AUTHOR'S NOTE:
All right so here is a fluffy chapter for you guys.
=P
I think I will be making most of you happy with this chapter…we shall see.
Dani aka my inspiration for Devon, wrote a couple lines in the Devon/Lily/Spock scene where she mutters and leaves.
Also, I want to plug KyleenaCloud1790.
Find her and read her stuff.
Oh, and there are 4 POVs…all different.
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Spock's POV
For the last two weeks, I had been getting up early and doing work as usual, as well as getting to know Leona. This morning, however, when I woke up I simply stayed where I was because I knew that Lily had been feeling lonely lately. What with her mother showing up, and being on probation, as well as her lack of being able to do her job, Lily was also feeling overwhelmed and I decided it was best for me today to be with my wife. So I stroked her hair and watched her sleep, smiling a little when she stirred.
"Do I look as exhausted as I feel?" She asked me with a smirk, her eyes still closed.
I slipped my arm around her, stroking her stomach with my thumb as I rested my palm there. Neither of us had planned to have a baby when we did, but it was turning out to be a rewarding experience. I was not entirely sure how our child was going to fit into the worlds that Lily and I came from but one thing was for certain—she was never going to feel abandoned or ashamed. I had always been taught by my Vulcan teachers that my human emotions were shameful, and Lily had been abandoned early on. Still, she grew up in a loving home and my mother loved me and was proud of me no matter what—and that was how I wanted my daughter to feel…proud and loved.
"You know…Janet had a point." Lily told me, running her fingers along my arm.
I smiled at her some more. "So you are insinuating that we should completely give in to carnal urges and lust?"
Lily rolled her eyes. "Well if you're going to call it that, then no."
I looked at her fondly with my eyes as she turned to face me, her eyes fluttering open. She stroked my cheek and kissed me softly, slipping her arms around my neck and pulling me closer to her. She just wanted to be with me, and I knew that, but the reasons for trying to engage in such behaviors were illogically based. I did, however, continue to kiss her, knowing she was aware of my intentions not to take this further at the present time. We would have our moment later, but for now we were simply going to try and spend time together since I had more work to do soon—after the baby shower this afternoon.
"So…we're having a daughter." Lily told me, propping her head up on her hand and resting her elbow on the pillow. "What are your actual feelings on the subject?"
I stroked her hair. "We are having a daughter—I am happy that we will be having an offspring."
"I spent so much time hoping we'd have a son, and somehow I'm almost happier we're having a daughter." She told me with a smile. "I have absolutely no idea what we're going to name her though. We could name her after your mother."
I shook my head, pleased that she would even think to honor my mother by naming our daughter after her, but I truly wanted our daughter to be given her own name. It is not that I did not want to honor my mother, but our daughter was to be a child of Betazoid, Vulcan and Earth. It only seemed logical that she enter into the world and be given her own identity with which to venture out into the world. I tried to shake away the thoughts that I was being a little too sentimental about it, but I couldn't seem to help myself.
"Then perhaps we should wait until she comes out and name her on the spot." Lily replied and then made a face. "I'm really not looking forward to most of that."
I raised an eyebrow. "I do not find it logical to simply rely on luck to name our daughter."
Lily smiled. "It would not be luck—I am quite sure that after hours of pain and then some pushing and screaming, I'll have come up with a suitable name…or you will have."
"Perhaps, though that does not resemble sounds logic either." I explained.
Lily rolled her eyes and laid back on her pillow, stroking my tunic and sighing a little. She then proceeded to get up and after going to use the bathroom she came out and leaned against the doorframe. I knew what she was thinking, but I simply thumbed through my datapad for a moment or two, shifting as she sat on my lap and played with the bottom of my tunic. I raised an eyebrow, and when she pouted I sighed and raised up my arms, letting her lift up my shirt tossing it down on the ground and kissing me softly as she slid her arms down my sides and then slipped around my middle. She rested her forehead against mine, and then she kissed me swiftly and slowly pulled her hands back and rested them on my shoulders.
"We have to get ready for the shower." She told me.
I nodded as she got off of my lap. "Are you in need of my assistance?"
"No, I am not, but thank you for the offer—why don't you play chess?" She offered, and then went to go and start tidying up the already tidy quarters for our guests.
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Lillian's POV
"Can you even imagine what kinds of gifts we're going to get?" I asked Spock as he played some chess against the computer.
He shook his head, focusing more on a move than on what I had to say. I smiled at him though, loving that he was engaging himself in a game of chess instead of listening to what I was saying. I was simply trying to make small talk, and I was in no need of attention at the moment. There were going to be people in our quarters any time now, and I simply needed to talk out loud.
"I very much think it's time for finger sex." I told him, just wondering if he could hear me.
"I would believe that you do." Spock replied.
We had not realized that Devon had entered our quarters, and I could immediately feel all the confusion within her but I couldn't organize any of her emotions other than her face which showed panic. She seemed to be in quite a state of panic, and I was going to open my mouth to say something when she muttered under her breath what I thought sounded like 'That's so wrong! Get out of my head!' I raised an eyebrow, and she closed her eyes and then opened them again when I spoke to her.
"Lieutenant, what's wrong?" I asked urgently embodying her distress against my will.
"Oh! What?!" She asked seeming to react to her surroundings. "Oh no, I'm not in my quarters, I apologize I seem to have confused your room for mine at this time."
She readjusted herself showing composure but all her insides were still churning. I privately commended her for that cover up but something was wrong and I'd have to find out—it was just my nature. I exchanged a look with Spock after she left in a flustered flurry, still muttering to herself. I smiled ever so slightly, and then studied Spock's reaction of her outburst. She seemed completely unaware that Spock was void of his tunic, and he raised an eyebrow in her direction as he ignored my thoughts on that subject.
"Fascinating." He said aloud.
"She'll be fine I'll counsel her at a later time." I laughed and sat down next to him. "How is the game going?"
Spock motioned to the chessboard and I sighed and looked it over. I was smart, whether that was vain to say or not, but this version of chess still seemed to elude me. I started to look over the chessboard, and the only thing I was sure of, was that a draw was inevitable. I pointed to one of his knights and he shook his head, which made me completely aware of why I was never ever going to beat him at this game. As much as I understood it, there was still too much about it that caught me off guard.
I looked up as the door beeped. "You should put a shirt on now that guests seem to be arriving."
He nodded. "That would be logical indeed."
"Well I mean…unless you want to be pretty much naked while everyone's here." I said with a shrug. "I'm sure that no one would mind."
"Jesus Christ he's naked!" Janet exclaimed her and Leonard walking into the quarters.
Leonard hurriedly rushed to cover his face as I laughed, Spock grabbing some clothes and disappearing into the bathroom. Leonard sent me a look as a blush rose in his cheeks and Janet nodded approvingly before having to let Leonard know he was the only one for her when he gently smacked her arm. There was absolutely nothing wrong with looking, and as long as she didn't act on anything—which she wouldn't—so I was perfectly fine with her checking out my husband. I also found it incredibly adorable that Leonard was not attracted to Spock in that way, but thought Spock was an attractive man and he was struggling with that thought.
"So what'd you get me?" I asked her.
Janet rolled her eyes. "Don't you mean, what did I get for the baby?"
"Remember in the academy when Mary Grant got pregnant and we gave her a baby shower? You gave her those fuzzy handcuffs for her and her boyfriend to use before she got too pregnant…I'm not expecting handcuffs, but I know how you think." I said with a laugh.
"Fine…I got you something, but you have to wait until everyone else arrives." Janet told me defensively, clutching the gift bag to her. "And I want you to open my present last."
I rolled my eyes as I laughed at her, Spock coming out of the bathroom clothed as I got the door and ushered in Megan, Chekov and Devon. I was still trying to figure out what was up with Devon, but that would have to wait until later. Devon was also the only one in the company wearing her uniform besides Spock—he was wearing his uniform shirt. Everyone else was lazing around with me, and we were dressed in our civilian clothes, Janet beyond enthused that she got to wear pants for a few hours. Then Kirk showed up, Scotty and Amanda in tow behind him and Kirk thrusted his gift at Spock.
"Well…open it." He said.
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Devon's POV
I was happy to be included in the small baby shower, and intrigued by Amanda Steeples. I had worked with her a little bit, seeing as she was pretty much Scotty's right-hand woman besides Megan, but I had never actually spoken to her. Her crush on him was completely evident from the look on her face even though he didn't seem to notice, and I was glad that I didn't look at Kirk like that or he'd know. Wait a minute? What? What the Hell did I just think? Did I just think that I liked Kirk?
"That's so wrong! Get out of my head!" I mumbled to myself, Janet looking at me as she sat down next to me and raising an eyebrow.
This was exactly what had happened earlier today. I was quite aware that I was a little upset about him ignoring me after having to fight Lady Kara for my 'honor', but I liked him?! I couldn't like him! He was the Goddamn captain! He was in control of the whole fucking ship and a relationship with him was out of the question! Why was I even thinking about a relationship with him? What was I, retarded?
"Jimmy! Thank you!" Lily exclaimed, and I looked up to see her holding up three onesies, one after the other, and they seemed to each be a different size so the baby would grow into them—he was certainly thoughtful.
"It is not logical to assume that she will be…'Daddy's Little Girl', or that she will automatically love me." Spock told Kirk as he read some of the sayings.
Once of them said, 'Daddy's Little Girl', one 'I Love Daddy' with a heart instead of the word 'love', and the other read, 'Princess'. 'Princess' was so typically cliché, but just the fact that Kirk had picked the gifts based on Spock, his best friend, was sweet. Kirk had it in him to be completely charming and loyal, and that was probably why I was attracted to him. He was also physically attractive, with his brown hair and his incredibly hot hands…hands I was starting to wish were touching me lately…God fucking damn-it! Why did I want him to touch me?
"Thank you, Amanda." Lily told her, looking over some booties and some hats. "And thank you Scotty for the scotch…though I am pregnant and will not indulge, and I do not believe that Spock will be drinking any—it would dull his Vulcan senses."
Scotty smiled and I tried to clear my thoughts as Megan and Chekov handed over their joint gifts. Everyone was getting the gifts out of the way so that we could eat and mingle with each other, and Amanda asked Lily if she and Spock had picked out any names yet as Lily unwrapped the large box. Lily shook her head, grinning as she pulled out the mobile and then started to try and figure out how she was going to hang it. That's when Chekov stepped in and said they'd bought the crib too, and would be putting it together for her and Spock very soon, and that was what the mobile hung onto. I looked over at Kirk and found myself suddenly flushing very warm—even if I hadn't seen the entire fight, I was very, very grateful for what he had done for me.
"I think you'll love my gift—Leonard can go last." Janet said, thrusting the bag towards Lily.
Lily laughed and peeked inside and then her whole face flushed. "Janet…thank you."
"What is it?" I found myself asking.
"It's…um…I mean I guess we're all adults here…" She said.
I blushed a little myself. "You know what? If it's more a gift for your husband to rip off, you can leave it in the bag."
She smiled a nodded, and I knew she was silently thanking me. As forward as she was, Lily did seem to be shy when it came to certain things. I handed her my gift, trying desperately not to think about Kirk's eyes on me, and I blushed as she opened it and pulled out a set of books I had picked up at a settlement, and she smiled at me. I didn't know if she was just being sweet or not, but she seemed genuinely happy to have books to give the baby when she was older. I told her I was glad she liked the gifts, and then I watched as she opened up the teddy bear from Leonard, and found myself standing up as Kirk did.
"I would love to stay to eat, but I really need to look up some things and then go back to my post." Kirk announced.
Lily stood up and hugged him. "Come by later—I would love to see more of you."
Kirk kissed her forehead. "You'll see more of me, I promise."
She nodded and he left the quarters, Chekov and Spock discussing the crib. I couldn't help but follow him out, trying to explain to myself that this would be easier if I just talked to him about it. He had been the one to go after me first, so these feelings were easy for him to deal with and understand. If I just explained to him that I wasn't sure, but I needed to talk to him, I could do this—I could face what was happening to me. God…why was this so hard for me? Why did I have to have feelings for him? This was all James T. Kirk's fault.
"Come in Lieutenant." Kirk told me, answering the door when I pressed the panel on the wall.
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Kirk's POV
I was completely surprised that Devon had followed me to my quarters. I had just settled down to research some calibrations when my door had beeped and in she'd strolled. I smiled a little at her, still a little upset about the Lady Kara incident. At first I had felt flattered that Lady Kara considered me a rival as Devon's mate, but then I felt like a woman beater when I had to fight her in the ring. Punching her had been one of the hardest things I'd ever had to do…even if she was choking me to death and it was self defense. I just hated it…women did not deserve to be physically hurt by men…it was just wrong in so many ways.
"You look distressed." I told her as she paced.
"You just don't understand! I thought that coming here would make sense because you understand about feelings and about pursuing people and I don't know anything about that! I don't understand what it's like to pursue because I've always been pursued. I know that sounds completely vain, but it's true! Then suddenly I felt like you weren't going to be around anymore and I thought I loathed you! I don't loathe you! For some reason that I personally cannot begin to fathom, I like you following me around!" She exclaimed.
I was flattered and highly concerned because this speech of hers was making her make a pained expression on her face. She didn't seem to want to be saying any of this out loud, but she just couldn't keep it in anymore. I smiled a little though, but tried to make the smiling stop when she made a face at me, not liking that I was enjoying her rant when she certainly wasn't. I started to chuckle though, not able to contain my joy that she enjoyed having me around, but was more surprised than her when she kissed me.
Her lips were soft, and she seemed to fumble just a little with her intent on my mouth, so I wrapped my arms around her to assure her I was fine with it. The frenzied attack slowed a little as the kiss became more caring, and she cupped my face with her hands as I stroked her hair, smiling a little against her lips. She pulled away suddenly though and I knew I let out a small noise of protest, watching as her hand flew up to her mouth.
"Oh my God, you're the captain. You're the captain!" She told me in what sounded like sudden realization. "You're the captain. Oh my God, you're the captain."
Each time she said it, she seemed to come to even more emotional distress and she fled my quarters. I stood there, not aware of what to do next, and then I sighed a deep sigh when I realized that there was nothing else I could do on the subject. I wanted to pursue her because her rant had made me realize that she needed to not have to push herself like this, but at the same time I hated that just my status in life was bringing her distress. If anyone knew anything about pursuing and pulling away when they needed to, it was Lily. I wanted to talk to Spock about it, seeing as how he had definitely stolen Lily from me when I was with her and how he seemed forward where she was concerned, but Lily was the one who was most in tune with feelings.
I hurried back to Lily's and Spock's quarters, smiling ever so slightly at how many people were still there eating and talking, and Spock was playing Bones at chess. Lily came over and shook her head as she laughed, obviously amused at my speedy return. I was just feeling co conflicted and she nodded, making me feel a little more comfortable even though it still weirded me out that she was so able to sense emotions. She took my hand and led me over into a corner of the room, and I sighed.
"Okay, Jimmy…what is it that you need from me exactly?" Lily asked me.
I looked her in the eye. "Devon kissed me—she kissed me and then she kept mumbling that I was the captain and took off. I feel like I have to go after her but…she's so distressed by me."
Lily smiled. "Don't take it too personally, Jimmy—she's like Spock in the respect that she has to do what is professional. Spock and I hit quite the roadblock with that."
"But what should I do? I know that I am the captain, but I have an obligation to my heart just as much as I have an obligation to my ship and my crew." I told her. "Don't I?"
Lily smiled at me and grasped my hands, nodding at me. She knew better than I did that some people were better off left alone for a little while, so I knew I had to let Devon cool off. She would come to me if she wanted to, and if I felt I needed to, or felt she wanted me to, I would pursue her when she was calmer. I was certain that I could explain to her where I stood on the subject, and that eventually she would understand. I may be the captain of a starship, but I was allowed to fall in love and she was allowed to fall in love too…didn't she understand that?
"I think you cheat!" Bones said, and stood up from the table.
Spock raised an eyebrow. "Cheating is neither honorable nor logical, Doctor."
Bones scoffed as Janet laughed, and I looked at Lily as she stood up to go and play her husband. It was funny to watch because I knew how Lily felt about that sort of chess. I was occasionally able to beat Spock, so whenever Lily and I had played, she had always lost. I loved that she was so in love with Spock—they both deserved the happiness that they were trying so hard to have, and though I was happy to look on them, I looked at the door as Devon came back in, Amanda and Scotty smiling at her return.
"I—um—may I talk to you, Counselor?" Devon asked her. "Strictly as friends?"
Lily smiled. "Well my probation says absolutely nothing about giving my friends advice."
"Yes, well…privately?" Devon asked her, avoiding my eyes.
I sighed a little…I was going to have her…sooner or later I was.
Note: This is not the end of the baby shower, don't worry…and if you want a preview of my new Spock story that I will be updating when this one is through, I suggest you check out the story "More Than Words" once the first chapter goes up today.
