Ch. 49

So most of you guessed right. It wasn't that big of cliffhanger. I tried to make this one hit one thousand words and it did :D. So I'm slowly working to getting my chapters longer. Thank you again for all the support. And this is a chapter for which none of you saw coming.

Don't cry boos.

mandy

"Mom?" I choke. I start to swing the door to shut it in her face but she manages to wedge her foot into the frame right before I shut it.

"Katniss. Please. Hear me out."

Cato walks up behind me. "Who's-" he stops when he sees my mother. Cato goes to grab my hand but I whip it away before he can grasp it. "What are you doing here?' he asks in a cold voice.

"I need to talk to my daughter. Please." She looks at me but I close my eyes tight before another tear can escape from my eyes.

"No." I say.

"Please." She repeats. Everyone else gathers in the hall to see what the hold up is. I open my eyes and look at her. She looks like she hasnt had a shower in days, rather eaten. With her hollow cheeks and wrinkles that start to drag her face down and make her look more aged then she is. I open the door wider and motion for her to come inside.

Cato gives me wide eyes when we make eye contact, but I try my best to ignore him. I motion for her to sit on the chair across from the couch so I can listen to her talk.

"Can I just talk to you?' she asks me.

"Your lucky I'm letting you talk period." I say is a cold, shaky voice.

"Fine." She says. "Well let me tell you why I'm here. I've been in jail these past couple of years for abandoning you and your sister when yolu two needed me the most. And for that I apologize. Now I know you have no absolute e reason not to forgive me, and I don't expect you too, but It needed to be said.

"I got released last week and have been trying to find a place to stay, where as I have no money. Ehich is my own fault I know. I came here, because I needed to see you. I needed to apologize for everything. And I know that you wont ever forgive me. But it needed to be said." She looks down at her feet and begins to sob. No sympathy came from me. Why should it?

"Why?' I ask. My voice cracking. "Why did you do it? Why did you leave?"

"Because I couldn't handle myself after Prim died. I knew I would shut down. That's why I left you."

"I don't forgive you." I whisper.

"I know. But you needed an explanation. Maybe one day if you find it in your heart to forgive me, you can call me." She slips me a piece of paper. "I want to be there for you. I want to be in your life again." I nod my head and she stands up.

"I'm pregnant" I tell her. She looks at me with wide eyes, then my stomach, then back at me.

"I hope one day I will be allowed to be in your child's life. I'm sorry for everything Katniss. I really am." And with that she walks out.

Once the door shuts, Cato tries to say something to me.

"Nothing you are about to say to me will make me feel better." I tell him. I see pain flash throughout his eyes. He stands up and stares at me. I push myself from the couch and make my way to the bedroom. I turn to everyone. "I'm sorry. Thank you for coming guys." Most of them nod and turn my back and make my way to the bedroom. I start crying silently. Instead of ripping up the paper my mother gave me, I slip behind a picture frame with me and Prim. Maybe one day, I will need it. But who knows when that will be.

"Cato wake up." I shake him and he jumps straight up.

"What's wrong?" he asks, half asleep.

"Something's wrong. I have to go to the hospital now." I tell him. He gives me a frightened look and I can see a piece of his heart break through his eyes. Him and I both know something bad Is going to happen.

He goes to pick me up but stops when a flash of pain goes through me. I slowly stand up and make my way to the door. Cato walks close behind me to make sure I don't slip or anything. He puts me in the car and we rush off to the hospital.

When we get there, Cato tells me to wait and rushes in to get help. I feel a stab of pain go through my stomach, and I feel like I could be dying at the point. I pass out and the last thing I see is Cato rushing to the car with a nurse and a wheelchair.

I already know what's happened before Cato has the strength to tell me. He's sitting next to me, gripping to my hand like its his lifeline. I'm laying in an ugly hospital gown that I have been in one too many times. My body hurt everywhere, and I'm drowsy form whatever they gave me.

The worst part is I know its gone. Everything that I had been praying for to not happen, happened.

The baby's gone.

"Katniss I'm so sorry." Cato chokes. I've broken his heart so many times. I'm sure this killed him. I look away, because I know I cant take it. "The doctor said there was nothing we could have done, and nothing you did caused it. It's one of those fucked up things that isn't fair."

But there's nothing he an say or do that will replace the hole in my heart. The sinking feeling in me.

I feel something being placed in my hands.

Cold and circular.

"I cant be with you anymore Katniss. We've been through so much, and i've done my best, but I cant do this anymore. I will always love you, but I cant be with you. All the odds have been against us, and this was the final thing for me. I'm sorry." He stands up and makes his way to the door.

My heart breaks along with every other part of me.

Everything is gone.

Everything.