AN: Chapter 50, wow! This is the best fic I have ever done and I would like to thank the readers and reviewers for keeping me going. I hope this story gets to maybe 100, but who knows? Thank you all and I hope you are enjoying the journey like me :)

Kara walked in half an hour later. Alura was not in sight, which made her heart sink.

Instead, her eyes were greeted with the sight of Lena, who could easily be mistaken for being on the edge of drunk.

Kara looked down at her wife, and how she would have the courage to talk to her, she didn't know.

She was sure Lena wouldn't speak first.

"You took that decision upon yourself and let a kid make your mind up for you." Lena's voice trembled breaking the silence.

Kara sighed, "She isn't a kid..."

"Until she is 21, she is a child!" Lena snapped. Her eyes then met Kara's, "You did not think this through,"

"Lee-" Kara began, jumping when Lena hit the table, shattering the glass.

"You will not live to see forever but Alura and I will! What you have done is selfish! You don't want to be Supergirl, just keep some Kryptonite on you, don't go and make yourself human!" Lena then walked over the glass and went over to Kara.

Kara took a step back, terrified.

"We should have talked about this." Lena hissed again.

Kara looked at the floor, like a child being told off.

"Will you uh..." Kara's voice trembled.

"Be there when the time comes?" Lena finished her question for her.

Kara nodded.

"Of course I will, I wouldn't just leave you." Lena said softly as she put her hand on her cheek. Kara slowly looked at her.

Lena heard how hard Kara's heart was beating in her chest. The process had already started.

"You have to understand that what you have done, cannot be taken back." Lena sighed, and wiped Kara's cheek with her thumb as a tear trailed it's way down her face.

Kara nodded slowly. She then hunched as her chest began to hurt. Lena put her arms around her, "I've got you." She said softly, "Let's go to the bedroom, get you comfortable."

Kara nodded slowly and limped her way there, only screaming in agony as she reached the door.

"Kara, come on." Lena willed, "Come on, just a few more steps."

Kara grunted and moaned, unable to stand anymore.

Lena grabbed her phone from her pocket and called Alura, "You need to get home, now!" She said in a panicked tone. With that, she tossed her phone to the side. She then kneeled beside Kara and picked her up, "I've got you." She whispered, as Kara put herself in a fetal position, anything to try and stop the pain. Luckily, Lena had the strength to lift her wife onto the bed. As Kara felt the soft sheets beneath her, she scrunched them up so tight that her knuckles went white.

Not two minutes later, Alura had arrived back home. Her gut wrenched at the screaming and crying that Kara was going through. She had to stop the tears she felt coming and that was a battle within itself. She then looked at Lena, who was holding Kara tightly, whispering and telling her that it was going to be okay, anything to soothe her agony would do.

"Is there anything I can do?" Alura asked Lena as she walked over. The glare she got in return for even being there was like nothing she had ever seen before in her life and that was saying something within itself.

Lena kept a tight grip on Kara but looked at her phone, that was on the floor, by the door, "I need you to call your aunt and get her over here and tell her to do it quickly."

"But, I could just fly her-"

Alura was cut off by a seething, angry Lena, "You do as instructed Alura Danvers, call Alex and get her here."

Alura put the phone to her ear and left the room. She was in distress herself, shaking, "Pick up, pick up." She hissed as the phone rang. When Alex picked up, she didn't waste time. Alex could already hear the gut wrenching screams in the background before Alura even said anything to her.

"Auntie Alex.."

"I'm on my way." Alex said immediately before hanging up.

Alex burst through the door upon arrival, seemingly ignoring Alura's presence as she walked straight past her.

Upon walking into the bedroom and seeing how Lena was cradling Kara in her arms, she knew it was bad. Kara was redder than Alex had ever seen her, and at this point, Alex was incredibly pissed at both Alura and Kara, but mostly Alura.

"Lena." Alex breathed. Lena looked up at her, fighting back tears, "She has been like this for ten minutes."

"I brought something to try and numb it somehow." Alex sighed as she climbed onto the bed, beside Kara. "I'm here Kara, I'm here." Alex said soothingly. She stroked her arm gently.

"Everything hurts Alex!" Kara screamed.

"It will do." She sighed, "I have something for it, but I need you to stay still for me, as still as you can, okay?"

Alex then looked at Lena. Lena could see the worry in Alex's eyes and Alex could see how anxious she was.

"Why is it hurting so much?" Lena said in a brief moment of silence as Kara was breathing heavily.

"Every strand of DNA, every atom, molecule and every single cell in her body is changing. It hurts so much because being human..." Alex did not want to end her sentence. She felt a lump forming in her throat, and grabbed a needle from her bag, "I uh, I need you to hold her still." Alex's voice trembled.

Lena wondered why Alex didn't finish her sentence, and stared at her, thinking.

What did Alex mean?

It hurts to be human?

Lena held Kara as still as she possibly could as Alex plunged a very painful metal needle into Kara, making her scream once more.

"I know Kara, I know." Alex gasped, kissing her sister's cheek, "It's done now...You'll feel better soon." Alex felt helpless. She had never felt this helpless before, but she was willing to do anything in her power to help her sister get through this.

Lena still kept a hold of Kara, and as her breathing returned to a normal pace five minutes later, Kara began to fall asleep. The exhaustion had taken over. Of course, Lena began to worry as Kara was in and out of consciousness but Alex assured that she would be okay and should sleep the rest of the night, despite how uncomfortable it might be.

Both Lena and Alex cradled Kara, keeping an arm each around her. Kara was indeed grateful for the contact, and she finally let sleep take over.

An hour had passed.

Kara was fast asleep.

Lena and Alex just lay on the bed together, tired themselves. Lena was reeling from earlier on, trying to understand why Kara would do such a thing. Why make herself human when she can be a God?

"I never thought I'd ever see her in pain like that." Lena spoke in the silence. Her voice trembled slightly as she rubbed Kara's arm.

Alex took a deep breath and looked down at her sleeping sister, "I have seen her fight Nazi's, Fort Rozz escapees and villains from the darkest pits of hell...Fighting herself regenerating? That is something I never want to see again." She swallowed the lump in her throat, "Ever."

Lena was still deep in thought, and took a deep breath, "Can I do the same? Become human?"

Alex felt something bite deep down inside, "After seeing that, why would you want to?"

"I don't want to outlive my wife...The city only needs one hero and that is our daughter."

"Imagine how Alura would feel." Alex almost snapped, she couldn't believe what Lena was talking about.

"Earlier, you said it hurt to be human, why is that? We have been human almost all of our lives. Why would being human be a problem?" Lena said, changing the subject.

Alex took a breath, "I just meant that...I think living forever would perhaps be a better option because...Death wouldn't be a problem." She then shrugged, "Well, death from old age...It hurts to be human because we suffer a lot less and hurt a lot more."

Lena frowned, "Aren't they the same thing?"

Alex then looked at her properly, "It depends who you are asking...If it is you...I'd say...You have suffered and endured a lot...You lost Kara and weren't able to raise your daughter the way you wanted...You Lena Luthor, have lost a lot and that in equal measure has made you suffer so much."

Lena held back tears as she looked down at Kara, "Kara and I want to live together forever, and something always happens. I'm struggling to understand why on earth she would want to be human."

"I know the answer to that...I've been dead and so has she..." Alex said quietly.

Unknown to the two women, Alura was sat in the sitting room, still wearing her hero outfit and was listening to the pair of them. She felt like she was being ignored. No one had spoken to her in the last hour and she was just sat there, replaying the events that had happened, in her head.

"Death is a dark place, after this life, there is literally nothing. Weather Kara prefers that to suffering in life, she would prefer to live it and have moments to cherish than wait." Alex shrugged, "Kara saw her life in a moment right before death and she knows what she has to lose..."

"So she'd prefer it to be over before it has begun?" Lena asked quietly.

"If that's how you put it." Alex sighed, stroking her sisters arm absentmindedly, "She doesn't want to be an alien, or a God...She just wants to be Kara. The woman with the wife and grown up, successful child...Like what you saw under the influence of the black mercy."

"Alex, what we saw there and what she went through all those years ago, they are two different things. We saw what life we wanted."

Alex sighed heavily, "Look, the point to this is...She doesn't want to see forever, she wants to live for now. Here and now."

"Living and not being loved is painful Mrs Danvers." Lena said in a steely tone.

Alex fell silent and looked at Lena sadly.

After listening to their conversation, Alura stood up. She slowly approached the room, "Mom, I'm uh, I'm gonna head to bed now."

Lena looked over at Alura and heard how broken she was. She felt awful for the way she reacted earlier. She saw how sorry Alura was when she looked at Kara and saw how peaceful she now was while asleep, compared to the pain she was in earlier.

"Alura, I'm sorry." Lena said softly, "I never meant to act that way, I just felt betrayed."

"It's okay."

"It isn't, and you know it isn't...I am just scared for her now...For us..." Lena took a breath, and shrugged, "She will not be here in seventy or eighty years and...I can't imagine my life without her." A stray tear fell down Lena's cheek. She sucked up a breath, "What a great way to start the year." She laughed shallowly.

"Love you." Alura said quietly, before walking off, not wanting to have this lecture.

Alex looked at Lena and hated how much she was suffering. She climbed off of the bed and walked over to Lena's side and sat beside her, "You need a hug." Alex said, opening her arms to her.

Lena accepted, grateful for the contact. She held onto Alex, seeming desperate, like she craved the touch.

"You're not alone." Alex said softly to her, before pulling away, "You have me, Maggie and your daughter. We are all here to talk to, don't forget that."

"I won't." Lena laughed lightly.

Alex put her hand on Lena's cheek to wipe away another stray tear and pulled it away slowly, "You can't be strong all of the time Lena, not for anyone."

"I hold my own, because that is all I have known all my life."

"Start relying on others. Please." Alex pleaded.

Lena kissed Alex, and was taken aback when Alex pulled away.

"I uh...I think it's time I went home to my wife." Alex said to Lena as if emphasising that they were both married.

"Alex, that was my mistake." Lena said quickly.

"Get some sleep, okay? I don't and won't hold this against you...It meant nothing...You are exhausted, worried and stressed about Kara. Just get some rest." Alex sighed. She left not long after, leaving Lena to go to sleep.

As Lena turned over, she put her arm around Kara and let tears fall down her face.