IMPORTANT AUTHORS NOTE!
Hey everyone, Andi here, just so you all know, I've been writing some stories of my own, on my own profile, go check em out, they're rated M though, (thus putting them on my account), here's the link to my profile... so seriously go check'em out!
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Alright, so on with the story... sorry 'bout the long wait, I had three weeks prac for my Bach Special Education, so that was like really hard, and the last week has been spent catching up with uni stuff and my lovely boyfriend Megz has been trying to get me to type, so don't throw fruit, we have a legitimate excuse! Love you guys... oh and Skittlez... this one's for you, cos we miss you!
The song for this chapter... Everything by Lifehouse... yes we know... very weird... but seriously, it's such a great song! Very EMOtional... HAHAHA!
(disclaimer – we own books of twilight, but not the actual rights to it... suck!)
BPOV
"Edward, are you... are you drunk?"
"Bella, Bella, Bella, why would I be... yes, yes I am." He began pouting.
"Is something the matter? Edward, you can tell me."
" 's nuthin'" Edward sniffled then turned his head away from me. "So, where would you like me to sleep? The floor or the bed?" he raised his eyebrows, not in a suggestive manner, but more in the manner of etiquette, asking me permission to have a very drunk boy in my bed with me.
"Bed Edward." I pointed, trying to be authoritive.
"Yes ma'am" damnit why did he have to salute me, he's too hot for his own good.
"Edward, can I ask you a question?"
"Shoot Bella, love." And he just had to say it, 'love', he didn't say it to be nasty... I SHOULD have said it back, but no, I run into Blaze's awaiting arms! Idiot Bella. "Bella?"
Crap, he saw me grimacing!
"You're not drunk, well, you're not drunk because of... well me are you?" SHOULD HAVE FREAKING SAID IT!
"Bella, shh" he pulled my arms toward him and wrapped them around his neck, "I'm still conscious because of you, I still wake up in the morning because of you, you are the reason I dream at night, the reason I smile to myself, and to an extent, yes. You are the reason I'm drunk."
"I knew it! Oh god Edward I'm so sorry, you said all those amazing things, you told me this afternoon that you..." he was scrunching his face up so I knew he couldn't hear me through my sobbing, so I just gave in and ran from the room.
"Bella?" he whisper shouted after me, Renee and Phil didn't know he was here, so he couldn't very well chase me from the room. I felt my way along the wall to the kitchen, picked up Renee's Vodka, a bottle of orange juice, and rushed back up the stairs.
Edward was crawling along the hallway floor in the darkened hallway.
"Uh, Edward? What are you doing crawling toward Alice and Rose's room?"
"Crap. Uh, looking for you... Bella, the reason I'm drunk is because, I don't want to..."
"STOP TALKING SO LOUD!" I whisper shouted at him.
His mouth made an 'o' shape and he turned toward my room and crawled back in.
Once he was in and sitting against the wall next to my bed he patted the floor beside him. I moved slowly over to him and sat down, placing my vodka and orange juice next to me.
"Screw drivers?"
I grinned. Hell, he was drunk, I'll get drunk!
"Bella, do you know why I've not ever had a girlfriend?" I shook my head so he looked toward the drinks and motioned for me to make some drinks and began speaking, "trust me, after this story you'll need it."
"Edward, it can't be that bad, what are you really some psychopathic killer bent on killing all those close to you in an attempt to foil the evils of all the world therefore managing to create an uber space robot which will someday destroy you and say 'Edward, I am your father'?" Whoa, that was an Alice style rant.
"Bella, you sorta started off right, then wrong, then really wrong, and what the crap 'uber space robot'," he shook his head and continued, yeah so I'm a little bit weird... "anyway then you got way off track with the Star Wars reference, but then became a little closer with the father comment." Now it was my turn to look gob smacked.
"I thought you were drunk."
"I am love, trust me, overly drunk."
"Well, bottoms up." I threw back my screwdriver and began making another one. Edward did the same and then placed his plastic cup next to mine.
"Bella, I have a few confessions to make."
EPOV
"I've not had a girlfriend before,"
"You already told me that one, and frankly I'm not surprised, you're a player, usually players don't have a 'girlfriend'" I silenced her with my finger, her lips were so soft. I began tracing my finger along her lips until she let out a sigh.
"You're the first girl I've kissed." I kissed her, slowly, softly. She was going to want to have nothing to do with me in a few minutes, so I may as well taste her sweet mouth one last time. "You're the first person I've ever told this too, and the last. You're the first girl I've loved, the first person I trust wholly and completely, and that's why I have to tell you."
"Tell me what Edward?" She blinked her heavy lidded eyes at me.
"Bella, I don't want to hurt you," she cut me off
"You wont."
"I could. Bella, remember when I had to ditch you for the afternoon a little while ago?"
"Yeah, I was bored." She said with a pout. Well, here goes. Goodbye love. Goodbye happiness. But Bella will be safer.
"I was visiting my dad in Jail." I let it out in a rush. She just sat there looking at me expectantly.
"Jail, the big house, CRIMINALS BELLA!"
"Yes, I'm familiar with the term 'jail', so what?"
"So what? So what? He killed her Bella, killed her, beat the life out of her, left her bleeding and crying for me to run, dead."
"Killed who Edward?" she whispered.
"My mum." Real manly Eddie boy, cry.
"Shh Edward, don't cry, I'm here. Shhh" she sounded so sad, so scared. As she should be, I have the blood of a killer.
"Bella, Bella, Bella" I ran my fingers through her hair trying to calm her down, she seemed so sad.
A slow, soft gentle breeze floated through the room, making the hair around her gorgeous face twist and turn, she looked like a dream. Staring intently into my eyes. I ran my hand over her cheek and she let out a sigh, her lips parted.
"I had no idea. I'm so sorry."
"Bella, I'm so sorry, I should just go." She pulled on my sleeve and I sat back down, she slid her arms around my torso and pushed her head into my neck and kissed me. "Bella" I sighed her name and pulled back to put my arm around the back of her head.
"Edward, it's not your fault."
"But I could hurt you Bella, I could lose my temper, I could kill you." She looked confused.
"No. You couldn't." She smiled.
"Bella, YES I could."
"Edward, Edward, Edward," she shook her head as if we were in Math class and I was getting 2 + 2 wrong, "you're drunk."
"Ten points to Isabella Swan."
"No, Edward, you're drunk, you're at your weakest. You're intoxicated. You're more susceptible to rash decisions, spur of the moment choices and violence, and look," she motioned toward my arms wrapped around her rubbing her back soothingly, "it's not that you can't hurt me, you could, but you won't. Trust me, I watch Law and Order SVU." She grinned at me, and then took another drink. "Edward, in case you didn't notice, what you just did then, trying to leave, telling me about your father. You were protecting me."
I couldn't find words. Here she was, my dream girl, my life, and she was treating me as though I wasn't some killer's creation. Like I was just... me.
"What if he comes? He killed my Mum, what if he comes for you?" She pointed to the light flickering above us that I didn't notice, then to the papers beside me rustling in the breeze that she was creating.
"I think I've got it pretty much covered. Now here, let's go to sleep."
I love you.
I couldn't say it, not while I'm drunk, not while she's drunk. But that doesn't mean I can't think it.
She accepts you, damaged and all.
She's amazing, that's why.
Eddie, she's looking at you weird.
"Are you having a discussion in your head?" SPRUNG! She shook her head. "No, never mind." She muttered.
AN – Hey guys, so there ya have it... the next chapter...
"Who's all warm and fuzzy now??" megz
"I AM I AM!!!" Andi
"Andi, put ur hand down." megz
"NEVER MEGZ I WILL DO NO SUCH THING."
"Oh great, now she's dancing"
"You can dance, you can dance, everybody look at my pants!"
"move it along peepz, nuthin to see here..."
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