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Roman shook his head at Jordyn and said, "you just like to fuck everything up don't you? You're pathetic. You just couldn't keep your mouth shut."
"Roman, she needed to know," she said.
"No, Jordyn, she didn't," he said before he walked out of the hospital doors to the car to meet his wife. To his surprise Tayla had left with the car leaving Roman at the hospital. He knew she was mad at him. He was debating if he should go home or just camp out at the hospital pretending to be sick to have a bed to sleep in. He decided to call a cab to go home to Tayla. It was better to face her now than later. He just wanted to get it all over with. The cab dropped him off and he paid the man the fare before he shut the door. He hated to admit it but he was scared of Tayla. Tayla was not in a good mood and he had never seen her brought to the point where she wanted to fight someone. Things weren't looking good for him. He took a deep breath before he walked inside the house. The kitchen light was on and he heard Tayla in the kitchen so he walked to the kitchen. He saw Tayla getting a beer out of the fridge; this made it even clearer that she was upset because she never drank beer. "Is Jonah asleep?" he asked as he walked over to the island.
"Yeah," she said, "You kissed her?"
"Well," he said.
"Don't well me," she said, "it's a yes or no question. Answer it and you better be honest about it. Don't lie to me Roman. Did you kiss her?"
Roman sighed he didn't know what to say. He was trying to find the words to say to her so that it didn't upset her but at this point anything he said would upset her. "Technically she kissed me."
"Yes or No, Roman, it's not that hard. Did you kiss her?" Roman was silent and Tayla's patience were fading. "DID YOU KISS HER?"
"Yes," he finally said as he looked down at the marble top of the island. "I did."
"Exactly what I thought," she said, "first of all that girl is 16 years old! What kind of monster are you?"
"Hey, I'm not a monster. She kissed me. I just kissed her back."
"But you still kissed her and that was wrong," she said before she slapped him across the face.
"What?" he asked holding onto his cheek that was burning. She gave him a look. "Okay, I deserved that. Look, Tay, I'm sorry. She kissed me and I had a lapse of judgment and I kissed her back."
"Why didn't you tell me when it happened? Why did you let that girl tell me? I'm pissed even more because SHE told me and I look like the fool because here I am trusting this girl and she's making a fool out of me by kissing my husband and then telling me about it because my husband didn't tell me."
"And she tried to sleep with me," he said.
"WHAT?" she asked. "She is 16 years old. Did you sleep with her, Roman and don't lie to me."
"I said she tried to," he answered her right away, "but I didn't. After the lapse of judgment I told her how wrong it was that I kissed her and what happened was wrong. Then she tried to invite me inside and told me that she could give me what you couldn't and when I told her she was too young and she needed to get her life together. And I told her to find a man that will love her and respect her that's not married once she does. She told me that she has been with older men before. I don't know. I told her I was married and it wasn't right. I didn't do anything but kiss her back and that's the honest truth, Tayla, I swear to God. I swear on Jonah's life that's all that happened."
Tayla eyed him before taking a sip of her beer. He couldn't read her expression but her eyes were darker than usual and she was expressionless. She took a deep breath and let it out before taking another sip of beer while keeping her eye on Roman. The kitchen was silent as Roman's and Tayla's eyes met. Tayla broke the silence in a clear firm toned voice; "I'm going to put it to you like this and I mean it Roman. Jordyn is NOTHING but trouble. She is disrespectful and she's trash. She is doing nothing but causing problems for us and I'm not going to tolerate it. You are not allowed to be alone with her EVER again. I don't trust her. I trust you but I don't trust her. I don't want you to have another lapse of judgment and the only way for that to be avoided is by you staying away from her."
"Okay," he said.
"I'm not finished," she said, "and you're going to change your attitude. When I tell you not to call her don't fucking call her, Roman. I knew there was going to be an issue. I knew there was going to be drama but you just had to call her. I knew she was going to get all upset and all bent out of shape but you insisted she come to the hospital. I don't know what's changed with you, Roman but you're starting to change. You're becoming arrogant and turning into an ass at times. I'm not going to tolerate it Roman. Don't let your job change who you are. I know it's your job that's making you change yourself. Your name is not Leakee, Roman. Your name is Roman! Be Roman don't be your character in FCW. I'm also going to tell you this; don't EVER kiss another girl, fuck another girl or anything with another girl that is going to dishonor your commitment to me because if you do you are going to be sorry. Tonight I was brought to a point in my life I never thought I would be but you see I can get angry and I am not afraid to get angrier if I need to. If you dishonor me in any way again; I promise there will be hell to pay. Do you understand me?" she asked.
"I understand you," he said, "I'm sorry, Tay. It was just a poor lapse of judgment and it won't happen again. I love you and I'm sorry."
"You better be sorry," she said, "and you better understand because Roman I am not the one to be made a fool of. Yes I am a good person and for the most part I'm very pleasant but certain things rub me the wrong way. Don't make me be that person that gets upset."
"Okay," he said. "I won't. I'm sorry."
"Okay," said Tayla but she was still upset but more so with everything that happened with Jordyn. "We made vows to each other, Roman. We promised to be each other's one and only. I may not be all Godly or whatever but I do know that my vows to you were very important and I would assume the same for you so don't break them."
"Okay," said Roman. "I'm sorry."
"Okay," said Tayla, "and I don't want Jordyn at Jonah's birthday party."
"That's his mother," he said as Tayla gave him a look of warning. "All right. NO Jordyn at his party."
"Only if she's willing to apologize and promises not to start drama," said Tayla.
"Okay," he said as Tayla walked around the island and stopped in front of Roman; who had sat down on the stool. "I love you, Tay and I promise I will never hurt you again. I will never kiss another woman or hurt you like that again. I promise."
"Okay," she said with a smile as she wrapped her arms around his neck and he wrapped his arms around her waist. She leaned in and kissed his lips. "I love you, Roman and you're mine. You'll always be mine and mine only."
"I know," he said with a smile. He loved how protective of him Tayla truly was. He had never seen that side of her but she was making it known that no one else could have Roman or try to have Roman and get away with it. "I kind of like this side of you. It's pretty hot," he said with a smile before he kissed her lips. "And just so you know, you're mine and mine only as well so don't get any ideas to kiss anyone or sleep with anyone else."
"I wouldn't dare," she said with a smile. "I hope you had a good birthday."
"I did. It was one of the best minus all the drama," he said. "Thank-you."
"You're welcome," she said but there was something in her voice that made Roman realize that she wasn't okay.
"What's wrong?"
"What if Jordyn is right? What if I am barren?"
"You're not barren," said Roman. "You've been pregnant twice already. You just miscarried. If you were barren that wouldn't have happened at all. You can get pregnant it's just a matter of it lasting."
"But I don't understand why I miscarried twice and why we can't get pregnant. We've been trying for a long time and still nothing. I don't get it. Why can't we get pregnant and stay pregnant?"
"I don't know," he said pulling her closer to him as he opened his legs pulling her between his legs and closing them around her. "I'm sure it's going to happen someday. It's just a matter of when," he said.
"I love Jonah and I love having him here but I really want a baby of my own, Roman. One that I can carry inside of me for 9 months and can feel kick and move inside of me. That's what I want. A baby that will have your perfect mouth and your blue eyes; a baby that looks like us. A baby you and me created. That's what I really want but I don't' understand why we can't do it."
"I don't know," he said, "I guess all we can do is keep working on it. I like working on it," he said with a smile. "I want a little Roman or Tayla running around. I want us to have a big family so one day this work is going to need to pay off for us."
"You want a big family?" she asked with a smile.
"I do with you," he said smiling back at her as he brushed a small piece of hair out of her face.
"How big?" she asked.
"Anywhere between 4-6 kids," he said with a smile. "I want a lot of babies with you, Tayla."
Tayla smiled at him and said, "I want a lot of babies with you. I say 6 I love kids."
"Me too," he said with a smile.
"But it's just not happening for us. Do you think we should go to the doctor to see what's wrong or if there is something wrong? I mean as much as we have sex we should have been pregnant by now."
"If it eases your mind we can go to the doctor to see what's going on if anything is going on but I think it's going to happen when it's supposed to happen."
"I don't know," she said with worry in her voice. "I'm just scared."
Tayla put her head down and Roman took his hand and lifted her chin. "You have nothing to be scared of. I am sure everything is fine. Just relax. We can go do some work right now if you want to," he said with a smile before he kissed her forehead.
"You haven't had enough yet?" she asked. "I was going to go to sleep."
"Tay, I will never have enough of you," he said with a smile. "3rd time's a charm."
Tayla smiled at him and said, "all right," before she kissed his lips passionately. Roman picked her up and carried her upstairs to their bedroom. They spent the rest of night making love until the sun came up getting lost in each other, enjoying each other and proving to one another how they each belonged to the other. It was a beautiful night despite everything that happened in between his birthday celebration and their passionate night together.
A few days later Tayla and Roman went to a fertility doctor to see if there was anything wrong with Tayla because as much as Roman wanted to tell Tayla she was fine he was a little worried himself. They had tried a lot; meaning numerous times a day but it wasn't happening for them and when it did happen the pregnancy didn't last. He wanted to know what was going on with his wife also or maybe it wasn't her at all. Maybe it was him. They both underwent a couple tests to see if they could detect an issue. Both were hoping that there would be no issues and it was just a matter of timing and it happening when it was supposed to not when they wanted it to. Tayla and Roman sat in the doctor's office waiting to talk to the fertility doctor about their results. "I'm scared, Roman. I don't have a good feeling about this."
"You'll be fine. I'm sure everything is fine," he said giving her a reassuring smile as he took her hand, "and besides if there is a problem we'll figure it out. With the technology today there should be a way to help infertility but like I said we're probably just too stressed and worried about nothing," said Roman as the fertility doctor came into the office.
"Hello, Roman and Tayla," he said shaking their hands before taking a seat. Roman wrapped his arm around Tayla as the doctor pulled out their files. "Roman, I am going to start with you."
"Okay," said Roman as he listened carefully to his results.
"Everything looks good from what I see. Your sperm count is high and your testosterone levels are high. Everything looks good for you," he said with a smile as he closed Roman's file.
"Wonderful," said Roman with a smile before Tayla elbowed him. That meant it was her issue and not his. Roman's smile faded as the doctor picked up Tayla's file.
"All right, Tayla," he said and the sound of his voice wasn't as chipper as it was when he looked at Roman's results. "Given your irregular periods and your previous miscarriages as well as the amount of intercourse you are having but with no results we found that your FSH and LH levels are very low. These are the hormones that are responsible for ovulation each month. You have what is known as Hypothalamic dysfunction which means you're not ovulating like you should be. With your hormone levels down you aren't ovulating which is the cause of your irregular and missed menstrual cycles."
Tayla's heart almost broke into pieces at the news. "So what does this mean?" asked Roman with concern. "Does this mean Tayla will never get pregnant?"
"No," he said, "that's not what it means at all. It is a very treatable issue. You will be able to get pregnant you're just going to need a little bit of help."
"Okay," said Tayla, "what kind of help?"
"Fertility drugs," he said.
"Fertility drugs?" asked Tayla, "don't most women on fertility drugs have multiples like sextuplets or quintuplets or something like that?"
"Yes," he said, "but it all depends on what type of fertility drug you take. Any drug that is injected will increase your risk of having multiples and higher than three but oral drugs don't necessarily mean you're going to have sextuplets or triplets; twins maybe but that's a 10 percent chance."
"Okay," said Tayla.
"Aren't fertility drugs super expensive?" asked Roman. "And I know my insurance doesn't cover it. So what do we do?"
"It can be a little expensive but if you want to have a baby this is what you need to do."
"Okay," said Roman. "I'm just a little concerned here. You're saying she needs to take fertility drugs to stimulate her ovulation so that she can get pregnant?"
"Yes," he said, "there is a drug called Clomid. This is taken orally and it will cause her pituitary gland to release more FSH and LH hormones which will help with the growth of the ovarian follicle that contains the egg. There is a lot of success from Clomid. It is one of the best fertility drugs out there."
"Okay," said Tayla. She was relieved knowing that there was treatment for her condition because she wanted to make a baby with Roman so badly. She wanted to be a real mom and wanted to have a baby of her own she created with Roman. This was giving her hope. "So you're saying if I take this Clomid we will be able to get pregnant?"
"Try to get pregnant," he said, "it is a very successful drug but," he said.
"But what?" asked Tayla. "What do you mean but?"
"But I'm looking at your uterus right now and it is abnormal. You have an abnormal shaped uterus which is what is causing you to miscarry. It's not made to carry a baby. Clomid may help you ovulate but if you get pregnant it may most likely end in a miscarriage. It is doubtful that you will ever have a successful pregnancy with the way your uterus is shaped. I'm sorry."
"So what would be the point of my wife taking Clomid if she can't stay pregnant?" asked Roman. "Isn't there something that can be done to help the shape of her uterus?"
"The way it is shaped no there is nothing that can be done about it. I mean you two are more than willing to try Clomid and try to get pregnant but the chances of a successful pregnancy are slim to none. I would suggest adoption. You may want to look into adoption."
"We don't want to adopt," said Tayla with tears in her eyes as Roman squeezed her shoulder. He knew she was upset and he felt bad for her. This was hard for both of them to swallow. They wanted to have kids; biological kids not adopt a child. "We want to have a baby of our own."
"I understand," said the doctor, "and you're more than welcome to try to get pregnant but if you do get pregnant I'm telling you that the chances of a successful pregnancy are very slim. You have a 1 in 1,000 chance of getting pregnant and going on to have a successful pregnancy. Your best bet would be to adopt. I know those aren't the words you want to hear but this is my advice to you."
"Thank-you for your time," said Tayla as she stood up. Roman looked at her. "We can get a second opinion elsewhere."
"Tay," he said, "sit down. Let's talk about this." Tayla took a seat again as Roman looked at the doctor. "I don't really care what you say. I don't care if you believe we will ever have a successful pregnancy or not. That's not your call to make. I am not at all religious but I believe in God and I believe he does things in his time and when he wants to do it. I understand my wife has an ovulation issue fine give her the Clomid and yes I understand my wife has a misshaped uterus but that does not mean she will never have a baby. I know one day it will happen for us when God wants it to. WE are going to do the Clomid and hope for the best. We aren't going to let you sit here and tell us that we won't ever make a baby and if we do that it will end in a miscarriage. That is not your call. It isn't up to you. We're going to do what we need to and just hope it all works out. If not then we'll talk about adoption but we'll never know what happens if we don't try." Tayla looked at Roman and smiled. Roman was letting the doctor know he was not in control and it was not his decision. "Right, Tay?"
"Right," she said, "I'll do the Clomid and see what happens."
"Okay," said the doctor. "All right."
*A/N: At least Roman admitted to the whole kiss thing. Did you like the new side of Tayla that we saw? Up till this point she's been passive aggressive about things but obviously when it comes to her man and talking about her fertility issues that is a no no! Did Roman's promise to Tayla seem true? Can she trust him? Tayla banned Jordyn from Jonah's party unless she apologizes. Do you think she will apologize? Also Roman and TAyla want 6 kids! Is that crazy or not? You have to feel for poor Tayla. She just wants a baby so bad but she is having issues. ARe they making the right decision by taking the fertility drugs even though they may miscarry again if she gets pregnant? How about Roman standing up to the doctor? Did that prove he is all in or nothing? Please review and thank-you for reading. Believe me we're not done with Jordyn yet.. and I have a feeling her family may have to make an appearance but we will wait and see. :)
