When dean dumped the contents of the envelope out he saw thing he never thought he would see.
There were things like old ticket stubs from baseball games, movies tubs, receipts from a restaurant he took Pam to.
When he looked at the receipt from the restaurant he turned it over and saw there was a date on it and it read.
"JONATHAN AND PAM'S FIRST DATE AT CARMEN's ITALIAN RESTAURANT APRIL 17TH 2006"
Dean smiled he remembered that dinner he also remembered he dumped a whole plate of spaghetti on his pants.
The next thing he saw was a ticket stub from a baseball game they went to
"JONATHAN + PAM'S FISRT CINCINNATI REDS BASEBALL GAME MAY 2ND 2006."
Dean smiled again he remembered that game to he remembered buying Pam a stuffed teddy bear wear a reds jersey with her name on it.
"God she loved that bear."
He saw more things like a ticket stub to his first wrestling match.
"Wow I got my ass kicked that night got the scare on my head to prove it." he said rubbing the spot on the back of his head where the scar is.
An hour has past and Dean had gone through the entire envelope but there was one thing Dean saw it was a letter addressed to Dean it was in Pam's handwriting. He opened it up and began to read it to himself.
Jon this was with Pamela's things she forgot to put it in your bag when you left for the road. She really wanted you to read it.
Carrie
Dean took the note off the letter and prepared to read it.
My Dearest Jonathan,
These past 8 years have been the most amazing time of my life. You've given me love that I never thought I would ever have again. Before I met you life was not all sunshine and rainbows I was in a very dark place. A place that I may have never gotten out of if it wasn't for you Jon. You saved me from not only a life of snobby parties and yacht clubs but you saved me from a life of always having to be the good girl that my father always wanted me to be. I love my father but he never saw the real me you did.
Do you remember when you first showed up at my house. I think you were more nervous then I was. I opened the door and there you stood wearing that beat up leather jacket and those grimy blue jeans that I loved seeing you in. But when my father saw you I thought it was gonna be world war 3 he looked at you like you were bug that needed to be squished fast. And during dinner that night I could tell you didn't wanna be there I could feel you leg shaking under the table.
And when my father stood up and asked what your intentions where, What you said made me laugh. You told my dad that your intention was to make sure I didn't turn out to be a stuck up snob just like him. I laughed so hard I thought I was gonna cry. I think I feel in love with you more that day then the first day I met you. And first time we made love you made me feel so special and loved. I cherished every single second of lying in your arms feeling your hands on my skin. I can't wait to till I'm in your arms again.
And I didn't care what my father thought of you or what anyone else thought of you I loved then and I love you now. Jon you're my world you mean everything to me. This weekend is our 6th anniversary I can't wait to spend time with you. Have a good road trip and come home to me safe.
I love you my sweet prince.
Yours always and Forever,
Pammy.
Dean felt his hands begin to shake then he saw a picture of Pam she was wearing one of his old moxley t-shirts and holding the Cincinnati's reds teddy bear he got her. She was in his bed.
He turned the picture over and saw there was a date and the date made his heart jump up inside his throat.
I love you Jonathan I hope this get's you through the long lonely nights on the road. April 9th 2013.
"Oh my god this was taken 3 days before the crash. Pam my sweet pam. Why did you have to go out that night. I just wish you would have stayed home. You would be here with me. We would be married and have a family. I miss you so much."
Dean felt the tears roll down his face.
He then heard matt crying he got up to check on him.
"What's wrong buddy. Oh I see your wet. Come on let's get your dry."
After dean changed him.
He picked him up and comforted him the best he could.
Once matt was calmed down he took him out to the living room and sat down on the couch.
"Ok buddy you and me and are gonna pack it in for the night ok." Dean said putting matt down next to him on the couch.
He lay there and watch matt babble on and suck his thumb. He smiled looking at his son. When matt would smile he looked so much like lisa of course lisa thought he looked like dean when he smiled.
Dean would always laugh at that. I guess you could say that matt was the best of both his parents.
"I love you buddy." He said kissing matt's forehead. "Sweet dreams."
He watched matt drift off to sleep. Probably dreaming about battling giants and monsters.
Dean fell asleep soon after matt did.
Dean knew in the back of his mind that seeing that picture of pam and reading her letter could bring up all the old memories of her. But he promised lisa that he was hers mind, heart, body and soul.
He loved lisa and matt with every ounce of breath in his body and he was gonna make sure he kept his promise to her.
Or he would lose her forever.
