"Olivia can you please stop pacing." Alex said as her eyes followed her "Your making me a nervous wreck."

"I'm sorry I'm just scared" Olivia said as she ran her fingers through her hair.

"Honey its not the first time we've been through this."

"But it's the first time with my eggs. What if they are no good. What if you cant conceive with my eggs."

"If that's the case." Alex whispered as she motioned for Olivia to come to her "We will go back and use my eggs."

"I love you." Olivia whispered as she leaned down and kissed Alex.

"Ladies lets" The doctor started to say as she walked in but quickly stopped when she saw the two "Give you a few more minutes of privacy."

"No doc" Olivia pulled away blushing "Come on in."

"You ladies sure"

"Yes please."

"I wish most of my patients showed half the love that you two have for each other."

"What can say" Alex said beaming up at Olivia "We're soul mates.

"You ready to here your results?" the doctor asked opening Alex's medical file.

"Yes" Olivia said suddenly scared to death of what she was about to hear.

"Ladies." She said as she looked up from the file "congratulations on baby number two."

"Really?" Olivia asked shocked.

"Yes."

"We're having a baby" Olivia whispered as she caressed Alex's face "You're having my baby."

Alex smiled as tears flowed from her eyes. At that moment Olivia fully understood why she wanted to carry her child.

"We will start setting you up on regular appointments and here are the prenatal vitamins that you were on with Madeline. Other than that that's it for this visit." The doctor said as she ripped the prescription off the pad and handed it to Olivia. "I will see you ladies in four weeks."

Olivia waited until the door was closed before turning toward Alex. She helped her down off the exam table before dropping to her knees. She placed her hands on either side of Alex's belly and slowly kissed it.

"Hey baby girl I'm your momma and I want you to know that I will always be here for you. I love you so much already."

Alex's throat constricted as Olivia whispered to their unborn child. It was the little things like this that had Alex falling in love with her over and over again. She ran her fingers through Olivia's hair as she beamed down at her.

Olivia looked up at her wife when she felt her hands through her hair. The love shining through the blue eyes looking down on her was astounding. God she would move heaven and earth for her.

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"How far along is Alex now?" Elliot asked as he pulled the perp up off the ground that he kicked about ten feet off of Olivia.

"Six months why?"

"Because you keep pulling stunts like this you are going to send her into early labor." Elliot said as he extended his hand and helped her to her feet.

"Just doing my job"

"I'll make sure to tell Alex and your unborn child that at your funeral. Stop taking unnecessary risks like just now."

"Yes boss."

"I mean it Liv. If we have five extra cars at a scene there's no need to go in first or take off with out someone with you. You do it again and I'll break the code."

"You wouldn't"

"Try me."

Olivia was about to respond when she heard someone calling her name. She spun around to see Captain Cragen at a dead run towards her.

"I'm ok Capt." Olivia said holding her hands up to stop him "Just going to be bruised."

"I'm grateful that but Alex just called."

One look at Cragen's face told her something was wrong.

"What is it?"

"They just rushed her to Mercy. Something is wrong with the baby."

That was all Olivia needed to hear to take off at a dead run. She grabbed the first uniformed officer she came to and pulled him with her.

"Which car is yours?" She asked stopping to look at him.

"That one detective." He said pointing at a car that was not blocked.

"Good give me your keys and catch a ride with someone else." She ordered.

With out thinking twice he handed her the keys and stepped back as she took off for his car. He had never see someone in his six years on the job be able to take off in a car that they were half way in.

"Alexandra Cabot-Benson's room?" Olivia said flashing her badge at the nurse behind the counter.

"Down the hall third door on the left."

"Thank you." Olivia said as she took off in the direction. She wasted no time stopping to gather self. She busted right through the door and was by Alex's side in seconds.

"Sorry it took so long to get here." Olivia said as she tried to catch her breath and calm her wife at the same time.

"Did you get the perp?"

Olivia looked at Alex confused. Here she was in the hospital with complications with their child and she wanted to know if she got the perp.

"The cut on your face that is still bleeding and the fact that your shirt is torn." Alex answered her confused look.

"Yeah. Now what the doctor say?"

"I lost it."

"What?"

"I lost the baby. By the time I got here he had no heart beat. I'm schedule to go in and have a D&C in two hours."

"Baby" Olivia whispered as she pulled her to her.

"I'm so sorry." Alex said as she broke down for the first time since hearing the devastating news a few minutes ago. The doctor had asked if she wanted to wait for Olivia but she had no clue how long she would be or if Don would be able to get ahold of her right away. She chose to sit there and listen to the doctor tell her how the cord wrapped around the baby's neck causing him to suffocate to death by herself. Something that she wish she hadn't done nor heard.

"Its ok" Olivia whispered as she let her tears fall with Alex's.

"I failed you."

"NO you didn't" Olivia said pulling back to look at Alex. "You have never failed me and never will."

"It was your child." Alex said as she looked away.

"Honey it was our child." Olivia said lovingly as she pulled Alex's face back to look at her. "We lost our child. Can you tell me what happened or would you like me to ask the doctor?"

"The cord wrapped around his neck and suffocated him." Alex sobbed out.

Olivia pulled Alex to her and rubbed her back to try to soothe her even though she knew nothing would help. What she wouldn't give to trade places with Alex at that moment.

"Mrs. Benson its time" The nurse said as she entered to take Alex to the Operating room.

"Can I go?" Olivia asked as she helped Alex into the waiting wheelchair.

"I'm sorry not right now. It's pre-op but as soon as we get her in the room we can come get you."

"Thank you."

"Your welcome ma'am" She said as she rolled her wife out of the room.

Olivia had never felt as helpless as she did at that moment watching the love of her life being rolled away and knowing there was nothing she could do to help.