A/N #1: HEYOO! I'm so sorry it's taken so long! I've been meaning to update but I've been sucked into studying. School blows chunks. I hate it so much lol. Well, here's chapter 54! One day of finals down and two more to go. FRIDAY IS THE DAY. FRIDAY IS THE DAY I WILL BE POSTING CHAPTER 55. THE VERY LAST CHAPTER OF SEE YOU SOON! WOOO!

A/N #2: Thank you to all of you readers and to my boo thang for pushing me to write (I love you babe).

DISCLAIMER: I own my imagination home skillet biscuit!


Three days have passed since I last talked to Ashley. I stormed out on her in class after she told me she cheated. It wasn't supposed to get this bad, yet it did. School ended about an hour ago. I've been relaxing since it's the last week of school. Everyone keeps coming in and out of my room, telling me how miserable Ashley has been. To be honest, I'm not sure if I care.

This relationship has been filled with drama and maybe it was supposed to be. Maybe it ended up like that to see how much we really loved each other. See if we will fight and come back to one another. Of course I'm still in love with Ashley. I know deep down if I ever move on, I'll always love her and I literally mean that. The last few months we drifted and got caught into things we shouldn't have. Everything happens for a reason. We just need to keep pushing through with our life.

I'm lying on my bed right now, staring at the ceiling listening to some music. It's been a while since I've been able to do this. I missed it. Moments later there was a knock on my door.

"Come in!" I shout above the music.

"Spencey poo!" Aiden, Kanani and Glen all cheer as they walk in.

"Oh my gosh. Be gone biotch!" I groan then laugh, throwing my hand up to wave them away.

"Shut up and sit up." Kanani commands.

"What homie slice?" I sit and raises my eyebrows at the three people in front of me.

"How you feeling Spence?" Aiden asks, sitting down next to me.

"Could be better." I look away. Immediately thoughts of Ashley fill my mind.

"You should talk to her Spence." Glen says softly, leaning against the doorway.

"I know. I know. I'm just not sure when or what to say." I admit, playing with my fingers.

"Say what you feel. Ask the questions you want answered." Aiden wraps his arm over my shoulder.

"It's not that easy. I can't even go five minutes alone in my room and think about her without crying. How am I going to go talk to her face to face?" I lift my head and look into all the different colored eyes in front of me.

"When you decide to go speak to her, you won't need to think. You're mind and mouth will say what they want. Just hope they don't say something stupid." Glen laughs.

"Boo you!" We laugh as I pick up my pillow and throw it at Glen.

"She misses you Spencer. I mean, I'm being completely honest. I saw what happened at lunch today." I look up to Aiden.

"What happened?" I ask, confused.

"Ashley called out to you. You looked at her. You glared and walked away. Ashley's smile faded then she walked to her car. BAM! Instant river flow from thee eyeballs." Aiden explains.

"She was crying?" I ask.

"Yes ma'am. Balling out the pacific ocean of tears from her eyes. I had to hold her for a minute or so until she stopped and contained herself. She just shrugged it off."

"Oh yay. She shrugged it off." I say slightly bitter.

"She is hurting just as much as you Spencer. I know she made a mistake but you did as well. There's no right or wrong side when it comes to you two. I saw it when I looked in her eyes Carlin. She really is in love with you and Ashley really does miss you." I nodded, stilling staring at the ground.

"Let me have some time to think ok?" I ask the three musketeers. "I'll talk to her before graduation. Possibly tonight." I smile.

"Mission accomplished!" The three scream in unison then high five one another.

"You're so lame" I laugh then watch as they walk out of my room.

After Glen, Aiden and Kanani left I continued to think of what to say and ask Ashley. Still debating whether or not I'm going to go over to the Davies house tonight. I was just starting to doze off until my phone started ringing. I turned to my left and picked up my Iphone, smiling when I saw the caller ID.

"Hey carm! What's up?" I ask happily into the phone.

"Not much. You?" Carmen asks.

"Same, just bored out of my mind." I chuckle.

"Always were one to be bored Ms. Carlin." I smiled to the phone.

"Want to face time?" I ask.

"I wish, but I'm not in a wifi zone right now. Sorry."

"It's cool. So why'd you call?"

"I wanted to know when your graduation is and if you have any more tickets."

"I have like four tickets left. Why?"

"Save them for me, yeah?" My heart started racing. "Who's going?"

"Um, Glen, Glen's girlfriend Aria, Clay, Clay's girlfriend Chelsea, mom and dad." I list.

"Well save those four tickets my dear. You have a special graduation present."

"No way! Is she coming?!" I ask, excitedly.

"It's a surprise Carlin. Just make sure you keep those four tickets open. We might not get there on time, but if we do then we'll need them."

"Definitely. I'll talk to you later. I'll text you the deets." I laugh.

"Later Spencer." I hung up with a huge smile on my face.

That made my day…Do you think going to Ashley's will make my night?


Today like the past two days has been quite shitty. Hey, it's my fault either way. I messed up with Spencer and I'm still trying to get her to talk to me. Kanani has been texting me, telling me how she keeps talking to Spencer about coming over to talk. I know she isn't the only one and I'm thankful I have such wonderful friends in my life.

These past days I spent not talking to Spencer have been complete agony for me. That is why I decided to bury myself in music. I currently in my studio, playing drums, trying to figure out a song. I've written some stuff down. Let's see if it fits.

I started playing my dreams at a slow pace. Bringing up a slow beat. Letting myself fall into it. Right away, all my thoughts dissolve. Main focus is music. I was nodding my head then started singing.

Here tomorrow, gone today

What I had slipped away

It's gonna be the last time you hear me say

Here tomorrow, gone today

Cause I'll fine peace of mind

The day that I stop trying.

Lately I haven't focused on music. So right now, is where I want to be other than with Spencer. I needed to vent somehow. Music is my way.

The day that I stop holding on

To all the little things that I've done wrong

The day that I stop holding my breath

When I stop believing that my life is a test

It'll take time, but I want to prove Spencer that we can get through this. I need to drop what Spencer did and I need to drop what I did. Even though it's not that easy.

I'll fine peace of mind

The day that I stop trying

I'll find peace of mind

The day that I stop trying.

I want to have a peace of mind with Spencer in my life.

Cause I've been losing my way

Been listening too much to what other people say

If I can't hear the noise that I play

I've got nothing

I don't know how but I lost myself somewhere in this journey. I want to prove to Spencer that I can find myself and be the girlfriend I should've been. We all make mistakes. No doubt about that.

I stopped playing my drums and got up. I ran out to the mixing area of my studio. I continued to play the drumming beat I just record. I picked up my Gibson guitar and ran back into the recording area. I put my headphones on then started playing my guitar. No one knows this, but I secretly rap when I want to.

But I need something though, cause life is cold trying to trek through the slush and snow

With nothing to hold except my soul, everything comes and goes

I finally feel at peace, relieved can breathe a sigh of relief

I wanted approval, but it's only me that knows what I'm trying to achieve

I lighten my load, I loosen the straps, I empty my backpack

The weight is too much, I do what I have to, to get back on track

I was sidetracked from right path, but it's path, but it's part of the growing process

Trying to beat and complete with the competition but it's really a no win process

This is life y'all and there's nothing you can do but ride it out

That's why I write this out, with every high comes a low

With every mistake comes a growth, with every chord

You gotta take notes, don't lose your way just follow the road and go

Life's too short to worry about every little thing. I closed my eyes and went back to rapping.

The wheels are turning, keep it moving, grind it out

Yeah that's what it's about, the things that you think would matter

After the glass is broke and shattered, don't mean nothing

Still we make assumptions, that's just how we function.

I stopped playing my guitar and opened my eyes. My breath caught in my throat the moment my eyes landed on the most beautiful girl in the world in front of me. I sang the last verse of the song.

Cause I've been losing my way

Been listening too much to what other people say

If I can't hear the noise that I play

I've got nothing.

My smile was wide when Spencer started to clap. I took off the headphones then set my guitar down. I made sure not to trip as I walked out of the recording room into the mixing room.

"Hey." I whispered.

"Hey." Spencer lifts her hand in a wave.

"What's up?" I ask.

"Um, can we talk?" Spencer looks at her feet and rubs the back of her neck.

"Yeah, come on." I walk over to her and intertwine our fingers. I hold her hand, walking down the hall into the living room. We walked over to the couch and sat down. My body was fighting me until it finally let go of Spencer's hand. "What's up?


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I only arrived a few minutes ago. I walked in on Ashley singing a new song. We went into the living room since I asked to talk.

"What's up?" Ash asks.

"Look, I love you. I'm in love with you. I didn't intend on what happened with Naomi to happen. Yes I'm upset with myself, but I'm mostly upset with the fact, you just ran. You went and got drunk then fucked some random chick. It hurt a lot Ashley." I explain.

"I know Spencer. I know. I'm so sorry baby. I was and still am disappointed in myself. Most of all, I just want to take time to move on from our stupid mistakes. Together. I need you Spence. Yes I want to make things right. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions. I'm sorry." She apologizes.

"Give me until graduation day ok? After graduation, we can talk and I'll give you an answer. Until then, I just want some time to think things over. Is that okay?" I ask.

"Yes. Of course. Take all the time you need. I'm always going to be here waiting." Ashley explains.

"Thank you." Now I know I shouldn't have, but I couldn't help but lean over and gently kiss her on the lips. The kiss lasted longer than expected. Yet, I still enjoyed it.

"Is Kyla here?" I ask, pulling away and resting my forehead against Ashley's

"In her room." I smile then kiss her forehead.

"See you soon." I wave to Ashley as I get up and towards Kyla's room. I need some advice from Kyla. I need someone to talk to tell about my past.


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Song used: David Myles FT. Classified- Peace of mind