i decided to be nice to y'all and update again, i wrote this last night but wanted to give you all a chance to read the other chapter first, (and plus i wanted reviews on both chapters and not just the latest one which most people do because it's easier, guess im just greedy that way :D) anyhow, hope u like it :D
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54.-Instincts
The thrum of wing beats pounding the night air echoed around us as Thorn drew closer. None of us dared to even breathe in case he heard us and we were discovered. I closed my eyes thinking with humor, out of sight, out of mind.
Except when the enemy is so fat that you can hear him coming five miles away, Dorran thought, picking up easily on what I was thinking and apparently trying to cheer me up, with minimum results.
I smiled to myself and felt his hand slide into mine, the rough grip comforting and long-awaited. Now the beats were so loud that they were hurting my sensitive eardrums and I could feel Dorran wincing slightly beside me. I squeezed his hand so that he hopefully wouldn't leap up right at that second and attack the rider and dragon, for I could feel his pent-up rage and hate flowing through our connection, no matter how hard he tried to suppress it.
Please try not to do anything you'll regret, I said, whispering in our minds even though I knew Murtagh or Thorn could not break into our conversation.
Even if I died killing them I would not regret it, he replied, his voice forced as if he were trying to control himself with great difficulty.
You do realize that if you died I would have to kill myself too, I told him, opening my eyes to look deep into his dark onyx ones. He sat up startled and looked back, disbelief flashing across his face; I would never let you do such a thing! I forbid you to die just because I didn't exist anymore; he replied forcefully, his voice pleading and angry.
But then, if you are dead, there is no stopping me, I retorted, pleased when he came up with no answer suitable to respond with.
Suddenly I realized that the sound that had been wracking our ears for the past few minutes had faded into the distance and I let out a small sigh of relief, leaning back against the mossy trunk to rest my aching muscles that had been wound up and unmoving for what seemed like ages.
The others relaxed slightly too and Bernlak poked his head out from the top of Cadara's shirt, looking around sleepily before retreating back inside and presumably going back to sleep.
Angela emerged, silently followed by Solembum who had a small dead bird clutched in his claw-like hands. I startled when I saw the feathered body, I could instinctively feel the soul that had lingered there, gone now, but its faded presence still drawing me to it, luring me closer, hypnotizing me.
I walked towards it, everything around me seeming sluggish and slow, everything except the tiny pulsating light that emitted from between the were-cat's hands. The boy looked up, his expression uneasy as he saw the look on my face, but I continued towards him, wanting to absorb the soul, become the soul.
I heard talking but it sounded from a distance, my fingers were almost on the bird. Solembum stood transfixed, his red eyes wide, when something hard tackled me to the ground. As soon as my eyes left the dead form I came back to my senses and realized that my face was now covered in dir and there was a heavy weight on my back. I struggled and the weight was lifted and I was flipped onto my back so that I was staring up at the dark sky. Dorran was above me, restraining my hands and legs with his own, his face worried and concerned.
I took a deep breath, glad to not be swallowing dirt anymore, and looked around at the others, smiling weakly, their faces mirroring Dorran's. I was suddenly struck with the awkwardness of our position and I squirmed, "I'm fine, really, gods you weigh a ton Dorran." I wheezed out, emphasizing my point. He gave me a last look, obviously deciding if I was sane enough to not go berserk on them again, then he got off me and let me up, grabbing my hand and pulling me to my feet so fast that I felt nauseated.
I sat back down again with my head in my hands, trying to control my spinning head and churning stomach.
Dorran sat beside me, looking away at the dirt ground as if trying to see if he could burn holes in the leaf litter with his eyes. The others dispersed around us as if sensing that they should give us some privacy. Solembum slunk away to devour the rest of his bird elsewhere, away from me in the hope that I wouldn't go mentally insane again. I could tell Dorran was angry at me, I could feel it rolling off of him in waves even though he tried hard to hide it, I had scared him, and I could never forgive myself for that.
"What happened Kalanie?" he whispered, his dark eyes closed and unable to even look at me.
I was silent for a while, he knew exactly what had happened, he had been in my head the whole time. I didn't know how to explain it even if I had to, I was as scared as he was with what had happened and I was afraid that if I voiced my fear it would only amplify it.
Finally I couldn't take it anymore, I had to get away from there, the tension between Dorran and I was too much to bear, I couldn't stand it. I rose in one fluid movement "I'll be back later." I muttered almost inaudibly but I was sure he heard me, then morphed into a wolf and started running, feeling as if I was leaving my problems behind. I knew I couldn't keep doing that, just abandoning my duties and the little things that ruined my life further, I would have to face them eventually. But at that particular moment I didn't care, it was just too much for one person to bear.
But you do not have to face it by yourself, Dorran whispered to me through my mind, and then he was suddenly running beside me, his dark body appearing out of the shadows. I closed my eyes and sighed, coming to a stop in a small clearing surrounded by trees and greenery.
I morphed and sat down, putting my head in my hands once again and taking deep breaths, controlling my heart beat with difficulty. Dorran morphed and sat beside me, draping an arm around my shoulders and holding me close into his chest where I cried, my first time in months now. Sobs wracked my entire body and I found I couldn't stop, tears poured from my eyes and drenched Dorran's dark shirt, but he continued to hold me, to stroke my hair tenderly, and to whisper that everything was ok, over and over.
"But everything isn't ok Dorran, it's horrible, I feel as if I'm not even controlling my life anymore." I gasped in between breaths. I hated myself for seeming so weak in front of him, in front of anyone, but I couldn't help it, I had had enough.
He held my shoulder back and looked intently at my face which I was sure was completely red and not attractive in the slightest. He leaned forward and for the second time kissed me, this time more forcefully, pushing me backwards so the grass was pricking into my skin and he was on top, his lips seeming to massage mine with an eagerness that hadn't been there before, more urgent, as if this was his way of telling me everything would be fine, if we had each other.
We stopped kissing after a while, each gasping for breath, and we lay in the grass just enjoying each others presence under the moonlight and the serene atmosphere.
"It will be fine, we will save the empire, we will defeat Galbatorix, and we will rid the land of evil." he said, his beautiful onyx eyes glaring in to mine, forcing me to believe.
"How do you know that we won't fail miserably?" I asked, our faces only inches apart.
"Because the only way we will really fail is if we never try." He replied in his matter-o-fact voice, leaning closer as if to kiss me again. But I never found out what his intensions were because a small green head appeared in between ours, the emerald eyes shining with mischief in the bright moonlight.
I grinned and picked the baby dragon up, his small body warm as I cuddled him against my chest. "You're a right little monkey, you know that?" I told him, brushing a finger over his nose, causing him to sneeze violently.
He chirped in response and clawed his way up my shirt to rest his small angular head on my chin and gaze intently into my eyes. I laughed and stroked his head, tracing my finger over the two small horns that had begun to grow there and down the small spikes running the length of his spine.
"He's like a mini you, just green and cuter." I teased Dorran, laughing once again as Bernlak's small forked tongue flicked across my cheek leaving a small trail of dragon slobber.
"Very funny. Can't wait to beat him up when he's bigger though, should be interesting." Dorran replied, grinning as he reached out to pet the small dragon but whipped his hand back to avoid the volley of teeth that Bernlak sent his way.
I giggled again, a definite improvement from the crying I was doing minutes ago. "I'd be careful what you say around him, he can obviously understand when insults are sent his way." I told Dorran, smacking him lightly on his wrist at his disrespect to one of the last real dragons alive.
He gave a mocking bow "My apologies mini one, I will be sure to insult you behind your back in future." He grinned, earning him a hiss from the small green body in my arms.
Then a thought occurred to me, Dorran, do you think Bernlak and Saphira would like each other? I sent to him, asking with my mind in case the baby could comprehend what I was saying. Dorran seamed to consider it for a while, obviously taking his newly acquired match-making job seriously.
I don't know, you can't really tell until he can actually speak I guess, only time will tell, he added mysteriously, grinning at me. I smiled back and was suddenly overcome with a feeling of dizziness that I supposed had been delayed from my run and sudden mood changes. I sat down hard, startling Bernlak who had now wrapped himself around my neck, and also Dorran who made to catch me but was a second too late. I lay there in the grass for a while, staring at the onyx sky above, the dark color reminding me frequently of a certain someone's eyes who was now lying next to me. Needless to say with the peaceful atmosphere I soon fell asleep with my personal refuge on my right and a recently hatched dragonet in between us.
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