Too many things unsaid

Chapter 53 - A life that's good!

Derek heard one of the triplets cry in the middle of the night on the baby monitor, so he got up and went in to their room to see if they were OK.

He went to the cribs and saw DJ crying and the girls moving around. He picked up DJ and he stopped crying.

Penelope had woken up and was walking into the baby room when Derek was on his way out with DJ. He walked back with Penelope and turned on the light so they could see.

Derek passed DJ to Penelope and she went to sit down and feed him. Derek was going to get up when Shakia started crying. He got up and picked her up carefully. She stopped crying a bit and Derek went to sit down so she could sleep.

Derek sat there holding his daughter in his arms and stroked her hair softly. Penelope was burping DJ, and whispering sweet nothings in his ear to get him to sleep. Krystal started to cry and Derek got up carefully carrying Shakia in his arms and putting her in her crib carefully then picking up Krystal.

A few moments later Derek walked over to the changing table and lay her down carefully.

Derek finished changing Krystal and took her to the rocking chair. She was awake and looked at her dad with her beautiful eyes and yawned. Derek looked down at his daughter and ran his fingers down her face making her close her eyes. He started to hum softly, a soft tune that made all of them tired. Penelope yawned and looked down at her son who was sleeping softly and peacefully. She chose to hold him a bit longer, and relaxed a bit more in the chair.

Penelope got up from the chair and put DJ back in his crib whilst Derek put a now sleeping Krystal in hers. They checked on all 3 of them again, just to make sure and then turned out the light, walking back to their room.

Penelope and Derek got back into bed and lay down. 'Hey hot stuff what was that song you were humming?' Penelope whispered, laying her head on his shoulder and putting her hand on his heart.

Derek smiled and kissed her head, putting his arm around her shoulder. 'A life that's good-by Lennon and Maisy. It's a beautiful song' Derek told her quietly closing his eyes hoping to fall asleep soon. 'I do have a life that's good, I have you and the kids, I have my mum and my sisters and I have my BAU family and that's all I will ever need' Derek told her quietly.

Penelope smiled and took Derek's hand. 'I have a good life too. I love you' Penelope said tiredly.

Derek kissed her head and said 'I love you too'

Penelope closed her eyes and went to sleep, feeling tired. Derek doing the same.

A few hours later Penelope and Derek woke up seeing they had slept in and not hearing the babies, went to check on them, seeing they were still fast asleep they smiled and headed downstairs to make some breakfast.

'Are you meeting Hotch today baby?' Penelope asked Derek as they sat down.

Derek shook his head and said 'no I cancelled, I'm going in to the office tomorrow just for a bit. I said I would talk to him then' Derek explained.

'Oh okay. How long are you going in for?' Penelope asked needing to know.

'Not that long, maybe an hour' Derek replied. 'I was thinking I could do some research if you can call it that and then speak to Hotch so yea but not that long I hope' Derek then told her.

'That's fine, you can take as long as you like, I don't mind' Penelope smiled and nodded her head.

'I do and I want to be here with you and the triplets' Derek told her. 'Oh what are we doing today then?'

Penelope was just about to answer when the triplets woke up and they went to the baby room and got them.

Penelope fed them and Derek changed them and then the family went downstairs.

'Oh yea to answer your question from earlier, I need to clean the house, other than that nothing else' Penelope told Derek when they sat on the couch. Derek holding Krystal and Shakia and Penelope holding DJ.

Derek looked at her and said 'let me do that, you just rest and I can look after them'

Penelope thought about arguing against it but decided not to. 'Okay, if you're sure' she answered but by the look on his face he was definitely sure.

Nodding his head Derek said 'I'm absolutely sure baby' he leaned over and gave her a kiss then looked down at his two girls.

Derek got up carefully and put Shakia and Krystal in their cribs.

Then he went over to DJ and picked him up and put him in his crib. He sent Penelope off to bed and let her sleep, telling her he would look after them.

He felt he needed to prove to Penelope that he could be more than just a dad and help out around the house to. He went to get his iPod and put the song a good life on and he smiled as he listened to the lyrics.

Sitting here tonight

By the firelight

It reminds me I already have more than I should

I don't need faith, no one to know my name

At the end of the day, lord I pray

I have a life that's good

As Derek listened to the lyrics of the song, he realized he couldn't have been any happier than he was then, being a dad, being with Penelope, helping out around the house and helping people get saved and giving the grieving families some closure.

2 arms around me

Heaven to ground me and a family that always calls me home

4 wheels to get there,

Enough love to share and a sweet, sweet song

At the end of the day, lord I pray,

I have a life that's good.