Joe and I were playing exploding snap on the floor in between the cell doors. I was winning just when Voldermort strolled in and Joe jumped up immediately bowing. I bowed my head at once too without even realizing it.
"I see that the two of you have gotten very close." He said and Joe stood by him looking down at me. It was my turn to respond.

"Yes, Joe has definitely taught me a lot." I said standing up. Voldermort looked into my eyes and I could tell he was boring into my mind. He nodded with a satisfied nod before letting me out of the cell.

"I would like you to join us in our common goal." Voldermort said and he walked before me. I was feeding off of Joe's feeling and his wants. That instantly made me feel just like Joe, so when Voldermort was searching through my mind, he could sense that I was faithful to him because Joe was faithful to him. That was easier than acting.
"I would love to join you My Lord." I said. He glanced back at me and then he continued on. I followed him until he stopped in an open area. He motioned for me to sit down with him.

"I need to know a few things. Who is in the Order?" Voldermort asked getting right down to business. I didn't know what to tell him because I didn't want to give many names away. I only knew of a select few and I was still loyal to my best friends.

"The people that I know of are the typical ones. Drew and I, Dumbledore and Sirus, Mad-eye and James." I said naming off the people who were fighting with me the other day.

"You don't know of any others?" He asked me. I shook my head no with confidence. I felt him divulge into my mind once more but there weren't many places or things he could see. I was still feeding off of Joe's feelings and in some cases he own suspicions.

"Very well… you know I don't think you have what it takes to be a Death Eater. You have to kill for the job." He said. I no longer wanted to be there, I didn't want to kill anyone but I kept my guard up. I kept the act that I was using strong. There was an explosion that knocked me off my feet and I was pushed backwards. At first I thought that Voldermort had felt my true feelings and was going to kill me. It wasn't until I felt a familiar hand under my arm that I realized that the cavalry had come to save me. Sirius had his hand around my arm and was pulling me out to safety. The rest of the Order was fighting against Voldermort and his followers. I saw Dumbledore, James, Drew, Mad-Eye and a few others that I didn't recognize fighting. Sirius had pulled me beyond the gates of the cemetery and he pulled out a piece of trash, which was a portkey that sent us flying towards our home. I wanted to go back and fight but Sirius wouldn't allow it. Lily was there and she hugged me as soon as she saw me.

"What was it like? Did he hurt you?" Sirius asked looking very concerned. I kept staring at the door wishing that they would make it through there, make it home alive.

"Just a tiny bit, nothing major." I said. Sirius gave me a weird look and then I turned to him.

"Sirius… what's my favorite color?" I asked him, knowing that he would know the answer.

"Blue…" He said and I raised my eyebrow at him. "Sky blue." He quickly corrected himself. I nodded knowing that I hadn't fallen asleep and that I really was home and not in that terrible cell any longer.

"How did you get out of your cell?" He asked me.
"I pretended to want to join him. He believed me because I was feeding off of Joe's feelings and wants. It was easy." I saw him straighten a bit more when I mentioned Joe.

"So you were in there with Joe?" He asked.

"Well seeing as he is a Death Eater, I am sure she was." Lily said and I silently thanked her for not letting a fight happen. He immediately shut up and just hugged me and pulled me into him.

"I love you, I can't lose you Ashleigh." He said kissing my forehead. I laid my head against his chest and I felt his heart beating. I closed my eyes and took in his familiar scent. I never wanted to be away from him again.

"Kiss me." I whispered late one night in bed. Sirius had just got in from patrolling and he looked exhausted. He had just sat down on the edge of the bed and I was rubbing his shoulders. He bent his head back and I gave him a light kiss on the lips. He sighed and closed his eyes, letting his shoulders droop.

"They killed McNeil tonight and injured Arthur." He said keeping his voice low. I stopped rubbing his shoulders and came around his body to face him. I had to make sure he was serious.

"Are you serious?" I asked him searching both of his eyes for any type of kidding. But I knew that he was serious, there was never any more kidding like there was in school. Now days we were all very serious.

"Unfortunately." He said. I continued rubbing his shoulders and kissed his ear. We were quiet for a long time. Sirius moaned as I gently kissed the top of his head.

"Ashleigh, I cant live like this anymore." He said in a small voice.
"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"This war, everything. I am so tired of losing someone each week. He is winning, he is annihilating us one by one and I don't know how much longer we can stand against him." Sirius said lying down on his side. He was facing me and tucking my hair behind my ear to see my face fully. I knew exactly what he had meant. I was constantly afraid for one of my dear friends and for my own life on many occasions. I wasn't sure how much longer I could last before I lost it.

"We are going to get through this war. We are going to get married and have tons of kids and weekly bar b cues with all of our friends. We aren't going to lose anyone else. Sirius… Love will get us through even the toughest parts." I said tracing his face with my finger. His face seemed a bit sunken as if he hadn't been getting enough sleep or enough to eat. Which was true because he was always fighting. He volunteered for every thing even when he was exhausted.

"Ash…" He started but I put my finger against his lips.

"No… and by the way, you are going to take a couple of days off for rest. I am not going to lose you just because you are exhausted. I mean it. YOU need rest." I said giving him a kiss on the lips and putting my fingers over his eyes making him close them. When I pulled away he was sound asleep.

Lily and I were in the kitchen preparing dinner for everyone that was coming over to celebrate Arthur and Molly's wedding. They had a quick wedding and the air in the entire house was light and full of love and romance.
"I had always liked Molly, she was sweet. Although I never did get to know her that well, her being a couple of years ahead of me." Lily said mixing a pot of soup. I saw a glow around Molly every time I saw her lately and I knew why. She was pregnant. I didn't tell anyone about my suspicions. The way I found out was because I was talking to her a couple of weeks ago and I had touched her hand to assure her that Arthur was going to be just fine when I felt two heart beats and then I saw a little baby kicking inside of her. I just smiled broadly and kept that secret to myself.
"She's pregnant." I blurted out to Lily who stopped what she was doing and stared at me with her mouth wide open.

"No way!" She said quite loudly. I laughed and put my finger over my mouth to quiet her down.

"Yup, I saw it when I touched her one day. I bet that's why they got married. They other day she was telling me how her family were traditionalists and they believed in marriage before anything happened." I said. Lily grabbed my hand and we both started jumping up and down and we started to giggle. Sometimes we were such schoolgirls.

"What is all the ruckus in here?" Molly asked coming through the door. Lily looked at her stomach and started to giggle again. She ran over to Molly and placed her hand over her stomach.

"Oh My! Did Arthur tell you? Oh I could kill him!" Molly said looking flustered.

"Oh no, sweetie, Ashleigh knew that you were pregnant. I can't believe it! How do you feel? Are you ok? Here, sit down." Lily said leading her toward a chair.

"Oh… Um, I feel fine. I am a bit scared. I don't know if I'm ready and to be quite honest, I didn't want to have a child until the war was over." Molly said looking distraught.

"Oh sweetie. A child is a blessing and after all the death we have witnessed, we need a blessing. I am so happy for you!" I said. And then I thought about Sirius and how I wanted to have children with him. I wanted to have children with him so badly but even I knew that I shouldn't. I shouldn't have any children until after the war. It would be way too dangerous. Not after I have lost every family member since the beginning of this war.

We had a beautiful wedding reception for the happy couple and Dumbledore told them to go and have an amazing honeymoon. They deserved it.

"That's going to be us one day." I said sitting on Sirius' lap. He had his old laugh back and that completely sexy smile.

"How about today?" He asked. I thought he was kidding and laughed but then he looked completely serious.
"Are you serious?" I asked him. He smiled and nodded. I did want to marry him but today?

"Come on, we can go to the courthouse right now and get married." Sirius said pushing the subject.

"Who's going to get married?" James asked sitting next to us with Lily.

"Us." Sirius said still looking me in the eyes. He was searching for something, anything. I did want to but I also wanted a fairy tale wedding. I wanted a grand wedding with my parents there and for them to walk me down the isle. Then I remembered that they were no longer here and that grand fairy tale wedding would never happen.

"Ok, lets go. Right now. A small wedding with only our loved ones." I said kissing Sirius. He jumped up and picked me up and twirled me around.

"You can't get married!" James protested.

"Why not?" I asked him.

"Because I was hoping to have a double wedding. The four of us." He said looking a bit shy. He turned to Lily who looked shocked.

"Lets get married right now too. It would be amazing." He said holding her hand. She looked as if she was melting at his touch and I got the sense that she was going to say yes.

"YES!" She squealed and they embraced each other with such vigor. Drew was walking past us and I grabbed his hand.

"Drew! You have to walk me down the aisle." I said. If I couldn't have my dad walk me down the aisle, I had to have Drew do it.

"What are you talking about?" He asked looking completely puzzled.

"Sirius and I are going to get married tonight." I said I could not wipe the smile off of my face for anything. He was about to protest when Dumbledore came into the room looking panicked.

"What's going on?" James asked.

"It's Remus and Peter, they are in trouble. You guys need to go now to help." Dumbledore said and we all rushed out of the house leaving the image and dreams of a double wedding behind us. I don't know what we were thinking but we couldn't get married, not during the war with so much going on.

"When we come back we will do it." Sirius said sensing my disappointment. I just squeezed his hand as we apparated to the spot that Dumbledore told us about. I looked around and saw four death eaters laughing triumphantly. I suddenly wanted to cry for Remus but I still couldn't bring myself to feel much for Peter and I didn't know why. Ever since I had met him, I could never truly care about him. There was just something about him that held me back. Somehow, I didn't trust him as much as the other guys.

I was the first one to Remus and he looked like he was dead and I suddenly couldn't move. I had loved Remus for so long as a good friend that I would absolutely die if he did. I fell to my knees and picked up Remus' head and gently placed it on my lap. His lips moved a bit and he groaned out in pain. There was no way that I would be able to apparate with him in this condition. But I still had to get him away from danger.

"Remus…. Remus, can you hear me? It's Ashleigh." I said bending down low and whispering into his ear. He nodded and muttered my name slightly. I shifted him and he gave out another low moan. I pulled my wand out and conjured up a stretcher to place him on. I shifted him back and forth until he was onto the stretcher fully. Then I raised the stretcher and told him not to move or he would fall. Before I could get him to safety, a flash of red light came straight at me. I ducked just in time and made sure Remus was hidden in the bushes before I got ready to fight back. I took a quick peek around the corner and another flash of light came directly at me. I pulled back again and then I counted to three before coming out ready with an incantation. My own flash of red light came out when I jumped out and I heard a yell. I chanced a glance in the direction of the curse and I saw Bellatrix stunned on the floor. I suddenly felt satisfied.

I took a quick look around and saw no one else that I knew. I needed to get Remus some help. I conjured up a broom and I attached Remus securely to the stretcher. He was locked in tight. I started to bind the stretcher to the broom so that I could fly him out of there and to St. Mungos. Just as I was about to take off with Remus in tow I saw Peter cry out in pain and Sirius was completely out numbered. I cursed under my breath and placed a disillusionment charm on Remus before running into the action with Sirius.

"You're dead to me!" I heard a death eater scream at Sirius. I started to duel with two death eaters at once and I was winning. Once the odds turned against them, the death eaters disappeared leaving behind the wounded and the exhausted. Sirius ran to Peter who was on the ground limp. He was completely knocked out. I ran back to Remus and undid the charm that had kept him safe from any other death eaters.

"Peter was taken to St. Mungos with Dumbledore, how is Remus?" Sirius asked once he was by my side. I hopped on the broom and shook my head wishing that Remus were ok.