I hope Lucius will leave me alone this summer. It's not that I'm not interested in what he has to offer me, but I did promise Lily that I would sever all ties with him, and I haven't exactly done that. I tried to, at first, but there's something about him and what he's doing that calls to me like nothing ever has before. It's almost sickening, the way the Dark Arts fascinate me. They're called the Dark Arts for a reason, I know that, I'm not stupid, but still they lure me to them like a moth to the light. It's something that Lily could never understand, and I know she would never forgive me for lying to her about ending my correspondence with Lucius. So I really do hope that he'll be too busy to bother with me this summer. I really do. If I keep telling myself that, maybe I'll start to believe it.
