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I looked out to white fluff that littered the ground. The silent cold abyss that seemed to cry for company matched my mood completely. I sat on the window seat and just watched the snow slowly hit the ground. I could hear laughing and some other noises in the house. I didn't care to join them. I could feel the coldness of the window that I laid my head on start to numb my head. I didn't care to move it. That last six months of my life had been lonely. I was not prepared for the drastic change. No one was. But I needed more. It was my turn to be selfish.

When my father had found out that me and Jacob had made it official many things happened. He attacked Jacob and Jacob defended himself. Collin tried to defend Jacob and got hurt by. Jasper. Quil and Seth ushered the kids and girls out of the house. I closed my eyes as I remembered the screams. My happiness had gone from a ten to a zero really quick. I remember stepping into the fight to break them up, only to be catapulted through the door by my dad as he swung his arm back.

I cringed remembering the loud pop in my hip as I hit the floor. Everyone froze and Embry quickly escorted the rest of the Cullen boys out as Quill made the pack get out of the house to quickly defuse the fight. Sam ran to my aid trying to remove the wood from around me as my mother lifted my shoulders. I remembering crying. Not really knowing if I was crying from family reunion going wrong or my new found pain. I remember Jacob constantly apologizing and my dad telling me that it was his fault. I remember crying to my mom and holding on to Sam's hand for dear life as my dad looked at my hip.

I looked to the door as there was a knock. Bella came into view with a smile and I smiled back at her letting her know she was welcomed. She then walked in helping me into my wheel chair and guided me through the door. We quietly exited the house and spoke of nothing as Bella wheeled me to her and Edwards new home. It was cold and bitter but I didn't shiver. I didn't understand how the wheels were able to move through the snow but I didn't ask nor did I care talk. We entered the home and I felt a little tingling sensation in my face. I looked up as Edward looked exhausted, as he always did after putting Renesmee down for nap. He smiled and lifted me from the chair, putting me on the couch and handed me the remote to the T.V.

He wrapped his arm around Bella telling me that they would be going for a hunt and to keep an eye on their daughter in case she woke up.

And how am I supposed to do that? I can't move my right leg and she's upstairs. I thought bitterly.

He smirked, "Well keep an ear open and if you hear anything just call me". I nodded my head and they left. I looked at the stupid phone I was given by my father. It had four buttons. One to call Carlisle, my mother, Edward and Rosalie. Alice could see my future seeing that I need something and would come to my aid. I was trapped. Could call no one. Couldn't even run away, couldn't even move without someone's help. Just left to my own thoughts and memories.

I jerked my head as I heard the front door open and relaxed as my mom walked into with food. She began to prepare in the kitchen as she hummed a lullaby she used to sing to me when I was a child. I tried to shift to make myself more comfortable. She turned around and came to surround me with my pillows. I smiled thankful for the help as she planted another kiss on my head and went to cook my dinner.

I felt trapped. For if Black were to return I be at his disposal. If he tried to take me he would succeed. I felt tears travel to my face. Only Jacob made the nightmares seem as if they were just nightmares. Now that he's gone…they remind me that they weren't nightmares, they were my own sick reality. I had been taken by Sam to the hospital that day as my dad did not have any supplies that he needed to fix me. Emily and Sam waited in the waiting room as the pack and the Cullen's surrounded the hospital. All except Bella, Seth, Clair and Renesmee who were being watched at the nearest hotel. I cried and cried as Emily shushed. Sam looked at me and shook his head telling me not to worry. My hip was broken and could be fixed with survey and time but how would they mend my heart?

The story was I feel out of a tree that I was climbing. It explained the broken hips and slivers around me. Oh I fell and I fell hard. I hadn't seen the pack in six months. Occasionally my mom would call Sam when Carlisle wasn't around and let me speak with him. I would cry every time and hear him do the same. I would tell him that I missed him and loved him. He tells me the same and would promise me things would get better. Then I'd have to hang up as the longer I'd spend the harder it'd get to hang up.

Flashback

"I can't believe you". I yelled Esme wheeled me into the house. I had just arrived at the new house and hated that I was once again torn from my family.

" Nickie why don't you eat, it's..." He avoided.

"No! Listen to me! Why? Why would you tear me away from them? From Sam and Emily!" I yelled. Now noticing all my siblings surround me and we're watching me tear through my dad.

"We will stay in contact with him and arrange for them to fly over here. We'll pay for them." He said exhaust hating that the first words we spoke to each other always started a fight.

I looked at him hurt knowing that he couldn't stand that I had fell in love with a shape shifter. Hating that I had grown without him. " You can move me across the sea. Confine me to a chair" he winced knowing he had been the reason I had got in hurt and would not argue as my mother had made it very clear that it was not Jacobs fault, it was his, " monitor my phone calls but the minute I am in control of my life, Jacob and I will be together. He dangerous but he no more dangerous then you are. Harmless to me but dangerous for our father and daughter relationship" I started crying but need to finish.

"I don't know what's got into you. As valuing all types of lives and giving everyone a fair chance is what I learned from you but I'll give you till spring which is my last surgery and then I leave", he looked up ready to object but I beat him to it, " just remember once I'm gone, it's you who lost me. I love Jacob and will never let go of him".

End of Flashback

I sighed as my mom handed me food. I just looked at it wishing I didn't have to eat. She sat down with me and put her arms with me. She didn't agree with my father but still stood by him. Edward and Bella didn't agree and would take Renesmee to see Seth. Oh how lucky was I to have Niece like her. The only great thing about being back was the bonding time that I (was forced to do since I was very limited although I did not mind) was the time I had spent with Renesmee. She was so beautiful and kind. She was the spitting image of Bella and Edward. Perfectly combined. She would draw me these pictures of us and sometimes she would level out that I was in a wheelchair. The best part about being her aunt was when someone like Edward would go after her when she was in trouble she'd run to me for safety. There's been a few close calls however. Most of the time I just tell them "What? Are you going to hit someone in a wheel chair?" I smiled at all the memories of Edwards frustration as he glared at his daughter who hid behind me. Being in a wheel chair had …some perks…only some.

I looked up as my mom taped my nose and pointed to my food. I grimaced not really caring to eat.

When Edward would come back from La Push he would whisper into my ear before kissing my forehead saying, "Jacob loves you".


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