I am so sorry I haven't up dated in months; I have never gone so long before. This chapter while has been mostly written for months, the end scene which I needed perfect has cause me no end of writer's block and trust me it has just been has frustrating for me, has it has been for you my loyal readers :) This hasn't been proofed so any mistakes are mine.
Chapter 50
It had only been a week since Pearl Harbor and everything had changed; the arrogance that America was safe from the War, which existed before the attack, was gone; it finally hit them that the War had finally touched them. The country had been in a state of fright that they never knew before, luckily, New York was calmer than the West Coast with all the false alarms of Japanese air attacks but it was a scary time.
It was Derek's last night with his family; tomorrow he would be heading for basic training at Pine Camp, which was thankfully located in New York State so until he was deployed he wouldn't be too far from his family and Meredith. Med school was on hold for him until he returned from the war, and he would get plenty of training in the field, since he was joining, has a medic.
He looked over at his fiancée and looks her hand in his; whilst his other hand, felt the ring box that he had in his pocket. She deserved a ring; he fully intended on giving it to her after the family dinner that night; they hadn't told any of his family about the engagement yet; Derek knew everyone would think it was too soon but he didn't care. He couldn't leave her; without ensuring that their future was set in stone.
"Marry me"
Meredith looked at him in shock...of all the things she was not expecting that. She climbed off the bed and paced the room; she couldn't answer him yet...
"Mer...You're scaring me"
"What are you thinking" she rambled under her breath but loud enough for Derek to hear. "This is ridiculous"
"Meredith" Derek said loudly; and it stopped her in her tracks.
"You cannot be serious," she murmured. Derek blocked her path.
"Meredith" he said before he kissed her hard and it seemed to bring her out of her stupor that she found herself in.
"Sorry..." she murmured. "I was not expecting that"
"And I had no intention of asking just yet...it came out but I do want to marry you; spend the rest of my life with you. I never intended on asking you yet but this changes things Meredith. I could be gone for years and I am not asking you to go to city hall with me and be my wife this instant. I do not want to marry you and then leave you for god knows how long but I love you and I want you to be my fiancée. I know this is a shock Meredith but right now you are scaring me"
"We are not ready for this...we have only been together for a few months, you were engaged before"
"Exactly Meredith and you and I are different...you are the love of my life and the only person I have wanted to marry since I first met you... I love you Meredith Ellis Grey and I want you to be my wife, not today but after this war is over and I come home to you"
"I love you too," she said, Derek pulled her in for a kiss...stopping just has his lips touched her's.
"So...is that a yes?" he asked.
"Yes" she told him, Derek fused his mouth to her's and kisses her; not gentle like usual but hard and possessive.
He looked around at his parents, sisters, brother in laws and nieces and nephew he would miss each and every one of them, he had no idea when he would see any of them again, he squeezed Meredith hand under the hand; causing her to look at him and lean over to him.
"Are you alright?" she asked him quietly.
"Yes...just going miss everyone," he told her.
"I am proud of you" she told him, Derek smiled and kissed her on the cheek.
"Thank you, I need to hear that" he admitted to her.
Carolyn was watching the interaction between Derek and Meredith, it wasn't often that they were affectionate in front of the family but that had changed over the past week. Derek had been staying at the house; and she had been watching them. Before they were both more reserved in how they conducted their relationship in front of the family; but since Pearl Harbor; were much more open about their relationship. She didn't know what had changed but maybe it was the fact that Derek would be gone; and no one knew how long this war would last for; it had pushed all her concerns about their relationship to rest. She was fully aware that Derek sneaked into Meredith's room on a nightly basis and despite that, she had told them that she didn't want it happening under her roof; she couldn't bring herself to stop them, the both need something to hold on to. She remembered 30 years before when Chris were sent away and she would not begrudge them a little bit of happiness before he left.
They didn't even bother hiding that Derek was going to spend the night with her; it was their last night together and they had no intention of spending it apart; Derek had said goodbye to his sisters, brothers in laws and the children and in the morning it was his parents turn and Meredith's. Upon entering the bedroom, Derek pulled Meredith towards him and pushed her against the wall; his mouth fusing to hers and his hands running down her curves; he needed her; he couldn't lose her. He would do everything in his power to come home to her. Derek's hand cupped her ass and he lifted her and her legs wound around his waist. He deepened the kiss; needing to taste her; to imprint everything into his memory because it might have to sustain him for years.
Meredith didn't fight him; she couldn't. She needed him as much as he needed her; at the start of this; they had agree to not do this in his parents' house and up until last week; the night she accepted his proposal, that agreement went out the window. He was leaving her and she had no idea when she would see him again, it was when and not if. She was not a clingy person but this past week she had clung to him like never before; she wished that she had said no to waiting and they married before he went and now it was too late; she couldn't hold back the sob that escaped her throat, causing Derek to pull away.
"Meredith" he said gently; has she buried her head in the crook of his neck and cried. Derek held her; Meredith rarely showed him or anyone else how she was feeling; and he knew exactly why because he felt the same way.
"I love you..." he murmured in her ear; he carried her over to the bed and gently laid her down but she held on fast. "Mer...You need to let me go; just for a moment...come on sweetheart," he said; ever so gently. She nodded and let him go; Derek laid down next to her and wrapped himself around her; holding her closely so they were fully touching with their clothed bodies and he let her cry and held her; until she calmed down and stopped.
"I'm sorry," she said lifting her head to look at him.
"Mer...Don't...I know" he assured her.
"I love you"
"I love you too," he said meeting her lips and kissing her and his fingers ran through her hair. "I have something for you," he told her; when they both came up for air. He reached into his trouser pocket and pulled out a small black box; Meredith gasped.
"Der..."
"Ssshhhh...Let me get this out. I wanted to get you a ring; I want the whole world to know that you are mine and you deserve this Meredith. You are the strongest person I know...I am going to miss you so much and when I come home; which I will; I am going to marry you" he told her; slipping the ring on to her finger. "I love you Meredith Grey"
Fresh tears sprang to Meredith eyes has she kissed him. "I love you too," she told him before looking at the ring that he had put on her finger. It was gold; with a large diamond in the middle surrounded by white gold with smaller diamonds on either side; it was perfect. "It's beautiful," she told him.
"When I come home; there will be another one to go with it," he told her; she nodded.
Meredith wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him; she ran her tongue over his lips and into his mouth, Derek let her take control; he loved it on the rare occasions that she did; it was their final night together. Meredith rolled them over so she was on top, straddling him. Derek's hands rested on her hips; has her tongue explored his mouth. Derek's hand untucked her blouse from her trousers and ran his hands over the smooth skin he found there and trying to contain the desire that he felt for her; especially knowing this would be the last time he would get to make love to her and it could be years.
"Too many clothes" Derek murmured as he kiss her hard, her pussy rubbing against his crotch, he flipped them over and pulled away to remove her blouse, his fingers undoing her brassiere as he moved the blouse, over her head. Then pulling off his own shirt before freeing her breasts from their confiner, he took an nipple into his mouth, sucking and gently biting down on it; has he squeezed her other nipple with his finger, before gently rubbing it with his hand. Meredith moaned softly.
"I love you Meredith Grey," he said, before kissing down over her stomach until he reach the band of her trousers. He placed his thumb inside of the trousers and pulled them down over her ass, bringing her panties down to, all the while kissing her exposed flesh.
Breaking contact for just a moment and quickly remove her pants and he separated her legs further and planted little kisses from her ankle until he reached her glistening pussy. Running his tongue over her lips, Meredith arched… as he gently parted the lips, his tongue found her clit, gently flicked it with his tongue, causing Meredith to call out his name.
"Derek" she murmured, her eyes closed in pleasure.
Derek lifted his eyes from the where his head was between her legs, he watched her as she come, his eyes never leaving her face has she spilled into his mouth, he loved watching her come and planned on watching her every single moment of tonight. She continued to tremble under his ministrations, and he was rock hard, he just wanted to be buried inside of her but he wanted this night to last, it was after all, all about her. The possessive, jealous side of him, wanted her to remember whilst they were apart, that no man could ever make her feel, make her come like he did. He knew that she loved him, but he was also aware that he could be gone for years and he didn't want to lose her, especially not to another man. He pulled himself up so that he was face to face with her when she came around.
Derek kissed her hard as she came around from her climax, Meredith responded slowly at first, but soon was meeting his demanding kiss…"God Mer, I don't know how…"
"Ssshhhh" she told him. "Not tonight, we are Meredith and Derek and nothing special is going to happen tomorrow" she said, keeping her voice strong. Derek had never been more proud of her.
"I love you"
"I love you too Derek Shepherd" she said, moving her hand, and he caught glimpse of the ring he brought her on her ring finger. He quickly grabbed her hand and bringing to his lips, he kissed her ring and the skin surrounding it. "Make love to me, Derek?"
"Like you need to ask," he replied, kissing her passionately on the mouth. He pressed his hard length against her pussy; Meredith arched her hips, so that his cock was rubbing against her. "Condom" he murmured.
"No" she stated. Derek looked at her in shock; they had never not used protection before.
"Mer…"
"No…if this is our last night, I want to feel you" she told him firmly.
"You could…."
"I know…" she told him, kissing him hard on the mouth. "I don't care, I love you and in the unlikely event I would get pregnant…then it would be yours and you will have something to return too"
"I have you to return too, you are all I need," he told her, the last thing he wanted was for her to raise to their child alone.
"I want you," she told, kissing him, telling him that she wouldn't take no for an answer.
He entered her swiftly, his mouth still fused to her's.
He groaned into her mouth at the feel of her slick walls around his embed cock; he loved the feel of her, he was ready to implode but he held it off, he wanted her to come first. He thrusted into her slowly at first, keeping his thrust slow and leisurely. He placed a nipple into his mouth and gently sucked. Her slick walls around his cock with no barrier, made holding off his orgasm harder, she felt so good around him.
"God...Der" Meredith murmured his name into his ear, has she gently bit on his earlobe and ran her tongue over the organ, causing Derek to call out her name.
"Mer" he called out, and he could feel his orgasm building but wanted her to come first, so he thrusted into her faster and placed his fingers on her clit, pounding into her hard and fast whilst flicking her clit with his fingers.
Her walls embedded and tightening around his cock and he could feel his balls tighten has they came together, calling out either other names.
"Deeeeer" she called out, and Derek kissed her hard to sniffle there screams. Derek gently collapsed on top of her ensuring to keep most of his weight off her, he stayed of her, gently kissing her, his tongue exploring her mouth, and Meredith let their tongue tangle together; her leg wrapped around his waist, to keep him place, she didn't want to lose this connection or him. Derek knew he had to get off her; he didn't want to squash her.
"Mer..." he said gently.
"What?" she said.
"Unwrap your legs," he told her, she shook her head. "Mer, I am too heavy" he told her and he could see it in her eyes that she didn't want to but she reluctantly unwound her legs from his waist and Derek slipped out of her and rolled them, Meredith immediately snuggled into him, holding him close, Derek's finger gently rubbing against the skin of her back. They couldn't speak to each other again; they both wanted to memorise how they felt against each other, in case they never got to too this again; before they drifted off in each other arms.
***The End***
This was the final chapter, the good news being that there is an epilogue, and hopefully it won't take too long to write.
