Saved By You


Chapter 49 – Forgive me

Jace's face went from fury to an expression that is completely numb and blank in a matter of seconds. He looks weak as a child and terrified and I know his reasons why. He wouldn't be here if he didn't know. But who told him? Who? I look behind him and see my Brother and Luke in the background. Teddy is watching Jace like a hawk and Luke is trying hard not to get involved. He must have followed me, the douche ball! I return my eyes back onto Jace. The colour shot out of his face and he looks like he's seen a ghost. Slowly, Jace eases himself off the desk, tapping his fingertips at the edge before standing straight, not once removing his stare away from me.

After a short moment, his pink sore eyes strolled over me before pausing on the lower half of my body. He stares and stares and then shakes his head side to side. "Please…" Jace's voice is hoarse as he begged. The six letter word is so strong. A cold shiver travels through me and causes me to let a tear escape. It stabs me in the gut to see the copied sheen of dampness in Jace's eyes. With knotted hands like he was praying for a good outcome, I can see his skin paling at the tightness of his clenched fingers. He finishes what I already knew he was going to ask. "Tell me you haven't?"

My lips parted open to answer his question but I suddenly couldn't find my own voice. It's gone missing. I want to get the words to escape my mouth but they're not coming out. The system in me shuts down and I'm disabled from everything. I can't move forwards to reassure him. But I sure to hell wished I could at least do something, something to ease his pain.

His blue gloss eyes are panicking as he glancing up and down at me. Untangling his fingers they go to his hair and pulls tightly. He doesn't want to take the strain of this out on anybody but himself.

Instead of speaking, I find the strength to shake my head. I don't know why but I immediately glanced down to my Converses to avoid him and his reaction. A blur consumes my sight now and the tears begin to sting my eyes. Bringing my hands to my eyes, I hide my face away and before I could remove the first set of tears the second load comes rolling out.

The sound of Jace's quick steps along the polished surface comes closer and through the wet lashes I see the top of his trainers not so far away. His eyes are burning into me as he stands there watching me cry. He doesn't want to touch me, does he? My tears fall harder and the sob start pouring from my lips. His strong arms come around me and he places his hand on the back of my head, pushing me towards him, allowing me to cry my tears into his chest.

I'm not sure how long we stand like this but it feels like forever. The crying won't stop from my eyes and I try to fight with myself to end them. Movement captures my attention as Jace turns his head as if he's looking for someone behind him. "Excuse me?"

"Yes?" The girl's voice responded back.

Jace suddenly becomes politer to the poor girl who was terrified moments ago. "Is there a room we could use?"
"Uh- yeah sure…"

"Go home," I hear Jace command with a low deep voice as we move away from the spot we just stood. He's speaking to Teddy and Luke as he holds onto me. "We'll be okay," He says but I'm not sure if he is assuring them, me or all of us.

We suddenly come to a stop and the girl's voice enters the air again. "Take as much time as you need." Once the door clicks and we're alone, my feet are forced to move a short distance before Jace shifts away from me. I rub my eyes on my blazer arm and see him taking a sit down on a blue comfortable looking chair. When my eyes look around I see that everything in the room is blue. The walls are a light grey blue which makes it a little dark apart from the little light coming through from the window. On the walls I see poster after poster that's meant to give support but for me the words just mix together and the pictures haunt my mind. What was I thinking of coming here?

The soft gentle touch of Jace's skin against mine makes me flinch back a little. I shook myself out of this state and let his fingers clasp around mine. His grip is strong but not hurtful as he pulls me down onto his lap, tugging my legs over him and letting my head rest against his shoulder. Being close to him is relaxing and it dawns on me of how drained if feel right now.

I really don't want Jace to ever leave me. I couldn't blame him though if he did choose to get rid of me now, after putting him under this situation.

I assumed his firsts words to me would be, 'why didn't you tell me?' or 'Are you ready to talk yet?' but he surprised me by telling me how he was feeling. "When I got that phone call telling me…" Jace stopped himself and shook his head. I glance at his face and see the tears pooling at the corner of his eyes again. I've seriously hurt him, haven't I? My actions follow his and the streams of emotions swell up and break free, running down either side of my cheeks like rivers. I try to whisper my apologises but they don't escape my lips. Instead, I listened to him once he pulled himself together. "My heart stopped, Lyds. I couldn't believe it at first. I didn't want to believe it. I thought it was some sick joke. You would never come here. Not to get rid of our baby. That's not my Lydia."

"I'm sorry," The desperate words came yelling out of my mouth as the sobs violent burst alongside with them. He can't leave me. He can't.

"On the drive over…" His lips trembled together and the teardrops sulk into the line of his lips. He wipes them before continuing. "I was so scared. I couldn't let you do this. I needed to stop you. I drove so fast, cut way too many people up. Hell, I went through a red." There was another pause. "Why didn't you tell me? We could have disgust this as a couple. I would have listened."

I'm not sure how he's going to take it but he needs to be told. He needs to know the truth. The words came gushing out without hesitation. "I don't want to be carrying something that could potentially be his…."

Jace's eyes quickly shoot to meet mine. They suddenly become bold and stands out as if he misheard what I said. After a massive big gulp he questions instantly, "His? You mean Darnell could be the Father?"

I clam my lips together and nod my head.

The air becomes silent for a while as we just cling to each other letting every tear roll down our faces. I gather that Jace is collecting his thought on the matter. I didn't want to disturb him. Getting his head around the idea that this baby, he's just found out his fiancée is having might not be his and that must be difficult. He might not want me to have it. He probably will understand my reasons for being here.

I'm not sure how I'm going to cope if I do have this baby and it's not Jace's. Plus I don't know how we, as a couple, will cope either. It could ruin us and that's my fear and now my nightmare. I cannot live without Jace. My dreams will appear back if he goes. Which sounds selfish but he is my rock. My only way of coping. Without Jace I have nothing. My heart is for him, it always has been since I first met him. He has always been my future but now the spanner is in the works and I'm not sure if he sees me in his.

Jace remains a hold on my hand and he squeezes it, forcing me to look at him again. "No matter what the outcome is Lydia, I'll be there. To be the Father, the Dad or whatever our baby needs me to be."

I blink my wet heavy lashes, thinking I'm dreaming right now. But I'm not. He's being deadly serious. "Why are you being so nice to me for? You should be kicking and screaming at me."

Jace smiled. He leaned in and placed a kiss to my cheek, removing a teardrop from my face. "It's called love Lydia. I love you so much. As much as I would like to be kicking and screaming, I can't, not for something that isn't your fault. You really were handed bad luck charm."

"Bad luck," I repeated, saying them as if the words are disgusting. "More like a massive amount of bad luck that I have to live with for the rest of my entire life…"

Jace presses his lips together and his fingers stroke against my face to look at him again. I'm finding it difficult to look at him for a long time. "Babe, if it is his, then it doesn't matter to me. He or she will always be a part of you. I'll love them like they are my own. But I guess we can't find that out till a few months time."

With that reassurance I realise I've picked the best person ever to marry. "I can't thank you enough for understanding this."

Jace smiles and tilts my chin up before pressing his lips to mine. "I love you Lydia."


A/N – Thanks for your reviews! Some great feedback this week! So now it's vote time! Who's the daddy? Jace or Darnell. I have lots of ideas for what could happen if it's either. So let me know by reviewing. : )