Author's Note: IMPORTANT! As of now I will not write a second chapter for any pairing. I'm sorry, but I get overwhelmed with these as it is (since I'm a procrastinator by nature) and it's the school year. Please understand that I am still taking requests, just not for pairings already done in this fic. Thank you for your time.

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I don't wanna mess things up.

I've seen how angry kids get over dates and stuff. And I don't want to cause trouble. I already did that when I made some kids' heads explode. It was really messy and everyone got mad at me. I don't want people to get mad at me. I don't like making their day suck. I'm not like Bobby.

But even though I don't wanna mess things up, part of me wants to.

I kinda wish I could be Sasha's boyfriend.

I know he likes Milla. But in my head, I can't help but wish I was his boyfriend. He's so cool. He's like Raz, but taller and he smokes like a chimney. I don't care about that, though. I wouldn't make him quit like Milla. I'd let Sasha do whatever he wants. He knows better.

He knows a lot of stuff. He made me my tinfoil hat. It's so cool. Now my parents let me go to school and hang out with my friends and stuff, 'cause they know Sasha doesn't make mistakes. Sasha made my whole life lots better. He did it because he's smart.

I think he might know that I like him. But he doesn't say anything. He knows I don't want to talk about it. He knows I just wanna be in his class and learn from him. I won't bring it up. I don't wanna cause trouble, like I said. He doesn't either. Sasha makes life better for people, you know?

That's why I wish I could be his boyfriend.

But I'm too short and too young. He doesn't care about exploding heads. He doesn't care that I'm kind of insane. Sasha doesn't judge people like that. But I know that he likes Milla because she's his age and she's his height and that makes him feel more at ease. I watch him a lot. I know these things. So I know I'm not right for him. I don't want him to be uneasy around me like Bobby is around Chloe. It's no fun.

I like what we have now. I'm his friend, you know? That's enough. It's not much, but Raz says I'm being mature about it. He would know, he's in a relationship, and he says he could never give up Lili for Lili's sake the way I've given up Sasha to Milla. It's hard. It hurts a lot. But if he's happy, then I'm okay.

I don't wanna mess things up.