward me, like when he would hear me or see me he would like light up instantly or feel the need to be somewhat near me even when he didn't really like me because I was all like bitchy. So he said even though you were trying to hate the baby or whatever, you felt the need to protect it at the same time. So yes I get that you needed to help them but you could have chose a different way to do so and you know it." I finished my rant and Jacob nodded again, his lips opened and shut like he had rethought whatever he was about to say and he pushed himself up from the bed and walked to my dresser where a bundle of picture frames lay with childhood pictures of us. He trailed over one with his fingers; it was all of us, even mom. Mine and Jake's 6th birthday, we had a princess tea party because I threw a massive tantrum when Jake said he wanted a action man party and I cried so much Jake let me have a princess one, he even let me dress him as my prince, which looking back on it now was weird because he's my brother, but at the time it was cute.
"I am really sorry Jade, really really sorry, I did such a shitty thing and it was completely selfish, I didn't think about what it could do to you. You weren't even supposed to be there, it wasn't supposed to be your fight and I pulled you into it all and I am sorry" He stopped and turned to me, he looked like he was going to cry and my heart sunk, I hated all this shitty fighting and tension I just wanted it back to normal. He walked back to my bed, sinking to his knees beside me as I sat looking down at him. "Please forgive me because I can't do this anymore, I can't live without my family and my friends. And I know I've screwed it up with the guys but I don't want to screw it up anymore with you or Rachel and Dad. I feel like I'm completely alone and I could really use my twinny right now, I'll do anything" He was pleading and tears formed in his eyes, it was rare that Jacob got like this, he was a strong guy and it hurt to know that he was under this amount of stress. I guess I had been selfish too, I knew he was doing what was right for the Cullens and I was too stubborn to accept his earlier apologies, Embry was right, I was impossible.
"Just give me a hug you big pansy" I ribbed at him, poking his shoulder as I leant forward to wrap my arms around his big neck, he chuckled as he stood up and tore me from my duvet and held me in the tightest bear hug I had ever had. "Ok I am not indestructible like your vampire friends Jake put me down"
I laughed as if joking but I was actually serious, he was squeezing slightly too hard. He lowered me to my feet and I poked him again as he wiped his eyes dry, I had made him cry, why do I seem to be able to make these guys cry? I mean I suppose it's a good skill to have, being able to make grown men cry but when it was the love of your life I.E Embry or your brother it felt pretty shitty. Maybe I should try to make Paul cry again like I did when we watched Up, or even Sam, Sam would be fun to make cry.
"I think we are waking Paul up" Jake croaked out and he gulped back at the tears that were obviously still stinging at his throat. "Come outside with me, we can talk better out there" He nodded to my door and held his hand out for me so I took it and we made our way through to the hallway, as we did the door to Rachel's bedroom opened and a fully naked Paul walked out into the hallway.
"Paul your naked" I squeaked and he snapped his head up to Jake and I, he looked half asleep still and he rubbed at his eyes before grunting and casually walking past us to the bathroom like it didn't even bother him that he was naked. A second too late Jacob put his hand over my eyes, actually way way too late because I had already seen him. Eurgh that was an image I would never get rid of. I went to make a comment to him but Jake pulled me down the hall again and outside.
"So that's good that he didn't phase and kill me right?" Jacob spoke as he walked to the steps and sat down, I opted for leaning against the railings, it was cold out, I was only in my shorts and top luckily I had slept with my bra on though.
"They don't want to kill you Jake, I think they sort of miss you" I glanced out into the surrounding trees, I could feel us being watched and I knew it was a pack member but I wasn't sure which one. Could still be Seth I suppose, he would probably be hanging around here somewhere.
We both stayed silent for a minute, I felt bad because I could see Jacob was sad again, he really missed everyone, I suppose living in a house full of vampires wasn't his idea of fun.
"How's Renesmee?" That would lift the mood right? I mean she was his imprint so she would make it better. But it didn't, he just stared at the floor and not even a glimmer of a smile lit his face.
"She's...different" He was hiding something, I could sense it. He glanced up and I must have been frowning because he let up a bigger sigh and shook his head in his hands. "She's growing too fast, like when Bella was pregnant, she's not a baby anymore she's a toddler, around three years old maybe. She's amazing, I mean she has this power and she's adorable and cute and just...well amazing but it's worrying that she's growing so fast, we aren't sure how long she will..." He trailed off but I understood by his sad look, if she was growing this fast now that meant she could keep growing fast and maybe I guess die.
"Jake you wouldn't have imprinted if it were bad or if she isn't going to be around for you to be with. I'm sure Carlisle will figure something out, just enjoy being with her now and you can reach that when it comes." I tried being comforting but it didn't seem to be anything he hadn't already heard.
"You should come see her, she remembers you" He smiled at me finally and there was a slight tinkle in his eyes. I smiled back then realised she couldn't have remembered me, I saw her for no more than a few minutes when she was a newborn. Again Jake must have noticed my confusion because he chuckled. "She has her own power, like Edward can read minds and Alice can see the things. She can show you her memories and thoughts. Bella and I were talking about you the other day, and Nessie was in the room and she walked up and she placed her hand on my cheek and I saw her memories of you. From when she was first born and Edward handed her to you, then again in the room when I imprinted and you looked ready to kill me and then before you left when you were playing with her, she remembers everything even all the arguing we did. She wants to see you again when your less angry of course" He smirked at me and I felt myself smiling, that was sort of beautiful, how she could remember such little memories that I couldn't even remember, the birth was a blur to me now but she remembered it. That was nice, a nice power to have I suppose.
"And Emmett wants his play doll back, no one else is as easy to throw around as you" He added in, smirking again and I smiled wider, I liked Emmett.
"He may have to fight the guys for that; they seem to like throwing me around just as much as he did. But I can't come there because of Bella can I?"
He nodded then shrugged then nodded again, indecisive. "Yeah, I guess, I mean Charlie's been there, she's doing really well at controlling it and Nessie isn't drinking blood so she's fine. I guess it wouldn't hurt to try you with Bella, see how she handles it"
I was about to reply about not wanting to be a toy to have her play with when a slight growl came from the trees beside the house. I glanced across, there was nothing there, well obviously there was someone there but I couldn't see them nor could I recognise the growl, it was different to the playful ones I usually heard from the guys, it was a warning or a threat.
"Hmm what was that about them not hating me? They can't even seem to let me be with my own sister without watching" Jacob stood from his step and glared into the trees.
"They don't hate you Jacob. Maybe you should go see Sam, explain everything, try to be friends again or something. Calm the tension?" I offered as he turned to look at me but he just shrugged.
"They are the ones who came to fight me, I was fine with them before they tried killing my imprint" He was raising his voice slightly and I knew where this was going, another argument. We were both too hot headed sometimes.
"I am not getting involved again Jake so don't start with me. I am simply saying maybe it's time for a truce, because you said it yourself you feel like shit without them in your life. I'm not saying rejoin his pack, I'm saying calm it down a bit." I walked down the steps toward him, stopping on the bottom one as he span around to look at me. He really did not look well. He looked ill almost. I guess he was really worried about Renesmee, and upset about the pack, and he was away from his family. I mean, it must suck.
"You are involved Jade, you can't not be involved when your here with them and I'm in Forks, you even said to Seth you choose Embry. So yes you are involved. I'm not the one who needs to calm down, Sam went after my friends and it was Sam and his little followers who came ready to fight Seth, Leah and I" He was shaking slightly now and my heart sunk, I couldn't handle all this fighting it was getting too much. But at the same time I wanted to scream at him to get his head out of his ass, both packs had reasons for what they did and they all needed to sort it out. It was ridiculous.
"Umm do you not remember the time I spent in Forks with you, Jesus Jake I chose you over them, I stayed with you for as long as I could and even then you...you know what, it really is not worth it I am not fighting with you again. I get that you're tired, lonely, upset, worried whatever else is on your long list of shittyness, but has it occurred to you that you could fix a few of those things if you manned up and went to talk to Sam, he isn't even angry Jake he just misses you, they are practically your brothers" I tried not to get sarcastic or raise my voice but I failed on both, sometimes this kid could be an ass. A stubborn ass.
"Since when did you become a Sam Uley cheer leader?" He snapped back at me and I couldn't help but let up a amused snort of laughter.
"Since you became a massive douche. Grow some balls Jake, because you can't keep running from every problem you have"
I turned to walk back up when I heard him mumble the word "hypocrite" and I swung back around. He was shaking, and that anger flare was alight in his eyes as he stared at me.
"Eurgh it's not even worth it, you won't listen anyway. Sam and the guys will be here tomorrow for lunch, so if your man enough come and see them yourself rather than sitting and moping about not having them in your life. Goodnight Jake." I smiled sweetly as I turned back to go inside, stopping as I heard the rip of him phasing and his paws pounding against the wet ground into the trees.
So was that us making up or just arguing even more? I couldn't decide, I think we made up. I mean I refrained from cursing at him, kind of. I just wanted to help him, he was obviously miserable, he needed his brothers back. I stomped inside the house, making my way carefully back down to my bedroom but as I passed the bathroom the light was still on and the door open. Paul. He always left the lights on. I walked in to flick the light off but as I reached in I was met with the vision of a still naked Paul curled over as he sat on the toilet snoring. He had fallen asleep on the toilet. Such a typical Paul thing to do, he didn't even shut the door. I flicked the light off anyway and backed out again, I was even too upset over Jacob to laugh at the image of Paul.
I sulked back to my room, pushing open the door to my lamp lit room and as I looked up I jumped from the unexpected body on my bed, then I smiled as my eyes clamped down on the deep brown ones I knew so well. Embry, he was smiling up at me as I led on my bed, the window was now shut and the curtains drawn as it began getting light outside.
"You really need to start closing your window Jade, anyone could just come in" He smirked and winked at me as I locked my door and made my way to the bed.
"You sound like another annoying little wolf I know, you been eavesdropping on me all night?" I tried playfully glaring at him but I couldn't even manage that so I just smiled, he lifted my mood instantly. Just with his simple smile he wiped the sadness away that Jacob had yet again caused and I climbed onto the bed beside him and he threw the duvet up and over us.
"I don't eavesdrop; I just like to know your safe. Plus I haven't been here all night, I was down by the cliffs but Quil was phased and I saw him get into a slight situation with Seth and Jacob and they were heading here so" He shrugged like it was normal and I nodded, he probably knew it would end up this way. Me being sad and alone, I had to love that though, he had come straight here to be there for me when I needed him.
"That was you growling out there then?" I snuggled into his side as he wrapped his arms around me and I led my head on his warm chest, he still wasn't allowed to stay over, not that I blamed my dad for that one I mean we had only been together like two weeks. But this was the first time he had snuck in during the night, he said he didn't want to upset my dad anymore so he stayed away during the night.
"Actually no that was Quil, he came here with me in case it kicked off, and he beat me to growling. No way in hell is my girl being used to test Bella's restraint" His arms tightened around me and a soft kiss came down on my temple, my stomach flipped, this was different. I mean we had cuddled in bed watching a film but we were cuddling in bed to go to sleep, which was different, a new feeling. One that I liked, it just felt right.
I went to reply but a big yawn came out instead and I realised my eyes were stinging from sleepiness. Stupid boys had ruined my sleep.
"Go to sleep baby, we have all day together tomorrow...today...later?" He corrected himself and I let up a giggle as he groaned. "You know what I mean, go to sleep stinker, and don't worry about your brother; he could beat you in the stubborn department, it will all work out" He whispered again and rolled over so he was spooning me, my head now lay on one of his big arms and surprisingly it was fairly soft.
Once again I tried replying but I couldn't get my words out because Embry's warmth was lulling me to sleep, within a second he was snoring softly in my ear and his breaths were singing me to my own sleep.
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