First of all, I'm sorry about the delay, I had some problems with my laptop. Second of all, thank you so much all of you for telling me what you think, I certainly didn't expect so much feedback, I'm so happy you are interest in the story, thank you :) I know all of you won't be happy, I'm sorry about that. Some of you wanted Kol, others Elijah, Klaus or Rebekah (that would be an interesting twist:) and I did read all your opinions, but unfortunately I can't please everyone. Let me know if you hate it, I won't be offended :) There are still many twists to come. Warning, there's some mature content in this chapter, marked with xxxxxxxxxxx

Chapter 54

Paradise lost

Kol, Klaus and Elijah stayed quiet for a long while after Seraphine had ran out. The tension in the room could have been cut with a knife.

"Poor girl," Elijah sighed. "I hope you two have enough decency to be ashamed of what you have done to her."

"I'm definitely not proud, trust me," Klaus muttered tensely.

Neither was Kol but that didn't change anything.

"What are we going to do now?" he asked as calmly as he could.

Apparently none of them had any answer to that.

"We can't wait with the elixir, especially when we don't know who is trying to kill her," Klaus said. He had never meant any of this to happen; now she was forced to do something she wasn't ready to do. Klaus already felt guilty enough about everything he had done to her, especially when he had seen what she had been through. She definitely didn't deserve this. He gritted his teeth and looked at his older brother.

"She asked you."

Elijah and Kol looked equally surprised.

"I know this is definitely too little too late but we have to respect her wishes about this, her needs have to come first."

Elijah seemed tense.

"I care about her, but I am not sure if I can…"

"She trusts him," Kol interrupted him rigidly. "Do we really want to ruin that?"

"What?" Klaus asked.

Kol pressed his lips together.

"She doesn't really want to do this, not now anyway. I think we all know that she will eventually hate the person who does it."

Klaus frowned.

"And you think that person should be you?"

"She already hates me, I can't change that." He paused and looked at Klaus. "She deserves someone much better than me and I know how selfish I am but I need this, just once. After that I'll leave."

Klaus' eyes narrowed.

"What are you saying?"

"If you let me have her, just this once, I'll leave as soon as she's safe. I think this have been going on too long already, she deserves some stability in her life. But I want your word that you'll treat her well and keep her safe."

Kol had never thought that he would say these words but for once he actually cared about someone else's well-being more than his own. She would definitely be better off without him. He owed her that much.

"How long absence are we talking about?" Klaus asked suspiciously.

"I'm leaving for good; I have done enough damage to her already. But I can't leave if I don't…"

They looked at each other for a while without saying anything. One night in exchange for giving her to Klaus. That sounded insane but it was the right thing to do. Like he had said, she already hated him; there was no reason to taint her relationship with Elijah. And she didn't probably hate Klaus as much as she hated him.

"Are you two forgetting something?" Elijah asked. "Shouldn't you ask her opinion?"

Kol crossed his arms.

"I'm not going to force her; I'll just talk to her. If she says no, I'll leave her alone."

"I really don't like this…" Elijah started.

"Do we have a deal?" Kol interrupted him looking at Klaus.

"Why do you want to make this kind of deal?" he asked callously.

"You know why, I think we both do."

They both felt the bond, felt the need to be with her, so they did understand each other. Kol only wanted that feeling to disappear, it was almost painful. Hopefully one night with her would be enough. It had to be, he was sick of this annoying craving.

"You love her…" Klaus muttered disbelievingly.

Kol shook his head.

"I'm not capable of love; that would require a certain amount of selflessness, which I don't have. I'm the heartless psychopath, remember? But I believe she is important to both of us, so do we have a deal or not?"

Klaus was quiet for a long while. Kol was right about one thing, she didn't really want this, the experience would unlikely be pleasant for her. He would have unlimited amount of time to earn her affection…

"Fine, ask her," he muttered in his teeth. "But if you hurt her, you are going to beg me to dagger you."

Kol nodded. Just like that it was done, the most important decision of his life. He felt surprisingly calm when he walked to Seraphine's room and opened the door. She was on the bed under the covers; all he saw was few locks of blonde hair on the pillow.

"Seraphine?"

He could easily pick up her fastened heartbeat before she slowly removed the covers.

"Oh…What did you do, rock, paper, scissors?" she muttered.

She didn't look at him when he walked slowly towards the bed and sat down next to her. So fragile… Yet there was so much strength in her, despite of everything that had happened to her.

"I know that you hate me and I certainly don't blame you for that," he started calmly. "I'm not going to force you into anything; I'll leave if you ask."

She looked at him disbelievingly.

"Why would you care about what I want?"

He really couldn't give her an answer, he didn't have one.

"Will you allow me to be with you tonight?"

"Why, so you could rub your brother's nose in it?"

He shook his head.

"No, what ever happens will stay between you and me, I give you my word."

She looked tired.

"You know, I swore to myself that I would never willingly have sex with you after everything you did to me but now I don't really care, it will be painful and unpleasant either way. Clearly Elijah wouldn't be comfortable doing it so…Just please don't make it humiliating."

"No, I won't, I swear."

She shivered when he touched her face tucking a stray hair behind her ear.

"Are you really so repulsed by me?" he asked quietly.

"I'm not repulsed, I'm scared and nervous," she muttered. "I always thought that if I would decide to do this with someone, it would be…special."

She blushed and lowered her head. Kol bit his lip.

"What can I do? What do you need?"

She looked at him insecurely.

"Could you turn the lights off?"

"Sure."

He stood up and noticed few candles on a shelf. She didn't say anything when he lighted them and turned the lights off. It didn't affect on his sight in any way but what ever made her more comfortable. He was very much aware that she was in this mess because of him, but unfortunately there was nothing he could do to fix that. Oh, is someone feeling a little guilty for being a naughty boy? Maybe you should just sing her some cute serenade, lover boy… Shut up!

Seraphine's heart was pounding even faster when he sat on the bed and touched her silky hair. Her scent was intoxicating; it was a mixture of innocence, some kind of fruit (probably her shampoo) and fear. Even though he didn't want her to be afraid, it awoke his basic predatorily instincts, making her even more desirable. He leaned towards her and tasted her soft lips. He had never been much into tenderness but now he certainly tried his best, for some reason that felt important.

Yet he couldn't make her to relax. His hands were caressing her back while he shaped her moist swollen lips with his. She tasted incredible and he really had hard time to control himself, he simply wanted to have her. Finally he remembered that she needed to breathe and pulled away. Her beautiful purple tinted eyes were looking at him in wonder. He ran his thumb gently over her mouth and gave her a smile, which he hoped to be reassuring.

Her body was still very rigid when he touched her neck with his lips, sucking and nipping it. She gasped when his hand touched her breast through her nightgown. He wanted to rip every piece of clothing off her but he didn't want to startle her. She closed her eyes when he gently laid her down on the bed. Her fear was getting stronger.

"Please," he muttered. "Don't go somewhere else."

She hesitated before opening her eyes. So beautiful… He leaned towards her and gave her a light kiss.

"I'm not going to hurt you."

Clearly she didn't believe him, she looked worried. He had no idea how to reassure her, so he kissed her neck while his hands wandered towards her hips. She was breathing more rapidly when he started to remove her nightgown.

"It's ok…" he muttered. She covered her breasts with her arms when he slid the soft fabric over her head. It seemed that all his gentleness had got him nowhere; she was just as rigid and afraid. Her unpleasant experiences crossed his mind but he had no idea how to help her to relax. He bit his lip and removed his shirt. Before he managed to throw it on the floor, he noticed Mr. Boo staring at him next to her pillow. He frowned and picked the bear up.

"Sorry buddy, but no threesomes tonight."

Seraphine looked at him and started to laugh. That was good, maybe it would help her to relax. Kol placed the bear on the bedside table with its back turned, he didn't need any audience.

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He took her hands and moved them above her head in order to have an access to her breasts. She gasped when his tongue started to play with her nipple while he fondled the other one with his fingers. Her body was perfect; feeling her under him was driving him crazy. He traced kisses down her stomach towards her waist.

She tensed when he started to slide her panties down her legs. He ran his fingers over her thighs before spreading her legs. He had to use all his willpower in order to control himself; she needed to be ready for him first. She flinched when he tasted her, touching her core. Her body was starting to respond, although he could tell that she was still nervous.

The soft moans that escaped from her lips almost made him to lose it but he continued until she reached her climax. There was a dazed look on her face and she was breathing rapidly. He had never unbuckled his belt so fast before, he needed to have her right now. She looked at him timidly when he positioned himself between her legs. The first thrust made her to wince and let out a cry of pain.

"It's ok, the pain will pass," he muttered.

She bit her lip and grabbed at the sheets, apparently trying to gain some kind of control. He was gentler than he had ever been with anyone but of course it hurt her.

"Seraphine…"

Her name was like a prayer, although he had never really believed in anything. Every thrust made him feel more blissful and when he finally reached his climax he felt better than ever before. He kissed her before rolling on his back next to her. They were both quiet for a long while; she was trying to catch her breath.

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"Are you ok?" he asked.

She nodded and reached for a blanket.

"Here, let me."

She didn't say anything when he pulled her close to him and covered them with a blanket. Thankfully she didn't tell him to leave; he wanted to enjoy her warmth. This was his small piece of heaven that would soon be lost forever.