Chapter 54 Fish

"He asked Murphy for a gun. He said he didn't feel safe," Miller told Kane "but I don't know, I think…I thought you should know about it."

"Murphy didn't get him one did he?" asked Kane.

"No, even Murphy isn't that stupid," Miller said.

"Good," Marcus said, He walked to his desk and turned to Miller. "Don't mention anything to anyone about this," he said. "Thanks for letting me know."

"What are you going to do? I mean, you don't think he would hurt himself do you?" Miller asked.

"I don't know. I hope not. Thanks Nate, I'll handle this," Marcus said

Marcus went to find Abby, he had an idea.

Bellamy sat on the edge of his bed. He was holding his book, thinking back to when he would read stories to Octavia. He found himself thinking of the past and wondering if he hadn't taken her to the dance, would things have been different. They may have been on one of the ark stations that didn't survive or they all may be here alive along with his mother. The final moments with his mom, played through his mind. When she was brought into the room, he tried to keep it together, and she hugged him so tight. He remembers how she looked at him and told him to be strong, and she loved him. He felt her shaking and knew she was scared. She reminded him that Octavia was still his responsibility even though she was confined in the skybox and that she wouldn't be there forever. He thought of how scared she suddenly looked when she was in the airlock, and how she couldn't control her body as it was thrown with force when the doors opened. How he hated the men in that room. Men he had seen and trained with when he was a cadet; men he wanted to kill. He missed his mom and suddenly felt so alone.

A knock on the door drew him out of his thoughts. Bellamy opened the door, still holding his book.

"Bellamy its Marcus, can I talk to you a minute?" he asked

"Sure come in," Bellamy said and turned back into his room. Marcus followed him inside and shut the door.

Bellamy went to his table and sat down. "Is everything okay?" Bellamy asked

"I was going to ask you the same thing," Marcus said "How's the hand?" he asked looking at Bellamy's wrapped hand.

"It's fine, it was just a sprain really," Bellamy said "I'll be taking this off in a day or so," he said "You're not here about my hand,' Bellamy said "Why are you here Kane?" he asked

"I just wanted to check on how you were doing, I know it's still early, but when you're ready, I was thinking of assigning you to communications," he said "I just wanted you to think about if you would be willing to give it a try once your adjusted." Marcus said

Bellamy just sat there and didn't say anything. Finally he just nodded.

Marcus looked at Bellamy's hand on his book. "Bellamy, I realize you're still dealing with everything. I just want you to think about that, if you will. Once you're ready, just let us know, no rush, just take all the time you need," Marcus said. He studied Bellamy's expression, trying to read what he was thinking, trying to not say the wrong thing.

"Anyway Bellamy, that's not the only reason I'm here. I want you to come with me," Marcus said.

"Where too?" asked Bellamy.

"Just humor me,' said Marcus.

Bellamy nodded.

"I don't think this is a good idea," Clarke said. "He doesn't like surprises."

"Clarke, I think he needs to get out, it'll do him good," said Abby

"I don't know mom, he said he needed to do things on his own. I just don't want to push him," said Clarke

"Clarke, Marcus is worried. Bellamy wanted a gun." Abby said

Clarke stopped and looked at Abby. "No…no, he must have a reason, Bellamy is upset but he wouldn't…hurt himself,' she said

"I'm not saying that, I just think we need to try and help him, he may push us away, but he's scared, and I think maybe he needs some fresh air, he's been cooped up in that room, he's been through a lot, this will do him some good," Abby said.

"Did you bring his tea?" Clarke asked

"I've got, his tea," said Abby

"Hey sorry we're late," said Monty. "I had a hard time getting Harper up,"

"Sorry guys, midnight shift sucks," she said "But I wouldn't miss this, I can't wait," said Harper

"It's okay they're not here yet," said Abby

"Did you already load the gear?" asked Monty

"Gears all loaded,' said Clarke

Marcus and Bellamy got to the hanger bay, where everyone was were waiting. "Is this the hanger bay?" Bellamy asked.

"How could tell?' Marcus asked.

"The smell," said Bellamy.

"I've never noticed," said Marcus "well anyway, we're all going on a day trip," he said

"Who's we?" asked Bellamy

"Hey," Clarke quietly said "Hope you're not upset, mom asked if I would come, Monty and Harpers here too."

"Hey Bellamy," said Monty, as he walked up.

"Where are we going, what's going on?" Bellamy asked.

"Come on people," said Marcus as he held open the rover door.

Clarke put her hand on Bellamy's back, and led him to the rover. Bellamy hesitated. He looked troubled, unsure of what to do. "Bellamy, it's okay," Clarke whispered.

Bellamy climbed into the rover and found a seat along the side wall. Clarke sat next to him followed by Marcus and Abby.

Bellamy had a troubled look on his face, unsure of where they were taking him.

Monty got into the driver seat, with Harper next to him.

The rover pulled out and left Arkadia. They kept driving and Bellamy didn't say anything.

"Bellamy, I brought some of your tea, in case you feel like you may need it," Abby said.

"Thanks, I had some earlier, so hopefully I'll be good," he said.

The group drove for about 30 minutes. They circled the lake, until they came to a secluded clearing along the bank.

"This looks like the spot," said Monty

Everyone unloaded the rover and Bellamy knew it was a lake. He stood alone listening. He didn't know where to go or what to do. He knew they were here for him, he wasn't stupid. He thought he would play along and follow their lead.

He heard someone walk up to him. "Bellamy, come on," said Marcus as he placed his hand on Bellamy's shoulder and led him to the water's edge.

"What's going on?" he asked Marcus "You're not throwing me in are you?" he joked

"Here Bellamy," Monty said and handed him a thin pole.

"Come on Bellamy, haven't you ever been fishing?" asked Marcus

"Of course I've been fishing," Bellamy said.

Marcus, Bellamy and Monty sat quietly on the bank fishing. It was peaceful and quiet, no one spoke.

Finally after almost an hour, "I got one," shouted Monty. "I think I got a big one!"

Bellamy turned his head towards Monty's voice and listened.

Marcus stood and moved towards Monty, "Pull it in, not too fast, don't yank it or you'll lose it," he told Monty

Suddenly Bellamy felt his pole pull a little. He turned towards it, ignoring Monty's excitement.

Bellamy pulled himself up, "I have one too," he said with excitement in his voice.

Clarke, Harper and Abby rushed over from where they had sat up a picnic.

Monty pulled in a fish and Marcus turned his excitement to Bellamy who was pulling in one as well.

Marcus and the others stood back as Bellamy pulled out the medium sized fish. "You caught it," shouted Clarke.

Bellamy moved his hand to the end of the pole and followed the line down till he came to the fish. "It's not bad, could be bigger," he smiled as he felt the fish's mouth and removed the hook. Then he held it up. "Monty is mine bigger?" he asked.

"Nope mine's huge," Monty said

"Monty!" snapped Harper. "He's lying Bellamy. It's the same size," she laughed.

By the end of the day, everyone had eaten, there were plenty of fish to take back to camp, and the group sat around the fire relaxing and laughing. Bellamy had a good day except when his headache started, but Abby gave him tea right away so it didn't get too bad. Clarke and the others felt that finally it looked like a turning point for him.

The way back in the rover, was upbeat. Monty bragged about the fish he caught, until Marcus reminded him they still had to clean all the fish. "Can't we make Murphy do that?" Monty asked.

"No," said Marcus. "The rules are if you catch them, you clean them."

"That's why I don't fish," said Harper.

"Yea, me neither," said Clarke "Cleaning fish is the worst."

She looked at Bellamy. "I guess it's just you and Monty. Right Kane?" she teased "How many fish did you catch Marcus?"

"I caught fish, I just threw them back," Marcus said

"What you caught, I don't think could be classified as fish, more like fish bait," teased Monty.

"Well what I caught doesn't have to be cleaned," laughed Marcus.

"I had a good time,did you?" Clarke softly asked Bellamy.

He smiled. "Yes actually I did," he said.

"Look, I know you said you wanted," she started but was cut off.

"Can you come by in the morning, before breakfast?" he asked her. "I thought maybe we could talk?" he asked.

"Sure, no problem," she said.

Once they were back at Arkadia, Marcus, Monty and Bellamy took the fish to the back prep area where the camps meat was prepared. There was a cleaning table. Marcus handed Bellamy a knife and the fish were piled onto the table and left the two alone. Monty and Bellamy cleaned the fish. Scaling them first, and then gutting them. They removed the head. Bellamy didn't have any problem. He cleaned fish all the time when he was hunting to feed the grounder villages.

The two worked in silence until Monty finally spoke. "Today was nice," he said "We should do it more often."

"Yea," said Bellamy "I had a good time. You and Harper; you really like her don't you?" he asked.

"Yea, Harpers great," Monty said.

"Is she taking Apollo the apples like I told you?" asked Bellamy

"Yep, every morning after breakfast," Monty said.

"Good, that's good," said Bellamy "Make sure she's patient with him, Apollo's a good horse and once he learns to trust her, she'll do fine, but don't let her even think of riding him until then. Apollo is strong and could hurt her much worse than a sprained wrist" Bellamy said. "It's up to you to watch out for her. Promise you'll always take care of her. Promise me Monty."

"Yes I promise," said Monty. He thought it was odd that Bellamy made him make the promise, but Bellamy wasn't easy to figure out lately, so he didn't think much about it.

"Marcus said he was assigning you to communications," Monty said. "I think you'll like it there."

Bellamy's face grimaced and he slowly shook his head. "I don't know. Me and Raven in the same room for too long? That may be kind of dangerous," he joked

"Aww come on, she's not that bad," laughed Monty.

"Did I ever tell you the first time we met?" Bellamy asked

"No," said Monty.

"We were literally at each other's throats," he said "Well I had my hands around hers and she had a knife in my face," He smiled.

"Seriously?" asked Monty.

"Seriously," Bellamy smiled.

"Yea, well…you were a jack ass back in those days," said Monty.

"Yea, I still am most of the time," smiled Bellamy.