Delicious smells woke me up as he ran his hands through my hair to wake me.

" ja?" I replied groggily.

" food and coffee, I'll see you in a few hours" he whispered to me as he kissed my cheek. I twisted around stretching before leaning up to kiss him.

I wanted to lay in bed longer but John bolted out of bed and began clambering for food.

" coffee?" He asked looking at me.

" no john, no coffee for you mein love" I said as I sat up and pulled my hair up. I walked over to him as he shoved bacon into his mouth. I frowned slightly, his choice not mine.

The coffee was incredible and pulled me from my drained fog.

" slow down and chew" I instructed. John coughed for a moment and jumped up panicking, but he smiled and continued chewing, I sunk back into my chair with a sigh of relief.

Once we finished eating, we gathered our dishes and took them to the kitchen. Hanzo was sitting there and he nodded at us, but John raced up to him and reached up for him. I smirked while turning to wash the plates.

I could hear snippets of their conversation, Hanzo explaining spirit dragons.

" but can I get one?"

" they are a shimada family symbol" said Hanzo.

" but you are family" said John.

Hanzo grunted for half a moment and I turned to look at him to motion that it's completely okay to say exactly what he means by it.

" you are family, but Shimada is a birthright " said Hanzo

" birthright ?" Asked John.

" Genji and I have the same parents, and their parents and so on, birthright through blood"

" huh ?"

I scrubbed the dishes harder and dried them off, fiddling with the coffee maker for a moment.

" your mother had you, so she is your birth mother by blood"

" mommy you gave me your blood?" Asked John

" in a way..., I mean yes " I said not wanting to explain anything to my son.

" does dad have a birthright? " asked John.

" I don't think so darling " I said while stirring in sugar.

Hanzo shifted uncomfortably for a moment before stating "

Sometimes it's land or a vase... for whatever reason a vase" he sounded disappointed.

" well daddy has you and the farm " insisted John.

"John" I said sternly.

" what ?" Asked John peering over at me his eyes wide with confusion. I knew this day would come when he would start talking about what Jack talks to him about to the others.

Hanzo shot a glance of curiosity at me and I shook my head for a moment.

" how about you tell Hanzo about the movie you watched with Ana " I said trying to change the conversation.

" OH! We watched a movie about a dog and I really want a dog" said John.

" dogs are... nice " said Hanzo.

" dogs are more than nice!" Said John his small voice raising with emotion.

" you are right " Hanzo stated. I sat down with them, Hanzo shot me another suspicious look while I shoved my mug into my face trying to disguise the slight twitch of my lips.

" did you hear if they landed yet?" I asked switching the subjects again.

" I believe they have, I think Genji knows more, but he's meditating and Winston is working on some more communicator backup devices" Hanzo spoke with an even tone, now show of alarm in his remarks.

" do you want to play with us ?" Asked John.

Oh good, the two most un-imaginative people playing pretend with a four year old.

" uh-" stammered Hanzo.

" he probably has work to do" I comforted John.

" I... uh. I will make time, what are we... playing? " Asked Hanzo, the word 'playing' came out so unnatural.

" we could play with swords again"

Exclaimed John.

" I don't think your mother would enjoy that " Hanzo replied.

" mommy fights, she has a gun. Daddy told me, so she can play " said John.

I sighed heavily, I'm going to have to talk to Jack later, oh well, on one hand it's the truth, I do fight. I fight more than I feel like admitting.

" why don't you think of something else?" I softly asked.

John wiggled around and scrunched his face at me. I just raised an eyebrow and drank coffee, trying to decide if he was going to throw a tantrum or was just thinking really hard about it.

" do you like the avengers?" He asked Hanzo.

" I do not believe I have heard of them" Hanzo replied. John's face turned to shock.

" but. But..." he sputtered out.

" I haven't watched many films" said Hanzo in an attempt to stop further questioning.

John sighed and looked at me with huge eyes.

" Star Wars?!" Squeaked John.

" I may have seen that one"

John smacked his hand to his head and grunted with frustration.

" there were so many! More than one" He whined.

" here mommy you can be vader And Hanzo can be Han Solo and I'll be luke"

I arched a brow " why am I Vader?" I asked

" you can't be Leia because if he's Han you kiss" argued John.

" but this has fighting as well"

" you don't mind lightsabers " said John.

" true" I remarked, and finished my coffee.

" and you and I get to fight! And I want to fight you" said John with glee, I could feel my mouth twitch into a sign of confusion.

Winston shuffling around could be heard in the distance, and John took off without warning.

" hi there! " said Winston enthusiastically as he approached with John clinging to him.

" I found chewbacca" squeaked John. Winston frowned for a moment then shrugged and said " what can I do?".

John smiled and looked at all of us waiting for his cue.

" first we need to fly, mommy you can stand over there! Oh Winston! Mommy is Vader! And Hanzo is Han Solo " said John. I still want to be annoyed at the pun, but he's his fathers son...

I stood in the corner while Hanzo and Winston rearranged chairs to be the cockpit.

I refilled my coffee mug and stood around while John instructed them on their roles, sure it wasn't exactly the same as the movies, but it was still adorable. Hanzo was doing his best which is a reason to smile, the image of him playing like this with Genji is also a sweet thought.

As if on cue Genji entered and was immediately assigned to be c3po. Which John has a hell of a time trying to pronounce. It sounds more like " tree-pee-ohh".

I glanced at the clock hoping beyond all hope that Jack wouldn't miss this. It's absolutely a riot, I really wish I could photograph this, an old Polaroid or something. Photos are just memories, you don't need a photo to remember...

I sipped my coffee and listened in, Genji trying his best to pull off the British accent. A small giggle escaped my lips and Winston turned and smiled at me.

" oh no! It's darth Vader! " shrieked John pointing at me. I almost dropped my cup and had to try so hard not to burst into laughter. Winston was biting his lip as well to hold back his own roaring laughter.

" uh! It is I... lord Vader " I replied trying to deepen my voice. Even Hanzo's mouth twitched briefly into a smirk.

" get him chewie!" Squeaked John. Winston attempted a Wookiee sound and pounced over to me. I carefully avoided eye contact, but I could feel my stomach muscles shaking from laughter.

" what is going on in here?" Chuckled Ana.

" stormy-trooper! Get her!" Yelled John as he jumped up making whooshing sounds with an imaginary light saber.

Ana jumped back and made finger guns.

" I'm Luke!" Said John excitedly.

" well Luke, unfortunately I have to go and relieve your father from his watch, but I'll play later" said Ana with a chuckle.

I turned back to John as he lunged at me, I reached for him, pulling him into my arms tightly as he wriggled around.

" help me!" He cried out to Winston, who pulled John from my arms giving out a roar.

I jumped back and threw up my hands in mock surrender, not a Vader thing to do... so I shifted to a defensive stance. Genji was doing a weird impersonation of a robot while Hanzo just shook his head.

" Vader!" Shrieked John again as he lunged forward again and called out to Hanzo-Solo who attempted to pretend.

" come over to the dark side!" I attempted.

" never!" Shouted John jumping around and swishing his invisible light saber. " tree-pee-oh! Get him!"

Genji walked over to me

" oh dear" he said as he approached and tried restraining my arms as I wiggled away. Hanzo joined in with Winston and John as I stood on a chair trying to 'escape'.

" hey" came Jack's masked voice, causing them to turn to face him while I nodded to Jack and jumped for him. He expertly caught me, years upon years of doing this whenever we would do new suit adjustments, or just... because.

" oh no! It's boba fett!" Yelled John as he jumped up and down.

" should we make a run for it?" Asked Jack.

" that's the best course of action" I whispered back. Instead of setting me down he gripped me and ran.

" keep me updated on their location" said Jack as he darted around a corner and quickly opened the storage closet and ran in locking it behind us.

Footsteps could be heard scrambling down the halls as John barked out orders.

" Star Wars?" Asked Jack.

" yes"

" who are you?"

" Vader" I said softly.

" why not Leia?"

" because Hanzo is... Han Solo" I said with a giggle.

" goddamnit" uttered Jack with a chuckle. " he IS my kid"

I started giggling.

" shhh shh don't give away our location " said Jack barely above a whisper.

" I'm sorry I can't stop" I said as I shook with suppressing the laughter. Suddenly I felt his lips crash into mine as he pressed me against the wall. My lips parted to allow him inside, as he greedily entered, his hands trailing up my sides before caressing the small of my back. I snaked my arms around his shoulders and pulled myself up onto his hips as we kissed. The rush of adrenaline was intoxicating, overpowering me, as he moved to kissing my neck. A soft startled moan exited my lips as he softly shhh-ed.

" Jack... we can't" I whispered. His lips met mine again before he pulled them away for a moment.

" oh I know, but we always lived for the tension" he growled softly, then kissed again, tenderly nipping my lower lip.

" I think we found their location! Han! The door!" Shouted John.

We held our breath for a moment and I heard Jack's faceplate click back on.

The door next to ours rattled.I sighed resting my forehead against Jack's chest. Then a loud knocking on the door.

" let us in! You are... you are uh..." Shouted John.

" I believe the word you are looking for, is under arrest" said Genji using a stalling mock accent.

" this is gold" whispered Jack.

" let us in!" Whined John.

" what do you want with us?" I asked deepening my voice, Jack tried hiding his laughter and I shot him the angriest look I could manage, the glow of his visor and the continued cackling was proof he say it.

"We want cookies! Wait no! We want Vader! To pay for his crimes!" Said John.

" cookies wouldn't be bad" said Winston out loud. Then he shuffled and made another attempt at speaking in Wookiee.

" what do you think they are going to do to me?" I whispered.

" you heard them. Make you make cookies, shame too... that sounds more like a punishment to them" he chuckled, and I threw my hands on my hips and stared him down.

" I know my cooking is terrible"

" no your cooking is awful, your baking is... probably deadly" he teased.

I snorted angrily and huffed.

" oh darling, you have so many many talents. It's fine that you burn everything in the kitchen. I never needed a cook... I just need a -"

" OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOWWWWW" shouted John as his voice shook.

Jack sighed and reached for the doorknob with one hand and held my hands behind my back with the other.I blinked at the group assembled.

" I have the captive" said Jack

" good work, you will be rewarded for your... " started John

" noble efforts and success" offered Genji.

John nodded " for your noble efforts and success, now bring the prisoner to the ship" Jack nodded and nudged me forward, I complied.

" that was too easy" said John with a giggle after we walked by.

" too easy? Should we turn and fight?" Whispered Jack.

"Oh wait. I know your answer will be no, but in character it should be yes" he whispered.

I sighed and nodded.

" alright, on my signal, prepare your lightsaber"

We walked forward a little bit when he spun me around and released my hands, drawing his own into finger pistols, while I mimicked holding a light saber.

" oh no!" Said John.

Winston let out a shaking roar. While Hanzo stood his ground with Genji.

" you take out Luke, I'll shoot down the rest" said Jack.

I get to fight my own son, as Vader... teenage me would be appalled and amused.

Winston charged for me and I fake sliced his arms while Jack made firing noises at him. Winston began to do the most dramatic death scene.

" chewwwiiie nooooo" cried out John as he raced forward with Hanzo. Hanzo fought with Jack while I fought John.

His little clumsy moves were hard to match up with. Genji had taught me how to use a sword, and some self defense that I needed brushing up on. So my moves were precise, while his chaos swarmed around me. I glanced Hanzo 'dying' out of the corner of my eye.

" surrender!" I called out " do it now".

" never!" Yelped John as he barreled towards me.

I should probably let my son win this one? I think that's how it works, if I don't then he will fear he won't be strong enough.

He slices at my legs and I fall to the ground, I noticed Jack couldn't bring himself to shoot our kid either, I smirked for a moment and that's when my son fake- beheaded me. I rolled around on the ground and mock searched for it while he burst into giggles. Then he ran for Jack and sliced him apart as well, rolling right next to me, a sand cloud formed and all of us " dead" characters began openly laughing, until John shot us a look " come on c3po, we have a lot of work to do" he said, while

Gripping Genji's hand and skipping off, leaving us all to slowly sit up and brush ourselves off.

" he's hanging out with Genji now?" I stated feeling slightly hurt.

" aw don't worry about it, he just looks up to him" said Winston. My body recoiled for a moment, ugh, not around Jack, who has this weird Genji hang up.

" I wouldn't let it concern you, we have our watch in fifteen minutes..." said Hanzo.

I wanted to respond that he's my son, so I can let it bother me if I want too, and how I process comments and situations is how I process things and it's no ones place to say anything... but I'm also on edge in general.

" just drop him by our room before" said Jack, as he offered a hand to help me up.

" of course" replied Hanzo.

" thank you for being... well for playing along with everything" I said to Winston and Hanzo.

" my pleasure" said Winston " besides I needed the break".

Hanzo just bowed his head to the side slightly and walked to his room.

Jack's arm linked into mine while we entered our room, he slid off his mask and gave me a quick kiss. But I could feel his tension.

" what's wrong?, if it's what Winston said then I'm sure he didn't mean anything by it, you know John looks up to you" I said as I began twisting a strand of my hair anxiously.

" nothing's wrong " he said as he let out a long breath.

My brows knitted together , is it possible for me to read him wrong.

" the only thing wrong is that we only have fifteen minutes" he said as his thumb popped my chin up towards him as he pulled me into a long and passionate kiss.

" you did great babe" he said when he broke free.

" uh? What?"

" pretending, I knew you had it in you, you made John happy " said Jack.

I smiled " how ridiculous did it look to walk into it all?"

" amazingly ridiculous" he said with a laugh, his mouth was in a permanent smile now. His expression peacefully carefree, as he gave me a tight squeeze.

Then came the knock of Genji and John, jack turned and put on his mask while I opened the door.

" thank you Genji!" I said.

" it was my pleasure" he responded as he walked off to do his watch.

John leapt at me and I snuggled him tightly to my chest.

" did you have fun today?" I asked.

" I did! You should be more fun all the time" said John as he dropped down and ran to Jack. I chewed on my lip, I tried I truly tried...

" John, that wasn't a very nice thing to say " said Jack.

" but it was the truth" said John.

" it's fine, I could try being more fun" I replied as I flopped onto the bed, John jumped after me and began playing with my hair as he sat next to me. I rolled onto my side to scoop him into a snuggle, but he was so wiggly.

" mooooommy I want to play more!" He said as he wriggled out of my grip.

" okay sweet boy" I replied as I rolled onto my back and then slowly sat up. Jack was peering at his phone for awhile while John and I colored.

" ah! They have arrived safe" said Jack as he looked at a piece of old tech that was buzzing in his hand.

" it's about time" I mumbled.

" who arrived safe ?" Asked John.

" Lena, Jesse... lucio and Hana" I said.

" they are back?" He said sitting upright.

" no no! They arrived somewhere else" I said.

John frowned and threw down a crayon.

" hey.." I softly said " what's wrong?"

" I miss my friends" whined John.

I rubbed his shoulders gently and kissed his head while he whined into me for a few minutes. I glanced over at Jack who seemed at a loss for words and just arched a brow and returned to his phone.

" you'll see them again"

" but what if something happens to them? " he whined.

" we have plans in place darling" I said calmly.

" but you had them for me!" He howled and began shaking.

I placed my hands on his cheeks and looked him in the eyes " we did all we could for her, but Hana and Lucio they know how to fight, and Lena and Jesse have been with us for a very very long time, the chances of anything happening to them is small, okay my darling?" I said carefully, as I searched his face for a response. He just buried his face into my chest and sobbed some more while I rubbed his back. Jack walked over and held us both, you could feel his heart pound. This is definitely one of the harder parts, I need to remain strong for both of them right now.

Jack's forehead bumped mine and he let out a sigh, our eyes locked for a moment when he mouthed ' thanks ' and I just nodded. I can only handle so much at once and this is about all I can handle.

Ana's quick knock broke the moment, and Jack stood up quickly to open it as she rushed inside.

" dinner?" She asked.

" oh uh..." I started.

" you don't have to do anything, I can bring it in here and we can eat together, Winston already ate so he won't feel left out if he noticed... " said Ana quickly, her hands planted on her hips as she looked at all of us.

I just shrugged when Jack looked at me.

" it's settled then, make room for us and I'll be right back with it" said Ana. Jack rearranged the small table and Fareeha knocked with two extra chairs dragging behind her that she placed next to the table, behind her was Ana with a delicious smelling curry.

John was excitedly running around Fareeha's knees as we moved to sit down.

I pulled my hair back and out of my face, Ana pulled a large bottle of wine out of her jacket and popped it open.

" I know I know your watch is next, but one couldn't hurt" said Ana, but Jack just shook his head, Ana frowned for a moment then relented and poured some for me.

I'm probably going to need the whole damn bottle to feel slightly tipsy, but the taste alone should mellow my nerves. I felt Jack's hand reach for mine under the table and I held it happily. John was telling Fareeha and Ana about our day in great detail. I'm just happy to have a dinner like we used to back when... ugh this is just so wonderful and such a perfect end to an emotional day.

Ana kept refilling my glass as she recalled war stories with Jack, it felt like no time had passed since we last did this, but also like an eternity had passed.

The warm yet bitter beverage began to make my eyelids feel heavier, I leaned closer to Jack, his voice echoed through his body as my ear rested on his shoulder. Comfortable, warm and happy.

He turned his head slightly to kiss my forehead while he continued his conversation.

" you know what is really nice?" Said Fareeha out of the blue.

" what darling?" Asked Ana. Fareeha gestured at us, " them, seeing them like this... it's sweet and I cannot believe I'm saying that. Even as a little girl I knew that there was something between you two..."

I felt a blush creep onto my face and I hid my face for a moment in Jack's shoulder.

" they were good at just barely sliding under the rules, believe me... it was like they were married to their work which is why no one could deny their ability to do their jobs. It was complicated, more so for them. But it is sweet" said Ana with a large mischievous smile.

" what are you talking about?" Said John.

Ana glanced at us and Fareeha made an oh fuck face.

" they are just talking about how much I love your mother" said Jack.

" gross" mumbled John.

Jack smiled and shook his head with a laugh.

" one day you won't think it's so gross, you may find your someone " said Ana.

John scrunched up his face and frowned while making an enthusiastic 'no' reaction.

" oh well, he is at that age!" Said Ana with a hint of sentimentality.

Fareeha rolled her eyes and shoved some food into her mouth to avoid saying something she might regret.

" I'm almost five" said John as if to prove a point.

" and what did you want to do this year?" Asked Fareeha.

" uhmmmmm" started John.

Thank goodness that she is bringing it up, since she's been the one around for all of them, and for once I won't let the guilt get to me... or that's the wine talking.

" movies and cake? Oh! Or now that we have a group we can do laser tag!" Exclaimed Fareeha.

" laser tag?" Asked John.

" yeah, you've seen it! The fake guns with sensors that go off and beep when you get shot"

" you shoot people?!" Asked John

" no no, it's like shooting them with light, nobody gets hurt" said Fareeha.

Oh I am not getting into this tonight, I just sigh into Jack's ear and he stifled a laugh. It's not that I hate fun, I just... fuck it's whatever my kid wants to do. Goodness knows my parents did a lot they didn't want to do for me. Or just, didn't show up at all, I felt my hand grip Jack's harder.

" maybe we can discuss that at a later time" suggested Jack.

" oh no, it's fine, I was just in my head" I said softly.

" okay, well I need to leave soon, sooo I'm going to take a moment with ange then leave, if that's okay?" Said Jack.

Fareeha and Ana nodded, while Jack said goodbye to John for the evening. He was upset but it's something that has to be done.

Jack helped me up from my chair and he secured his mask with the other hand as we left the room, we went to the storage closet again and he looked into my eyes.

" you won't figure out what I'm thinking" I said with a smile.

" well I can guess one thing you are thinking, but the rest is a mystery" he said as I blushed.

" I was just thinking about how my parents supported whatever I wanted, even if they weren't there for most of it" I said

He nodded and hugged me tightly.

" I just want to be there, and be supportive and not be so anti- play war games and stuff, it's just that's been my life, well our life. Being surrounded by it inside and outside is hard, but i also understand that is the world we live in... " I sighed.

His hand cupped my chin as he tilted my head up to face him.

" Angela, you are an amazing mother, and every parent has something they want to keep their kids away from. Considering our circumstances I don't blame you for how you feel, try to feel less guilty my love" he said.

I circled my arms around his neck and pulled myself up with a little jump as I wrapped my legs around him. He let out a startled laugh as his eyes squinted in joy, I nudged my nose against his before kissing him. His hands gripped my ass as he returned the passion into his kiss.

" maybe we should get someone to watch John later" he sighed between kisses.

" I thought you enjoyed the thrill of not knowing" I teased back. He lightly growled into my ear and nibbled on the lobe, eliciting a small restrained moan.

" fine fine " I giggled and half moaned until he finally let my ear go.

" that's what I thought!" He said as he gently helped me down from his strong ankles felt weak as he rubbed the small of my back and gave me another kiss.

" I need to go now my love" he said gently. I nodded and kissed him again as he put his mask back on and gave my hand a final squeeze as we left and went our separate ways.

I reentered our room and they were all giggling about something or another, I sat down with them again and smiled.

Fareeha looked over at me and smiled back, I missed her being nice to me, so this is a gift.

" we were just talking about your game you played today, and were impressed with your channeling of the dark side" said Ana

I finished my drink before responding " ha, it was something" I said.

John giggled began to hop around.

" so much energy today!" Said Fareeha " wanna go race?" She asked.

" yessss" exclaimed John.

Ana and I began to gather the dishes as we headed outside of the room and to the kitchen.

Fareeha and John bumped into Winston who agreed to run around with them. It's good to get some form of exercise down here.

Ana and I began to do the dishes, the silence was nice for a moment.

" I think you are doing just fine" said Ana suddenly.

" what makes you say that?"

" you worry too much, you always have, sometimes you just need to let kids be kids" she said with a grin.

" excellent point, it was nice tonight, thank you so much for the delicious food, and the chance to feel normal again" I said softly as I scrubbed the dishes.

" think nothing of it, I've been wanting to do that for awhile, we just never had the chance" she replied as she leaned over to fill the kettle.

A rather large race was happening in the hallway and it was getting increasingly loud. I dried the dishes and put them away, happily accepting tea from Ana. The slight tingle of wine still pumping through me as I exhaled.

" Fareeha and I have been contemplating an outing, since I have my masks here as well... but I'm not sure how the base will do with two less... we will probably wait til the others return, you could wear a headscarf and blend in if you wanted to take John? " mused Ana.

" that would be nice" I replied, getting out would be incredible... but I wanted to go out as a family and I'm not sure we could disguise Jack well enough.

" we could have him grow out his facial hair and temporarily color it?" Said Ana as if reading my mind.

I glanced over at her and held back a laugh.

" has he done that?" I asked.

" a few times, especially when you were in busier cities during the day"

" what?!" I shouted.

" yeah, he looks totally different but he hated it" chuckled Ana.

" he never could stand stubble , it drove him crazy, long nights made him so bitter" a laugh escaped my lips.

" it didn't help that Reyes would constantly be trying to sabotage his shaving kits"

" but he couldn't because I would always carry extras" I let out a happy sigh before hearing a loud crash and John screaming in pain.

I barely felt my feet hit the ground as I raced down the halls to the sound of his yelling, it can't be intruders... if it was that would mean, no no.

Winston was frantic and Fareeha was trying to remain calm while Genji was crouched down next to my kid.

" let Angela in" barked Fareeha. Winston stepped aside, bone was poking out of John's arm.

" oh darling" I gasped out, his little face was bright red and he was screaming.

" moooooommmy" he was screaming.

"Winston get him to my room as fast as you can " I said then I turned to Genji

"In the supply room there is a blue medical bag, can you grab that for me please ?" I asked. Genji nodded and took off scarcely touching the ground. Winston scooped up John and we ran towards my room. I flung open the door and cleared off the table as Winston set him down.

Genji pounced in and dropped the bag next to me. I began digging through it until I found the pain medication and numbing agent.

" alright my darling, this will just pinch a little " I said as I injected him, his little face cried silent tears as his eyes closed. That worked almost too fast, but pain can cause this.

" can I be of any more help?" Asked Winston.

" no no, I'm fine, thank you though" I said with a sigh as I inspected his arm, a clean break... fairly normal for kids, but the bones sticking out were mildly concerning, truly I want them gone because this will heal soon. I started a timer on my phone and watched Genji and Winston leave, then I turned to set the bones into place and sterilized the wounds. The skin went grey for a minute or two, veins jutted out and his body shook. My heart began to race, this isn't how I heal... I felt a tightness in my throat. His still little body on the table in front of me as I sunk down into a chair, studying everything that was happening.

The door swung open and I glanced up.

" is he okay?" Asked Jack, the door slammed behind him and I flinched. Quickly wiping the tears I didn't notice earlier off my face.

" just a break" I said my chin quivered.

" just a break?!" Stated Jack.

" yes, kids break things all the time... just not ours" I said softly as I looked at the wound again, the skin was healed but still mottled.

" did you use something new?" Asked Jack.

" no... that's just. That's how he heals " I sighed.

Jack's eyes looked so worried and so lost, but he just patted my shoulders.

" that's some fast healing " he said.

" faster than mine in some ways, it was completely sticking out of the skin, I may have injected him with some medication "

" could that cause the discoloration?"

" no, not at all. I'm just wondering when or if it will go away" I said softly.

" well there are worse things than scars " said Jack.

I nodded.

" help me get him to bed" I asked. Jack gently lifted him up and carried him over to his bed, I fashioned a small arm brace just to make sure it healed properly, I placed it on our son and stepped back with Jack.

" do you need to leave?" I asked.

" it's fine, it was near the end of mine anyways and Winston said he didn't mind a turn"

I sat down on the bed and let the tears just fall down.

" hey, he's going to be okay" comforted Jack.

" we don't know that " I hissed softly.

" yes we do, you are the greatest doctor currently alive, you know what you are doing and this is nothing compared to other things you have done, for how smart you are you sure can be stupid " he said that last bit with some sass and I just glanced over at him frowning.

"The face of an angel" he cooed.

" Jack I swear... I'm in no mood" I grunted.

" oh wait! Save that expression, it's perfect for Vader, a little more angst ange" he teased. I want to slap him.

" you are the worst " I mumbled.

" only because you are the best " he said as he pulled me closer, I rested my head on his shoulder.

" but really, you are the smartest person I know in the medical field-"

" ah in the medical field , met a lot of doctors have you?" I teased back.

" wouldn't you like to know" he responded and I bit my tongue and frowned.

" oh hush, you know you are the only doctor for me" he said kissing my temple, his hand rubbed my shoulder with force.

My adrenaline was going every which way right now, the worry about John, the entire fucking day... how will I cure him.

" angel... angel... " said Jack, he pressed two fingers to my pulse points.

" hey darling, it's okay, I promise beautiful, we will make this okay" he said pulling me into his lap, I tucked my feet onto his thigh and squeezed him as tightly as I could. Despite the hiding and whatever is going on with my son, I have my son, and I have my Jack back in my life.

" you are shaking again" whispered Jack.

" now it's happiness" I sighed.

He squeezed me back " you are so weird sometimes, how do you think he will handle this?" He asked.

" well, he's usually eager to get hurt to show me how quickly he can heal, so I don't think he will be too alarmed. The medicine will cut down on the pain, because regrowing bones is pain... but at the accelerated rate, well you know how that feels. Uhm. So I think he will be just fine" I said with a sense of certainty. Jack nodded and gave me a kiss, which I folded into his arms for.

" thank you for being the perfect, talented, stunningly beautiful and also incredibly sexy love of my life and mother of our child" whispered Jack into my ear as he pulled me down and under the covers with him.

" I know you are still stressed but you need to rest, tomorrow is a new day to worry about things" he cooed.

" I should probably check on his wound though... see if the skin color changed for my notes"

He sighed and lifted up the sheet so I could scamper out. I crept over to John, he was completely out of it, normal pulse, the bone had completely healed but the skin still showed a slight discoloration around the wound. I frowned to myself and snuck back to my notebook, quickly jotting everything down.

Then I walked back over to Jack.

" you should probably get some rest, I just need to monitor this" I said in a hushed tone. Jack frowned but he was fairly used to this back in the day.

" do what you feel is best" said Jack.

" well don't you want the best for our son?"

" he is under the best care and from the best genes, well on your side anyways" he said with a grin.

" just give me a kiss first" he added. I smiled and leaned down to kiss him when he pulled me down and ontop of him, I stifled a gasp.

" sorry I didn't mean to scare you" said jack.

" it's fine! Just... agh watch it next time" I said as I drummed my fingers on his chest.

" now you don't get a kiss" I scolded as I lifted myself off of him and walked back to John, glancing back to see Jack frowning playfully, but his eyes had the slightest flash of worry. I pulled a chair over to John's bed and readied myself for a long night.

A/N: Uh, yeah... so there we go. If you haven't seen star wars, then i apologize (they are great movies) but also that follows zero of the story in there, so you won't be spoiled or anything. I wanted to continue with some more glimpses inside, i have a ridiculously hard time writing John, which besides my health going up and down, is why my chapters are so far apart. Writing about kids is tough, but i hope i did him justice there.

Any comments or messages are always adored and appreciated, seriously. Without LordoftheMemes, Vanderhart and Psychroxx, kittycat and my guest, i probably would be writing as a slower pace, but your encouragement and kindness are inspiring. I'm getting all kinds of emotional and rambling. Basically, if you have any ideas on where you think this is going or how you thought this chapter was, please let me know! I hope you all have a great day!