If I owned Grey's Anatomy, I would not even admit it right now!
Meredith made her way up to meet Dr. Watson. She knew this was the right thing to do. There wasn't a shadow of a doubt in her mind. The faint smile on her lips went unnoticed, but the glow she was radiating did not. She took a deep inward breath as she walked up to Nick Watson's office. She could see him on the phone. She knocked lightly, and she heard him say come in. Meredith took her place in the seat in front of his desk. His office was homey. There were pictures of patients, and drawings that had made adorning the walls. She had to smile at the sight. As surgeons, they were cut off from their patients. Nick had contact, he got to see them grow and heal. Meredith wished that she would see that.
"Dr. Grey." Nick said with a kind smile.
"Dr. Watson." She returned.
"Please, call me Nick." He replied.
"If that's the case, call me Meredith." Meredith said with a hint of a smile.
"So, Meredith, are you ready for this?" He asked with a serious face.
"Yes, I am. But how did you--" She started.
"It has been taken care of." Nick said. "You will be an 'anonymous donor'. I have contacted social services. The fact that Mr. and Mrs. Livingston were willing to risk the welfare of their grandchild concerns me."
"I agree." Meredith said, nodding her head.
"But more importantly, you are going to save a a little girls life today." Nick said with a smile. "She has been asking about you. She knows that her grandparents are keeping you from her. She's a smart little kid!"
"She has gone through way too much for her age. It's sad." Meredith said, dropping her head.
"Well, things are going to start looking up for her." Nick stated. "Are you ready?" He asked.
"Yes. I am definitely ready." Meredith replied.
Meredith changed into a hospital gown and laid down on the bed. The nurses came in a checked her. They prepped her for the procedure. That was something she was used to doing. She laid there with her eyes closed. Then it hit her. All she wanted was Derek. She wanted him by her side. She wished he was there. She was tired of trying to do things by herself. She opened her eyed abruptly when she heard Nick Watson come in.
"Okay, Dr. Grey you know what's going to happen, right?" Nick asked again.
"Yes, you've explained it several times." She said with a laugh.
"Okay then. Let's get this done." Dr. Watson said.
He nodded to a nurse who grabbed the gurney. Meredith looked around as they wheeled her down the hall. She had never experienced the ride to the operating room. There was no question that everyone would be talking about this. She hadn't told anyone. She didn't want the attention. She didn't want to be the hero. Dr. Watson had kept it as under wraps as he could. Not to mention they didn't want the Livington's finding out.
"Okay, it's time to go nighty night." Meredith heard Dr. Watson say. She couldn't help but laugh as she drifted into her slumber.
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Cristina scrubbed in with Derek Shepherd. They did a run of the mill craniotomy. Of course, Burke was doing a heart transplant, and Cristina was sulking. She was supposed to be in on that. She was doing cardio, that was her passion, not neuro. She walked heavily down the hall. She took a glance at the OR board. She had to see it, she had to see the heart transplant she was missing, on the board. But something else caught her eye.
"What the hell?" She spat out loudly as she walked quickly to Derek who was writing on a chart. "Hey." She said loudly.
"Is there a problem, Dr. Yang?" Derek asked as he glanced up from the chart.
"Yeah." She said frankly. "My best friend, my person is in the OR right now. And no one tells me!" She said angrily.
"I just found out this morning." Derek stated, as he looked at her sour face.
"What is wrong with her? She doesn't even tell me?" Cristina said more to herself than him. "Why is she doing it?"
"For the little girl with leukemia." Derek explained.
"She doesn't even know her. Not to mention, the girl's father nearly killed her!" Cristina said.
"She wants to do it." Derek replied. "I think it's a good thing."
"Well, I am going to make sure she is okay." Cristina said as she turned on her heel and walked off.
Cristina stood in the scrub room. Meredith was in an OR without a gallery for privacy reasons. She knew the procedure. She had never been in on one, but she knew. She watched as they plunged the large needle into Meredith's rear hip bone. The deep red liquid held the key to saving a small child's life. She heard the door open with a whoosh. She looked over to see Derek standing next to her.
"She's okay?" He asked, already knowing the answer.
"Yeah, she's okay." Cristina responded. They both stood there, arms crossed as they watched.
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Meredith laid in the deep darkness. It was comforting there. No yelling, no husbands, no fighting, just some much needed peace. Then she felt it. She felt a thumb caressing her hand. She knew the hand that was holding hers. It was the only hand that she ever wanted to hold hers again. She squeezed Derek's hand weakly. She felt him squeeze back. She wanted to open her eyes but she was too tired.
"Meredith..." Derek whispered lightly.
"Hey." She answered softly as she opened her eyes. They were met with stunning blue ones. "Is everything-"
"It's good. It went well." He said with a smile as he leaned down and kissed her. "Anna will be receiving the marrow very soon." She smiled at his words. "You rest." He told her. She closed her eyes as he gently moved the hair out of her face.
"How is she?" He heard Izzie say as she walked into the room.
"She's good." Derek told her. "She's resting right now."
"This is a big deal. It's great that she did this." Izzie responded with a smile.
"Yeah." Derek said in almost a whisper.
"So, is she staying for the night?" Izzie asked.
"Dr. Watson wants her to. She's not going to be very happy to hear that." Derek pointed out.
"You're right about that." Izzie said with a laugh. "I will be by to check on her later."
Derek sat there at watched the woman that he loved sleep. She was so peaceful. He knew he had to do whatever he could to keep her. He needed to protect her, and love her unconditionally. She had her flaws, but so did he. He was just hoping that Ian would be out of the picture soon, and they would be able to really begin their lives. He sat there for two hours as she rested. He was getting a little worried. He thought she would be a little more alert by now.
"Derek?" She said as she opened her eyes.
"Hey." He said with a smile.
"Did it go okay?" She asked. He knew it was normal for people who had been under anesthesia to be confused about time.
"It went great. They already gave Anna the marrow. So far, so good." Derek said as he rubbed her arm. "How are you feeling?" He asked.
"I feel good. A little sore, but good." She said softly.
"They gave you some motrin for the pain." Derek said quickly.
"I'm glad you are here with me." She said happily.
"Me too." He answered as he handed her some water. They both heard the familiar sound Derek's pager going off
"Go." She told Derek as she laid her head back.
"No, I'm staying with you." He answered stubbornly.
"Someone needs you, Derek." She said as she motioned for him to leave.
"I will be back as soon as I can." He told her.
She watched him walk out and laid back her head. She knew she had to figure out how to get through to Ian. She didn't want to lose the love of her life. She didn't want to lose Derek. She looked around the drab walls off her room. She did know one thing, she needed to get out of here. She closed her eyes and fell asleep, knowing that she needed to get her rest if she was going to break out of there.
"Hey! What do you think you are doing?" Cristina shouted as she walked in the room. Meredith jerked awake. "I am your person."
"I know you are." Meredith said in agreement.
"Why didn't you tell me?" She asked as she walked up to the bed.
"It's no big deal, really." Meredith said frankly. "Have you seen Derek?" She asked.
"Seriously?" Cristina asked with a laugh. "I come in here, and you are worried about Derek."
"Yeah." Meredith answered.
"He got pulled into surgery." Cristina answered quickly.
"Oh." Meredith answered slowly.
"So, do you want anything?" Cristina asked as she threw her feet on the side of Meredith's bed.
"Oh, like you're really going to get it if I did." Meredith answered with a laugh.
"Well, probably not. But you're supposed to ask, right?" Cristina said frankly.
"Yeah, I guess so." She answered lightly. "I do need to get out of here. I don't want to stay the night here."
"Good luck with that." Cristina laughed with a snort. "Watson is Mr. Concerned when it comes to you. You aren't going anywhere."
"That's what you think." Meredith said with determination. "Shouldn't you be working? You might be missing out on a surgery."
"Are you trying to get rid of me?" Cristina asked.
"Trying to..." Meredith replied with a smile.
"Fine, I'll go." Cristina said as she stood up. "Besides, you are no fun when you aren't on morphine!"
"Goodbye." Meredith said as she rolled her eyes.
As soon as the door shut, Meredith slowly threw her legs over the side of the bed. She winced as the pain felt like a knife in her hip. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea. She had to go to the bathroom. There was no way she was calling in a nurse, that she worked with, to help her. She yelped out as she stood on her feet and began walking to the bathroom. Once she was down, she couldn't get up. She was stuck in the sitting position, in the bathroom. Damn-it! Now what? She asked herself. She needed help, but she wasn't pushing that damn button.
"Dr. Grey?" She heard the familiar voice of Dr. Watson say.
"Um, yeah?" Meredith responded.
"Are you okay?" He asked with concern.
"I am fine." She said softly.
"I'd like to check you out." He laughed. "Well, not check you out. Examine you..."
Meredith laughed. Nick Watson reminded her of a little kid. He seemed so innocent. He seemed like he had never been hurt before. Something she had never felt herself. He was kind, and charming.
"Uh, well I'll be out in a minute." Meredith said. "Um, have you seen Derek-- I mean Dr. Shepherd?" Meredith asked.
"I saw him looking over a chart by the nurses station." Nick said. He was beginning to feel strange, talking to her while she was in the bathroom.
"Can you page him, or call him, please?" Meredith asked with a hopeful tone.
"Sure, I will be right back." He said quickly as he walked out.
Meredith moaned as she sat there. This was so embarrassing. Not the position she wanted to be in. She was just praying that Derek would come. She didn't want to be in the restroom for the rest of the day.
"Mer?" Derek asked as he walked to the door.
"Come in." She said quietly.
Derek glanced over at Nick and opened the door. He gave her a funny look. She was sitting on the toilet, in a hospital gown. He shook his head at the sight.
"What's--" He started.
"I tried to squat, hospital toilets are dirty. I know, I work in one. I fell onto the seat. I can't get up. I tried. It's hurts and I don't want them to know. I don't want them to know because I want to go home. I just want to go home and sleep in my bed. With you. So please, help me up." She rambled as if her life depended on it. He started laughing loudly. "Seriously, Derek. Help me!"
He walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her. She slowly pulled herself to her feet. She leaned up against Derek and embraced him. He led her out to her bed. She tried her hardest to walk on her own. To prove she could. She gingerly sat in the bed. Her hips hurt, and laying was not the answer.
"So, Dr. Grey, how are you feeling?" Nick asked. He had no idea what went on in the bathroom.
"I am great. Wonderful even. Ready to go home." She said happily
"Well, I think you should stay overnight, for observation." Nick stated as he began to examine her.
"I don't think so." She said, shaking her head. "I think I need to go home, and sleep in my own bed."
"Dr. Grey. I would feel horrible if something happened." He said as he frowned slightly.
"With all due respect, Dr. Watson, I live in a house with three doctors, and a whatever he is that never leaves. I think I will be just fine." She said with a moan. He got a puzzled look, after hearing her comment.
"If you will have someone with you, okay. You are only on motrin, which you can take at home. So, I am reluctantly saying yes." He said with a defeated sigh.
"Oh, thank you!" Meredith said with relief in her voice.
"I would really like you to take two days off. But one is okay. I am sure you will push it to the limit." He said with a smile.
"And Anna?" Meredith asked.
"She is doing great." Nick said with a smile. "You gave her the greatest gift in the world. You really should be proud of yourself." He said with a nod. "And thank you. She is a very important patient to me, and I was worried about her." He smiled as he walked out of the room.
"So, you probably have a lot to do." Meredith said as she shifted her weight uncomfortably.
"Well, they threw a surgery on the board." He said with frustration.
"I'll take a cab." Meredith stated happily.
"You will not!" He demanded. "I am not letting you take a cab home. Not to mention, I don't want you home alone."
"I won't be alone. Dumb-ass is there." She said with a chuckle. "Actually, I bet he would pick me up. Unless you're worried."
"No. I just want to be there for you. Not him." Derek said with a bit of remorse.
"Derek. I know you want to be there for me. So, it still counts, okay. But I want to go home. I hate being here." She said as she bit her lip and gave him a look.
"I will be home as soon as I can, okay?" He said quickly.
"It's fine. I'll give him a call." Meredith told him. "And I will see you later." She said. He leaned down and kissed her. "I love you."
"I love you too." He said as he walked out with his head dropped.
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A nurse wheeled Meredith down to the hospital's entrance. She hated that, being in the wheelchair. All of her friends stopped her and gave her a hug, and told her they were proud. She wished she could just do something without everyone taking notice. Ian smiled at her as he walked up. He looked so dapper in his button up shirt and nice jeans. He had a thing for well-made italian shoes. He was always well-dressed, and looking his best. Meredith struggled to get to her feet when the nurse stopped in front of the car. Ian walked up to help her, and she threw her hand up to stop him. Ian quickly went to the other side of the car and got in.
"Drive fast. I am dying here." She admitted, as she tried to adjust her seat. "And try to stay on the right side of the road this time!"
"What did you do?" He asked.
"I donated bone marrow. They stuck a huge needle in my hip bone several times." She explained.
"What the hell would possess you to do that?" He asked as he glanced over.
Meredith explained the whole situation to him. About the Brian. About the bomb. And how he just wanted to see his daughter. She watched Ian's face as she told him. He seemed completely intrigued by the story.
"So, you saved this girl's life?" Ian asked with surprise.
"Basically." She answered
"Wow, Mer. That is big of you." He said with a proud smile. "So, how bad doesn't it hurt?"
"Well, it feels like I fell straight on my ass from a second story window." She stated frankly.
"Ouch." Ian said quickly.
Meredith sighed loudly when the pulled up in front of her house. Ian glanced over at her and quickly jumped out of the car. She threw the door open and moaned as she struggled to get her legs out of the car. He put his hands out to help her out of the car. She stood up, and he quickly swooped her up and carried her into the house.
"Ian, I'm fine." She said loudly.
"There are stairs. They will be misery. I can carry you." He said softly as he continued to walk.
He quickly unlocked the door and slammed it shut with his foot. He walked briskly up the stairs and into her room. He sat her down on the bed.
"Thanks." She said happily. "That probably was better than walking up the stairs."
"I'll be right back." He said as he walked out of the room.
Meredith went over to her dresser as quickly as she could. She needed to change into something more comfortable. She was now wishing she had worn some nice soft yoga pants, rather than the skin-tight jeans that she had chosen. She grabbed out a tee shirt and a pair of Derek's sleep pants. Changing her bra was okay, the panties were impossible. She threw on the tee shirt, but the sleep pants were not going to happen. She stood there, trying to figure out how she was going to to it when Ian walked in.
"Oh." He said, looking at her standing there in a tee shirt.
"I need help." She said with disgust as she threw they pants on the floor.
He didn't say a word. He simply walked over and snatched the pants off the floor. She lifted her leg, and he slide the pant leg up. He proceeded with the other leg. He caught himself looking at her. He took notice of her red panties. For the first time in his life, he felt guilty about it.
"It's nothing you haven't seen before." She said with a laugh.
"I supposed so." He said softly.
He eased the pants around her waist. She rolled the waist down so they would fit better. He held her arm as he walked her to the bed. He pulled the blankets back and helped her lay down. He moved the glass of water he had gone down to get her closer so she could reach.
"Thank you, Ian." She smiled. "I'm sorry I have been so rude to you."
"I deserve it. I know that." He said with a smirk. He flipped the t.v. on. "You should probably rest."
"I think you are right." She said as she yawned. She closed her eyes and drifted to sleep.
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"Hey." Meredith whispered. Ian was sitting in the chair next to her bed.
"How are you feeling?" Ian asked.
"Sore, but okay." She said with a weak smile.
"Here." He said as he handed her a large envelope.
"What's this?" She asked looking at it.
"You've changed. It's amazing. You are a wonderful person. You always were. But now you are happy. I have never seen you so happy. I wish I could have done that for you. But you and I weren't meant to be. Maybe we could have made it happen. We'll never know. But I did love you. I do love you. And that is why, I am giving you those." He said as he motioned for her to open the envelope. She read it and gasped.
"It's final?" She asked in shock.
"I had it rushed through. The minute I saw you with Derek, I knew there was no getting you back. I signed them that first day. I sent them in. I decided to stick around just to torture you." He said frankly.
"You wouldn't be you if you hadn't." She said with a shrug. "Thank you." She said as a tear ran down her cheek. "What about Ethan?"
"I dealt with my dad. I told him the truth. I told him that you found someone who made you happy, and that meant more to me, than having you for myself. He was shocked. He gave me everything back, but on one condition. I give you half." Ian explained. Meredith looked at his face, he looked so different now.
"Ian, I don't want your money." Meredith answered quickly.
"You deserve it. It's the least I can do for ruined your life." She stated sadly.
"You didn't ruin my life. I'm sorry I said that. If it weren't for you, none of this would have happened. I would have never met Derek or Anna or my friends. Everything happens for a reason. It was fate." Meredith said with a smile as a tear slid down her cheek. "Thank you. Thank you for setting me free."
"I had to. It was time." He said as he kissed her forehead. "I will be leaving in a few days. If that's okay."
"You can stay as long as you need to." Meredith told him. "I'm proud of you."
"So now you can have your McDreamy." Ian said, getting his name right.
"Yes, now I can have my McDreamy." Meredith said with a smile.
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So they are divorced! Yay. He needs to stick around a few more days just for some fun, but Mer is free. Sorry it was posted so late. After the epi last night, I had to be pulled off of the bridge. Right now, Shonda is on my shit list!
