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DID I SAY THAT? 51
Edward told me what was really said between Jacob and himself. I should have known Jacob was full of shit. Edward really needed to know that children with me would not be something I could give him.
Well not something I could give him without a lot of help from doctors anyway. So I told him everything. Things that not many people know about. It was painful to say it out loud.
I tried to be patient long enough for him to process everything but I could not stop my tears at his silence. I had never told either of the 2 men I dated about my problem.
One; because I just didn't feel ready to share that information, and two; I didn't love either of them. They were fun to be with for awhile but both ended up hurting me.
Jacob with his stealing, lying ass and Eric with his brush offs and cruel words. I just knew that Edward would high tail it out of my life after this mission.
That thought caused me to sniff, I was trying to reign in my strength for the inevitable. When suddenly I was in his lap and he called me 'baby', I lost it.
I cried so hard I could hardly breath. I loved him so much, I was so scared to lose him and these feelings I have for him.
Finally I calmed down enough to look at him. I looked into his eyes but didn't see anything I was expecting. I expected to see disgust in his eyes but didn't. I expected to see repulsion but again I did not.
I could not talk about it anymore today. So I blurted out my love for him, then wanted to kick my own ass for the way I said it. I didn't even get out what I wanted to say before his lips were on mine.
He was staying and he loved me too. HELOVEDME! My heart was trying to beat out of my chest. We talked some more but when he told me I mattered to him most, my whole being relaxed at his words.
Quickly we both decided to stay away from Jacob but I was still going to tell him off first. It was getting late and Seth needed to put on my tattoo's so Edward and I made our way to the parking garage.
"I need to stop by Jacob's first if that's okay?"
"Why? I thought we agreed to stay away from him."
"We did Edward but he needs to know not to interfere with our relationship. He also needs to know that his lying will not be a cause for us to separate."
Edward agreed so I knocked loudly on his door while Edward stood off to the side. I didn't want Jacob to see him just yet. Jacob opened the door with the biggest smile on his face I had ever seen.
"Bells, good to see you."
"Black, don't fucking call me that! I'm not quite sure what you thought was going to happen as you spewed lies to me."
"I didn't lie, he said..." I cut him off.
"I know what he said to you. We agreed not to have children until this operation was over. Not that it's any of your business though." His mouth popped open and he stared hard at me.
"You, you said that you never wanted kids?"
"First I was 21 of course I didn't want kids then. I was just starting my career. Second I definitely didn't want to have your children because I didn't love you."
"You did love me! I heard you tell Emmett that you did. I bet you still do." What a cocky bastard.
"Maybe you should have heard the whole conversation between Emmett and me. What I told him was I didn't have those feelings for you, I didn't love you. The only feelings I had for you were those of a friend, but you even ruined that.
The only man I have ever loved is my husband. When we decide to have kids it will be our business not yours. You seem to be under the assumption that I want you here. Trust me when I tell you, I don't.
Stay away from me and my husband. This is your only warning Black. Fuck up just one more time and I will send you packing so fast it will make your head spin."
"Sure, sure whatever you say Isabella. Tell me, why is it then that your here alone talking to me if you don't have feelings for me?" He was delusional.
"Oh she is not alone. Did you really think I would let her talk to a dog like you by herself? Not that she can't take care of herself because she absolutely can, I just wanted to watch her tell you off."
'Dog, yep that sounded right to me.'
Jacob didn't have anything to say to that. Without another word Edward and I turned and walked away. He opened my door for me but before I could climb in he was kissing me. He had me pinned against the seat with his body.
"Fuck Bella do you have any idea at all how sexy you are? When you said I was the only man you ever loved I couldn't breathe."
"It was the gods honest truth Edward. You are the only man I have ever loved."
"I love you Bella. I have never said that or felt this towards another woman before." Then he kissed me again but this kiss was different. It was full of hope and love, it meant everything to me.
Sam and Seth both answered the door wearing matching smiles and shirts. They had to be the happiest, gayest couple living in West Hollywood.
"Beauty" They said in unison as they hugged and kissed me. Edward gave me a big smile when I reached for his hand.
"Edward I would like for you to meet my cousins, Seth and his husband Sam. Boys this is Edward Cullen."
They all shook hands then we followed them into their living room. I forgot the portfolio so I went back out to get it. I gave it to Sam who handed me a water when I came back in.
"Thanks Sam."
"No problem, you ready to get started?"
"Yep. Let's do this."
"Are we doing both of you or?"
"Either way Seth. Edward do you want Sam to put yours on too?"
"That is fine with me, but I still don't have the one Dennis is making for me."
"You mean this one?" Seth pulled out Edward's arm band. I didn't know what it was going to be till I saw it. It said 'BELLA' it was beautifully done in a tribal. I was so touched.
"Seth when did you get it?"
"Dennis dropped it off about an hour ago."
"Edward I don't know what to say."
"Don't say anything then. No one will know what it says except us and if someone does it won't matter."
He gave me a soft kiss before taking my hand and leading me to Seth and Sam's work room. I could not believe he was putting my name on his body. 'How sexy was that?' It was totally making me wet!
"So Beauty, where do you want to start?"
"Well Seth I think the ankle one first, then the one on my chest. My back piece will have to be the last because it's so big."
"I agree. Take this robe and go strip, you can leave your panties on for now."
"What makes you think I am wearing any panties?"
"You better be, bitch!" I just laughed and made my way to the bathroom to strip down. 'Yes bitches I was wearing panties' but just barely. When I returned Edward was shirtless and hugging the chair.
Seth and Sam both were trying to position his 'CULVER' tattoo just right. However they both seemed to be drooling over my man.
'Who could blame them really?'
I cleared my throat with a giggle and they all jumped slightly. Edward oblivious to their stares smiled but Sam and Seth looked guilty. Figured I should crush their hopes. I walked to Edward and gave him a kiss before turning to the boys with raised eyebrows.
"No funny business you two, he is all mine." Edward chuckled, Seth and Sam just nodded.
My first tats were quick only taking 25minutes. I stood to remove my robe at the same time as Edward was turning in the chair. His eyes widened, suddenly he was in front of me.
"Bella what are you doing?"
"Relax Edward it's time for my back piece." I pulled off the robe reveling my bikini top. Edward let out a sigh of relief as he stared at my chest.
His eyes lingered on the tattoo over my breast before looking up to my face. He dropped a quick kiss on my head then we both sat back down.
Edward was finished about 90minutes before me but he never left my side. The four of us carried on a conversation that had us laughing so much my sides hurt by the time we left. I had to wear one of Seth's shirts when we left because I couldn't wear a bra until tomorrow.
When we got back everyone except for Jacob was in our townhouse having dinner and we joined them. The girls followed me to the bedroom once we finished so they could see my tattoo's.
"Oh my god Bella, they are beautiful."
"Thank you Alice."
"Can I get one to?"
"If you would like Emily. Leah is having a fairy put on her back as well just not as big as mine."
"Well I want one to." I laughed
"Of course Alice." I let the girls pick out what they wanted while we discussed our routine for Friday.
The clubs official opening day would be on April 29th, but there would be a sort of special preview on the 28th for the investors. Tomorrow would be so busy for us with everything needing to be done.
We all agreed to meet at 6am to get started. Our dance routine would be worked out first and hopefully that would go quickly. Then we would do Alice and Emily's tattoo's along with our hair.
Alice's hair was short so we would be adding extensions and streaks of color. Emily's hair was just past her shoulder blades and only slightly darker than mine. Her hair would be highlighted with blonde and red streaks. I was pretty sure Leah would be our red head but we wouldn't find out until tomorrow.
I sent Leah a text and told her to meet us here at 6. The gym here had a private room which I reserved for our practices. At 11:00 we called it a night so we could all get some sleep.
Edward met me at the door so we could go to bed together.
"Is it going to be okay if I hold you tonight with your tattoo? I don't want to mess it up or anything."
"It will be fine Edward, you won't mess it up I promise."
"Can I see it? I didn't get a good look at it before you covered it earlier."
"Sure" I pulled my shirt up to expose my back. Edward sucked in a sharp breath and I knew he had seen the eyes of my fairy.
"Bella?" he questioned as he released his breath.
"Those are my eyes."
"Yes they are, don't they look majestic?"
"They are mind blowing. I don't know what to say." I took a page from his book and pulling my shirt back down I turned to him.
"Then don't say anything..."
A/N okay everyone I am sorry this is so late at night but I was totally enjoying waaayy too much wine this evening with my sister when I remembered that I had not posted my chapter for today. My bad but Muscato is sooo good that before you know it the bottle is empty. I checked for mistakes but if you see I apologize. Have a good rest of your week see you on Saturday.
