Chapter 52
After watching Tanya leave, we walked into the office and each of us sat at our desks neither of us spoke. I still didn't know what to say to him all I knew was that I was happy on the inside, and another piece of my broken heart was knitted back together. I was not sure how to break the silence that has built up between us. I would look over at him from time to time. Jasper called and asked if I could meet him at his office tomorrow to work on my case. I knew Edward would not mind so I told him sure. I wanted so much to tell him why I had been acting strange today, but could not find the words.
Lunch we went to our normal café, which really did have great food and great service.
"Bella what was bothering you this morning?' Edward asked. Part of me was not surprised that he did so.
"Edward I had a bad dream last night." I told him not really wanted to go farther than those words.
"What kind of bad dream did you have? He asked wanted more information.
"It was about you and Tanya." I said looking down at the floor not wanted to meet his eyes.
He did not ask any more questions about my dream. I guess he understood what my dream had been about. I want him to tell me that I had no fear of Tanya taking him away from me, but he did not say that. So part of my mind said she still has a hold on him, and that it was the fact that I had been there with him that he was able to say what he did. I tried to push it out of my mind.
We went back to the office, and worked and talked no sense stuff. He did ask if he could drive me home, and I did say yes. I wanted to be truly alone with him. I knew that Alice was meeting Jasper for dinner, but would be home right after that. I invited him up hoping that he would want me to cook him dinner. Once we were in the apartment, he put his arm around my waist pulling me close to him. We looked into each other eyes, and then he kissed me. It was gentle and sweet, but for once I wanted more, and so I asked for entrance into his mouth. When we pulled apart, he stepped back and said he'd better get home.
I watched him walk out the door wondering why he had left when he did. I was just sitting on the couch trying to understand this when Alice got home.
"Bella, what's wrong?" She asked I swear that girl can read my mind at times. I guess my face is just so easy to read.
"I am not sure; what's wrong. I am just wondering why he would kiss me and leave that is twice now that he has done that." I stated.
"Bella he is in love with you and don't want to push you into anything you are not ready for. Give him time as you need time also." She stated with a huge grin on her face.
"Alice I don't know if I can even give him what he wants, I don't know how?" I stated almost in tears now.
Alice came over and put her arm around me, and I let the tears flow. I so wanted to be everything to him. I guess I had cried myself to sleep and Alice just lied me on the couch and covered me. When I woke in the morning, I woke to the most beautiful face. Edward was sitting in the chair just looking at me.
"I thought since you would not be at work today with me that I would bring you your coffee before you head to Jaspers office he should be here in a bit to pick you up. I told him thank you. Then I excused myself so I could shower and change. I got this feeling that Alice told him what I had said to her last night. Because when I came back out.
He said, "Bella, I want to take this slow and make sure everything is perfect for you."
"I am just scared that I will not be enough for you." I said trying to sound normal.
"Bella, having you is enough for me." He stated.
Just then Jasper showed up to take me to his office, so we could get to work on my case. Edward kissed me before I headed out.
