Sollux nodded slowly. "You hate me..." he whispered. "I'm thorry... I'm... I'm tho thorry..."

"I don't hate you... I just... Why would you?..." He started to panic. "Do I not make you happy?"

Sollux let the tears run. "I... I... I don't know!" he said, his voice getting a little louder. "I jutht don't."

Karkat didn't know what to say or do. "I don't make you happy..." He whimpered. "But I... I try so hard..."

"No... You do KK you do." he looked up at him, his eyes begging, pleading. "Pleathe... Lithen to me... I... I don't know whath wrong with me." he sniffed, reaching out for Karkat's hand.

"But you keep doing this! First James and now this... There has to be something that I'm not doing..." He pulled his knees to his chest.

Sollux felt a pain go through him. "KK... Pleathe... No, no lithen to me." he felt desperate.

"Then why? Why can't you just be mine?" He looked at Sollux, purple tears gathering at the corners of his eyes. "Why am I not good enough?"

Sollux had made him cry. His eyes went wide. "KK no... Don't cry... Plethe don't cry." he moved trying to reach out for him.

Karkat pulled away. "I love you... Why can't that be good enough? Why Sollux?"

Sollux stared at him. "KK... I... I don't know." he said, his voice getting a little louder than usual. "I don't know... I don't know, I don't know I don't know." he held the sides of his head. "I don't know whath wrong with me, KK... Pleathe... Pleathe I'm tho thorry..."

Karkat tucked himself into a ball. 'What can I do to make you only want me?' He thought.

Sollux didn't know what to do. Every fiber of his being was shaking. Karkat wouldn't look at him. He wouldn't touch him. He wouldn't even speak to him. "KK... I..." He stood up. "I'm thorry..." He walked upstairs, grabbing a change of clothing, his cell phone and charger, and shoving them both into a bag.

"Sollux... Where are you going? Please don't leave me!" Karkat cried. "Please! I'll do better! I promise just don't leave me!"

Sollux felt his heart break. "KK... I'm a horrible perthon." he said as he walked back down the stairs, bag and keys in hand. He had thrown on one of Karkat's shirts and some shoes. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. "I'm going… Thomewhere." he said, his voice quiet. "I'll be back tomorrow." he walked towards the door.

"Baby... Don't... Please..." Karkat whimpered, trying to wrap his arms around Sollux. "I'm sorry..." He followed him out the door. "Baby... Please..."

Sollux turned to him, his eyes sad. "KK I fucked up..." he said, his voice shaky. "I'm thorry..." he sniffed and rubbed at them. "I won't go far."

Karkat could do nothing as he watched Sollux get into his car and pull out of the driveway as purple tears streamed down his cheeks. He watched the car until he couldn't see it anymore before running back into the house and into their room, changing into Sollux's clothes and wrapping himself in the bee blanket that he had gotten for Sollux. He cried and shook until his body literally couldn't do it anymore and ended up passing out.

Sollux drove to Feferi and Eridan's place. When he got there he was an emotional mess.

Eridan helped him inside, letting him cry into his shoulder, gently petting his hair and papping his back.

Sollux curled up on the couch with Karkat's plushy. He sniffled and had fallen asleep rather quickly.

Eridan sighed and rubbed his back, trying to help him sleep. Feferi had gone into work and Addison was sleeping in the little pool set up in the bedroom. It was the least he could do for his friend.

Karkat woke up a couple hours later, his head in pain as he sat up in the bed. His first thought was to call Gamzee and that's what he did. Gamzee however wasn't the one to answer, Tavros did.

Tavros spoke into the phone, his voice soft. "Hello?" he asked.

"Tavros... I think Sollux wants to leave me..." He whispered. "I'm... I don't make him happy anymore..."

"W-What?" he gasped. "How can that be? That's really not cool..." he frowned. "What happened?"

"He made out with his moirail Katie... And he... It turned him on... I don't know if they did anything but..." Karkat sobbed. "I don't why I can't make him happy... What do I do? How can I make him love me again?"

"I..." he frowned. "Wow..." he blushed. "That's really uh bad... On his part. Karkat, don't cry." he frowned. "I think you do make him happy... Maybe he's just frustrated?" he tilted his head.

"I don't think that's it... He's gotten laid the last two nights and still made out with Katie..." Karkat said. "I'm not good enough for him... I don't please him..."

"Karkat don't think that..." he frowned, sighing. "I'm sure it's probably something else... Do you want me and Gamzee to come over?" he frowned. "We can talk to Sollux if you want..."

"He's not here... He left..." He whimpered. "I... I don't know where he went..."

"Oh no... Did you text him?" he frowned. "Or call him? He might answer."

"He won't... I've tried... His phone is upstairs... I think…" Karkat said softly. "He's going to leave me..." Karkat's tears started to fall even harder. "I don't want to lose him.

"Karkat..." he frowned. He didn't know how to help his friend, let alone make him stop crying. "Do... Do you want to talk to Gamzee? I think he's in a meeting, but if his moirail is in danger I can get him for you..." he whispered, biting his lip.

"No... He would probably kill Sollux..." Karkat whimpered. "I just want him to come back..."

"Perhaps call around? I could call some people..." he frowned. "Like... Friends of ours and see if he's with them..."

"Thanks Tav..." Karkat said softly. "I just want to know if he's going to come home..."

Tavros smiled. "I know." he said. "I know he will. I have a feeling he will. Try calling Nepeta and Eridan. I'll call Aradia and Kanaya. Okay?"

"Okay..." Karkat said softly. "Let me know what you find out..."

Tavros nodded. "Alright. I'll text you." He called Aradia with no luck. He wasn't there. He called Kanaya and he wasn't there either. "nO SUCH LUCK THERE, tRY ERIDAN," he texted Karkat.

Karkat finally stopped crying long enough to call Eridan. "Eridan..."

"Yes? Kar, is that you?" he moved away from Sollux on the couch, walking into the kitchen. "Hey... Tavv texted me sayin you wwere concerned. Sol is here. He's alsleep on the couch right noww." he frowned. "He told me wwhat happened. He said he's gonna be home tomorroww."

"Okay... When he wakes up, can you tell him that I love him?" Karkat asked, sniffling.

"I wwiill. Don't wworry." He smiled weakly. "He still lovves you too." he said. "He wwouldn't stop talkin about you and howw sorry he is."

"Really? He's not going to leave me?"

"No. He just wwanted to get awway." he said, frowning. "He is really, really upset. He passed out on me. He wwas cryin so hard and coughing... I felt horrible for him. Once he calmed a little he wwas passed out completely."

"Eridan... Do you think I make him happy?" Karkat asked, pulling the blanket further around himself.

"I think you do. I can ask him more of wwhats goin on wwhen he wwakes up." he frowned. "I hope this wwhole thing doesn't mess wwith wwhat you two havve." he sighed. "I'm glad he came here and didn't go elsewwhere. I think he's just really confused."

"Thanks... I'm going to go to bed... I have class tomorrow..." He whispered. "Make sure he eats... He doesn't eat a lot when he's upset..."

"I wwill." He smiled a little, letting out a sigh. "Fef wwill be home soon. Wwe wwill make him somefin to eat wwhen he wwakes up."

"Thanks..." Karkat said a little louder. "This means a lot to me..."

"You're evver so wwelcome, Kar. Dont mention it." he smiled. "You get some good rest okay?"

"I'll try..." Karkat said. "Tell Feferi I said hi."

"Wwill do." he smiled and hung up the phone, sighing quietly. He walked back into the living room, Sollux still sleeping. "You poor thing..." he whispered, sitting down on the edge of the couch, gently rubbing his back. "Get lots of rest, Sol." he said, papping his head, letting him sleep.

Karkat tried to sleep but he just couldn't get the thought of Sollux leaving him out of his head. The thought terrified him. Without realizing it, it was time for him to wake up and get ready for school. He slowly crawled off the bed and made his way downstairs. He barely finished the toast that he had made for himself before getting dressed into a pair of his jeans and one of Sollux's shirts.

The ride to Karkat's house was quiet. Gamzee was with him, resting against him slightly as the driver took them to Karkat's house. He shivered. He didn't tell Gamzee what happened. He was afraid for Sollux. It was obvious though that Sollux wasn't there when they pulled into the drive way.

Karkat walked out to the car after he got the message. "Morning guys..."

"Hey... What happened best friend?" Gamzee asked.

"Sollux had a meeting that he had to go to for school for the fall. He'll be back later." Karkat smiled.

Tavros felt his breath hitch in his chest a little bit. He swallowed and watched them.

Gamzee knew something was up by the way that Karkat and Tavros were acting. "Oh okay..." Karkat got in the car. He was silent the entire way to school.

Tavros sighed and leaned against Gamzee. "Mmm... I'm cold." he said quivering as he pulled his jacket around him tighter.

Gamzee shifted, putting his arm around Tavros. "Better Tav?"

Tavros nodded. "Much." he smiled and leaned over to kiss his cheek.

Gamzee turned at the last second, making Tavros kiss his lips. He smiled into the kiss.

Tavros blushed dark, pulling back a moment. "Mmm~" he smiled and looked down. "Aww..."

"I love you Tav." He smiled.


Eridan had left a note for Feferi since he had to be at work early.

Sollux shifted, having slept all night on the couch. He sat up, rubbing his eyes.

Feferi nodded as she read the note. "Oh... Morning Sollux. I am to deliver a message from Karkat. He wants you to know that he loves you." She smiled. "He also really wants you to come home."

Sollux nodded. "I know..." he said, rubbing his arms gently. "Heth at thcool though." he whispered.

"I don't think he will be for long... Knowing him, he stayed up all night worrying about you." Feferi said softly. "I wouldn't be surprised if we got a call saying he passed out. It used to happen every time you went into your computer daze. He would pass out in the middle of class from lack of sleep..."

Sollux frowned and nodded. "I gueth..." he sighed softly. "I'll go home once I wake up a little more." he said, letting out a shaky sigh.

"The note says that I need to make you eat... How about some toast and orange juice?" Feferi smiled.

"Alright." He stood up from the couch, shuffling into the living room. "Thankth FF..." he said, sitting down at the table. "I didn't eat latht night. If I don't eat now KK will be really pithed..."

"Not a problem Sollux!" She smiled as she went to go make their breakfast.

Sollux sighed and watched her. "I bet Eri told you what happened." he said, looking down at his hands. "I'm tho fucking thtupid."

"Actually... I don't know what happened. He hasn't told me anything besides that you were here all night and that Karkat called crying." Feferi admitted. "I really hope you two can work things out."

Sollux nodded. "Yeah." he said, letting out a sigh. He didn't want to talk about it. "Eridan knowth it all..." he said, sighing quietly. Sollux ate, thanked Feferi and headed home. He sighed once he got home. Karkat wasn't there. He walked upstairs, getting in the shower.


Karkat got to class and he was having a hard time staying awake. Finally, his first class ended and he was off to techniques.

"Today we are doing knife techniques and practicing how to chop vegetables into different consistencies." Karkat's teacher announced to the class. Karkat stood at his counter with Michael. "Did you have a rough night with Sollux?" Michael joked.

"No... I didn't sleep... At all..." Karkat said softly. "And I'm starting to feel..." The world went black.

Michael caught him, grabbing his arm and grabbing the knife that he had been holding. He hauled Karkat out into the hall, followed by several other students and the teacher.

"Check his phone to see if there is someone we should call..." The teacher said.

"I'll call Sollux and Gamzee. Those are the two who take care of him..." Michael said softly.

Gamzee got a call on his phone in the middle of his art history class. He got up and walked out of the room before answering it. "Hello?"

"Hey, This is Michael, one of Karkat's friends. He just passed out here in the hallway. We aren't sure what to do..."

"I'll be there as soon as I can." Gamzee said, hanging up the phone. He walked back and grabbed his stuff from his desk before walking back out of the classroom. It didn't take Gamzee long to get to the cooking school. "Where is he?" He asked when he got into the building that Karkat's class was in.

"Room 13A." Michael said. "We've got him out in the hallway."

"Thanks." Gamzee said. "I'm going to try to call Sollux again." He pulled out his phone and dialed the number. "You better pick up, motherfucker."

The phone went to voicemail. Sollux dried his hair carefully, stepping out of the bathroom, hearing the last few rings of his phone. He hurried in, seeing a missed call from Gamzee. His heart nearly stopped. "F-fuck..."

Gamzee called again after he saw that Karkat wasn't injured, just passed out. "Fucking answer Sollux!"

Sollux quickly answered the phone. "Y-Yeah?" his voice quivered. "G-Gamthee? W-Whath up?"

"Karkat passed out at school." He said. "He said you were at a meeting and we both know that he sucks at lying. What. The. Fuck. Happened?"

Sollux couldn't form words. He gaped at the phone, making soft noises. "I... I..." He swallowed. "I fucked up..."

"No shit. I'm going to bring him home so you better be outside when I get there." Gamzee growled. "Since it's your fault that he passed out, you're going to be the one taking care of him." He hung up the phone and picked Karkat up, taking him to the car.

Sollux looked at his phone, his hands shaking. "G-Gam ith going to fucking kill me." he felt tears start down his cheeks as he anxiously paced around the house. "Fuck... Fuck fuck fuck fuck..."

About half an hour, Gamzee pulled his car into their drive way.

Sollux walked outside, his feet hitting the concrete steps. He whimpered, watching Gamzee get out of the car.

"Get him out of the car and take him inside." Gamzee instructed. "You really had to have fucked up for Karkat to pass out again. He hasn't done this in years."

Sollux quickly ran over to the car, opening it up. He gently picked up Karkat, hurrying back inside. He set him down on the couch, grabbing a pillow to put under his head. He silently prayed that Gamzee wasn't coming in.

Gamzee stood in the door way. "I want to make sure you can take care of him."

Sollux looked over at him. "The only thing I can do is wait until he waketh up." he felt his heart rushing. He felt panicked.

"I know but he's feverish. You need to make him an ice pack." Gamzee said. "He'll also need something with lots of sugar when he wakes up."

Sollux hurried into the kitchen, grabbing the ice pack from in the fridge. He would find something for him to eat in a moment. Gamzee was making him panic. It showed on his face. He panted quietly, gently holding his chest as he put the icepack over Karkat's forehead.

"Okay. If you need anything, call me." Gamzee said, walking back out to his car. "Don't be surprised if he starts screaming..."

Sollux cringed. "W-What?" he looked after him, his eyes wide. Before he got an answer, Gamzee had driven off. Sollux shut the door, walking back over to Karkat.

Karkat's mind was filled with images of Sollux telling him that he was leaving as he dreamed. He started to scream as he jolted upright. "NOOOOOOOOOOO!"

Sollux swore he jumped about ten feet in the air if that was possible. He turned around and gently touched Karkat's face. "KK... KK... Thhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..."

"Sollux... You're here..." Karkat looked at him, tears streaming down his cheeks. "Baby, I'm so sorry." He shifted so he could wrap his arms around Sollux. "I love you so much."

Sollux shifted, wrapping his arms tightly around Karkat. "KK..." He felt the tears start. "KK I'm tho thorry... Oh gog... I don't detherve you... You're tho forgiving."

Karkat couldn't speak. He was so happy to see that Sollux had returned. 'I love you. I love you so much Sollux.'

Sollux held him close, sobbing quietly. He shifted, moving so he could lay against Karkat. "KK..." he whispered, his voice soft and quivering. "I'm thorry..." He rested his head against Karkat's chest. "I'm tho thorry..."

Karkat ran his fingers through Sollux's hair, ecstatic that he could still do this. "I love you. I love you so much Sollux." He whispered. "I'll work even harder to make you happy... I'll do whatever it takes just please don't leave..."

"I'm not going to leave." He said, curling up with him. "I jutht... Don't know... Whath wrong with me." he said softly, gently rubbing his fingers over the creases in Karkat's shirt.

"Please stop saying that's there's something wrong with you..." Karkat whimpered. "This is all my fault..."

"No ith not." he said, gripping his shirt gently. "Trutht me for onthe..." he sighed and nuzzled him. "At leatht on thith..."

Karkat nodded but his mind still told him that the whole situation was his fault.

Sollux sighed quietly, gently holding onto him.

Karkat fell asleep, his mind a mix of complete ecstasy to have Sollux back and sheer exhaustion from having not slept. Sollux had returned and things were going to be okay.

Sollux gently carried Karkat upstairs. He stripped both of them and slid Karkat into the recuperacoon, sliding the mask over his face. He did the same, curling up around him, holding him close.

Karkat didn't sleep for long. He could feel the warm sopor around him but he could also feel what he hoped were Sollux's arms around him. Slowly, he brought his head above the sopor slime and sighed with relief when he saw Sollux's horns just barely sticking out of the green gunk. "Oh thank gog..."

Sollux muttered something quietly into the mask, moving closer to Karkat. He was so warm.

Karkat put the mask back on, sinking back into the slime. He wasn't tired but he didn't care. Sollux was home and in his arms and that was all that mattered.

Sollux sighed. He hadn't really slept well. He curled up in Karkat's arms, whimpering.

"Sollux... Are you hungry?" Karkat asked. He was worried that Sollux hadn't eaten because he was upset. "I love you."

He poked his head up, whimpering. "Huh?" He blinked. "I ate a little." he said, wiping slime out of his eyes.

Karkat nodded, leaning over and kissing Sollux's nose. "I love you."

"I love you too." he said, wrapping his arms around him. "I'm thorry KK." he said quietly.

"I'm so happy that you coming back wasn't a dream..." He whispered, wrapping his arms around Sollux. "I missed you so much..."

Sollux blushed and kissed against his neck. "I know..." he said softly. "I'm thorry... I thould have told you I went to Eridan'th."

"I called around last night and found out. Tavros helped..." Karkat said softly, leaning against Sollux. "I was so scared..."

"I know." he sniffled a little, pushing his face into his neck. "I know..."

"I love you so much." Karkat whimpered, slipping his fingers in Sollux's hair. "I love you."

"I love you." he whispered, his eyes drooping shut as he fell asleep against Karkat's chest.

Karkat smiled as Sollux slept before sinking back into the sopor slime himself. The next time he woke up, his stomach growled at him, furious for having not eaten anything more than a piece of toast. He climbed out of the recuperacoon and showered quickly before going downstairs to make something to eat.

Sollux curled up at the bottom of the recuperacoon. Before long his stomach woke him up. He crawled out of the coon, sighing as he went to shower off.

Karkat smiled when he heard the shower turn on. 'Morning love.' He giggled as he thought it. 'How did you sleep?'

Sollux walked downstairs, whimpering quietly, rubbing his arms. "Mmmm..." He had pulled on a pair of pj pants. "How long did we thleep?"

"I don't know... I don't even know what time I passed out..." Karkat said softly. "I just know it was during techniques..."

"Mmm... Leth get thome food and do thomething." he sat down at the table. "Need any help?"

"Not really but I won't stop you from giving me kisses." Karkat smiled at Sollux.

Sollux got up and walked over, gently touching his hips as he pulled him into a kiss. "Mmmmmm..." he hummed quietly.

"Hehe." Karkat giggled, wrapping his arms around Sollux.

Sollux kissed him back gently, rubbing his back. He missed this. He missed the closeness.

Karkat smiled into the kiss. 'I missed this.'

Sollux pulled back, smiling sweetly as he did so. "Feel better?" he asked,

He nodded, leaning against him. "Much better and all because I have my Honey Bee!"

Sollux knew he could be at ease around Karkat, but after what happened, his hands shook and he felt nervous around him. He didn't want to mess up again. He didn't want Karkat to leave.

"Bee... What's wrong? You're shaking. You need to eat." Karkat pulled away, grabbing the bowl of oatmeal that he had made. "It doesn't have a lot of honey in it but you need to eat..."

Sollux gently took it, "I'll be okay." he said, frowning. "Thank you.." He took it to the table.

"I just want to make sure you are okay..." Karkat whimpered. "You just came back..."

"I'm fine." he said, taking a bite of the oatmeal. "I... I don't want to fuck up again." he admitted.

"How did you fuck up?" Karkat asked. "I know you kissed her but that's my fault..."

"KK none of ith your fault." he said, frowning. "Ith mine."

"Let's not think of that." He said softly, kissing Sollux's cheek. "You're home and that's all that matters."

Sollux nodded, leaning against him. Karkat seemed... Almost too happy to have him home. He felt scared. He wanted everything to be okay.

"My Honey Bee." He smiled as he snuggled into Sollux's neck. "All mine."

Sollux felt a shiver run through him. "Mmmm..." he hummed. "I love you."

"I love you more." Karkat smiled. "I want to cuddle some more..."

Sollux nodded. He ate the rest of the oatmeal before rinsing the dish and setting it in the sink. "Then go ahead and eat and we will." he smiled a little bit.

"I'm not really hungry." He said softly, walking over to Sollux. "I did eat some of the oatmeal though."

Sollux nodded. "Let'th go back upstairth then."

Karkat nodded. "Would you carry me? I know that's weird to ask but I like it when you do..."

Sollux nodded, using his powers as much as he could to help him as he gently carried Karkat up the stairs.

"I love you." He whispered into Sollux's ear. "I love you so much Honey Bee."

Sollux carried him upstairs and gently set him down. Everything hurt. Sleeping on the couch had done some damage, he thought. "I love you too." he said, smiling as he stepped into the recuperacoon.

Karkat stripped himself of his clothes and followed Sollux into the recuperacoon. He fell asleep quickly.

Sollux curled up around him, holding him close. He wanted nothing more than to stay like this for a long, long time. He drifted off into sleep.


Tavros laid on his back on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. Gamzee was in another meeting. He sighed softly and counted the glow in the dark stars on the ceiling that the Subjugglators had helped him put up around their room. He had made some paper stars and had hung them around too.

"I fucking know that Moon Rise is coming but I'm not okay with you going around and killing people. Everyone is going to the island!" Gamzee yelled.

"Then what do you expect us to do Grand Highblood? We can't control our actions." Kairin said softly.

"I'll fucking figure something out. I'm going back to my room now and I don't want to be bothered." Gamzee glared at the Subjugglators as he stood and walked out of the room. He smiled when he saw the door to his bedroom because on the other side of that door was his miracle, his Tavros. "Tav. This sucks..." He groaned as he flopped down on the bed beside his matesprit. "What do I do?"

"About what, Gamzee?" he looked over at him, curling up into him. "Mmm... You smell good."

"I can't figure out how to keep my Subjugglators from killing anyone during Moon Rise... I don't want them to kill anyone." Gamzee said softly. "I can't think of any substitutes or anything like that..."

Tavros frowned. "Uh..." he blinked and furrowed his eyebrows. "I... I don't know." he said, looking at him. "Would dummies work?" He asked, tilting his head.

"Maybe... But there is the issue of painting..." Gamzee sighed. "They're used to painting with blood..."

"Hmmm..." he frowned. "I don't know about that then..." he said, "Different colored paint?"

"That's fucking genius Tav!" Gamzee smiled, hugging him. "I have another meeting later anyway so I'll bring it up then."

Tavros smiled. "Aww... Yay..."

"I love you so much Tav!" Gamzee pulled him close.

"Aww I love you too." He said, smiling. "Sooo much." He nuzzled his face into Gamzee's chest.

"Want to nap? I have a few hours before the next meeting."

"Sure!" He smiled, stretching his arms up over his head, curling them around Gamzee's back.

Gamzee smiled as he curled up against Tavros. "Sweet dreams Tav."

Tavros fell asleep quickly, his breathing soft against Gamzee's chest.


Days passed and Karkat could tell that Sollux was getting cabin fever, whatever the hell that was. "Baby... Why don't we do something this weekend?" Karkat asked, as he stood at the stove with Sollux's arms around his waist. "I think it would be fun."

Sollux thought about it. "Yeah." he said, smiling a little bit. "That thoundth like fun."

"Why don't you plan it?" He smiled, turning in Sollux's arms. "It could be a date!"

Sollux blushed. "I can try my betht" he said,

"I'm sure whatever you come up with will be awesome." Karkat smiled, wrapping his arms around Sollux.

Sollux blushed and nodded. He would try his best. He would try and make sure he could do whatever it was to make Karkat happy.

Karkat kissed his cheek gently and went into the kitchen to clean up. "I have to be at work in about an hour..." He sighed. "I really don't want to go in today..."

"I'll be here." he said, frowning. "I'll come up with thomething okay?" he asked, rubbing his eyes.

"Baby... Why don't you ever leave the house anymore? It worries me." Karkat asked, walking over to him. "I know you haven't been talking to Katie..."

"I'm afraid that I'll do thomething bad." he said, looking at him. "Tho I thtay inthide."

"Oh..." He whispered, looking at the ground. No matter how many times Sollux told him that it wasn't his fault, Karkat still thought it was because of his inability to please Sollux.

"Ith fine though." he said, smiling a little bit. "Ith all good. I'll be inthide playing video gameth." he smiled.

"I don't want you to be lonely..." He whimpered. "I feel like I'm hurting you..."

"You're not." He looked at him and wrapped his arms around him tightly. "KK... I'm fine."

"I love you..." Karkat said softly. "I have to go get ready for work now..."

Sollux nodded. "Alright." He said quietly, sighing. He decided he would go on a walk today. A nice walk. It was warm enough out that he didn't need a jacket, and he figured it would be nice to... At least get out of the house.

Karkat got the message from Gamzee. "I love you. I'll be back around 5." He smiled, kissing Sollux.

Sollux nodded and watched him go. He sighed quietly. He was sure Gamzee hated him. He locked the door when Karkat left, going upstairs to get ready.

Gamzee smiled when Karkat got into the bus. "Hey Karbro! How are things?"

"Fine. He won't leave the house... It worries me." Karkat confessed to his moirail. "I think you really scared him..."

Tavros frowned. "Gamzee can have that effect on people I think." he said. "But he's a really nice guy, people just have to give him a chance."

"Well, Sollux knows that but he is petrified that he's going to do something wrong when this whole thing is my fault. I feel horrible about it." He sighed softly.

"I don't see why he would want anyone else when you love him so much Karkat." Gamzee growled.

Tavros put a hand on Gamzee's shoulder. "Sollux is different than us remember?" he frowned. "He is almost like two separate people."

"He is bipolar..." Karkat said softly. "It's just part of who he is."

"It's not fucking good enough. He keeps hurting you and I'm not okay with that." Gamzee growled. "It's not right for him to just keep doing this shit to you."

Tavros frowned and looked at Gamzee. There wasn't anything he could do. He let out a soft sigh and leaned against him instead.

"I would never do anything like that to you Tav." He said softly, kissing the top of Tavros' head. "I love you so much that I don't think of others like that."

"He does love me..." Karkat said softly. "I know he does."

Tavros nodded. "I know he loves you, Karkat." he said, smiling a little bit. "He just... Has a strange way of expressing it."

"Yeah..." He sighed softly as they pulled into the restaurant parking lot. "Thanks you guys."

Karkat walked into the building, happy to feel the air conditioning. He sighed as he put his apron on and washed his hands. It was going to be a long day...


Sollux dressed and headed outside. He walked down the street towards the end of the street. A bunch of kids were out playing. He walked by them, hearing whispers.

As Sollux walked, he thought of all the things he could do. With that in mind, he headed back, getting his car, going to get what it was he needed from the store. Soon he headed back, fixing up a picnic dinner included with a few candles and a blanket. The park would be wonderful for that.

Somehow, work actually went by pretty quickly. It was soon almost 5 o'clock and Gamzee still hadn't text Karkat to tell him that he was there. "HEY FUCKASS. WHERE ARE YOU?" He sent a message to Gamzee.

At the same time Sollux sent a message asking Gamzee to not pick up Karkat from work. He settled into his car with the picnic supplies in the back seat. He drove to the restaurant to pick Karkat up.

"i CaNt PiCk YoU uP. sOrRy." Gamzee sent back, cuddling up with Tavros.

"OH... FUCK..." Karkat sent back. "Then how am I supposed to get home?"

Sollux pulled up to the place and parked. He honked the horn a little bit, seeing Karkat standing by the doors.

Karkat looked up. "Sollux? Why are you here?" He asked as he walked over to the car.

"I wanted to thurprithe you." he said, smiling. "Get in. I wanna take you thomewhere."

"Okay..." He said softly, getting into the car. "Where are we going?"

"Thomewhere... Nice." he smiled, pulling out of the parking lot, heading towards the park. He went up to the highest point he could at the top of the hill. He parked the car and got out, getting into the back for the picnic supplies.

"Is this a picnic?" Karkat asked, flabbergasted. "Sollux... This is so sweet!"

Sollux blushed a little. "Y-Yeah..." He grabbed the basket and the blankets from the trunk and walked towards the grass. He picked a good spot and laid out the blanket before setting the basket down on it, getting out the candles. The sun was getting lower in the sky, getting close to setting. He got out the wine glasses he had brought, filling them with fruit juice. "I wanted to do thomething nice for you."

Karkat tackled Sollux. "I love you so much. Thank you!" He giggled, holding Sollux close. "This is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me!"

Sollux blushed and kissed him gently. "Mmmmm." he hummed, grinning. "I love you."

"What did you make for us to eat?" Karkat asked, excited. They were on an actual date at the park at sunset. It was so romantic that he didn't know what to do with himself.

"Nothing real thpecial." he said, frowning. "I made a little... Thalad thing." he said, unwrapping the salads. "And a couple thandwicthhh..." he fumbled the last word. "Guh. Thorry. Lithp..."

"I love your lisp." He smiled. "It's adorable. So shut up and kiss me."

Sollux smiled brightly and kissed him gently, his hand slowly touching his cheek, his shoulder. It was a different kind of intimacy, and he enjoyed it. He laid back and smiled, pulling Karkat with him.

"I'm so happy." He smiled, curling up beside Sollux. "Baby... You are so sweet to me. I love you."

Sollux smiled. "I love you too. Leth eat. I'm really hungry." he smiled and sat back up, gently opening the box of food, pulling out the sandwiches. "Mmm..." He opened one up, taking a bite out of it.

Karkat took the sandwich from him. "Let me." He smiled, holding it up to Sollux.

Sollux blushed. He took a bite out of it, leaning back. "Mmm... I did good."

"You did." He smiled. "I want some."

Sollux grabbed the other sandwich, opening it up as he reached out, gently touching it against Karkat's lips.

Karkat took a bite. "Mmmmmm." He hummed as he ate the sandwich.

"Ith it good?" he asked, his smile staying stupidly plastered on his face.

He nodded fiercely. "Delicious." He giggled.

Sollux smiled. He took a cup of juice and gently sipped it. The sun was setting. He lit the candles around them and watched as it began to sink below the horizon.

Karkat was in complete awe. He had never pictured anything like this happening ever. He smiled at Sollux. "Best date ever."

"I'm glad." he said, his voice soft. He wrapped his arm around Karkat gently, kissing his cheek. "Mmmm... I love you." he whispered into his ear.

"I love you too Honey Bee." He leaned into Sollux. "This is so romantic..."

Sollux smiled, watching as the sun sank entirely behind the horizon. His eyes flickered and glowed in the moonlight.

'Your eyes are so pretty.' Karkat giggled as he watched. He didn't want to speak and ruin the moment so he let his mind convey what he was feeling.

Sollux leaned forward, kissing him gently, his eyes closing as he let his tongue brush against his lips.

Karkat parted his lips slightly. 'You taste good too.'

Sollux smiled, his eye lids fluttering. He kissed him gently, deepening the kiss.

Karkat slipped his hands into Sollux's hair. He moaned into the kiss as he pulled Sollux on top of him.

Sollux laid over him, his fingers entwining in the fabric of Karkat's shirt, his mind racing as he kissed him gently. This was wonderful, he thought. He felt so alive.

Karkat pulled away slightly. "Can we go home?" He asked breathlessly. "Please..."

Sollux nodded. They had finished their food and Sollux gently started packing up the rest of what was there.

Karkat helped with folding the blanket and carrying it to the car. "This was an amazing dinner." He smiled, wrapping his arms around Sollux. "I'm so luck. I have the most amazing matesprit in the world."

Sollux blushed. "Yeah." he said, gently kissing him. He piled everything into the car, getting in with Karkat and driving home.

Karkat helped to bring everything inside. "I believe that I need Honey Bee cuddles."

Carmine climbed out of her cocoon. "Mommy! Daddy!" She yelled.

"Carmine..." Karkat pulled away and ran up the stairs seeing a little girl with a blue eye and a red eye.

"Mommy!" She smiled.

Sollux gasped and hurried up the stairs. "You okay?" he looked up from where the cocoon had been. It was mostly gone.

"Carmine... She's…" Karkat smiled up at him. "Carmine, say hi to Daddy."

She looked up from Karkat's arms. "Hi Daddy!"

Sollux smiled. "Hello." he said, reaching out for her. "Hey..."

She walked over to Sollux. "I love you Daddy!" Carmine giggled as she hugged him. "You and mommy need to thtop fighting! It made me thad..."

"We're sorry Bumblebee." Karkat said softly, playing with her hair.

Sollux frowned. "You could hear uth?" he asked, frowning. "I'm thorry honey..." he got down on his knees, looking at her. She was wrapped up in some of the cocoon. "We need to get

you thome clothing..."

"We were actually just discussing what she was going to wear to come downstairs..." Karkat smiled.

"Yellow dreth!" Carmine smiled. "Thow Daddy the yellow dreth!"

He laughed and pulled the yellow dress from the bag of clothes that Eridan had brought a while ago. "She wants to wear this..."

Sollux took it and pulled it on over her head. "Ith cute." he smiled. "I... I can't believe that the day hath finally come."

"I need to go call Feferi. I'll be back." Karkat kissed the top of Carmine's head. He went downstairs, grabbing his phone and calling Feferi.

Sollux smiled, using his powers to pick her up.

Eridan answered the phone. "Hello?"

"Carmine just finished pupating." Karkat smiled. "Feferi wanted me to call and tell her when she did. By the way, she has that adorable little yellow dress on. It's so cute!"

"Aww!" he smiled. "Thats awwesome. I wwill let her knoww as soon as she gets home." he grinned. "Alright? Addy is pupatin right now too."

"That's awesome!" He grinned. "I bet he'll be even cuter when he's done! I know Carmine is!"

Eridan smiled. "Oh I knoww he wwill be. Anyway, I'll talk to you later, okay?"

"Bye Eridan!" Karkat sighed as he hung up the phone.


Sollux smiled up at her. "I'm tho proud of you."

"Daddy doethn't have to help me. I can fly!" She giggled using her own psionics. "Thee?"

"Good!" he smiled and gently levitated himself. "I'm proud of you. I can't wait to thee what elthe you can do."

Carmine grinned, using her powers to pick Sollux off the ground. "Daddy fly too!"

He went back up stairs. "Would you look at that... Both of my psionics are levitating." He smiled as he walked into the room.

Sollux had never been picked up by another psionic before. He let out a shriek of surprise, freaking out as he stabilized himself with his own powers, nearly falling.

Carmine pouted. "Daddy no trutht Carmine... Mommy!" She cried out looking at Karkat.

"He's just not used to being the one picked up baby girl. He does trust you."

Sollux let out a sigh. "I do trutht you." he said, rubbing his eyes. "Not uthed to that... I'm thorry." he said, frowning as he looked at her with sad eyes. He gently lowered himself.

She moved herself over to Sollux. "I love you Daddy!"

Sollux reached up and wrapped his arms around her. "I love you too." he said. "Leth get her thomething to eat and then head to bed. You've gotta work tomorrow." he said, frowning.

"I know... I don't want to go since she's out... I want to stay with her!" Karkat pouted. "I haven't gotten to hug my little girl in two weeks!"

"Mommy!" Carmine smiled, reaching toward Karkat. "I want to hug mommy!"