Tiniest Notion

(Amy's POV)

I'm going to kick her ass.

Despite what Ashley said I know this is about Spencer and I'm not going to sit back and let her take Ashley from me. I know this may not be the mature thing to do or a very smart thing seeing that Spencer works out a lot with a boxing trainer.

But damn it I'm still going to kick her ass.

I was finally happy, ASHLEY was finally happy. We were together and everything in our world was perfect. Then here comes my sister who decides "oh hey, you know who I haven't fucked over in a while…Amy". I'm not going to take it this time, this time I'm going to shove my foot up her spoiled ass.

What kind of sister does that?

I know I was trying to steal Ashley away from her before, but that's because I KNOW I can make her happier. She was happier, she was smiling a lot. I'm determined to make sure Spencer never gets a chance to hurt her again. I pull my car up to her place and slam my door when I get out. I bang my fist against her doorbell and eventually Rowan opens the door in his boxers.

"Are you here to kick Spencer's ass?"

"Damn right"

"I don't think I can let you in then"

"Rowan this is serious"

"I can see that, you're wearing your angry face and all" I swear he wasn't this bad a year ago. I think at some point he may have decided to have no filter. "Is this about Ashley?"

"You know?"

"I figured. I'd tell you how, but I'm not trying to fuel your fire. You seem pretty irrational"

"Go get Spencer" I command. I'm done talking to him, he's not who I came to see.

"Did you completely forget the part where Spencer could kick your ass? That's key information"

".SPENCER"

"Did you honestly see dating Ashley working out for you in the end? I mean she cheated on a girl she was in love with for years for Spencer. What made you think you were special no offense?" It's at this moment that I wish I could punch a kid. "They are literally meant to be. You can look at them together and tell anybody who tries to date either one of them is asking for it" I feel tears forming in my eyes and my anger is slowly dwelling. "You knew that, even if you won't admit it. You knew that you were getting in between something that was destined. Yet here you are on my doorstep, looking like shit, trying to pick a fight with your sister because you feel like she took your favorite toy. When in reality you knew all along that if you started something with Ashley the possibility of you getting hurt was high"

"Rowan", Spencer's voice sounds from behind him.

"Amy's here to kick your ass", he says before walking away. There is a long silence between us as Spencer just stands there.

"Ashley's breaking up with me" My voice cracks and Spencer's face softens. "She's in love with you"

It's strange because right now all I want to do is cry in her arms. Spencer is the only sister I have. She has been there my whole life with no questions asked. I wonder who I am supposed to go to when it's my confidant that's hurt me.

"You don't deserve her" She doesn't say anything, she just stares at me. This is what I hate most about her is the fact that it's so damn hard to get a reaction from her. "I love her"

"As do I"

"I love her more"

"I'm not even going to validate that with a response" She crosses her arms and leans against her doorframe.

"I'm here to kick your ass" She chuckles and my anger returns with a fury. "I'm fucking serious"

"I believe you" She doesn't make a move so I push her. She takes a single step back as if a child was pushing her. "Don't", she warns.

"Or what?" I push her again and she repeats her previous movements.

"Amelia, I don't want to fight" There are two ways I can handle this. I can leave it be and walk away or choose the childish route. So I push her again.

I never claimed to be mature.

Spencer doesn't do anything, but look slightly annoyed. I go for another push when Spencer grabs my arms and before I know it my face meets the doorframe. The pain is searing and my hands fly up to my nose.

"Fuck" I look at Spencer and she just watches me as if to say "hey I warned you", it pisses me off. I throw a punch and once again my face meets the doorframe. She continues to hold me while I squirm to get free.

"Stop it, it's going to bruise bad enough already"

"Fuck you"

"I wish you would calm down" She lets me go and disappears for a few minutes. When she returns she is holding an ice pack. "Put this on, minimize the damage"

"It's already too great" Spencer nods her head; she knows I'm not just talking about my face. I snatch the ice pack out of her hands and nurse my wound.

"The first time I saw her, I thought it was a sign" I move the pack so I can still see her face. "I was up on those cliffs and I was thinking about Carmen. I was thinking that that was it for me, that never in my life will someone love me like she did. I was thinking that I messed up our family and Rowan's life. I was thinking about the blood and how it seemed to linger on me even after the incident. I was thinking that there is no way in hell that I'll get a second chance" Spencer looks me in the eyes the whole time. "Then I saw her, I saw her and she spoke to me and in the one moment… for the first time in I don't know how long… I felt worthy of something"

"Spencer…" I beg for her not to continue because I can't hear this.

"You have no idea… no idea… how much she saved me. That girl has the ability to make anyone feel like their worth something. You don't truly get it… because you have never been the bad one… the fucked up one" Spencer rarely curses so it takes me by surprise how harsh her voice sounded. "I'm going to be a murderer for the rest of my life… Glen too. But when she's around… she doesn't see what other people see. She doesn't see this monster that lost her temper. She sees a me that I haven't even become yet, but want to become for her. I love her and I would throw myself off of those cliffs rather than hurt her again"

"Sis…"

"That's all you get from me. I won't explain myself again because I don't owe it to you" I take that as my cue to leave and head towards my car defeated.

Because my sister loves Ashley as much as I do, if not more.

I turn around right before I go to my car and she is still watching after me. I wish this could be one of those moments where I forgive her and we become all buddy buddy, but it's not. Life doesn't work like that and neither do we. Our family has an issue with forgiveness and no one is willing to fix it. Spencer knows this. She knows that our bond has been forever broken. There will be no more sisterly talks about love. There will be no more piano lessons are hanging out. The battle lines are drawn and neither side is giving up.

"You're still my little sister", she calls after me. I know Spencer and I know that's her "I love you" to me.

"I'll never forgive you", I say because I'm hurt and stubborn.

"I know"

And that's it, I get in my car and she shuts her door.