Finding Yourself

Author:Nightstar Productions(Nightstar Fury).

Rated: Mfor Mature.

Pairing:Toothless & Hiccup.

Disclaimer:I do not own the HTTYD movies, Dreamworks Dragons series.

Chapter 53: I'm Ready.

It was now the 23rd and the snow fall was set at their last update to be around 4 feet, and still coming harder. They were still in blizzard warning, sitting around their hotel room watching t.v because there was nothing else to do right now. It was around 11pm and the beeping of Toothless's cell phone alerted him of a text message, he pulled it to check over with a heavy sigh. "Son of a bitch..." He closed his eyes making Hiccup look over at him worried.

"Weather update?" Hiccup asked curiously.

"Burglar just entered 'State of Emergency'. All travel in and out of Burglar has been stopped until further notice, everyone is ordered off the roads, there's a parking ban in place. Officials are urging everyone to stay indoors, and to stay warm." Toothless mumbled.

"We aren't getting home tomorrow are we?..." Hiccup asked gently seeing the discontent look on his boyfriend's face.

"Unless by some grace of Odin this storm stops, and the roads get cleared before 12pm...then no. We aren't...At this rate we might be stuck here until after Christmas. The snow isn't supposed to even start lightening until around 10pm on the 24th." Toothless clenched his fist a bit. Hiccup sat up now and put his hand on Toothless's arm softly, he felt bad. This was supposed to be the first Christmas that Toothless would get to spend with his family, all of them and now this stupid weather was interfering with that. He didn't blame Toothless for being upset about it.

"Time to call our parents, well your parents and my guardian?" Hiccup asked lightly rubbing his arm slightly. Toothless sighed holding the home button on his iPhone phone, 'What can I help you with?' Came the automated voice.

"Call home." Toothless said in a low tone. 'Calling Home.' Then it began dialing the house phone number, Toothless pressed it to his ear waiting for a pick up. 3 rings in and Celica answered it with a hello. "Cel, where are mom and dad?" Toothless asked.

"We're all in the basement watching a movie." Celica said gently.

"Put one of them on..." Toothless sighed.

"Are you okay big brother?" Celica asked clearly concerned.

"Just put one of them on sis." Toothless repeated himself. There was a little shuffling as he was sure he heard Celica tell them that 'brother sounds really upset right now'.

"Toothless dear, what's the matter?" Came his mother's voice.

"We won't be making it back by Christmas Eve, maybe not even Christmas..." Toothless said slowly.

"What! Markus pause the movie...Sweetheart, what do you mean you won't make it back in time? What's going on, what happened?" Lilly said with worry.

"Weather happened. Burglar is in a state of emergency, everything is grounded until further notice. The storm isn't even set to lighten up until 9pm on the 24th..." Toothless closed his eyes as Hiccup leaned against him for comfort.

"I knew letting you go was a bad idea!..." Lilly cried now.

"I'm sorry..." Toothless said quietly.

"Son, don't apologize. It was business, I would have gone too. You can't control the weather. Are you sure there isn't another way home? Train, bus? Anything?" Markus asked curiously.

"Everything in and out of Burglar is grounded. The only way would be driving and we're currently in a blizzard being urged to stay off the roads right now. It's a white out...Unless this storm stops in the next 6 hours...We aren't making it home. Just thought...I'd let you know." Toothless cringed almost, this bothered him deeply that they wouldn't make it home in time for such a big holiday.

"Are you safe right now? Are you at the office or the hotel?" Markus questioned.

"Hotel with Hayden. We're hunkered down in the room for now, if we lose power all hotel goers will be moved to conference rooms with lanterns, blankets, and pillows." Toothless said.

"Are you both okay?" Lilly asked now.

"We're fine...Just sitting on the bed watch t.v and the storm. We've already got 3 feet of snow according to the last update which was...20 minutes ago. The snow started on the 22nd really light around 6pm and not sticking, then it just progressed to this over night." Toothless informed them.

"This is terrible. Should we...call the Doragon's and let them know?" Markus said to him.

"If you want too." Toothless mumbled. "I better go, save phone power. We've had a few brown outs since 10am...I'll charge up and keep you posted as I get updates. I'm sorry again...Love you all. Bye." Toothless hung up before they could stop him from leaving. He tossed his phone down in frustration covering his face and raking his hands through his hair with a heavy sigh. "Gods...damn it!" Toothless growled.

"It'll be okay baby...Least we have each other..." Hiccup said trying to comfort him. Toothless got off the bed, and slipped on his shoes. He put his phone in his pocket before heading to the door. "Whe–Where...are you going?" Hiccup asked quickly worried.

"I need to take a walk...I'll be back in about 20 minutes...Stay here." Toothless sighed.

"You don't...want me to come with you?" Hiccup said softly.

"I just need to clear my head babe...Please...I'll be alright, I'm...pissed off right now and I don't want to snap at you by accident. You know I have a temper, especially with Ryder around..." Toothless said as gently as he could, Hiccup nodded understanding as he gave a soft smile.

"I'll be here when you get back. I love you." Hiccup said to him.

"I love you too." Toothless opened the door and walked out in to the hotel hallway and just walked down the hall. While walking he don't know how many times he just walked up and down the hallway, through the stairwells to get to different floors. He couldn't believe his unfortunate luck right now with this storm, from the minute he found out about the blizzard warning he was worried this might happen. They had a chance to catch the train back earlier that morning and they decided against it because the office called them in to check out the model of the new product. Wanting to see how it turned out, they went in and ignored possibly their only way to get home in time. Now they were stuck in the hotel until further notice, he groaned heavily reaching the main level where the snack stand was.

He bought a soda and sat down at one of the tables with a hand to his forehead, eyes closed. His phone rang as he saw it to be his aunt Alicia calling him, evidently his parents called them after all. He answered it and put it to his hear, "Hello..." Yeah he was miserable right now so why hide it?

"Hi sweetheart...Your dad just called to let us know." She began slowly.

"Sorry I'm going to miss Christmas with all of you...I was...really looking forward to my first big holiday with all my family in 8 years..." Toothless sighed.

"Don't apologize, you can't control mother nature dear. We'll all find a way to get together before school starts again." His aunt Selby's voice was heard now.

"You don't understand. Hayden and I had a way out of Burglar this morning to get home to Berk, we ignored it because we got called in to look at the model for the new product...Now we're stuck here." Toothless growled.

"We know it frustrating but it will be okay." Dan said now.

"I hope you're right...I better go, I told Hayden I'd be back in 20 minutes...See you guys...whenever I make it back to Berk." Toothless closed his eyes, they said goodbye and the call ended again. He put it down and lowered his head on to his arm which rested on the table. After another 10 minutes he finally lifted it, and finished his soda. He prepared to return his floor and room when someone approached him. It was a large man with brown eyes and black hair smiling softly at him, he looked to be in his 30's or so. "Can I help you?" Toothless asked calmly not wanting to be rude to him.

"Actually...I think I might be able to help you son. I hope you don't mind that I was sitting behind you listening to your conversation...I'm from Berk too and leaving tomorrow afternoon around 3pm after check out. Would you and your boyfriend like to come with me?" The man asked.

"We were told to stay off the roads...It's a blizzard, and white out..." Toothless reminded.

"We were urged to stay off the roads, not ordered too. And by tomorrow afternoon, the storm will lessen. Flights and other transportation won't be available until after Christmas for sure because of the time it will take to clear the runways and start getting things on schedule again. I have a truck with a plow on it, I can get myself and you two back to Berk in by 8am Christmas morning. I just need help getting the plow on the truck." The man said gently.

Toothless's eyes widened, he could...they could still make it home in time? "You'd...really take us with you? Complete strangers?" Toothless asked him.

"I'm Steve Dawdsen." Steve now introduced.

"Toothless Fury..." Toothless shook his hand.

"Now we aren't strangers. You're the CEO and COO of Haddock Industries? Right and Hayden...is Mr. Haddock the owner of the company. I heard about it on the news. You two here on business?" Steve asked.

"Yeah...We were supposed to leave 12pm tomorrow by plan, get home by 6pm Christmas Eve..." Toothless sighed.

"I'm on business here too, the company I work for uses a lot of the products you guys push out. We love them so it would be my esteemed pleasure to give you and Mr. Haddock a ride back home to your families. I plan to drive until 12am, stop for the night and start again at first lights of morning." Steve smiled at him.

"Yo–you're being serious right now? You'll really take us with you back to Berk?" Toothless said still in shock at Steve's offer. He couldn't believe it.

"I'm being very serious, as I said I just need help getting the plow on the truck. Its in the bed right now." Steve said. Toothless stood up facing him with a smile now, his luck was finally turning around. He might not make it home for Christmas Eve, but he'd be home for Christmas and that was more than enough. "So what do you say?" Steve asked smiling.

"We'll come. Just tell us where to meet you tomorrow?" Toothless shook his hand again.

"Right here in the main lobby at 2:50pm." Steve told him, Toothless nodded.

"Thank you, Steve. If there is...anything I can do for you in return?" Toothless asked.

"Just keep pushing out great products, wife and kids love em." Steven chuckled.

"I make that promise to you my friend." Toothless said, with that the two shook hands once more as they split off and Toothless rushed to the elevator to get back to his floor and room. He rushed right back to the room when the elevator stopped and burst through the door seeing Hiccup looking scared at the sudden intrusion.

"Good Thor almighty, Tooth! You scared the hell out of me...What is going on? Why were you running?" Hiccup asked with a hand over his heart trying to calm down.

"We're going home." Toothless smiled wide. Hiccup's eyes widened now at what he said.

"What? Did the...storm lessen?" Hiccup asked with sudden curiousity. Toothless shook his head.

"No...Guy I met downstairs in the lobby offered us a ride home with home in his truck. He's from Berk too. He overheard me talking to Selby and Alicia...Saying we wouldn't be home in time. He approached me and asked if we wanted to ride with him, he has a truck with a plow on it. He can have us home by 8am Christmas morning, Hiccup! He recognized us from Haddock Industries, and says the company he works for uses our products all the time. He's leaving tomorrow at 3pm, and I told him we'd accept his offer. We're...going home and we'll be home for Christmas!" Toothless exclaimed.

Hiccup couldn't believe it, they were...really going to make it home in time for the holidays! Hiccup smiled happily as he threw his arms around Toothless's neck which forced them both down on the bed laughing and kissing in between. "Really? We get to go home!?" Hiccup asked.

"Yes babe, yes! We're going home...We'll make it." Toothless said smiling.

"I can't...believe this! I have to call Gobber and tell him." Hiccup said now.

"No, lets surprise them. Gobber said he was going to my parent's house in the morning anyway. Lets not tell them anything..." Toothless suggested.

"You're a sneaky thing aren't you?..." Hiccup asked, Toothless nodded as they kissed again. The two calmed their laughter and stared into one another's eyes a few seconds, smiling wide and panting from the excitement. "I love you." Hiccup said softly.

"I love you more." Toothless replied, it was then they still realized they were on the bed with Hiccup on top of Toothless from the tackle hug he gave his boyfriend when he found out they were going to make it home. Toothless pulled Hayden down and kissed him deeply, when Hiccup melted into it Toothless wrapped his leg around Hiccup's leg and flipped him so he was now on top deepening the kiss further. Hiccup moaned in to the kiss as the small make out session continued until they heard the clock strike 12am officially making it Christmas Eve morning.

They broke the kiss panting as Hiccup ran his fingers through Toothless's jet black hair blushing a bit. "Tooth..." Hiccup started.

"Yes love?" Toothless asked gently.

"I'm ready." Hiccup told him, Toothless blinked a few times wondering what he meant.

"Ready for?..." Toothless responded.

Hiccup took a deep breath, "To give myself to you fully." Hiccup said calmly and with zero hesitation in his voice. Toothless's eyes widened at what he said as he quickly moved off his boyfriend while sitting back on his knees staring at him in shock.

"Hayden. You...do know what you are saying to me right? That you're ready to have sex?" Toothless asked him. Hiccup sat up nodding to him. "And what makes you so sure that you are ready?" Toothless said now.

"Because you told me on more than one occasion that...I would know when I was ready to do it. And I know I am." Hiccup said softly but serious to him. Toothless arched a brow still not convinced at his words. "Toothless, ever since we met there's been something about you...that I love. Every day I find something new and I doubt that will ever stop. Everyday with you is nothing short of amazing, even right now. We're in a state of emergency white out blizzard and you found us a way home for Christmas. You never cease to amaze me, and I swear I fall in love with you more and more. Hell even after our first sleep over together when you told me about what it felt like to be in love...I stopped crushing on Astrid that night. From that...to now...I just felt like I belong with you, that I need and want you in my life forever." Hiccup told him.

"Hayden, this isn't...just some get off session. Its sex, its making love. The most intimate thing a couple can do together to express love between one another. And I don't want you making this choice because we're caught up in the moment both being beyond excited that will be home in time for Christmas. I don't want you to regret it." Toothless said firmly to him.

"Toothless I will never regret this because I love you. I only love you, and will forever only love you. No one else will ever make me feel the way you do, and I will never love anyone but you. I'm madly in love with you, and I feel in my heart, mind, soul, body...In everything that you are my soul mate. So whether its tonight, tomorrow, or 4 years from now...I know I'll be with you forever more and the only one I ever want touching me intimately...is you. I will only give myself to you because I trust you with my life." Hiccup said with a serious but loving tone still.

Toothless couldn't believe what he was hearing right now, Hiccup was outright telling him he was ready to have sex with him and there wasn't an ounce of hesitation in his voice. He knew Hiccup wasn't lying about what he said, Toothless read eyes well and Hiccup knew that. Regardless of Hiccup being ready, Toothless didn't know if he was. Just like with the blow job, it was a big step and this was something that couldn't be taken back. Of course he wanted Hiccup, but that was just it. It was a want. Could Toothless honestly say he was ready to make love to him? Sex between two males took a lot of preparation both physical, emotional, and mental. Physical wasn't so hard to do but emotional and mental was questionable for him.

And also to think about, was Hiccup asking him to make love to him right now? Or was he just saying he was ready in general? Toothless guessed he should figure that out first before making a decision himself. "Hayden. Why are you telling me this right now?" Toothless asked.

"Because I wanted you to know I'm ready when you are. I'm not saying all this because I'm caught up in the moment...I made this decision when we were still in Berk. When you fell asleep for a nap before dinner that day after school when Christmas break started. I just couldn't help but think about everything you've done for me, and all we've been through together. Good and bad, we're still here standing tall by one another's sides and I know for us that's how it will always be. With you I feel strong and confident in everything I do, and making love...is no different. I was afraid before but after all this...I'm just not scared anymore, I know everything will be fine no matter what." Hiccup said with a light smile.

"But why now, Hayden? After we just got out of a really heated make out session, after finding out we're going home in...15 hours?" Toothless asked again.

"Because I want you to make love to me." Toothless's eyes widened more now. He wanted it now? Right now in the hotel at 12:15am he wanted to have sex? Oh that wasn't pressuring or nothing. "I'm not saying we have too. All I'm saying is that I know kissing can lead to more, and if we went farther than our usual...I'm ready as long as you are too." Hiccup added to him.

"You're asking me to make love to you right here and now?" Toothless said trying to process it all. Hiccup nodded to him. "You understand what that entails? As I said...Its not just a get off session, Hayden. Its everything as in I wouldn't be stopping after foreplay." Toothless reminded him.

"I know. I understand that all, and yes I'm still sure that I'm ready." Hiccup said.

Toothless sighed closing his eyes, he knew by Hiccup's eyes that he wasn't lying about anything he said. He really was ready for this but Toothless didn't know if he was. He hadn't been expecting such a statement, or confession of this magnitude, especially not in the current situation they were in. Toothless sat there in silence a few minutes thinking about everything of their conversation from the last 15 minutes. As it rolled on 12:30am, Toothless finally opened his eyes and looked back at his boyfriend with a serious look in his eyes as he moved closer to Hiccup, staring in his eyes. "You are 100% positive that you want me to make love to you tonight, as in right here and now?" Toothless asked him.

Hiccup nodded to him, "I am." Hiccup said again with no hesitation. Toothless's eyes seemed to soften as he got off the bed, went to the door put the 'Do Not Disturb' sign on the outside handle and then locked the door with the latch higher up. He hit the light dimmer dial and turned it down to give the room just enough light for it to be dark but they could still see one another in it. Toothless moved back to the bed with a small smile and loving eyes as he saw Hiccup sitting on the edge looking at him. Toothless placed both his hands on Hiccup's cheeks and pulled him in for a deep kiss, after a second he broke it staring in to his boyfriend's eyes.

"Then tonight I will make love to you, Hayden." Toothless said to him. Hiccup's eyes widened a bit, Toothless would do it? Make love to him tonight like he wanted? Toothless was okay to do this? "But..." Toothless began giving Hiccup a serious look now. "If at anytime you get uncomfortable, or it starts to hurt too much. I want you to tell me immediately so I can stop or slow down. Do you understand me, Hayden? I know it will hurt you regardless but if it hits a point you can't handle it, I want you to tell me. Deal?" Toothless asked him.

"I promise I will tell you." Hiccup replied gently. Toothless sighed in relief as he smiled again, he kissed Hiccup deeply before slowly pushing him back down on the bed.