EPOV

(Esme)

I dashed out of the hospital in tears rushing into my car breaking down behind the steering wheel.

That was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, and I know Charlie will never forgive me and I will never forgive myself.

"I'm Sorry" I whispered sobbing rubbing the growing life inside of me.

I laid my head back on the headrest and let the tears flow freely out of my eyes as I replied yesterday's events.

Yesterday

I walked up the driveway of this unfamiliar bungalow, I knew this was the right place I inserted it into my GPS.

I rang the doorbell running my hands over my arms nervously as I waited for the door to open.

A few moments later the door slowly opened and I was face to face with my husband for the first time since he left.

"Hello" I mumbled unsure what to do or say now, you always have what you will do or say planed out in your head but when it is time for action the mind draws a blank.

"Come in" he said flatly turning around to walk in the house leaving me to follow him.

I followed Carlisle inside and shut the door behind me, the bungalow was beautiful I wanted to take more time to completely check this place out but I knew right now this wasn't the time.

I followed my husband into the kitchen and took as eat across from him at the round kitchen table.

We started at each other for a while his gaze a hundred more times hard than mine. I examined my husband, the dark circles around this ocean blue eyes his disheveled hair his five o'clock shadow he looked worn down, broken even and I know I did this.

"Speak" he told me flatly.

"I…um.." I cleared my throat attempting to calm my nerves still.

"I want to say I'm sorry for everything and I'm asking in time if you could forgive me, I'm sorry for lying to you, betraying you, putting our son in that difficult spot, for breaking our family I'm sorry for it all and I want to fix things I want to fix us." I pleaded.

"It's too late Esme" he replied.

"It doesn't have to be, I still love you and even though you hate me right now all of this wouldn't hurt so much if a part of you didn't still love me we can work this out." I told him

"How Esme how can we when your carrying another man's baby? We can't work past this with a reminder for the next 18 plus years" he barked.

I frowned not knowing what to say, for him it would be a reminder for the rest of our lives and I couldn't lie to the child and keep Charlie away…I hadn't thought that far ahead.

"We can find a way" I stated firmly.

"How can I know you won't do this again for some reason someone could give you something I can't why do you want me back when I can't give you everything you went looking for." He asked.

"It wasn't like that Carlisle you give me everything" I whispered.

"Then why Esme, why were you unfaithful" he choked out holding back the tears I could see brimming in his eyes.

"It was that night, the night I fled the house, I couldn't take reliving the things that woman did to my babies, you had been working so much our sex life dwindled you were hardly ever home I…I didn't feel close to you at that time I felt like I couldn't talk to you, to anyone so I was at the bar drowning my sorrows just trying to forget and there Ch…he was and I don't know if it was the alcohol or what but I felt like I could talk to him how I use to be able to talk to you and it…it just happened and I'm sorry." I explained to him.

"Do you love him?" he asked staring me in the eyes.

"Yes I do love Charlie he has a special place in my heart for helping me get through some mental obstacles, but I'm in love with you and I want our family not one with him" I said honestly.

I wasn't going to lie I will always love Charlie for how he helped me helped me accept and forgive myself and to move on from the past, but I can't run off and be with him I already have a family.

"So you want a family with me?" Carlisle asked.

"Yes more than anything I want our family back" I stated.

"Okay then you have a choice to make, its either us or them you can't have them both" he spoke.

I stared at Carlisle in the eyes shocked at what I believe he is asking.

"What are you saying? "I stuttered horrified.

"Either you can move here with me and we can work on our married and work on fixing this family or you can have that baby and start a new life with Charlie and that can be the end of us. "he replied.

"So…to keep our family I have to…" I choked I couldn't even say the word.

"Yes Esme you must get an abortion I will not wake up and help raise another man's child, I will not have the child being a dark cloud over our marriage for the rest of our lives if you have this baby we won't make it" he barked.

"How could you say that? A child is a gift." I shrieked.

"Not a kid outside of a marriage this is just a bastard! And it won't be fair to the kid that I can never and will never love them because of what they represent, you may think I'm a monster and shocked at the fact I'm saying this but I'm being honest Esme and for that kids' sake I wouldn't bring them into that situation the best thing you can do is end it before it's too late. "he explained coolly.

I couldn't believe what I just heard how could he be so…hateful forwards an unborn child?

Is this what I have turned my husband into?

I want my family I promised myself I'd do whatever it takes, so that is what I am going to do everything has a price and this is mine. I clutched my stomach and rubbed it gently I looked into my husband's eyes and let him know I would do what he asked for us and for our family those three words I will never forgive myself for.

"I'll do it"