Ritsu's POV

"I can't be here"

She's coming...She's coming...She's coming...I silently begin to rock back and forth on the balls of my feet while sitting in a small corner of the room. I hear her. I know she's not here, but I still can hear her voice. I hear her laugh, and I envision the evil smirk that drifts upon her face. I remember the day she asked me to do the 'deed' to Haruhi.

I am sitting in my family's dojo going over some drills with some of my clan members. I am currently showing the class a new technique used to stun your opponent, but no one seems to know how to do it. I'm teaching until my phone started to ring in my pocket, I quickly dug it out, and answered, "Hello?"

"Hi Kasanoda do you remember me?" the voice on the other end says.

That voice is very familiar, but I can't seem to place the voice to a face. I think and think, but nothing really comes to mind. I ask, "I'm sorry, but I really can't think of it right now. Who are you?"

"I'm surprised you don't remember me red-head. Since I saved your family from a financial crisis a few years back."

Suddenly a face comes to mind. I instantly attach the voice to one of the members of the Yuki family. The Yuki family has a lot of power in the Japanese mob, mainly through paying a certain amount to ensure the Yuki family's protection. Most mobster families have made deals through various members of the Yuki family, but my own family made a deal with them a few years back.

In this deal, we asked the Yuki family to give us money to bring us out of debt, but in return we were to swear our services to the Yuki family. Which basically means we are the protectors and providers to the all-powerful Yuki family.

"Am I speaking with Bella Yuki?" I ask, sounding a little concerned because I wasn't expecting a sudden call like this.

"Yes you are detective. Now I wanted to ask you for a favor." she states, clearing her throat.

"Yes, go on"

She begins, "Well do you remember Haruhi Fujioka, the girl from your high school?"

I feel myself get anxious, "Yes, but what about her?"

"Well I want you to..." she continues on with her devious plan, and I feel myself pale as she grows more in detail.

"So how bout it?" she asks a little too enthusiastically.

I respond shocked, "B-but I mean, yeah I used to have a crush on her. B-but I never thought of doing that to her. I don't really want to do that to Fujioka."

Soon Bella begins to give me reasons why I should do this for her like "She'll love you afterwards" and "It will keep those stupid host club boys away". I slowly begin to feel myself leaning towards this plan. Maybe it will be a good thing for both me and Fujioka? I mean I did always want to be with her, maybe this will just push things along?

Bella finally adds at the end, "Oh and if you don't do this, you know what my family will do to yours."

I feel myself sweat-drop, Bella can destroy my family's name in a heartbeat. Her power compared to mine is astronomical, nothing can bring her down. I remember a childhood friend of mine had to stay in my house for a couple of weeks, because an 'unknown' arsonist burned down his home. This incident just so happen to occur directly after the family refused to follow the Yuki's demands. This incident was simply labeled as a coincidence, but that's not what I think happened.

"Can you at least tell me a reason why you want to do this to Fujioka?" I ask, because I don't see what Bella really has to gain from any of this.

I hear her laugh on the other end of the line, "She stole something from me, and now I will steal something of hers." Suddenly the line is cut-off, I am officially involved in this plan, there's no going back now.

I cry out in anger at how stupid I was. Why did I ever agree to go along with Bella's stupid plan? I was used like a tool for Bella, and with me Bella was able to harm the one I loved. Now this poor innocent girl is pregnant with children that have a good for nothing dad like me. I'll probably never get to see my children, but I don't really mind that. I feel sorry for not being there for Haruhi, but I know Kyoya will support her and the kids. I have no reason for existence.

I am not smart. I am not helpful. I only cause pain, and I only cause suffering. My entire life people were afraid of me. Ever since the day I was born, people would take one look at my hideous face, and quickly flee away in absolute terror. Until I met her.

She never ran away from me. She only showed me kindness. I hurt her. I hurt the only person who accepted who I am. Do I really deserve to live as a human being? What kind of person hurts someone he loves just for his own personal gain?

I sit there quickly in my small, cold, dark cell, and I begin to cry. I cry for my loss of love, children, and happiness. All these things that I could of had, but I was too selfish and I ended up destroying it instead. I suddenly get a brilliant idea in my head, and I slowly put my idea to action.

I go into some form of hysteria, where I am crying yet laughing at the same time. All of my emotions are colliding together into one huge mess of feelings, but I really just do not care anymore. I grab my bed sheets, and I slowly begin to rip them into 2 long pieces. With my pieces of material, I form my salvation, and with one last good knot. I let myself go, and slowly my laughing and sobs quiet down, and soon I am silent. I am no more.


Sorry ... I killed him off too... I figured I wanted to give a little background to Kasanoda, and his side of the incident. I really also wanted Bella as my main villain, so Kasanoda was kinda portrayed as a bad guy; but he really wasn't. Anyways tell me what you think! I always enjoy reading ur reviews. They are always super entertaining to read! Expect another update soon, but I really don't know when...sorry no specific dates yet... As always THANKS 4 READING!