I woke up the next morning and blinked a few times. Why do I feel so sore? After a long yawn I stretched for a few minutes then went to the bathroom for a quick shower. I was about to get dressed when I looked in the mirror. I saw the hickeys all over my body and the memories came back from yesterday. I blushed and turned away. What happened to me last night? I went crazy, wanting Aizen that badly. But it felt… so good. I didn't know sex could be like that. I smiled at how Aizen made me feel. I didn't know anyone could make me feel like that. I quickly walked back into the room to get changed. Aizen had let me sleep in apparently. I couldn't wait to see him again. I walked over and changed while picking the dirty laundry up from yesterday.

I picked up Aizen's pants and a little vial fell out. I bent down and picked it up. What was this? I looked it over but I didn't see anything indicating what it could be. I bet Szayel would know. I quickly cleaned up and headed over to the lab. " Szayel? Are you in here?" I called out.

" Sorry Szayel's at the daily meeting, can I help you?" one of his many fraccion said.

" Yes maybe you can help me. Can you tell me what this is?" I asked handing him the vial. He looked it over and smiled.

" This was something requested by Gin for Lord Aizen," the fraccion said.

" What is it?" I asked.

" It's an aphrodisiac," the fraccion said happily. I felt something break inside of me.

" Excuse me?" I asked almost laughing.

" An aphrodisiac? This is one that you pour into a drink to take effect. You do know what an aphrodisiac is yes?" the fraccion said. I immediately thought of the drink Aizen gave me last night. I nodded in a daze. " This one makes the subject light headed, heated, and gives the user extreme sexual urges. Master Szayel said it could turn a virgin into a slut," the fraccion said laughing at the little joke at the end. That's exactly how I felt last night.

" Thank you for your time," I said while quickly walking out of the lab. I ran down the halls towards my room. Everything I felt, every thought I had last night was a lie. I felt the pain in my chest rising as I went back to my room. Why, why would he do that to me? It was all a lie, our entire relationship, all of it? In the end all he wanted was my body, not me. I threw open the doors and stumbled into my old room.

I gasped at the painful sensation throbbing in my heart. I was once stabbed in the chest on a bad mission and the pain then best explains the pain I feel right now. I fell onto the edge of the bed and gasped, I was crying but there were no tears. I clutched at the fabric on my chest, heaving. It hurt so bad, everything hurt! I fell back against the bed, gasping in pain. Why, why did I have to feel this way for him? I gave him everything I had, everything! I told him all my dark secrets, my strength for his soldiers, and I gave him myself. I let him dig his way into my heart only to let him put a bomb there, which just went off.

After what seemed like forever I sat up again, emotionless. What do I do now? I didn't want to see Aizen, not now, not ever again if I could. I slowly reached to my side and pulled out the senkaimon dagger, eyeing it carefully. I remembered after I had taken this dagger, I had also taken a shit ton of gold. I had taken that gold and buried it in the human world along with a gigai of myself. All I had to do now was find it and I could start a new life. I ran my hands down my face and sighed.

Did I want that? Did I want to leave everything I had here? I thought of Grimmjow, Starrk, Akemi, Ren, and the others. But then I thought about Aizen and I cringed. No, I couldn't be here anymore. I fiddled with the senkaimon dagger for a few more moments. I pulled the vial out of my pocket and fiddled with that. I went to Aizen's room briefly and put the vial back where I had found it. I looked around our room one last time before I unsheathed the dagger and opened the senkaimon. I stood in front of the doorway for a moment and just stared. Last chance, here or there. No, I didn't want to see Aizen again; I want to get rid of this pain in my chest. I stepped in, not even looking back for a second, for my new life.