Hi, Arthur.
Sorry about the ripped out page. I've tried my best not to do that, because I want you to go through this journey the way it was and not an edited version decided afterwards. It was a temptation to just rip out everything about Will in the week after he went. But I resisted. Even though it still hurts to come across his name, it's nice to have him still sort of existing in here. Anyway, this time, the page needed ripping out no matter what it does to consistency in narrative or the physical appearance of the book, because there was just too much information. Things I do not think you would want to know. I will summarise the scribbling I have mercifully spared you from here:
I confronted Gwaine about the whole kiss thing, and he apologised. Then, after some enlightening conversation, I kind of agreed to have a threesome with him and Eira. And then, well, that happened. And I'm not sure how to feel about it.
I mean, it was nice. But still. A bit of a surprising turn of events.
In more normal news, Gwen, who doesn't know, by the way, never will and nor will anyone else if I get my way, is doing great. She still looks a bit bashful anytime we run into someone who is good friends with you, but so far nobody has been nasty about the breakup. That is a relief and a half. I think they can tell how bad she still feels about it. Also maybe they can tell that I'm prepared to defend her honour to the death of need be. I am sure this is a sentiment you will approve of.
My own honour, on the other hand... This certainly makes me reconsider a lot of things about Gwaine. Eira I didn't know that we'll prior to this whole ordeal, in fact I still don't feel like I know her very well which kind of adds to the awkward, but with Gwaine I am left wondering whether I missed a whole lot of signals. It was just so surreal, I wasn't even sure it really happened.
But no, yeah, definitely real. It's good to have a friend like you to confide in, whether it is about grief or excitement or sexual confusion. I know you won't look at me all judgemental like. At least not for the moment. I suppose if you do get to reading this whole thing sometime there will be a whole lot of judging going on. Pretty heavy judging. But at least I am able to give you context first. You're hardly likely to interrupt me!
I promise I will try not to agonise over the Gwaine-Eira-sudden-threesome situation too much. I don't seem to be able to deal with it, so maybe I should just pretend it didn't happen.
M.
