Lara's POV

I've known Dean most of my life and I have never seen him sleep this well. He is out like a light and he has hardly moved since we went to sleep last night. Sleeping for me has always been a battle but here my dreams aren't haunted. No the first night here I dreamt about Jensen and Olivia's wedding and last night I had a dream about their honeymoon, or more to the fact, the flight to take them there. Jensen is apparently not afraid of flying and they joined the mile high club.

Last night I did sleep well but around 8 am I woke up and had to go the bathroom. I carefully detangled myself from Dean and once I was done came back into the bedroom. I could tell I was awake for the day so I went out the kitchen to prep some stuff for breakfast later. After I had the biscuit batter made and got things ready for the gravy I decided to go back to the bedroom. I looked through my bedside table planning on finding a book to read but instead I found a journal. I know journals are private but if I have to pretend to be Olivia the rest of the time I am here I could deal with any insight I can get.

Getting back into bed with Dean was easy. The moment I got back under the covers and propped up on a pillow he rolled back over and buried his head into my side and threw his arm over my stomach. It makes me wish more than anything that I had this life. I am so in love with him and I'll never have this. I'll never have him.

The journal starts around a month before Jared, Liv, and their mom come up to Canada. She talks about how excited she is for her brother to be getting a starring role in a new tv show and how she isn't sure what she wants to do now that she is graduated. She talks about not wanting to go to college because what she really wants to do is own her own ranch. Her mom and dad's best friends own a ranch the next town over that apparently Liv is in love with. It has a river going through it and some slight rolling hills. The ranch house apparently looks like the Windsor castle of log cabins. Her dream is to raise horses while her husband deals with the cattle. I guess right now it's just a cattle farm but in her mind she's already decided where the horse barn would go. She drew a map of how she would lay out the property for the horses and the kinds she wants to breed. I don't really understand much about what she is talking about but she seems to really love it. I guess acting wasn't her first passion. After the show she could maybe have that though.

I really enjoy reading about her falling in love with Jensen. Her first entry with him in it is just like Beth, my Jo look alike, describes it.

Dear Journal,

Today was it. I meet the love of my life today. Ok so maybe I am being a bit of a drama queen but I could just tell. We got in last night from Texas and mom and I took Jared in to his first day on set. They still had some spots to fill and wanted both the boys in to test read with them. When we got there Jared went off to talk to his costar while mom and I sat in the back.

The room was so crowded but the moment I locked eyes with him it felt like we were the only two in the room. I didn't know who he was at first. I saw him talking to Jared and he just stopped talking and locked eyes with me. My heart stopped beating and beat faster all at once. He then started to actually walk over to me.

When we started talking it felt like we knew each other our whole lives. Before I knew what was happening Jared's boss came over and gave me a script and had me read the part for Lara Maywin. Next thing I know I am getting hired to play her. I never thought about being an actress like my brother has since I can remember but this job will let me be near Jensen everyday so I don't care what it is.

The whole scene puts a smile on my face. I like to hear about some version of me being so happy. Jared, Jensen, and Liv move into a three bedroom apartment here in Vancouver since they aren't sure if the show is going to take off.

If she loves him even half has much as I love Dean then they will last forever. I can't think like that. He will never be with me. He has known me since I was 5 years old and he could never love me like Jensen loves Olivia. They met old enough to be together. Maybe if I had meet Dean last year on a hunt he could love me but I didn't. At the same time though I would never trade the years I had with him. He was my best friend, my hunting partner, and I wish my lover. I get to the point in her journal when they have sex for the first time. For just a moment I feel like I should skip over it but I don't.

Dear Journal,

Last night Jensen and I made love for the first time. He knew I was a virgin and he was so gentle that even thinking about it now makes me feel warm and tingly. I always told Beth that I was saving myself for my soul mate. I knew the moment that I meet Jensen he was it for me. Has you know a few weeks ago Jensen and I told each other we know we are soul mates and he said he loved me then...we made out all night.

Last night Jared went out with one of his many girl friends leaving Jensen and I alone. We called for carry out and had a candle lit meal. After dinner he poured us champagne and drew me a bath. After my bath I came into my room to see it covered in candles and rose petals. Jensen was smiling and told me that he loved me and that he wanted to spend forever with me.

I have been nervous about this moment since my girl friends started to lose their virginity. I have been told by numerous friends that this is painful and never good the first time. We made out for what felt like hours and he brought foreplay to a whole new level. By the time he entered me I was more than ready. I can't even explain how amazing it was. I can' wait to spend forever with him have sex with him every day and every night.

I keep reading about how they fall even deeper in love and start to date without telling Jared or anyone else for that matter. I guess they are extremely worried about the age difference. Jensen is pretty sure Jared, Dylan, and Liv's dad are going to kill him. One of the most ridiculous entries is when the shit does hit the fan.

Dear Journal,

I know if you could be you would be saying I told you so bitch! God this is not good. I think they are going to kill him. I guess I am a bit ahead of myself since I haven't written to you in a few days. So last night Jared went out, like he does most nights (insert eye roll because he has random sex with women all the time and I can't have monogamous sex with Jensen.) and like normal he wants Jensen to go out but Jen says he's just to tired and wants to stay home. The moment Jared shuts the door and I hear the lock click I jump and wrap my legs around him and demand he takes me to bed.

So normally we are really careful about going back to our own beds when we are done but well for whatever reason that night it was just so much more than normal. We truly made love and connected on some other plane so the idea of going back to my own bed was physically painful. I promised Jensen I would wake up in a bit and head to my own bed but I drifted off.

Next thing I know Jensen is getting ripped out of my arms and flung on the floor and Jared is pounding his fists into his face. I get wrapped up in a sheet and try to pull Jared off him but he just won't stop. So I grab a book off Jensen's bedside table and throw it at the back of Jared head. That seems to stop him for a moment and he looks at me. "What the fuck is going on here?!" He yells at me.

"I love him Jared and he loves me." I knell down and try to take care of Jensen. He is going to have a black eye and his lip is split. His nose might be broken or it's just bleeding like a hydrant. Jared got in a few good shots.

Jared then storms out of the apartment and we don't see him till today when he comes back with Dylan, dad, and mom. I have very little say in the matter and Dylan, Jared, and dad take Jensen out of the apartment. Mom has been trying to calm me down for the last hour and I told her all about Jensen and me and how happy we are. Mom just has this I knew it look on her face and she takes it all really well. I just want him to come back to me, unharmed. I have tried all their phones but they go straight to voice mail. I just want him back.

Hey Journal it's me again. I just wanted to let you know that he came back about an hour ago. They were all roaring drunk and must have called Chad to pick them all up because they came stumbling back into our apartment with a very sober Chad ushering them in. Jensen has a split lip and his other eye is black now too. He said that he can't tell me what happened between the men because they made a deal and no one is talk about it ever again. He just passed out in bed with me and surprisingly no one threw a shit fit when he crawled into my bed and not his. So I guess things are alright now...?

I know Sam very well so I can imagine what Jared scary face looks like. I have seen pictures of Dylan and I knew John well enough to know how scary having all of them coming in steaming mad and taking Jensen out of the apartment must have been. I could see how Liv would think her family was going to kill him and bury the body. I am kinda glad that John didn't have a daughter back in my world because I think he would have been outright terrifying if someone ever hurt her. Poor Jensen...

The next few months seem to go well for them. They decide they are just going to tell family and friends that they are together. They don't want to tell the producers or announce it because they don't want the media circus that would surround it. Nor do that they want some stupid nick name like Bradgelina... not that I can blame them. Then comes the proposal. It is not the way I would have imagined it went. Not in this world where everything seems to perfect. It seems like something that would happen in my world. I can't imagine me has Lara getting to have a wonderful and romantic proposal which is what I imaged for Liv. It happened the same night that in my world Dean and I got hit by the semi truck and died temporarily until Gabriel found a way to bring us back. It's also the night John died in our world.

Dear Journal,

Last night was the best and worst night of my life. Jensen and Jared went out for their brodinner. Since we got together Jared insisted on having one meal a month with just Jensen, his best friend, and one meal a month with just me. After 11 I started to get worried. I knew they were just going to get burgers and they should have been back 2 hours before. I kept trying their phones but no one picked up.

Around midnight Jared finally called and told me that they had gotten in a horrible crash and that he just woke up and Jensen was still in surgery. I didn't even have time to think before I was running downstairs to grab a cab to get me to the hospital.

When I got there Jensen was out of surgery and in recovery. The doctors weren't sure if he would suffer and brain damage and were waiting to see how he was when he woke up. I sat in the room holding his hand and praying for him to wake up all night.

Around 6 am he finally woke up. His green eyes meet mine and he broke into a weak smile. "Liv." He sighed out and I fell on him crying. He was awake and he seems alright. He hugged me back has best he good and then asked me to get his jacket. The nurses folded all the clothes he came in with and put them on a chair near the end of the bed. I give him the jacked and he digs through the pockets and pulls out a small box.

He smiles at me and says. "I know this isn't the way I thought it would go but after last night I can't wait for the perfect moment. I am so in love with you Liv that it hurts to be away from you. I can only see myself with you for the rest of our lives. Will you marry me?"

Of course I said yes and he slipped the ring on my finger and we cuddled on the hospital bed the rest of the morning. It may not have been the perfect moment he planned on but it was the perfect moment.

That is more like the proposal I would see me having. If I was ever lucky enough that Dean would want to marry me. I can't believe that the same night we almost died they got in an accident too. They got lucky. They didn't have an archangel working to bring them back in their world.

I am so wrapped up on their world that I don't notice Dean waking up at first. I am almost to now in her journal and I feel like I have a better understanding of who she is and who they are together. I am not has nervous about going to the interview today. Dean stretches out and his arm flings over my abdomen and pulls me closer to him. He splays his hand out lovingly over my stomach and rubs his finger tips over the baby. I love him touching me even though I know once he wakes up fully and knows what he is doing he will stop. I enjoy it for a few more minutes when Dean finally comes to and pushes back gently and gives me a big goofy grin. "I haven't slept this good in years. I like it over here." I smile back at him.

"I know what you mean. I haven't had a nightmare since we've been here. I have spent most nights dreaming about memories of Liv's." Dean starts to sit up and shakes his head. "Yeah me to. I think I have a good read on their life. Have you been up long?"

The clock next to the bed says 11 am. "Wow yeah I guess I have been. I got up around 8 and found Liv's journal. I wanted to know what I could about her before the interview today."

Dean turns around and looks at the journal in my lap. "Anything I need to know?" He asks me. We both have to answer correct today. "Well just like Beth said in the dvd they feel in love right away. The first time Jared found about them he punched Jensen in the face and called his brother and dad up. Liv doesn't know what happened between them that night but they all came back drunk and Jensen had a black eye. Liv has always wanted to own some ranch near her childhood home. Oh and Jensen proposed to her the day after he woke up from a car accident the same day in our world that we had that accident, you know after Matt and everything." I still don't want to talk about what happened with Matt. It hurts to much. Dean pulls me into a hug knowing that just saying his name hurts.

"Well why don't we get up and have some breakfast and I guess get ready to head over to the interview." I get out of bed and put on a silk robe. "I started breakfast already. Why don't you take a shower. By the time you are done so should breakfast."

Working in the kitchen just feels natural to me. Regardless of it's at the Roadhouse, my apartment, a motel, or apparently another universe. I remember what Jared said yesterday about Liv not being able to cook but I don't care. I very rarely get to cook in a nice kitchen and I am going to enjoy it. I run back to the bedroom while the gravy is simmering and I hear Dean singing off key in the shower. I grab Liv's journal and bring it back to the kitchen with me. I will leave her with some easy recipes before I go so I know she'll be able to feed her family.

Dear Liv,

I know this sounds crazy but well I don't know how to put it but this is Lara Maywin. You may know me since you play my life on tv. I don't know where Balthazar sent you but he sent Dean and me here to be safe for a week. I will try to keep you posted on what we do here so when you come back it's not too confusing. I know you might not believe me and you might decide you have had a breakdown but talk to Jensen. I bet just like you he will agree he hasn't been in his body for the last week. I swear to you that I will keep your little life safe in you while I am here. I won't let anything happen to the baby. I will eat healthy and take all the vitamins that you doctor wants me to take. I passed out a few minutes after coming here and Chad made me go to your doctor. She said everything was fine and gave us another picture of the baby. The next time you go you can find out the gender. I didn't want to make that decision for you. We also went to your first birthing class. Don't worry you didn't miss much. I m going write down a few recipes for you so that you can start to learn how to cook. I hope you and Jensen have been somewhere safe while we've been here. I am sorry for interrupting your life.

Lara

There is noise at the front door and I slam the journal shut and whip around to see Chad coming into the room with a coffee cup and a few newspapers under his arm. He places them on the counter and motions towards the stove. "What's that?" He asks.

"It's breakfast. I have the biscuits baking and the sausage gravy will be done in a few minutes. Jen is showering and will be out in a few minutes. Can I borrow your papers?" I ask him. He smiles and hands them over. I quickly look through them like I would at home. There isn't any strange mystery deaths or anything in them. Maybe those things don't exist here.

A pair of warm hands grab my waist and pulls me into a warm body. I relax and smile knowing it's just Dean. "Breakfast looks great baby. Do you want to eat then take your shower? We have that interview today." I shake my head and just relax in his embrace. He moves the hair off my neck and kisses me softly down to my shoulders. I know this is an act but it feels so good.

"Damn something smells good over!" Jared calls out from the front door has he makes his way to the counter in the kitchen and pulls out a stool. "I guess you weren't kidding when you said you were learning to cook Liv. It's about time!"

I act put out and frown at him but Jared laughs at me and Dean kisses my temple. "I think you are perfect just the way you are." Jared makes fake gagging sounds and I plate everyone's breakfast and hand it out. I go to grab a cup of coffee when Chad jumps up and lightly hits my hand. "You know what the doctor said Liv! No coffee! You can make yourself a cup of herbal tea though." I moan in frustration but I promised Liv I would take care of her baby.

Dean gives me a hug and pours his coffee out. "If you can't have any I won't either." He whispers into my ear. The feel of his breath on my ears make me tingle. "Thanks but you don't have too. I know you love your coffee."

Jared and Chad are both watching us now. Dean spins me around and kisses me softly. "But I love you more." I smile at him and I can feel tears creeping into the corners of my eyes. Stupid hormones! Dean brings his thumbs to my eyes and whips the tears away. "Why don't you go get ready love." I shake my head and stand on my toes and kiss his lips, lingering a bit longer then I should, and pull away and head back to our room.

Getting ready is more difficult than it should be. First of all due to my new found pregnancy hormones Dean's little stunt in the kitchen has me incredibly horny and there is nothing I can do about it. I get showered fast trying to think of anything but his lips on mine and come out in a towel and rip through my closet. After about 5 minutes I yell out to Chad. "What should I wear?"

Chad is chuckling and comes into the bedroom and doesn't seem fazed that I am just in a towel. "It doesn't matter Liv. If they want to do a photo shoot they will dress you." He digs through my closet and pulls out a loose gold sweater that feels softer than anything I have ever owned and a tank to go underneath. He goes right to my jean drawer and pulls a pair out and throws them on the bed. He finishes it up with my cowboy boots and a leather jacket. "That should hide your bump enough. When you're ready come out and we'll go."

Before I know it we are all in what must be Chad's car because it's an old Honda unlike the Mercedes we drove yesterday. Apparently Jared was suppose to drive us in his car but he claims he's to hung over to drive. Jared is up front while Dean and I are in the back. He pulls me across the bench seat and puts his arm around me and kisses the top of my head. Chad reminds me to put my wedding rings in my pocket and Dean puts his on his other hand before we are dropped off.

We pull up at an office building and Chad drops the car off with valet and well all head to the elevator. When we get up there an assistant explains to us that they are going to interview Jared then Jensen, then Olivia, then everyone. I grab on to Dean and shake my head no. I really don't want us being interviewed separately. It's not good for our cover. Dean grabs Chad and whispers something to him and Chad goes to talk to the assistant. In a few minutes he comes back and tells us that we can be interviewed together.

Jared goes first and Dean and I sit nervously off to the side while they set up. I can see a photo shoot set up behind the interviewer and cringe at the idea of having to do one. Chad tries to keep us entertained but I am feeling tired all of a sudden and my stomach is feeling sick. I rub my belly absently until Dean places his hand over mine and smiles. He leans in and whispers. "Don't be nervous. We will try to guide the interview to stuff we know." Then he kisses my temple. I blush and relax in my seat. Before we go in Chad reminds us that we interviewed with this man last year and his name is Bryan.

Way to soon Jared is done and the assistant brings another chair over and motions for us. Once we sit down I am hit with a pungent smell and notice there is a food table set up near us. I just try to ignore it. "Hello Jensen and Olivia. It's nice to see you guys again. It's been awhile since our last interview." He extends his hand and we do the polite thing and shake it. "So how is this season going for you both and your characters?"

My stomach starts to flip and I will it to stop and Dean starts to try and answer. "Um... well.. this is a really emotional season to film... um you well ... you know with the demon thing and everything." The man gives a confused look. I guess we are usually better at this. I start to rub my stomach hoping to calm it.

"How is it playing a man who just sold his soul to save his brother's life and knows he only has a year to live?" Dean tenses next to me and on instinct I reach across and grab his hand and squeeze it. He should not have to talk about this with this stranger. He will hardly talk about it to me. I feel my stomach start to rebel and I gag slightly.

Dean jumps out of his seat and is in front of me in an instant. "Are you alright Lara?" He asks quietly. I shake my head no. "The food table. It's making me..." I don't finish it and I start to throw up. Dean's hunter reflexes kick in and he has a trash can for me to throw up in before I even start. I finish and lean back in my seat. Chad and Jared both have jumped up and are standing behind my chair but I know that Dean will take care of it.

"Can you get me a ginger ale?" Dean asks one of the stage hands quickly. They shake their head and come back in a minute with a ginger ale and wet rag. Dean wipes off my forehead and gives me the ginger ale to sip on then looks back at a confused Bryan. "Can you move the food table it's making her sick."

Bryan starts to bark out orders and the table is quickly moved. He keeps giving me nervous glances. "Are you alright Olivia?" He asks me.

Before my brain can catch up with my mouth I respond. "I'm fine I'm just pregnant." Then it dawns on me. Jensen and Liv are keeping this a secret. Well fuck! Chad and Jared both let out gasps behind me and I mentally hit myself. Great just two days has Liv and I have ruined their biggest secret. Bryan sits back with a shocked look on his face and Dean just smirks at me. No use pretending I didn't just say it. "Bryan when will this article run?"

"It's due out next week." He responds. I shake my head and think for a moment. "Ok so here's the deal. I will tell you everything but I need you to wait till at least Sunday. My parents are coming this weekend and we are waiting to tell them about the baby in person." I reach over and grab Dean's hand. "Just like we did with Jensen's parents."

That gets a response from Bryan. He sits up straighter in his seat and while he is adjusting himself I grab the rings out of my pocket and put them back on my ring finger. Dean does the same thing with his. "Jensen and I have been married for over a year now and we are expecting our first child. I am 4 months pregnant." Sorry Liv I think to myself.

Bryan starts to write things down and he looks back up at us. "So why the secrecy? Every time someone asks you both about your romantic life you always refuse to talk about it."

Dean squeezes me hand . I know he's going to answer. "We have been worried that people would assume the only reason we are together is because of the show but that's not it. The moment I saw her come onto the set I knew she was it for me. She didn't have a part yet and she wasn't going to be auditioning either. It was love at first sight. We both felt it and knew we had meet our soul mate. The directors picked up on our chemistry. We just didn't want people to turn something beautiful into a circus." I think he did good hitting all the points that Jensen and Liv would want us too.

I pull on Dean's hand and he leans over and gives me a soft kiss. "I know it's true love because he gave up coffee today for me since I can't have any since I'm pregnant." I say with a laugh. Bryan chuckles and writes that down.

"So how has it been filming the last few years dating and being married. I mean sometimes they have you guys in pretty precarious scenes. I mean just recently the episode aired where Dean slept with a bartender in the back of the car. Even if he couldn't well... you know perform.." Bryan says with a laugh. I mentally mark that to talk to Dean about later. "You still had to watch your husband in the back of the car."

For a moment I want to yell at the interviewer about talking about our private life but I take a deep breath. This isn't our private life. Our life is a tv show and Bryan doesn't know that the incident he is talking about actually broke my heart. "It was a bit rough but I know that Jensen loves me and that was just him acting." I remember reading about that day in Liv's journal. After the shoot Liv took Jensen back to their trailer and emphasized to him whose man he really is. I can feel my cheeks start to blush. They have quite an active and rigorous sex life.

"How about the season 3 opener when you both almost had a threesome with Lust. That must have been a strange scene to film with your wife." He comments to Dean. When we hunt we just to slip into roles and just like there Dean slips into his role has Jensen here flawlessly. "Oh that was a fun scene to film. I got paid to make out with my gorgeous wife. Not many people get paid to do their favorite thing." Dean says and turns to me and winks.

Bryan chuckles has he flips through some pages of his notes and looks up at us again. "How was it filming the season finale for season 1 then? To the viewer the scene where Lara is being sexually assaulted by ummm... the character Matt seemed very real. I know I felt sick just watching it at home. Was that hard for you to watch Jensen?"

My eyes start to prickle. Damn hormones, I still have a hard time talking about that moment with Dean in the real world. I don't want to talk to a stranger about it. Dean puts his arm around me knowing this is difficult. "It was extremely difficult." Dean looks at me and I calm myself in his green eyes. "I don't wish it on anyone that they would ever have to see the love of their life get attacked like that. It was incredibly painful knowing there was nothing I could do."

I keep my eyes locked on Dean's. He is trying to send me comfort right now. He leans over and kisses my forehead. I rest my head on his shoulder and look at the interviewer. "I know that it was a tv scene but it felt real for a bit. If Jensen hadn't been in the scene with me I don't think I would have survived it." I think that should give the interviewer what he needs but I hope Dean knows how much him being there saved me.

We keep talking for a bit about more mundane things. Mostly about Liv and Jensen's life. We talk about how Jensen proposed, where we had our honeymoon, normal domestic things. Then what has happened to Lara and Dean in the show. Bryan decides he does want to do a photo shoot but totally changes it from his original idea. I guess they were going to dress us all up like our characters and do some dark supernatural based shoot. But instead they do a family setting. It's nice and relaxing. I think holding a gun and pretending to be me would not have been quite has relaxing. By the time the interview and photo shoot is over I am exhausted. We all get back into the car and head home. Jared is all giggles and it's kind of freaking me out. He's so different then Sam. Chad meets my gaze in the rearview mirror. "That was unexpected but I am very proud of you both. You did a great job back there. I am glad you guys have decided to stop hiding your relationship and come out with it." I smile at him and Dean pus his arm around me and pulls me back into him. "Yeah it really is for the best." Dean responds.

"Do you guys still want to go look for a new car today?" Chad asks us both. I give Dean a confused look. I don't remember us talking about that before. "I know you guys are worried that the Mercedes convertible is not a family friendly vehicle and wanted to go look at Audi Q5 I believe. We talked about going today."

I look up at Dean and shake my head. I am just to tired right now. "How about if we drop Liv off to take a nap and we can go take a look." Dean suggests. I relax into him. I could really use a nap. I shake my head in agreement and Chad drops us off. Jared decides to take a nap too since he plans on, and I quote, going all out tonight.

I must have been more tired than I thought. I am asleep in a matter of minutes once I get back to our bed. I'm not sure how long I have been out but I wake up to Dean moving my hair out of my eyes. "Hey Lara it's time to get up. I got them a new car today." He says with a smile. I smile back at him and we head out to the living room.

Chad has a huge smile on his face and he runs over and gives me a tight hug. "Thank you so much Liv." I hug him back but give Dean a confused look. Dean smirks and pulls me back under his arm. "Well while we were looking at getting our car that is safer for the baby I decided that Chad needed a better car too. I assumed he would have our baby in his car at one point so we got him a new one that is safer."

"That's perfect!" I agree and give Dean a hug. "I would have to agree that more than likely you will be carting our baby around at some point and it makes me feel much better that our little peanut will be safer with you." I can't help but touch my stomach when I talk about the baby.

"Thank you both. Don't worry. I will make sure to take care of the baby like it was my own. Now you guys need to get changed. Jared has already gone to airport to pick everyone up. I guess Tom and Chad are coming with Allison and Kristin too." He says with an eye roll. I guess we should start to get ready.

"Where are they staying?" Dean asks. Chad shrugs his shoulders. "I guess they are staying in your alls apartments. You guys have a the guest room and the sofa because you have cleared out the other guest room for the nursery. By the way Jensen your mom called with ideas for the nursery. She said she has mailed you both some paint swatches and a cute print she found. I think it's cute that you are having both moms help with one of the two nurseries."

It seems like we are missing something. This is the unfortunate part of not really knowing what's going on. These names seem like names we should know but for all I know they are just Jared's friends.

Dean and I head back into our bedroom and try and find outfits for the night that is something our counterparts would wear. "Dean can I ask you something?" I start while I am going through our closet pulling out a blue sweater dress. It will be a bit tight but I don't mind showing off the bump a bit. "Yeah what's up?"

"Is what Bryan said true?" I ask him. Dean gives me a confused look. "What he said about you and that bartender. That you weren't actually able to you know."

His face turns bright red. It's rare I get to see him blush. "It's umm.. well..." He starts to rub the back of his neck and I can tell this is an uncomfortable conversation for him. "Ok so yeah I did sleep with her but I wasn't able to you know... I just felt guilty and I knew it was wrong."

What he is expecting my response to be isn't sure but I know it wasn't me giving him a hug. "Why didn't you tell me?"

He shrugs his shoulder. "I still did it. I doubted it would matter if I actually was able to or not. I just didn't want to sound like I was making excuses." I hold him tighter for a moment. "It does make a difference." I respond quietly.

Before he can respond there is a loud commotion in the living room. We both lay the clothes we picked out on the bed and head out to the living room. "Jensen! Liv!" A tall brunette man shouts from the front door. I see a smaller blonde man behind him and two girls peaking through. One has a long dark brown hair and another has a short blonde bob cut. The man makes it over to us and gives us both a hug. I think I recognize him from the wedding photos. He was one of Jensen's groomsmen. I am not totally comfortable with a strange man hugging me especially after Bryan opening up the Matt wound, but he does seem kind. "It's great to see you guys. I can't believe it's been almost 4 months since we have all hung out."

Jared comes in to the room holding more suitcases and the girls file in and wave at me awkwardly. "I figured Tom could take the guest room over here and Chad can take one at my place and ladies if your good you can share one at my place."

The brunette female seems a bit agitated. "I thought you said there were two guest rooms in both apartments." Jared laughs off her attitude. I guess her being a bitch is normal. "Well Liv and Jensen had to clean out the guest room over here to paint." He says with a smirk.

I move to usher everyone to sit down . I assume these are our close friends but I really don't know. Once they sit down Dean drops his arm around my shoulder. "Well we needed to do more than paint. Liv's pregnant and we are working on a nursery."

The two men jump up and give us hugs and the blonde girl gives me a weak hug saying congratulations but the brunette stands back. I don't like her. I find out the tall dark haired man is Tom and he seems over the moon for Jensen and Liv. I get the feeling he is closer with them while the other three are closer to Jared. "Well we should get ready to go out." Jared tells us.

"I really don't want to share a bed with Allison." I assume Kristin responds. Jared rolls his eyes at her. "Well then you can stay on the couch bed at Liv's and Jensen's then." I don't think that was the response she was hoping for and Jared drops what must be her bag on to the sofa.

We go back to our room and put on the clothes we laid out. "This should be fun." I say with a sarcastic laugh. Dean snickers in agreement. "Just a few hours. At least we can tell them we need to go to bed early because of the baby." Well that's a good thing at least.

Once I have my clothes I head into the bathroom and quickly change. I put on the blue dress that accentuates the baby bump a bit. I can't see myself ever having a baby in my world because the only man I would ever want to have one with is Dean so I decide to just enjoy this one time feeling. I put on makeup just like Jess taught me. There's a bottle of perfume that says Still on the label and I spray on a bit and head back to the bedroom to get my shoes. Dean is standing changed into a pair of dark blue jeans, a gray under shirt, and a green over shirt. "You look great." We both say at the same time. We both smile and Dean helps me get my leather jacket on. At least I like Liv's fashion sense. I slip on a pair of high heels and head out to the living room. Everyone else is standing in our living room ready. I can't help but notice that Kristin is wearing a really tight and revealing red dress. She gives Dean or I guess Jensen quite the look. I'm not sure if he notices though.

Tom and the new Chad make a big deal about how cute my stomach looks in the much tighter dress and rub it. I try not to get agitated and just remember that these people are Liv's friends, so I can't break their hand for touching me.

Before we can leave Chad pulls me aside. "I called ahead and there is sparkling apple cider there for you." I smile at him and give him a tight hug. I wish we had him has a friend back at home. "Thanks. You want to come out with us?" Chad looks at the group in front of me and shakes his head no.

The cars are pulled out front including what must be our new family friendly Audi. Dean and I get into that and Kristin and Allison get in with us, almost pushing Tom and I guess another Chad over for it. Jared has a BMW behind us for the rest of them. At least his car will have enough room to take them all back home if we leave early.

The bar isn't smoky and Jared gives me a wink when he points at the no smoking sign. At least he was thoughtful. When we get inside I notice a lot of others from the cast and crew from the show. Some I recognize from the day we were there some I recognize because they are someone to me back in my world. Uncle Gabe and Uncle Cas are both drinking a beer with a girl under their arms and smile when we all come in. It's weird seeing them like this. Balthazar is doing a shot with someone I kind of remember from the set.

Dean and I had found a card already sealed for Jared so I just hope there is a gift in it. I pull it out of my bag and put it on the gift table. "Do you want a drink?" Dean asks me pulling me to the bar. "Chad said he has some apple cider here for me."

We get to the bar and Dean waves at the bartender. "Two of the sparkling apple ciders please." I grab Dean's arm and shake my head no. "How often do you get to drink the good stuff?" He gives me a sheepish smile. "You already gave up coffee for me so you might has well enjoy tonight. I will drive us home." I look to the bartender and tell him. "I'll have the sparkling apple cider he'll take a woodford reserve on ice." Dean beams at me and kisses my forehead.

I grab a food menu and look over it quickly and hand it back to the bartender. "Can I also get the potato skins and the brownie sundae with ranch, sour cream, and chocolate sauce on the side?" His eyes widen and he agrees and puts the order through. Dean laughs at me has he pulls his drink to his lips. He lets out a happy sigh. "Jesus this is good ."

One of the girls orders a margarita and once I smell the tequila I feel my stomach rebel. "I'll be right back." I tell Dean and run to the bathroom. I make there just in time to puke and when I am done I stand up and lean against the stall wall.

Two girls come in and they must not notice I am here because they talk bluntly. I look through the cracks and see it's Kristin and Allsion. "I don't get what he sees in her Allison. I mean he was mine first." The brunette named Kristin sneers. "We were onset together for a year and we played around a bit and we were suppose to see each other once he started this stupid show but once she came into the picture he just disappeared!"

"Well he did get married Kristin. Maybe it's time to chalk this one up to failure." She tells her putting on fresh lip gloss. Kristin snickers. "I worked hard on him and I'll get him back. I don't care if some Texas slut got a ring. Jensen was mine first."

Oh no she didn't! I am going to help Liv out on this one. I slam the door open and I catch reflection in the mirror, I look pissed! I pretend that she just said all of that about Dean to get myself angry enough to scare the shit of our her. "I don't know how they do it where you are from but from where I am from we don't take to kindly to sluts talking about our husbands."

Allison looks shocked and the shock on Kristin's face turns to arrogance. "Oh what so you play a big bad hunter on tv and you want me to be afraid of you?"

My instincts just kick in. I wrap my foot around her leg making her fall forward, wrapping her hair in my hands giving me complete control of her head, and grab her arm in a police hold. I stop her face half an inch from slamming it into the sink and rip her arm up to the point where I know it is killing her but isn't ripping the muscles. "They still had to train me to be a big bad hunter on tv bitch. And just so you know it's harder not to slam your face into the sink and rip your arm out of the socket then it is to just about do it. If we have to have this conversation again I will take the easy way out."

Before she can respond I drop her arm pull her up and throw her against the wall and head out of the bathroom. I hope that makes up for blowing the marriage cover Liv. I doubt that bitch will ever come on to your man again.

Back at the bar Dean is laughing with my Uncle Cas and Gabe. No wait I guess they aren't my uncles here. I don't know what they are laughing about but it makes me feel good to see him smiling. He sees me and waves for me to come over. He pulls me into his side and kisses the top of my head. I don't listen to their conversation much and watch Kristin and Allison leave the bathroom. Kristin looks terrified. Good she should be. I chuckle and Dean looks down at me questioningly. I stand on my toes and whisper into his ear what happened in the bathroom. He laughs and pulls me closer.

My food comes out and the waiter puts it down for me and everyone gives me a hard time when I dip the potato skins in the chocolate sauce and the brownie in the ranch but I don't care it tastes good to me right now.

The rest of the night is fairly uneventful. Everyone minus me gets pretty wasted and Jared seems to have a great birthday. Tom decided to stay sober for Jared's car and at the end of the night we all pile back into the vehicles. Going home Kristin avoids my car like the plague so Chad and Jared's drunk asses pile in with us.

We get back to the apartment building and the boys are acting silly in the elevator. It's been awhile since I've seen Dean this relaxed, probably since he made his deal. I am glad he got to have a fun night. We turn the corner to our apartment and once I get the door unlocked Dean swipes me off my feet and carries me to the bedroom. "Bathroom is down the hall and help yourself to the kitchen." Dean tells Tom and Kristin over his shoulder. "I am going to go make love to my wife. See you in the morning."

He pushes the door open and slams it shut and puts me on my feet. "I thought I would help Kristin get the message that Jensen isn't interested." Dean drunkenly smiles at me. I turn him around and slam him against the wall and let out a sultry moan, just loud enough that she can hear it. "I think she just did."

For the next few hours we fake play around with each other all over the room. We make sure to be loud and obnoxious and we can't stop laughing with each other. We pepper in a few "Oh yes right there harder Jensen!" and some "oh god Liv you are so tight I can't..." I know that Kristin is on the couch listening to every last moan and I want to rub it in her face that Jensen is LIv's and Liv is Jensen's . This is the one thing I can do for her. Once we are done we both collapse into bed and look at each other with a laugh. I pull out Liv's journal and quickly leave her a message.

Dear Liv,

I am very sorry about what happened today. We went to your interview and I accidently let it slip that I was pregnant. We then told them how you and Jensen are married and how happy you both are. I am so sorry I did that. I just wasn't thinking.

We went out for Jared's birthday tonight and some girl named Kristin was talking shit about you in the bathroom saying that she had Jensen first and would get him back. I taught her quite a lesson, don't worry about her anymore I don't think she will so much has look at your husband again let alone talk about him.

Lara

"Whatcha doing?" Dean moans out has I put the journal away and turn off the light. "I am writing to Liv so she knows what we got up to in their bodies when they come back." I roll over on my side and lay my head down on the pillow.

Dean moves from his spot on his back to curled around me. "Don't you think it will freak them out." He mutters into my back. I smile at how husband like he is with me right now. I just enjoy it and soak it in. It's the only time I'll get like this with him. "It might but I think they are stronger than that." Dean doesn't respond and he is lightly snoring into my shoulder blades. He always snores a bit when he drinks too much. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep.

A/n wow that chapter got long fast. I hope you liked it.