Halcyon

PART IV

Chapter 12

I turn around to where I left the elk and grab it, dragging the body over to Carlisle who sighs in relief and looks up at me.

"Thank you, Lily." Carlisle says, gratefully says and I nod, leaving him to drink it. I keep my head down while feeling like a child about to be reprimanded. Oh, he's going to be pissed.

"What the hell were you thinking?" Jasper growls. Oh, he is pissed. I flinch at the anger and disappointment in his tone, and look up at him, seeing his face angrier than I've ever seen him. Yeah, he's pissed.

"Jasper, what Lily did was incredibly brave." Esme tells him but his face doesn't change, locking his black eyes to me.

"Son, Lily did this for me. She did this for her sister. She returned safe and unharmed." Carlisle tells his son, finishing off the elk.

"You realize if the wolves got you, how it could have ended? They would have killed you. That was the dumbest thing you've ever done, Liliana Swan." Jasper snaps and I look down, not able to take the disappointment rolling off him.

"I'm sorry." I reply and Esme walks over to me, placing a hand on my back.

"Jasper." Esme warns her son. I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I didn't want to disappoint Jasper, I just wanted to help Carlisle. To help Bella. I need to start paying attention to my visions and doing what I can to prevent them. Jasper disappears inside the house and I place my head in my hands, upset that I made him worry. "He'll come around, dear. He loves you too much to stay mad." Esme tells me and I turn towards her, burying my face in her shoulder. She wraps me in her arms and gently whispers soothing words to me. I'm sorry that I scared him, I didn't want to, but I just needed to do this for my sister. I sob into Esme's shoulder, feeling guilty for having Jasper worry.

"Shh...it's okay, dear. It's okay." she murmurs to me and I sniff.

"Jacob, would you mind getting rid of the carcass?" Carlisle asks Jake who nods.

"Yeah, sure." he replies, picking up the drained elk and going back into the forest. Carlisle's eyes are shining bright gold, satisfied. He walks up to me and pulls me in for a hug.

"Thank you so much, Lily. Would you like me to talk to Jasper?" he asks and I shake my head.

"No, thank you. I'm a big girl, I'll deal with it on my own." I tell him and he nods.

"This was a huge help, Lily. Thank you so much." Carlisle tells me.

"It was worth it." I tell him and he leans forward, placing a fatherly kiss on my forehead. They both walk inside while I sit down on the steps of the house, my head in my hands. I smell a wolf walk up next to me and surprise myself when I see Leah standing there, confused look on her face.

"Who kicked your puppy?" she asks and I sigh.

"Nothing, just angered the vampire that I'm engaged to marry."

"At least you have someone." she mutters, not meaning for me to hear it, but I did. I know what Sam did, imprinitng on Emily while he was still with Leah. It must have sucked to be in the pack with him, hearing his thoughts while he hears hers. No privacy. Leah probably seeing all the love that Sam has for Emily. Man, that girl standing in front of me is one tough chick, and I find a new respect for her.

"I would say that I'm sorry, but I take it you wouldn't appreciate someone feeling bad for you." I tell her and she looks over at me, surprised.

"You're right, I wouldn't." she replies, walking over to sit next to me. We both sit in silence for a bit, before a question is itching at me.

"Do you regret it?" I ask her, curious. She looks over at me with a frown, confused with my question.

"What?" she asks.

"Leaving the pack. Defending us." I clarify and she frowns, thinking for a while before responding.

"No...it was a way to finally break my ties to Sam." she says. "I can't hear his thoughts anymore and he doesn't have to hear mine. The others don't have to feel awkward about seeing our heartbroken thoughts. It's peaceful for once."

I shake my head and let out a breath. "Jesus...you're strong as hell, you know that?" I ask and she frowns, looking over to me. "If I was in your shoes, I would have flipped out, imprinting or not. But, I guess I'm just a leech who doesn't understand." I say and she laughs.

"Trust me, it wasn't without effort. Imprinting - you can't fight it. It's way too strong. You just have to accept it and move on. I'm not saying it doesn't hurt, though." she tells me, both of us falling into a comfortable silence before she speaks again. "Sam told us about the Seers." she says and I turn to look at her. "How your kind gave their lives to save us. They were brave as hell, and what you just did - going out and hunting in a forest full of wolves to bring back an elk for your family - that's brave. I don't even think I would have the guts to do that."

"It's what they would do for me." I tell her and she looks over at me, frown on her face.

"I used to think that you were soulless shells that had no regard for human life...I'm mature enough to admit that I was wrong. You guys are a family, and you do have souls. That woman, Esme...she has one of the most loving hearts I've ever seen, and I see how you and the blonde guy look at each other, you're so in love it's...almost disgusting." she says and I let out a laugh.

"Thanks, Leah." I reply and she nods.

"This doesn't mean we're best friends or anything." she says and I laugh again, standing up.

"Whatever you say, mutt." I tease and she cracks a smile.

"Leech." she retorts, but there's playfulness behind it. I smile, waving at her and get one in return before walking back inside. I know that Leah and I aren't going to be the best of friends, but I'm glad we have formed a level of civility with each other. As soon as I walk through the door, I'm suddenly ambushed by a giant body that lifts me up so I'm at eye level with a pair of angry, black eyes that belong to my older brother. Emmett.

"You have to be the craziest and bravest girl in the entire world!" he all but yells at me and I put my hand on my hips, still in mid-air, being held up by my big brother.

"Em..."

"You went out in a woods full of mutts to bring back an elk for Carlisle. You are crazy, baby sis, but very, very brave." he says, placing a brotherly kiss on my forehead and I roll my eyes.

"Is he pissed?" I ask, wondering if he's seen Jasper.

"You're in deep, little Lily." Emmett jokes, setting me down and I groan, not looking forward to facing Jasper. I turn to walk to the living room, Emmett following me. "Lily's gonna get it. Lily's gonna get it. Lily's gonna- Ow!" I cut off Emmett's annoying song with a punch to his shoulder. "Damn, that actually hurt." he pouts like a baby while I roll my eyes.

"You're such an ass, you know that?" I ask and he shrugs, walking away.

I walk into the living room, seeing Bella sitting on the couch with Jake, while Rosalie is standing near her, glaring at the wolf. Jasper is no where to be seen - I'm safe from his anger...for now.

"Hey, are you okay?" Bella asks, seeing Jake's frowning expression.

"Yeah, it's not like I'm the one carrying a demon." he says and I growl.

"This is pretty important, Bella. Why don't you tell Jacob what you've decided to?" Edward says and Jake widens his eyes, alarmed.

"What...what now?" Jake says, frowning.

"Rose is trying to talk Bella out of her baby names." Edward explains to Jake.

"She hates them." Bella grumbles.

"Well then I'm on your side no matter what you pick." Jake says.

"They're not that bad. If it's a boy, E.J. Edward Jacob." Bella says and Jake smirks.

"Okay, fine. That one's not awful. Why don't you tell them the girl's name?" Rosalie says.

"I was playing around with our mom's names, Renee and Esme. And I was thinking, Renesmee." Bella says.

"Renesmee." Jake says, testing the name out.

"Renesmee Liliana Cullen." she says and a smile comes to my face. "Too weird?"

"Um..." Jake says, not really knowing how to respond. Renesmee.

That's absolutely beautiful.

"No, that's not too weird. It's beautiful and it's unique. It certainly fits the situation. I like Renesmee." Edward says and Bella turns to Rose.

"He likes it." Bella says and I smile, seeing movement at the top of the stairs. Jasper is standing there with the angriest expression on his face, his eyes directed at me. He nods his head to follow him, and it's definitely more of a silent command that I have no choice but to answer. I walk upstairs and into our room, following him into the study and closing the door. I stand by the door, leaning my back on it, too chicken to and meet his disappointed gaze.

"Do you have any idea how worried I was after I found out you were gone?" Jasper asks me, anger in his voice. I can't answer it, because I don't have one. I know how worried I would be if he left, but...I needed to do this. "Why?"

"Bella dies during labor and Carlisle isn't there to help her." I tell him. "Esme and Carlisle were going to go hunting tomorrow so Carlisle could have his stength when Bella gives birth, but she goes into labor when he's gone. I can't let her die-"

"You went into a forest full of wolves looking to kill us." he says, the words rolling off his tongue like he can't believe it.

"I did it for my sister." I tell him and he looks up at me, his eyes black with rage. Suddenly he's in front of me and I'm pinned to the door.

"Do you have any idea what could have happened? You could have been hurt or killed. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to you. I would die without you, Lily."

You cannot live without your blood mate, once you've found them...that's why my William couldn't live without me.

Instead of seeing William, I see Jasper in his place. Begging the Volturi for death. Being ripped apart by Demetri, Felix, and Aro. No. Tears well up in my eyes as I let out a choked sob. "I'm sorry." I cover my face, regret and guilt rolling off me. I feel my shoulders shaking in sobs and Jasper slowly wraps his arms around me, sending waves of calm. I cling to him, happy that he's accepting me into his arms. "I'm so sorry." I mumble into his shoulders, tears falling out of my eyes.

"I'm not going to say 'it's okay' because it wasn't. Frankly, you scared the hell out of me, angel. I thought that you were going to be killed. I do forgive you, but don't you ever endanger yourself like that again. Please, I beg of you." Jasper pleads and I nod my head, placing a kiss on Jasper's neck.

"I promise." I say, wrapping my arms around Jasper, tighter. He lifts me up and I wrap my legs around his waist as he walks over to the small couch in his study, sitting down with me in his lap.

"I got to admit, I'm also so proud of you." he says, surprising me. I pull back, frown on my face as he brings a cold hand to my cheek. "That was brave, darlin. Not many people would be able to do that, even for family."

I groan, shaking my head. "Why is everyone acting like I took on a whole army by myself or something? All I did was drag back an elk for Carlisle. He needed to hunt, so I got him food. Honestly, I'm tired of the brave stuff."

"As much as I hate to admit it, you ran into a forest full of wolves. It was incredibly brave of you, angel."

"Whatever." I mumble shrugging. I feel a stab of pain in my head and close my eyes at the familar feeling.

Bella drops a cup of blood on the floor, it splashes everywhere. She sighs and bends down to pick it up, a sick snapping sound fills the air and Bella cries out in pain, collapsing.

I gasp, coming out of the vision and Jasper cups my face. "What did you see?" he asks and I get up, running down the stairs, seeing the cup splash on the ground. Bella leans down to get it.

"Bella, no!" I yell out and she looks up, the snapping sound happening while I sprint over to her as does everyone else, Edward grabbing her head before she smacks it on the ground.

"Carlisle!" I scream for him and seconds later, he appears in the room.

"Follow me!" he says, Edward scooping up Bella as Jake, Rose, and I follow him. Edward sets her down on the bed as she screams out in pain. I walk over to her side and she squeezes my hand in pain. "The placenta detached from the uterine wall."

"Get him out, please!" Bella begs and I watch her in pain, not being able to take it from her.

"Edward, give me the morphine." Carlisle orders and suddenly a syringe is in his hand and he injects it into Bella. Bella continues to thrash around the pain becoming unbearable.

"You have to get him out, now! He's dying!" Bella screams, before howling in pain. I brush some hair off her forehead. No, please let her and the baby love. Please let her and the baby live. Carlisle grabs a scalpel and brings it to her stomach.

"Bella..." Carlisle says but she shakes her head.

"Just do it!" she says and Carlisle slices into her stomach, my sister crying out as it happens. I automatically hold my breath, just in case. Rosalie is standing on the other side of Bella. I'm keeping my eyes off the blood and focusing on my sister's face.

"Rosalie, don't!" Edward yells, pushing Rosalie away. I was getting ready to kick Edward's ass for hurting my sister, when I saw her eyes filled with blood lust, locked on Bella. "Get Rosalie out of here!" Edward yells and Emmett storms in the room, grabbing Rose and dragging her out.

"Save her! You gotta change her!" Jake begs Edward and Carlisle.

"Not whilst he's still in there. I gotta get him out first." Carlisle says.

"Stay focused. Keep your heart beating." Jake says to Bella.

"Bella, hang on. He's almost out." I tell her and she looks over to me before closing her eyes and crying out.

"He's suffocating!" Bella screams and I hold her hand.

"Just hang on. Just hang on, Bells." I tell her.

"It's Renesmee." Edward breathes out as Carlisle hands him his daughter. I swear, I fall in love at first sight with her. There she is. The little one. I smile as Edward brings her over to her mom, Bella cradling the girl to her.

"Renesmee, so beautiful." she breathes out.

"Hello, little one." I say, looking at the beautiful little girl in her arms. Bella brings her down to breastfeed Renesmee, but the little one bites her causing Bella to wince. I flinch and look down at the beautiful little girl, Edward taking the baby from her. Bella watches her daughter, before letting out a deep breath, and then not inhaling. I turn my gaze to Bella, seeing the light leave her brown eyes.

"Oh, no." I whimper "Bella?"

"Jacob, take the baby." Edward says as Carlisle

"Keep that away from me!" he snarls, looking desperately at my sister.

"Lily..." he says, but I keep my eyes on an unresponsive Bella.

"Bella, wake up!" I plead.

Rosalie walks back in the room "Edward, I'll take her. I promise I'm okay, let me."

Carlisle opens Bella's shirt a little, exposing her chest. He takes a syringe and injects it into her body, directly to her heart.

"What is that?" Jake asks.

"It's my venom." Edward says, watching Carlisle inject it.

"It supposed to be working. Come on. Come on." Edward says, looking at Bella's unresponsive body.

"I won't kill you. That would be too easy. You deserve to live with this." Jake snarls, walking out of the room with tears in his eyes. Edward then bites Bella at different parts of her body, trying to get as much venom in her as possible.

"Son, start CPR." Carlsile tells him who complies while another pain shoots through my head.

The wolves are snarling, sprinting through the woods on a war path. They see their destination - our house. They're coming for us.

"Lily!" I hear Carlisle yell as he continues to help Edward with CPR. I'm clutching my head, breathing heavily. "What did you see?" he asks.

"The wolves. They're coming for us. They're coming to kill us and the baby."

Hey guys!

So, I had Carlisle present for the delivery? Did you like the change? I'm sorry if you didn't. So, I'm not splitting Breaking Dawn into two parts. I hope that's okay.

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-Jalen-