I had someone read over this chapter, so it should be fine. Also, Finn is mentioned briefly.
BPOV-
''W-what?''
''I love you, Kurt. I'm in love with you.''
He lets out a sigh, and then turns to face me.
''Blaine, I can't say that back.''
''It's okay, Kurt. Whenever you're ready.''
''No...I won't ever be ready,'' he tells me ,''Look, can we just drop this for now?''
''No, we can't. Come here,'' I grab his hand and pull him into the hallway.
''Why would you say that?''
''Say what? That I love you?''
''You know, it's really sick to play with my emotions like that, Blaine. You know how I feel about my heart. Ever since Andrew, I've had to protect it my heart. And for you to come and mess with like that-''
''Kurt, you're being ridiculous.''
''Whatever Blaine. I...look, I don't wanna break up. We need a break, though.''
''Isn't that the same thing as breaking up with me, Kurt? Come on, just do that.''
''I'm sorry, Blaine. There's just no way a guy like you can love a guy like me.''
Before I know it, he's storming back into the reception hall, only to return with Rory behind him a few minutes later.
''Bye, Mr. Anderson!'' Rory beams ,''See ya on Monday!''
I give him a brief grin, struggling to keep my composure.
I have to pretend it's okay, pretend like Kurt didn't just break my heart in half.
Because when he left, he took that half with him.
KPOV-
Do I know I'm being illogical? Yes. Do I see that he loves me? Yes. Do I love him? Of course.
Which is why I had to let him go. I lost my mother, Finn, and Andrew. Granted, Finn and my mother never meant to leave me.
But Andrew ripped my heart out, and left it on the floor. I remember him, and I still feel love when I see his face in my mind.
But I can't handle Blaine hurting me like he did. I can't handle Blaine realizing how extraordinary he is and how, in comparison or not, I'm hopelessly plain.
He deserves so much better than me. Maybe he'll realize that.
I'm just doing us both a favor, really: protecting my heart, but also letting Blaine realize he deserves more than me.
He'll see that soon, and be over me.
In fact, he probably won't even care tomorrow.
Or maybe not. The next morning, the bright Saturday sun doesn't match my mood as I read through the texts Blaine sent me.
Blaine:
We can start all over again, baby. Just give me a chance
Blaine:
Where we moving too fast? If so, I'm so sorry.
Blaine:
Just call me
Blaine:
Text me
Blaine:
Kurt, come on. Don't do this.
Honestly? My cheeks are stained with tears. My pillows wet, and I still feel sick to my stomach.
But the one that stands out the most and pulls t the seams of my heart is this:
Blaine:
I'm not giving up
BPOV-
''I've called a thousand times, if I hear your voice, I'll be fine.''- These Four Walls by Little Mix
He told me he cared about me. So why is he doing this to me? Why is he taking my heart and shredding it? He knows how that feels. So why is he doing it to me?
I thought I knew what heartbreak was. That was a bruise compared to this wound
He's my other half. I've never felt this connection with anyone, and he went ahead and cut it.
I know he's been hurt. But I would've been so good to him. I would've tried to be the best boyfriend...
Now I won't get the chance.
I know he's out of my league, and now he's realized it to.
Life will have to go on, obviously. I still have a daughter to raise and kids to help with regionals, and Kurt's still got a son to take care of and fashion designs to submit.
But for now...today I can cry. Today I can let the pain consume me, and just or today. My bedroom will give me solace as I dry the tears.
And that's just for now. Because, one way or another, I'm gonna make Kurt realize we belong together.
KPOV-
''Dad, are you okay,'' Rory asks over his breakfast.
It's Monday morning, and I haven't gotten much sleep.
I just lost who is probably the only person that can make me feel...loved.
Yes, I know Rory and my dad and Carole love me. I know that my friends love me.
But this is a different love, obviously. He makes me feel...good enough.
Something that I hadn't felt since Andrew stole my love, and I had to watch him give it to someone else. Someone who probably doesn't realize just how precious it is.
Or...how precious I thought it was. I thought I had future with Andrew for sure, but obviously not. At the time, his love seemed like the most magnificent gift ever.
And then I met Blaine, and his love makes what Andrew thought could be described as love an insignificant thought in the back of my mind.
And I went and through it all away.
''Yes, honey. Go ahead and eat your breakfast, and I'll take you to school.''
I can tell that he doesn't believe me as his blue eyes sparkle with a glint of skepticism, but he doesn't press further.
Good thing, because I don't think that I could talk about Blaine with out tears coming to my eyes.
The only thing that stopped the flow of tears was this thought: I'm letting him go because he deserves more.
And I'd do anything for the love of my life.
KatePOV-
''Why is Blair in the girls' bathroom crying?''
''Good morning to you, too, Kate,'' Ryder closes his locker and begins to walk away.
''I'm serious, Ryder.''
''So am I. It's really none of your business, but we had a small fight this morning, and she stormed off.''
''Another fight? Hmmm...you two have bee fighting a lot lately. Not that I'm complaining.''
''What are you even talking about?''
''Just that obviously wouldn't fight with her as much. I'd fight for her and sooner or later she's gonna realize she still loves me. Treat her right, Ryder.''
I leave before he can say another word.
I love her, really I do.
And that's why this is so hard.
BPOV-
''Mr. Anderson, could I ask you something,'' Kate asks, walking up to me as I open the door to the choir room.
''Sure, what is it?''
The smile on my face is, for the first time in a long time, fake.
It has been fake for the past three days.
''There's a song that I wanna sing in glee today. Maybe we could even sing it for regionals.''
''That sounds fine. I can't wait to hear it. I'm sure that the others will love it too.''
She gives me a grin, then runs off, probably to go to class.
KatePOV-
''Okay, guys. Kate has a performance prepared for us. Come on up.'' ( A/N Listen to it if you want, it's called Boy and it's by Little Mix)
''Thank you, Mr. Anderson. Well, I'll be singing the song Boy by Little Mix. I interpreted as being about a girl who doesn't realize she can do better than her boyfriend.''
Blair raises an eyebrow, and Ryder glares.
This is still the hardest thing I've ever done.
BPOV-
Kate's performance is met with a standing ovation from the other kids, and I have to admit that it was incredible. We spend the rest of time debating more songs to sing at regionals, until glee is over.
''I'll see you all tomorrow,'' I tell them as they file out while I pack my bag.
''Here, Mr. Anderson,'' Kate hands me a stack of papers I dropped.
''Thanks,'' my breath hitches as I see the picture of Kurt I keep in my bag is on the top of the pile.
''Mr. Anderson, are you okay?''
''I'm f-fine.''
''...Okay, no offense, but you're an even worse liar than Blair.''
I have to laugh at that, and she smirks.
''Look, obviously something happened between you and Mr. Hummel. And from the look on your face, I'd be correct in saying that it's hurting you
''Kate-''
''I'm not gonna get involved, I just want to tell you one thing I've learned. When you really, really love someone...you'd do anything to see them happy. Even if t means you get hurt.''
She leaves then, and I'm left with my thoughts.
She's right, of course.
Which is why I won't call Kurt back. If he wants to move on, then he should.
Because, like she said, you have to do what's best for the other person even if it means you get hurt.
And being apart from Kurt like this is definitely hurting me.
KPOV-
It's been a week, and I haven't heard from Blaine. That must mean that he's moved on, even f I can never move on.
You can't find better once you've had the best.
And Blaine was definitely the best.
''Dad, please tell me what's wrong. I'm not leaving until you tell me.''
Rory has a determined look on his face, and I don't have the energy to fight him on this.
''Blaine and I broke up.''
''Oh, really? Huh...no wonder he's been off.''
''What?''
''Yeah. He just doesn't seem as happy. He won't even tell Blair why. Now I know. Why did he break up with you if he was gonna be so sad?''
''It's not that simple, Rory. And I broke up with him.''
His eyes widen, and it almost makes me laugh.
Almost.
''Why? You two are perfect for each other, dad. I've never seen two people just...click.''
''Rory-''
''Look, dad, I know that last boyfriend hurt you. But he couldn't see how awesome you are. And Mr. Anderson sees that. No matter if you think he deserved better or not, he chose you. If I've learned one thing, it's that when you find a good thing, you hold on to it.''
The more his words sink in, the more the realization of my own mistake does.
Oh shit what have I done.
''You know,'' I smile at Rory ,''For someone who thinks he's not good at relationships, you're pretty good at helping others find the mistakes in their own.''
''Thanks...where are you going?''
''Well, I'm about to listen to my teenage son's advice, and fix my relationship.''
I'm out the door before he can say anything else, on my way to Blaine's house.
BPOV-
There's a knock on the door, and I reluctantly get up to answer it.
''Kurt,'' the shock is second only to the happiness of seeing him, 'What are you-''
Soft, warm lips our on mine as hot hands grab desperately at my waist as I'm pushed back into my apartment.
Well damn.
''Kurt,'' I pull away only when I absolutely need air ,''W-what are you doing-''
''Blaine...we really, really need to talk.''
Disclaimer-glee belongs to Fox and Ryan Murphy, and the songs don't belong to me.
